Diary 30th September 2013

Well I was due to get my dole, however I decided against getting it today as I could get it on the way to the cinema. I haven't been down in Drumcondra for awhile now. So it'll give me an excuse alrite. hahaahha.

So with that, I headed on to sleep continuously. I had a wee bit of a dream. Nothing major to report. I had dreamt of a former friend of mine. I met him in Rosmini my former high school along with another mate of mine of whom I can't remember. We are at the cinema. heeheh. Sure where else would I be. hehehe



NEWS

Today ahead of tomorrow commencement, the new water charges were announced by the Commission for Energy Regulation. All water bills will be capped for 9 months, extended by 3months from 6months. This means that we will NOT be metered for the first nine months. It also means that it will NOT go over below charges

€176 per adult
€102 per additional adult
Children are free

2 Adults and 2 YOUNG children: €278
2 Adults and 2 OVER 18s: €483

Those with the boil water notices eg Roscommon etc., will be free. However the Waste water Service will be charged.

After the 9 months, the metering will take affect, with the following rates

Water Supply & Waste Water: €4.88 per 1,000 Ltrs
Water Supply & NO Waste Water ie You have your own Septic Tank:  €2.44 per 1,000 Ltrs

Day to Day Basis Rates ie Usage of water around the home

Flush of the toilet 0.04c(however with newer models it will be cheaper)
5 min Shower .17c, however with a  power shower it will be .60c for 5mins
Bath .39c
Washing Machine: .30c
Dish Washer: .10c

Households will be given a free allowance of 30,000 Ltrs per household. A child will be given up to 21,000 Ltr. 30,000 Ltrs equates to a shower.

If you own a second home, a Non-Primary charge will be charged at €125

Diary 29th September 2014

I had forgotten to mention that when I came home yesterday, I went to charge up my cell phone and suddenly I couldn't find my charger. As my phone came from the States as in the packaging at the very least, I couldn't find the two prongs. To date, I still can't.

So then I got up eventually. I got ready for the PDC Course. I then headed onto the Outhouse or the course. WE discussed two main topics Relationships and Boundaries.  When they were discussing the Relationships, all I could think of were the relatives who never accepted me. When I arrived, there were only 6 ppl including myself. I arrived late. Nothing knew. hahhaah


The topic was What makes a GOOD relationship

Friendships
Family
Understanding
Trust
Love
Loyalty
Boundary
Respect
Yourself
Aged Realistic
One of the class colleagues' point was of interest, we all listened with interest, in that his point was Age. That guys dress and act NOT their age. ie a 40 yr old guy acting and dressing like a 20 yr etc., He then mentioned that its actually a medical condition known as Biomorphism.

The definition of a Relationship is as follows: "Emotional connection or an involvement"

Then they drew a diagram.

Embryo/womb - Micro
Then you meet the family - Mezzo
Education/Community etc., - Exo
Bad World/Work/Internet/ etc., - Macro

Fear of a Relationship
Fear of begin hurt

WE all take advice etc., You are you. True to yourself. You're the only person who knows you.

If someone asks how are you or whatever, or how are you feeling. IT all depends on context etc., So if eg. if you mad busy, you would have to turn him down until your free, or if you know the person in question, you would have a more calmer attitude towards him.

Bottomline Everyone's different, acknowledge it. Unconditional love essential in conflict.

What are the good things in a relationship.

Mutual Respect
Good balance
Compromise
Love
Communication
Clear/Good Communication
Honest
 Confusing thoughts

Then it came to break time, on my way in I was very not as such suicidal but more so wanting to do a slice n dice on myself. Considering will be covering ourselves now for the Winter. hahaha. So wise words during the break was said to me. In the form of that I'm only punishing myself. Wise words was actually coming from Bernard himself. Here I was trottling along the street, crying me heart out, well not distressing, but any idiot on the street, would know what's up. So after such wise words, I headed in with a positive tude as in I saw Declan and David and the Brazilian guy, whom I was a bit surprised. He wasn't one bit shy but was very quick to say to us, that he doesn't introduce himself with his name. Ah well, to each is their own.

Then it was time for the Boundary part of the lesson. Which was short, considering we had less time after the break. heeeh.

So then shortly before the class finished, we were treated to Rau Puaul's(A US famous Drag Queen) track. His infamous quote being: "If you don't love yourself, how the hell can you expect to be loved". Twas most inspirational.

Diary 28th September 2014

PS Again this post contains NSFW content in the form of self harm.

Well unfortunately I regret to inform you all, that my self harm tendencies has continued today. Well after such a long hibernation, thinking sleeping would help to alleviate the urge, I got at half 6. I was due to travel along and pop along to World Vegetarian Day. I went to the event last year. It was quite impressive. This year it was in a different venue. As my depression came back like a camel on its back, I was unable to attend. So I just stayed on, however my urges got stronger and stronger.

So with the time, considering I was due to visit me sis, I got ready and showered. Its there I did my self harming. I don't do it in the traditional sense, whereby I cut veins or whatever. I literally just press down on the skin with the razor, when the pain comes, I relieve and continuing going down on it. And a little skin comes off, then I've done my deed.

So shortly before I finished up the shower, I heard Mom and sis at my door. I just ignored them. However, when I heard my Mom attempting to "breaking in" and entering(I say this LIGHTLY btw), I just had to use the towel around my little junior, and confront my Mom to prevent my door being broken into. My sis could see me getting agitated. So I told Mom to stop it. They both headed off. So as my Mom didn't help me at all, I continued my self harm before I finished completely.

So I then headed off to my sis. We discussed with my recent outbursts on Facebook and of course my Blog here. WE of course also looked at Two and A Half Men. heehheh. Truly most enjoyable, as always. ahahah


NEWS

Japans' 2nd tallest Volcano, has erupted SURPRISINGLY. At least 31 hikers are believed to have perished. Mount Entacké is the Volcano that erupted unsurprisingly. They least expected it. It erupted unexpectedly with an almighty force. It could even be seen from space.

Europe has defeated the USA for the 6th time in 7 Ryder Cups. They won by 5 points. Europe 111/2 and USA 61/2.

Diary 27th September 2014

Well today is my hibernation day. hahaha. Whoever I got up for a few hours to look at yesterday's news(Friday's) and today's news(Saturday).

I had a weird dream, more so a nonsensical one. Mom runs over a small lamppost on the road. Normally a Lamppost is several meters high, yet the one in my dream was a child like size etc., So Mom stops the car. A white coach bypasses us upon seeing us stopped in the middle of the road. Then another black car coming in the opposite direction, looks weirdly at the coach, as much to say, "aint you very impatient. Something to that affect. So Mom pulls aside and magically the car is off the road as in a few meters off the road literally, and the wheels spin round and round like as if I were on a high or something.

I did however here persistent banging and window banging. Then immediately thoughts came to mind, whit this I mean , that Frank my landlord could throw me out, and that the Folks could use this to get me out. What I'm trying to say, is that they could purposely be doing this, then Franky, gets a few calls in the form of complaints, then he comes to me, and says there have been complaints and then evicts me.

When that settled down, I continuously to this day even to repeat to myself, "I could have sworn that it'd never happen". What I'm referring to is, last Wednesday, when I went to see The Wizard of Oz(Review here), I was to meet my friend for the film at 6, however I was late in getting up. So I went ahead got my food. I said to myself, perhaps he won't be bothered in asking me for cash. Shortly after the film began, he asked if he could borrow. Says I to meself, I could have sworn, he wouldn't. And here's me thinking I got away with him asking by me being late. Not that I planned it this way. hahhaha. Well I've restricted in seeing him once a week. Thank god he paid for the iMAX itself, as its very horridly expensive even with the Unlimited Scheme. So I'm on the course of looking for NEW friends who don't tell lies to me,(The only people I tell lies to are my parents, I know that, My sister knows it, and possibly the parents themselves), But one person or groups of people i NEVER tell lies to are my FRIENDS and of course my sis. Like, why would I tell her lies. She has done so much for me, in the past. I am the most loyast person you can think of. Oh and also I will be making sure that I NEVER ask a person for money EVER. I just do with out food etc. Likewise I will be making sure that no friend ASKS me. Its no wonder I have thoughts of slicing n dicing(to the point that its invisible ONLY to my mental knowledge).

So eventually as I said above, I got up to look at yesterday's and today's news. I also checked to see if I have 7th Heaven's episodes recorded. So yanked up my lappy and checked to ensure they's in perfect quality. All's was well.

Diary 26th September 2014

Well as I had yet to sleep, I stayed up. I had gotten up at midnight. I was gonna go and see the new movie The Equalizer. Shortly thou head to the Outhouse. However I recently told a friend of mine, that I have possibly outstayed or over stayed my welcome. Ever since the Pride debacle, I have noticed an increasing amount of times the guys in the Outhouse mention it. Like get over it I say. So I just stayed in for the night. I have been watching TV.

I watched a few documentaries, current affairs programs. etc., One of them being Midday. The below are the topics that were of interest to me.

Would I micro chip myself as technology evolves. Personally I would. Would be great if I were to be in an accident or whatever, and even for security reasons, I would feel at peace. Like take for e.g, I'm at an airport, I would get scanned, then simply say go ahead, as the Security staff, would know very quickly. There are of course security concerns in terms, of you could be followed etc.,

Another topic of interest was members of the public were asked if anything has changed economy wise. Some have said that why we haven't learned anything from the collapse of the economy back in '08. Some say its as cycle. Like the Taoisieachs attitude towards women, then their is the hiring of a chronism(some are calling him this - McNulty I'm referring to) to the Seanad. etc., etc., One of the panelists made a very good point, in that whenever the govt, is fighting a legislation or whatever, they always bring up the point that the PREVIOUS administration/government brought upon us. She maintains that they will use that as an Election tactic come the next General Election. Ie they would say to the electorate or voters, that "oh we brought back the boom and the bust etc.,"

Photos of yourself and the Web. Personally I says, the minute your photo hits the phone's camera after the Shutter sound, its on the web. I've told umpteen people, if you've anything to hide then DON'T take a photo of yourself etc.,

Lending Money or Borrowing. Another worthy topic of discussion. It has been mentioned that Money does come between humans. I quite agree strongly. Its coming between my friends and myself. Thank god my sis and I are easily understandable. If she borrows anything I can ALWAYS trust her to return it to me someday EVERY cent. and hence it never gets in the way of the relationship. Whereas my friend, he borrows and borrows but NEVER has returned a single cent. This has been going on for a few years. Its no wonder I rarely accept money from people. Cause my folks in this case, use money as a guilt trip. My mother always told me to accept with gracious. How can I, if they keep stuffing the guilt trip down my throat or as my Dad would "Priories George, Priorities". I haven't spoken to either of em since last Tuesday, (now that was a different reason), but still.

NEWS

Jonathan who is adopted died with suicide and took the lives of twins Paddy and Thomas in Charleville, Cork. He struggled mentally, when he encountered red tape constantly. It has now been revealed that a letter of which Jonathan was looking for arrived two days late saying that they will open up the file and give him what he seeks. He was looking for his birth family ie his brothers and or sisters and his Mom n Dad etc.,

Michael Brown's family has received a personal apology in the form of video apology. It has sparked even more protests etc., Michael was shot dead by a white Officer in Ferguson

Diary 25th September 2014

Well, it was my intention to head to the movies to see The Giver(Review here). However, I was tired. Jinxed out. hahaha. So I slept on. I did get a visit from my Mom, however, due to her misunderstanding of the visits of the Americans ie Jim and Jane and my no show last Tuesday, I didn't answer and just stayed on. I eventually got up at midnight.

I have been looking at TV and Norway Massacre. Quite informative however. And the lack of communication that could have saved those 77 ppl. etc., etc., Then it was time for some delicious ways in how food is manufactured. etc., etc.,

In recent days, I have been going through some archival tabs ie Notifications on my sex FB in particular. I have noticed thou recently on Lappy, that when I go to save and image it literally freezes ie, literally don't do nothing. So to combat that, I have decided to use FB Mobile to deal with Pics instead of Lappy. And upload the pics from my cell.

While looking at TV after the Series such as the above ie Seconds from Disaster etc., I then started on the news. I get TV3 News from the On Demand service ie CatchUp. So while downloading, it was acting up. Don't know why??

Tech NEWS

Blackberry has launched The Passport, in a bid to get back into Profitability.

the iPhone 6 and the iPhone 6+ will be available to order in Ireland from the 25th September. It already has ran into two hitches even before its been made available. The iOS Update to iOS 8 has been withdrawn from the market as users complaint that their Bluetooth and their Network and of course the Finger Print reader had been disabled. The iPhone itself has also been marred in controversy, in that when users were having the iPhone in their pockets it would be bent ie Bend. The social media has dubbed it BendGate.

Diary 24th September 2014

Well what a day I had today. heheeh. Twas quite pleasant. Although it started negative in that I got up slightly late. I was to meet Brendan O' F for The Wizard of Oz(Review here).

We then headed to McDonalds for a grub. I had hoped they had Green Tea, but they didn't. So then I saw the dirty look the security guard was giving us. Says I to  Brendan, he's got the manners of a pig. He continuously to look so.

So then afterwards, we both headed onto our next movie, A Walk Among The Tombstone. (Review here). Then after the film, we both headed to McDonalds a different branch, as I was feeling parched from the popcorn. Making me thirsty. WE chatted for a bit. Brendan was mentioning that he is fed up with showing his mother how to work stuff, DVD Player etc., I said same as my lot. I then put it to him that could it be that she wants you to do something with your day. He then came up with a bizarr idea that could my aunty and my mom be keeping tabs on me. And that if my Aunty(Nun) were to download the app Grindr, to keep an eye on me. Well the laughter that came outta me. It was priceless alrite. haahaha. Imagine if my Aunt's as she's a NUn who lives with other nuns too, imagine if they were to have come across her Grindr App. hahaha. And come to think of it, Grindr recently have come down on the heavy of FAKE profiles. ANd its also for MEN anyways. But great laugh eitherway. hahaah. So then we both headed on off. On our way, we encountered first a crime scene on the quays. And secondly several Haulage lorrys trucks etc., hauling huge cargo. It was found in the end that they were actually VATS for the Guinness Brewery being renovated or whatever. We asked the security guy who first said Diageo(Company who owns Guinness) and then we asked a cop who smartly sarcastically saying its NASA. I knew it was total bull. I can't for the life of me, even wonder why he first thought to be sarcastic with us. Like considering Brendan did think it could have been the Metro North or whatever.

NEWS

India has made history by launching its very first space craft to Mars. It is the 4th country int he world to have done such in a whats now known as to be ever increasing in space craft launching.

A Walk Among The Tombstone

Well what to say about this particular, to be of quite interest. I was most intrigued with the plot. For once, I was able to get the plot. However half way through, I was like whats going on. I found the characters to be of MOST confusing. I was left, who is who. Why is he there etc., etc., Like why did the killers kill each other, etc., etc., The plot simply put Matt(Neeson) an ex cop, goes into Private Investigation in the Unlicensed sense, and is tasked by Kenny(Stevens) to find his wife, who is brutally we later learn has been murdered n dismembered. Some scenes(not much) were a bit disturbing I have to say. Kenny wants Matt "to bring them to me". The film was enticed around kidnapping and dismembering of women. During the investigation, Matt befriended(Kinda  strong a word - hahaha) with a grave cleaner guy. Fearing for his life, he kills himself by way of jumping off the building. As he had given information the viewer was treated to even more insight and as such some of the disturbing viewing as I said above. We then learn of how Matt became an unlicensed PI(Private Investigator) which we actually learn. It so happens because he actually missed a shot and shot an innocent girl in the eye from a distance of which is another scene we didn't need to see. Which frankly I don't understand. Technically if you leave the job or ur fired, why become an UNLICENSED PI, either apply for another job or a different field or don't bother. Don't get urself in a life of crime sort of thing. At the beginning of the film, we are treated to Matt as a LICENSED PI. He's sitting peacefully in a bar having 2 shots and a coffee. Then the barman is shot, Matt himself gets a fright like us all, haahah. This possibly is how is alcoholism started as throughout the film, we see Matt attending meetings. The main villains that we see in the film, have their faces hidden(well in the dark) and are seen driving around for women. Matt meets a young inspirational man who advertises VEGETARIANISM and possibly VEGANISM as when he;s asked in a restaurant with Matt, if he'd like a soda, TJ(Astro) tells the waitress that he'd like water, as there isn't extra stuff and ingredients etc., So Matt comes in contact with the two guys. Then a fight ensues between Matt, Kenny and the killers: Ray(Harbour) and Albert(Thompson).

Diary 23rd September 2014

PS This is an NSFW Post, ie NOT Sexual but of Self Harm content.

The day started off with a horrible dream. Which is as follows: Kathleen Doherty(Mulligan), whom I saw after several years last month, was hitting my head as in a HARD patting on the head. She later apologised but NOT profusely. Martin was hitting JP(Their son). I went onto Twitter(which is quite unusual as first, it ain't my usual ranting place and 2, the characters limit), to rant out. I was heart breaking, and crying as the same time. Even crying as I was writing tweet.

When I woke up eventually around 4ish for the dole, My sheets were wet, literally. Now how this particular dream came about more than likely was that my Dad's relatives were visiting them. I was invited up as was my sis. Now Jim(Dad's relative) knows I'm gay, I ain't sure about Jane(his wife), but this triggered the above dream. But as I explained to my sis later on today, I can't understand why I would wanna care whether Jane knows my sexuality or not. I wasn't sure of her attitude towards gay ppl or whatever. By right I shouldn't care.

So then I eventually got up from such a horrid nightmare, and set about getting my dole. I then headed into the bank to lodge the cash in. Then I went to tescos, to get milk for my sis' place. I provide my own milk. She drinks dairy. Whereas I don't. I got a few grub. I FINALLY got the blades, the yoke that are disposable. I kept forgetting to buy em.

I then showered, after a long spell of not having such. I did my bits and bobs - hahaha. I was using my new blades that are disposable. I nicked meself on my hand twice. Now while it WASN'T intentional, I have to admit, that I felt so good afterwards. While it was extremely painful, I was showering the blood off, and any blood that was left(which wasn't much), I just licked it off like Dracula(booohhahaahahah). Again it was extremely painful considering a layer of skin came off in two places on one hand.

On the way to Tescos, I then had seen Hate Crime from The Guest(Review here) and realsied what is the actual difference between Hate Crime AND Discrimination. From what I gather and understand, Hate Crime is relating to psychical and verbal, whereas Discrimination is in relation to the law and more so used in a company. Correct me if I'm wrong.

So then after the showering, I headed on off to my sis. I told her of the above ie the dream etc., When I was calling it out, I had on my phone, it read as follows: "I showered the boys off". Well the laugh I got off it. hahaah. It was something else alrite. I tell ya that bit. As she says, It certainly made me laugh. Something  I needed. heeheh. Then I suddenly realsied that by me skipping the visit of Jim and Jane, that sparked my depression a few years ago. I had moved in a few months ago in 2011. Then a few months(Oct 2011), I got into a deep state of depression over the homophobic abuse. And now it happened again today. What does that say. Could it be another depression coming along. Considering I did have thoughts of self harm alrite. I just had a few things on my mind. Partially financially. Because I didn't get up in time last Friday for Credit Union Gear Ireland sales event on Saturday then there was Lidls stuff I was to get on Monday(yesterday).



While cooking Pasta, I was wondering why it was taking an age to heat up let alone boil it. I just checked and actually had it at half the temperature for boiling. hahah.

Diary 22nd September 2014

Well today was kinda hampered. By that I had things on my mind. Mainly financially. I was wanting to get products in LIdls. But as a result of me not getting up in time for the Credit Union, I couldn't get the Gear on Saturday. Bitterly disappointed with that, and now possibly the products mainly clothes and houseware MIGHTNED be available as I hadn't the cash. For today Monday. The Credit Union ain't open on a Monday. So that's a bummer. So I just stayed on in bed. NOT realising that I was late for the PDC Course I'm currently doing. They have strict policies, whereby if I don't tell them in advanced that I'm unable to make it, TWICE, they will strike me off the course.

It was a bit of a bummer, that I was about half or so late. I apologiest to the facilitators for being late. So with that sorted, the class continued.

WE were all asked what would be our reaction if a parcel was left in your bedroom and it neatly wrapped. The majority of the group had intiatil negative thinking, however with me I had said: "Thoughtful of them". Others came up with wondering w hats' in it, who left it, etc.,

I bumped into Brendan S previous and he waited around. He went to see The Giver(Review here). So I stayed with him for awhile. Walked with him to the bus. While waiting, I encountered a black guy in a tank top. He' was so delicious. mmmm

Diary 21st September 2014

Well today, I got up slightly later than scheduled. I was due to get up for 5ish so that I could go and shower, however I went to bed too late. hahah. What's new. So then I got up later than scheduled further to 5 missed calls from me sis. And was found that my sis was telling me that Mom was on her way down to me, to find out if I were wanting to take the house ie rent it if it were to be available. This is what Mom, Dad and I were discussing on the phone last Thurs. After Seamus' wonderful meetup, I rang em back and I quote: "We have things to discuss", As it happens its that they had a payment plan for me as the Govt, wouldn't pay me my Rent Allowance for 700 a month. No question. So when Mom asked me on the phone, I said No.

So then I got up and headed off to see me sis. I didn't get to shower :(. So I just headed on off, as I got up late as in the time, I was spoz to be with my sis. Mom left us a takeout. Yet I still failed to take a pic of the takeout for to review on my blog. I keep forgetting. hahaaha. So both of us looked at Two and A Half Men for the night

As I was finishing up for the night. I was checking my notifications on FB. And it came up as "Page Not Found". Something like that. Which I kinda have been noticing this of late. A friend of mine liked a link. And that error came up. So I asked him for curiosity reasons, what it was. He replied. So I then went onto my own profile. And found that it was there. So I then rechecked the notifications itself. Low and Behold. What do I find it came back. So wtf like, right. Or as my American's would say ikr(I know Right!!!!!) ahahha.

Oh and guess who's making a come back into my life. Thou they have me surrounded etc., but they have been feeling left out ie, not showing enough LOVE. As I can't get sex from guys as a result of my Hepatitis B, I have decided to NOT BOTHER running after guys. I have my hands that do the job for me and my porn collection. BUT in terms of the ACTUAL love, yeah am actually talking about my BELOVED INFLATABLES. This came about when I was describing the love they showed me when they saved me from my suicide attempt earlier this year. So yeah LONG LIVE INFLATABLES. mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm. I'm in the process of blowing up Peppi again. heeheheeheh

I was looking at Ireland AM's 15th Anniversary celebrations. Parts of it was the Outtakes, ie Bloopers. Well theys were so funny. Splitting me sides laughing. One in particular, Alan who is one of the presenters of the show was doing the Cooking segment. He was putting his cooking on a device known as the Vibration Belt. However he called it the Vibrator. It was hilarious. Another was that Sinead and Mark(both presenters of the show) were presenting the Newspaper segment. However one of the staff members blocked Sinead's view, so that the Viewers couldn't see her BUT just Mark. However the staff member blocked again blocking BOTH. And finally Mark was finishing the show when he said "If you've just had sex..." he said the wrong word. And the laughs that came out of em. Alan, Sinead. Both of em said "Good on ya, Good on ya"

Diary 20th September 2014

Well what a day I had. Things not going well recently. Not sure why. But today was no better. It all started when I had just about 2 hrs sleep. Today there was an event in the Outhouse, whereby Gear Ireland were selling stuff.

I had been planning on buying a few stuff such as Undies and what nots. However, as I failed to get money from my Credit Union on Friday(as I didn't get up in time), I didn't have the cash. But eitherway, I went over to have a looksie. But bitterly disappointed.

So then my next task was to go to the Cineworld Craicheads meetup. I can't remember the last time I was at this particular meetup. Not a as long as the Veggie meetup. The last film I had scene with Cineworld Craicheads was Maleficient. (Review here). I had understood the meetup was at 5.10 and film at 5.40. However, when I went over to get the tickets, I was told that the film was actually at 6.20pm. The film I was to see today was The Guest(Review here.)So I trawled myself back to the Outhouse. As I hadn't had anything as I had only got up, I had hoped to get a cuppa tea(ahema, Green Tea). However I was too late. Outhouse closes earlier on a Saturday at 6. They stop serving a half hour before closing time. However I had arrived just on the dot of half 5, after realizing my mistake. Dave who was serving behind the counter, was apologizing profusely. So while I was at the Outhouse, I encountered Severn. Everytime, I bump into him or whatever, he keeps referring to how's my boyfriend, when everyone in the  whole universe knows, that I don't. So then while sitting down with him with another group he then somehow referring to str8 being normal or whatever. I consider every living human being normal. Gay, Straight, Lesbian, Bisexual, Transgender, Disabled, Abled etc., etc., .

So then, I headed back to the cinema, where I met Eoghan. As I hadn't seen him in such a very long time, he had changed haircut wise etc., He joked that he's got cancer. Of which I didn't  find funny. I said it ain't a joke. Considering my Mom's friend died horribly in pain of Lymphatic Cancer, My Uncle died of Bowl Cancer, My Dad's friend I think died of Bowl cancer too. So you see making a joke of cancer ain't funny one bit. Was great to see him after such a long time. I met up with him along with Robert from Adam's old meetup group Dublin Film Fanatics, Ann whom I personally took the liberty and pleasure of meeting her. She own's the Cineworld Breakfast Club and her own Co-Owner of the group Amina. After the film, Robert headed on home, So Eoghan and I chatted for a  bit. I was looking at a very cute guy who is a Brazilian. He said that Oh so u don't mind dark skin, I said nope, I don't mind black, white pink etc., and he immediately said and add foreskin. Immediately I got the joke. IT was hilarious. He himself was looking at women too. heheehe.

So then after Eoghan headed on home and after our we chat, we dispersed. I headed onto to see The Giver(Review here)

Whilst looking at TV, after I settled my computer issues, I went thorough me 99 FB Notifications AND on my Gaming, Sex and General FB I then saw that I had bookmarked my friend Seamus' Blog. I read his latest post. of which he mentioned that and I quote: "Gays should not hate or fight with other Gays that don't agree with there of against Gay Marriage". Bottomline, as I said in the past, If we are to win the Referendum, we had to stick together and fight together, NOT the opposite. I can't understand and never will, a gay person OPPOSING Gay Marriage. If he don't want it, then that's his business, his opinion. Don't bring the whole country down. If for whatever reason, that the Referendum does actually win DESPITE this abnormalcy if a section of LGBT opposing us, then, Ireland is the most strangest country int he world.

Diary 19th September 2014

WEll, what to say about today's entry. heheeh. I woke up with such a sweat and/or fright. I was dreaming about my beloved inflatables. hehehe. I am in a room with Dad sitting in the armchair and Mom beside him. I ask him and Mom, where are my inflatables. I had two. One with a Blue coloring, which in REALITY, I do and another one. They were both at Mom and Dad's armschair. I was looking at em so lovingly. When I turned around etc., maybe at TV or whatever, I turned around to the armchairs and I asked nicely "hey guys, where's my babes, precious or whatever ur having urself. When they refused to give them to me or hand em over, I let out such a scream and I asked for them again. They gave them to me again, eventually. But with such a scream, I woke up in a sweat. And it took alot out of me that I went back to sleep.

So after such an eventual night, I woke up and got up eventful. I then headed  to the Outhouse. Where it was Men's Night every Friday night from 7pm to 8pm. When I arrived, there was a box like outside the Outhouse. Then I read that it's Culture Night. So I continued up to the room, which is located at the Library, where Men's Night is. Quite funnily, my shyness kicked in. By that I mean, I was offered a chair, as I was standing, I thought there was some one else etc., So I eventually finished up on my cell phone. And listened to what others had to say. Another lad joined with us, Cathal. We chatted for a brief period and also with Con. Con was saying he's heading off to Brazil for a few months. I then said that I was heading off to New York to live. And the rubbish that came out of Con's mouth. I never mentioned the word Israel to anyone. As I later said to Brendan O' F, I never bring up a topic, If I don't understand it or whatever. Con had said that America hates Israel or whatever. I said alrite.... except, I never said such. The amount of crap that comes out of people, is just unreal. hahaha. Then Cathal and I were chatting together. And he mention that the name of the Culture Night that was being held int eh Outhouse, was putting him off. ie Katies Party or something like that. Bernard reminded him that there were men at the event. He then said that he's Anti-Lesbian. Now I've never personally heard of them. Its unreal you know. He then said that they hate men, now perhaps he meant that they ain't attracted to men, maybe I'm wrong, WHo knows. hahaah. The two Indian lads that were there last week, one of them clearly still shy, was asking for his other mate, whom I found out the name Edward or Ed for short. He was then offered to move up closer. He was quite disgusted. Whcih I don't get. But anyways. hahaah

So with such delightful conversation, I then headed off with my mate Brendan O' F, to see The Giver(Review here). So after the film, I told him of the above convo with Con and I and Cathal. I told him, that I won't be getting to know him. hahaah.

NEWS

Scotland Votes NO, as in they want to stay in the United Kingdom. British Prime Minister David Cameron has promised as part of his campaign for to stay within the UK, that more powers will be devolved to the Scottish Parliament. It was a 55% to 45%. 84% was the highest turnout in 63 years. Alex Sammond has announced his resignation. He becomes the first High profile casualty of the historic vote.

Dublin City has been chosen to be the Host Nation by UEFA(U...European Football Association) in 2020. The games will be played in the Aviva Stadium. Dublin will play host to 4 games.

Diary 18th September 2014

Well I haven't slept yet. heheheeh.

I was to meet my friend Seamus, of whom I haven't seen in years. Due to my depression and my coming out I had unfreinded him. I didn't want any straight people in my life at the time. I had been involved with a Youth group called 20Somethings. A Religion group where we go on pilgrimages etc., I was involved in with them briefly. The last time I was with teh group was we were to go on a Pilgrimage to Isarel ie Holy Land. However when I told my Mom, she said NO WAY. We met in Bushfield the hotel on Kildare St. Then I met him I think before the group or after, for a cuppa in Bewleys on Grafton St., That's the last time I recall seeing him. WE of course were on Facebook since then. I had removed him as I said above for mental health reasons.
So I met up with him at the Cone(That's what I like to call the Spire(Monument of Light)). I just find the cone name so cute. heheheeh. We then met up and headed on over to Starbucks. I was trying to remember the name of the drink that my friend Vincent from Foursquare. He had posted on his account a drink that I never heard of and it had something like Early Grey Tea. I looked nervously while the sales guy looking at me. So I let someone else ahead of us. Seamus got his stuff, and I eventually found it. I asked if they had Matcha Tea(No they didn't have that) then I eventually found the drink I was looking for. London Fog. It consists of Earl Grey Tea and Vanilla Syrup. Then later on, I had the Vegetarian Pesto sandwich. We chatted and chatted for hours. I had told him that while int he toilet, that I noticed the lighting was of neon lighting. To get into the toilet, we needed a code which was on the ticket. Clever i says. THen the lighting was very neon as I said, and I of course understand why. Its used to catch drug users etc., However it would give a fit for an epileptic person. NO QUESTION. Then he was telling me the guy who's in his Seamus' group and is GAY and yet is AGAINST Gay Marriage. Personally I don't quite understand it why. Like your Gay and your DENYING yourself the basic human right. and that is the Basic Human Right of To LOVE. So after chatting for several hours, I actually CONNECTED with him, its like we were meant to be best buddies. He's definitely on my Christmas Cards Lists. hahaah.

While I was with Seamus, I got a call from Mom, of which I missed, so I attempted to ring her back. Bottomline, I rang Dad and he said "Call up to us, WE HAVE THINGS TO DISCUSS". I was frightened the shite of me life. I thought he was gonna enforce the getting rid of my Beloved Inflatables etc., I headed home to charge my phone for a bit. Then headed on up. But as it happens, they are still adamant that I move out. Cause now I've a new complaint. My Jnr(WINK, WINK p His name's Georgian Jnr.) in thtat its itchy. My sis told me its thrush. I said I have'tn had sex in years. Oh don't get me wrong, I have been trying haaha. But its actually from my gaf. So they have set a plan. BUT I'm still adamant on having Sky with me, IF I EVER MOVE that is.

The Giver

Well, what to say about this particular film. I found it quite interesting. In that in my personal opinion the plot wasn't one bit structured. O don't get me wrong, I did find the main character Jonas(Thwaites) very cute. From what I gather, it was a film, whereby they had to use "Precise Language", e,g if they used the word "Love", please use the "Precise Language". The plot was so not what IMDB or anyone else tells me. I didn't get it anyways. However, it was heartwarming thou. The fact that IMDB's 10 Line policy says it all about my review of the film.

Diary 17th September 2014

Well I went to bed quite late. Sure what's new. hahaah. Then shortly around 4ish, my sis rang my doorbell so that she could pay me back the cash. I struggled to get back to sleep. Then when I got back, I then figured, I kept looking out the window to see would the laundry guy appear around half 6 and 7 deliver my laundry. It was my plan to go and see the 75th Anniversary of Wizard of Oz(1939 - Of which I was reminded). I was so looking forward to it. I eventually  got to see it. However, the laundry guy who was to deliver to me, had told me on the phone, after which I rang him twice. He said he'd be another hour. So with this in mind, I had to leave the laundry and get em delivered on Friday.

So I then set off myself to see the film: The Wizard Of Oz(Review here). Then afterwards, I took a few selfies of myself at the movies. heeheh

I was cooking myself Pasta and my new ingredient I have been using for awhile now. The secret Ingredient is Pesto on one night, which is not so a secret BUT GRAVY is. The gravy you put on your meat or whatever. However today, I was totally pissed off when I had cooked my pasta and had everything prepped, when I went to fetch my Gravy can. I couldn't find it. I searched for it, everywhere. Still couldn't find it. As my pasta was drying up, I just gave up searching for it. And to date I still have failed it.

I reveled to a friend of my sis that I now look forward to Halloween unlike previous years. Ever since I have been going to the Halloween Party in the Outhouse for a few years now. They hold various activities such as Telling the Future, Drag show etc.,

NEWS

As we near the Referendum for Scotland Decides. Its a Historical occasion. As in Scotland's First Minister Alex Salmond, put it to the People of Scotland a referendum to break away from the United Kingdom ie become an Independent State. Now the only problem is actually the EU Membership. Under the Lisbon Treaty which was put to the Irish People twice, and passed a second time, Jose Manuel Barrosois(Outgoing EU Commission President), "difficult, if not impossible" if a Yes Vote, however incoming President  of the EU Commission that Scotland "a special case". Article 49 of the Lisbon Treaty would mean that Scotland would have to reapply for membership of the EU, however taking a long process. If Article 48 were to be enacted, it would simply mean amending the Treaty of Lisbon. However new members of the EU are legally obliged to take onto the Euro. This has now taken interest in Spain. As Catalonia wants to separate from Spain too. Many countries may start this process. Like Northern Ireland. etc., etc., Bottomline, EU needs to amends its laws for the ever changing democratic society.

Diary 16th September 2014

I got up today a bit tired. Nothing new. hahaha. I first headed to An Post as per normal. Then I headed onto AIB, to lodge in the cash. I noticed a guy who was queuing up behind me, was still queuing even thou there was a machine available which I found to be abnormal. I then joked tot he security guard who was smoking, there's your music outside. There was a guy who was blaring his music from the car. hahaha. I went to Llloyd Pharmacy with a view of getting Razors for to shave me chest and legs, as I apparently am allergic to Gilletts. They didn't have it.

Then I went home for an hr. I then headed off to see my sis. We had a great chat and laughs. Mom got us Takeouts. haaha. I was getting stuff for my sis, in Tescos. When there were these 2 brats or whatever u wanna call em, were messing around. My heart was pumping with NERVES when I asked them Do you want something, I thought they were trying to rob me or something. They were just trowing rubbish in the bin. I then arrived at my sis.

I then headed back after a few hrs with being with my sis. I was looking at TV and saw a quite an interesting part of the current affairs program Prime Time. It was mentioned from what I gather, that If Scotland were to break from the United Kingdom and there was NO Violence, whereas when Ireland broke away from the United Kingdom 100 years ago today(Home Rule), plenny of violence ensued in years after, and sometimes it still does.

While I was doing my normal everyday Internet and Facebooking etc., Chrome decided to have a field day with me. In that crashing and crashing etc., However, as I added extra tabs it decided to give me a surprise in that not only with crashing, the whole Lappy went blank etc., disabling me from using programs etc., So bottomline, I lost all the tabs :(. So until next time, God forbid. hahaha.

NEWS

Isntead of An Garda Siochana manning the Immigration boots, it will be manned by civilians, which I take it means staff and employees by either the Dublin Airport Autrouirirt or more than likely, well that makes sense, the INIS(Immigraiton Service).

Diary 15th September 2014

Well as Mom was collected me to do gardening with Dad, I stayed up ie another LACK OF SLEEP. hahaah; I have been looking at TV the whole night. hahaahah. So then Mom arrived. As I had a few errand of my own to do especially my Bank, I had stressed to her that they's VIP. I had AIB to pay, as I mixed up the dates for my Sky Bill which WAS due on Friday ONTOP of my Loan Payment. I mixed up the lot completly. So that left me in debt of €95 which I wasn't gonna let the bank get the better of me unlike last year. Now my next worry was to try to figure out for my next errand which is Lidl how am I gonna get the cash for that when I realsied that my Credit Union was closed on a Monday, which is normal. So I withdrew from An Post, but as it happens it wasn't enough. I lodged my required €45 for my debt, to AIB, then onwards to Folks place. Whiel withdrawing and heading to wartds back to mom's car, I saw Phil. He was a barman, when I working in Kennedy's back when I was younger. hahaahh.

To start on the gardening. He was doing the hedge. Mom had asked when we last did the hedge. She thought likewise, I did too, it was back in April or at least the beginning of the year. But as it happens, its actually June 24th. So we continued. We did mulching. Then afterwards a break was deserved by all. While having a break, more so a dinner. Mom pointed out to me that Paisley was a bigot. Didn't I think that he was against gays or whatever, but actually against CATHOLICS. She even quoted him as saying that he referred to us as "Vermins". I have notice though however, that Mom has changed alrite, ever since she went to Pride march back in June. Why I say such, was joking with me about guys et.c, and "Oh you don't say that" etc., etc., So then Dad and I got back onto work. I was mowing his lawn. I can't even remember the last time, I mowed his lawn.

So then Mom brought me up to Lidls in Artnae. TO get a few stuff. There was a lady ahead of me, who dropped all the coins, likewise me. I had dropped my note etc., I then headed to pay for the stuff. Then we went back to her place, as I was to type out an email to Jim(Dad's relative in the States). So then Mom thought as she MIGHTNED be around tomorrow as she may have to go to a funeral, to collect my laundry, that she go today to collect the laundry. When we did so, it was found that they hand't started as I had specified Tuesday. So bottomline it wasn't ready.

So then I got ready. While I was getting ready, I heard Frankie(the landlord). THis has been his second visit, and to date, NO phonecall, NO attempt to even contact me, assuming he knows I'm inside. But at least a little phonecall wouldn't go amiss. But eitehrway, I'm living it i up to him. When  he wants to do renovation, he tells m when, I will gladly go along.
I popped into Lidls to get more clothes. hahaha. I'm trying to achieve one goal. And that is to LOOK normal to the public. I'd to feel that I ain't. LIke to day for e.g, I had a heavy jumper, Tshrit(WIHT COllar), Vest, Trackies Trousers. EVen that didnt' still satidsfiy the pub.ice.
So then it was time to get ready for the PDC(Personal Dvelopment Course). Today's lecture was based on ASSERTIVENESS. Twas quite a difficult one, However I still maintained my understanding.
Our first task was to do a memory game. Person 1 would say their NAME, and their one thing ABOUT THEM e.g Sammy,  Person 2 would say Sammy, Puppy and my name is Patch and I'm a puppy etc., etc., Examples of others quite amusing. Such as Dragging a boat, works at Unibar, Marathon, Florists, etc., etc., When i twas my turn , I said my name Georgian and of course what I like about me is Green Tea.

Self Assertiveness:
Is defined as follows:

• Force
• Mutual acceptance
• not being a fraid of who you are
• Boundaries
• Communication
• Feelings
• Behavior
• Open to Criticisms
• Context
• Self Expression: For this bullet point, I gave an example of the gays dissing me at Pride, they were quite interested. Listened attentively. Bottom line, I explained that I was trying to bring US to Ireland ie American Gay traditions over to Ireland. 

Then the 4 Methods of Communications:

Passive - Point out the Pet Peeves
Passive/Aggressive - OMGLike, Don't answer phone etc.,
Aggressive - Explosive/Violence
Assertive - Advising/SAY in Nice tone/ Being you/ Being angry BIT physical ie Compromise

WE were broken up into groups of 3. And asked to give an example. Our group consisting of Dave(Who works behind the counter),
Passive
 Let some one skip queue
Assertive
 Telling sis that I'm gay
Aggressive
 last out after Overnight study

Then it was time to get onto Assertiveness Skills
Be Specific
Repetition
Compromise
Self Disclosure agree with true feed
Disagree if untrue
Aggressive if Started BY YOU
e.g ppl who won't shut up through film.

Then as we went for a break, I was brought as side, by one of the peers Eugene asking about my phone usage and being a distraction. He was actually really nice about it. I explained, that I take notes down and as the notes, which I checked on my email is so difficult to understand. Like I can speak English no problems, BUT when it comes to written, I get completely lost. So the the stuff they say in the actual class, that I understand. He thought it would benefit the class After the break that I got and tell the class. I was actually getting nervous thinking they'd think I was recording them or something.

So then the second part of the class commenced in which we started with Self Esteem.
Inwards

Sexy
Going topless
Self Esteem is defined by the relationship between you and the Inside
Self Approval
 compliments

Self Esteem Scale
1.......5,6,7.......10
         Most
         People
can change with events, etc.,
Start with small
Learn to appreciate your yourself
Avoid negative people
Doing something your good at
Acknowledgement

Shortly before the class finished, a member asked about a homophobe who constantly quotes the bible etc., Twas quite distributing. And get this, they's the best of buddies, YET when ever the subject of homosexuality appears he does this. He just wanted to find out which part of the methods of Communication would it fit in, namely Passive/PassiveAggressive/Asssertive.

I bumped into Ronan. Great to see him. And Bernard. who else. hehehehe. After the class was finished, Bernard gave a little lecture of Henry 8th and the way WOMEN are treated in India, etc.,e tc., Quite intriguing but as Martin(who's part of hte course) says anything Positive. ahhahahaah. So then Martin and I headed on home. Martin who is from Waterford(originally Germany) works in Waterford had to head home, as had to be home for work(florist) for the morning. Imagine coming up to Dublin for 2 hrs every week. Wow. So after I left him, I headed to Indian Taste, the Rice could have done with more flavoring. Then onto Nicos, I thought Nicos was the best of the lot. The owner of Nicos was telling me, after I enquired that he was getting the outside painted or something. He explained for his 40th Anniversary in Dublin, he is renovating. Buy means of pain at the very least and a party in the New Year. Then I noted and told the owner that the Chinese next door has changed the name YET AGAIN!!!! hahaaha. He explained possibly for Tax reasons. Maybe tax evasion?????So then I went into Bao Trans and got myself a takeout. I found the curry to be of sweet flavor than normal. So then I enjoyed my feast and my sis' wine of which she DIDN'T want. I had BareFoot Red Wine, It was so strong. I kept throwing it out. However hers wasn't too bad.

Finally Found or why my wallpaper kept changing. Everytime, I wanted to set my wallpaper on my Home and Lock Screens, after a few minutes, the phone would change the wallpapper. Well on the Home Screens. IT was quite infuriating. So I Googled and even Google himself was baffled. Bottomline, it was actually my IFTTT I had initially setup, that 500px Wallpapers would change every few minutes. Its a recipe I had setup. You may remember the last time, IFTTT was playing with my older cell phone, and it now its after catching me out yet again. hahaah.

NEWS

The Garda Penalty point abuse system, has come to light again, after Sr. Maurice McCAbe(Whistelblower - who blew the whistle on the whole debacle).

The Wizard of Oz(1939)

Well what a movie this classic was. I hadn't seen this movie in years. I can vaguely recall it even. However when I went along to it, It slowly came back to me. And I MEAN slowly. The plot was quite simple, in that Dororthy(Garland) is shushwed up ie swept up in a tornado into a fantasy land. The tornado was so real like, the one in Into the Storm(Review here). It was so impressive. So anyways, Dorothy then is found in a new place and is woken up to Munchkins. Then it is found that there are TWO wicked witches. One of the East)(whom was killed with Dorothy's house) and the Wicked Witch of the West(Hamilton). The Good Witch is also there and helps Dorothy out. Dorothy wanted to return home. However she has to Follow the Yellow Brick Road. People who know me, will know my love for music in Movies. Well this one surely did not disappoint me. I was happily singing all the songs. One thing I did notice was that the songs that were being song I was saying to myself: "Oh so this is where the song came from". On the way to the Wizard, Dorothy encounters Scarecrow(Bolger), Tin Man(Haley) and the Lion(Lahr). She told them as she met them on her travels, that she's going to the Wizard in the Emerald City to ask to be sent back home, while so Scarecrow wanted a Brain, Tin Man wanted a Heart, and the Lion wanted Courage. So a conflict ensues with the 4 of them and the Witch. As with any childhood movie, the Winning character is always what I want all the time not the "baddie". Then quite a shocker for me personally. Not sure about the rest of yeeee, but the Scarecrow, Tin Man, and the Lion and the "Wizard" are all her own family. Which I was saying: "Isn't that....." etc., Great childhood movie. Ohhh and the quotes, just unreal. One quote: When the Lion was requesting his Courage: "What makes a King out of a slave? Courage!" and the most one quote that really went through me: Considering my heart was broken by my first ex: You don't know how lucky you are not to have one. Hearts will never be practical until they can be made unbreakable." and another quote relating to the heart: ": A heart is shown not by how much you love, but by how much you are loved by others." So the movie ended on as always with a childhood(well the one's I've seen - hhaha) on a positive note. The Wicked Witch of the WEST, had been defeated. Dorothy was heading back. It was made out to be of a DREAM.

http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0032138/

Diary 14th September 2014

While sleeping, I began to think with the thought of Jock Straps, can they be wearable outdoors as in like underwear or are they just for sexually purpose.
Then another thoughts was whereby Former DUP Leader Ian Paisley. I had seen a post by Max K, on Facebook whereby he had stated "Delightful". Did he mean it that he wanted a United Ireland, cause if so he would have gone about it the wrong way. What I mean by that, is War ain't he answer. Even thou Paisely had war on his hands, I don't think another would be ensued.

So anyways, I got up eventually. I then got ready for my sis. I had seen that Mom's car was outside. So she wanted to get a take out for us. So Mom collected me and brought me to New Mandarain. So I quickly popped into Centra to get a carton of milk. Somehow I was saying to myself, to go and get some but had remembered that I had a about half a carton left.

Well boy was I wrong, twas a good thing I had bought the milk which technically was actually Mom - hahaha. So my sis and I were chatting away, sharing jokes etc., and looking at TV. Great to see her.

Diary 13th September 2014

Well as I hadn't slept for more than 24hrs I was getting a bit dada dada etc., So I hopped into bed for a hibernation. Afterwards I got up for to take a leak and what a leak hahaah.

Then I noticed my cell phone had 9 missed calls. 6 of O' Farrell, 1 of Searson and 2 Mom. The 6 from O' Farrell, I found excessive for a guy who's suppose to be sleeping.  well I mean according to the cell. Cause if anyone who contacts me, and I'm asleep, they get an sms saying so. Its an app I use AutoSMS. However I still failed to understand why O' Farrell never got the message to the point that Searson rang me. I'ts the norm alright. Searson rings me if O' Farrell cannot get through to me. O' Farrell gets Searson to ring me. So then I looked at the messages  and I saw all the movie messages. Again If I'm at the movies, I would put that configuration of the settings on. So I checked the homescreen where I have widgets of the App on and as I live and breed that it at the wrong setting all the time. I had it "That I'm at the movies instead of that I'm asleep". I most have been that tired going around like a zomeie or whatever, that I had the wrong setting. So I apologised profusley to O' Farrell.
THen I noted a couple of voicemails. Now my ground line was off cause the router was off, and I had no credit on my cell. So I jsut had to assume, that it was O' Farrell or Mom. Mom would have been leaveing me a voicemail saying there's food outside. So I looked outside after my tinkled and saw the grub. I ate with enjoyment.

Diary 12th September 2014

Now, as I had yet to sleep, I just continued my day. I was looking at Tonight with Vincent Browne. There was a quite interesting debate on being debated. Should the media be interested in every minor detail. E.g The alleged nude photos of Jennifer Lawrence. Like is there a need for the public to know such information. Eg that Vincent gave was the spat that the Health Minster(Varadkar) and the Taoiseach were having Vincent's point was do we need to know every single little thing. Or as he puts it "Tits for tats".

Then I started the tidy up of the place. Well more so making further room. I now have a bit of room for visitors(WHAT VISITORS, no one ever goes near a Hepatitis B guy - I'm leaving out my Family, cause obviously they come down. hahaha).

Then I got a call from O' Farrell to know plans for tonight. I was intended on going to A film, of which I wasn't sure which. I was to leave at around 7 - half 7. So instead, during my  tidy up, I found my bicycle pump. So I used that to inflate my babes, which some sadly are not staying, but NEVERTHELESS. And of course I was inflating my new exercise ball, that I got in Lidls last week.

On my way, Maureen rang me for a chat. However throughout the call, I couldn't' hear her. She has this habbit of holding the fire, as if it were on "fire" kinda thing. I got increasingly frustrated. She has been using a mobile phone for over 10 years.  So I just cut the convo  short. Then while I was on the phone, I had gotten a message from my mate Todd, wanting a bit of company for a meal or something. As it happens, I was very close. However due to communications errors etc., we weren't able to meetup.

So eventually, I arrived at the Outhouse. I encountered Gerry the teacher. Haven't seen him in ages. heeheh. I also encountered Noel of only whom I had met around Pride festivities.  There were also 2 HOT Indian guys who clearly hadn't any manners or either that they were VERY very shy. More than likely the latter. Then of course O' Farrell himself was there. O' Farrell had asked me if I had sent him a picture of me in my undies or something like that. This brought up in a derogatory sense, as they have nothing better to talk about. I'm talking about the Pride Festivities that was held this year. It was marred in controversy(well in my books anyways). Seriously guys, WOULD YOU's EVER SHUT THE HELL UP ABOUT MY. You talk the talk of letting go the past, NOW PRACTISE WHAT YOU PREACH. You's just have to gonna get use to it. They do it in the States, in fact a friend of mine, who was at the same pride as me this year NEVER got any STICK. NOW WTF WITH THAT. I shall be continued to express my sexuality. LIKE IT or LUMP IT. Then low and behold Ronan was there. He showed me pics of himself as Wolverine. And by jasues he's the splitting image of him, WITHOUT any Photoshopping. While he was browsing for the pics of Wolverine, he probably accidentally showed me a pic of a large cock with a ring on it. That was hot. hahaaha. Patrick was there to provide a few laughs. ahhahaha. Bernard hahahah like he was sitting in a Dracula sttyle armchair. heheheeh. I was introduced by O' Farrell to Cathal. Very nice bloke he is. His first time. I was amazed by the amount of ppl that was in attendance. Oh and not forgetting David. Afterall I had only seen him yesterday. hahaahha

As I was leaving for the film, I was getting the feeling of NOT to go, that I was having such a great time. However when the remark of my regout was made, I just had to get out. Even poor Noel taught he had said something. I said no that I was going to a film. So with that in mind, I set about going to the cinema to see Guardians of the Galaxy(Review here). However when I arrived, it wasn't meant to be. As the times were different. Perhaps I misread it or whatever. But this has happened in the past. So I went to see The Guest(Review here).

Then after the film, I headed home. Now as I didn't have cooking oil for my pasta tonight, I needed it badly. So I got it in my local garage. Imagine for  1.5ltr a small feckin' of a bottle, 4.10. Sure Tescos charge that amount for their BIG version and its a branded one too.

NEWS

Dr. REv Ian Paisley has died at the age of 88. He co-founded The DUP(Democratic Unionist Party) in 1970. He lead the party from '71 - '08. Born in Ballymena, Co. Armagh 1926. He was First Minister from 2007 until 2008.
He continued to serve as MP for North Antrim from 1970. til 2010. He once opposed Power Sharing, but later reversed his position. He retired COMPLETELY from Politics in 2011. He is survived by his Wife and Family. May he Rest In Peace

A Spinosauraus has been discovered. Shark to a Creature. Described to adapted life int eh water. Bigger than T-Rek. Lived most of its life in water. Lived 95 million years ago. 

Diary 11th September 2014

Well I eventually got up. I cleaned myself up. Then shortly as I had to head to Lidls to get myself some slippers.

So that was my first port of call. It was my intention to do my archival shopping as I like to call it. hahaha. So I first headed into Lidls, then I realsied that the slippers were actually in Aldi. I mistaken this. So I just got OJ. While here, I noticed while at the stalls, that there was a customer asking questions about a product to the security guy. Well as I said to myself, the manners of a pig. The mouth of him. More so the body language. While on the way to LIdls, I called into US Shop. I came across a deal for €15.More or less what Lidls would be charging for shoes. I had guessed that the sales person was an American. She's actually from Tampa in Florida.
Then I headed onto Aldi. This was the place, that I was spoz to get the slippers. When I was lining up for to pay for the slippers, a Filipino couple offered me there place ahead of them, as I was just getting one thing, and they were doing a large shopping. Twas really nice of em to be honest. So I thank you, them.
On the way to Tescos, I encountered a guy playing "Somewhere, my Love" on the flute. I beautiful rendition of an Italian Classic. Reminded me of the wonderful Holiday, in Lake Garda with the family. The best holiday I ever had with the family. Then onto Tescos, I went to get some milk and more OJ. Oh boi, love me some OJ. heheeh.
I then headed to the cinema to see Lucy(Review here), as the last time, I had seen, I had missed some of it.
I then headed onto the Outhouse, where I always feel safe and be myself. heheeh. I bumped into Mike, David and Brendan O' F. I then introduced myself to a guy Gar, who has been there and I've seen in in the past, but never got his name. So when I was getting something, I got talking to Mike. I had said some phrase or rather, and he then said something I don't think Ros na Run would have such language or whatever. Then we got talking about Gays in Soaps. Was quite intriguing it was. I reminded him that there is a gay male in Ros na Run currently, but he don't have any storyline currently. Although back in the late 90s, they had 2 gay characters. And he said that he actually remembers his Mom talking about it. Likewise in Fair City. There was 2 gay males back in the apparently late '80s. Now obviously I had seen this. But just couldn't remember the year. As it happens, it was in the time, I was in the Romanian Orphanage. So then I got my stuff, and headed onto the group. We were chatting and chatting. And told him my true inspiration of the HIV guy, I was chatting on Grindr. David was most intrigued. And as it happens, was possibly the same guy he was chatting to. As I said throughout the night, Such a small world. I then was intrigued with David's saying that a guy being straight is a turn on. I was quite intrigued by this. And then thought to myself, but sure, I see em all the time, and look at em. So yeah I quite agree with him. heehe
So then Brendan and I headed onto the cinema to see The Guest(Review here). On the way to the screen, the security guy, helped me bring my bags to the screen. Such a nice guy. heehehe. So then afterwards, I struggled with heading on home with heavy bags of the shopping. I had just past the pub Meaghers and to my surprise one of the customers who was smoking asked "If I had been fucked out". I said "Oh, Lord no". Then I passed the new Chinese name at least beside the pub. It has changed names twice. heeheh.

NEWS

America remembers Sept 11th 2001. 13yrs ago today America was under attack.. 2 Plains were hijacked and crashed into the the Twin Towers aka World Trade Center. America was completely UNPREPARED. Another Plain was hijacked and set for the Pentagon of which it was het. Then there was a 4th one I think it was going to the White House or Congress, I can't quite recall. The plain being hijacked, was actually intercepted by passengers aboard. The Plain crashed in a field in Pennsylvania.

The Jaws character who was the villain in two Bond Films has died at the age 75.

The Guest

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Diary 10th September 2014

Well as I hadn't gone to bed yet, I was doing a few items. I then headed to bed.

So I then got up for Lucy(Review here). However, the film time was at 21.00, so I could handle that then. Then I saw the film time had changed. So I said crap, shame alrite. So I then attempted to try and get up for the earlier time and if failed, I'd go and see some other film. But bottomline, as it happens, I literally slept it out.

So I saw that the time was nearing midnight. So I said fuck it, am just gonna head off and continue. And which I did. Then my next worry was taping Ros na Run Orga. But as it happens, I overslept that. And my next and final worry was Fair City. Which currently has a gay lesbian coming out storyline atm.

NEWS

Former Minister of the Environment Phil Hogan TD has been appointed for Europea's Agriculture Commission. He is one of 28 Commisiioners. He is under Jean-Claude Juncker(Former Luxermbourge)

Lucy

One word came out of the cinema with me. Science. The plot of the story is Lucy(Johansen) is abducted and to be used as a drug mule. The crowd literally put the bag of CHG4 into her body under her abdomen. I didn't care thou for OPERATIONS onscreen. Again I repeat, if you want to see that sort of thing, go and look at Grays Anatomy or whatever. The producers shud take into consideration that NOT EVERYONE is into seeing blood or the opening of a body. The amount of disgust and quisy that I could hear beside me etc., Again the I didn't mind it. There's only a certain amount a person can take. Like seeing a body being cut open on camera, and Lucy NOT feeling pain. That is the plot thou. Other than that, I found the film to be of excellent value and education. I was delighted to see the film travelling back in time, even to the point of how the Earth was made. I most impressed with that. Put simply, Lucy was used as a drug mule to transport from one city to another etc., etc., But things went awkwardly wrong, as Lucy(Johansan) was kicked in the stomach, where the stuff, the CHG4 was implanted in her abdomen.

Diary 9th September 2014

Well today was quite interesting. It all started when I was suppose to get up for 3pm, as I wanted to get my dole etc., on me own. I was due to meet my mom for 4 to get the laundry to the cleaners. However, as I only had less than 3hrs sleep, I was unable to get up for 3 and so I got up at 4. Mom bagging at the door etc., Eventually I got up.

So Mom took me to the launders. I had to bring two bags of clothing. hahaah. So Ill be collecting them next week, as with cash I'll be low on it. hahaha. So then I went ahead to get my dosh. And then into the bank. Then mom invited me up to her place for bit of grub. I said I'd go ahead and pay a visit, as I hadn't seen Dad to welcome him back. He then invited me on a holier like to DOnegal where his sister in law Maura is and of course her hubbie ie Dad's brother. So I was kinda intrigued. He was thinking as the weather would be nice to pay a visit. The last time, I went away with my Dad on our own, all I remember is his large cock, the image. hahaha. But then again, I wanted to see it. So then I began to put another idea into my and his head. In that if my landlord wants to renovate my place while I'm away, he may do so. This has been on my mind for the whole day now.

I then headed to me sis where Mom, dropped me down to her. So then Mom was chatting to her when I was getting a few items for my sis. Mom had mentioned to her that she should quit being "Impotent". Well my golly. My sis was completely insulted. I then told Mom that the likes of her(Mom) would be the cause of Depression and the stigma towards it. I gave an example of the guy in Cork, who killed the twins and then killed himself ie Murder Suicide. Bottomline, Education is the key here. Talk to a person your trust. So my sis was telling us that the hospital has taken Mom off the Next of Kin. And rightly so, cause if Mom's attitude is to stop misbehavin' etc., yeah she clearly can't handle it at her age anyways.

So then both my sis and I went in. I had expressed Dad's attitude towards me and my Mom in Romania, in that every time, I mention her that Dad's anger would show. So then I just thought that I try and connect the dots as to what could he be hiding or whatever. I told her, the night of the Mulligans coming down to the folks, that Dad looked down me top etc ensure, I wasn't wearing an offensive tshirt. The thsirt that I'm referring to is the Miss Panti one in which it reads:" Feck Off out of my life: I'm On Team Panti." Now obviously I ain't against it or whatever, but my folks are. So the way he looked down me top, I began to arsways connect the dots.  To date, I've failed so.
Told sis to ensure I Wasn't wearing any offensive TSHirt well according to them hahaha.

NEWS

Ringing Directory Enquires according to The Consumer Association of Ireland has found that it is doubly expensive. E.g €5 per sec. 1min €3.42 11811; 1min €3.40 11890; 1min €5.58 11850; 1sec €2.12 €11811; 1sec €3.40 11890; 1sec €5.58 11850; If you ask to be connected, you will be expected to pay a substantial amount: 10min €15.31 11811; 10min €30.96; 10min €12.31 11890;

Apple has launched iPhone 6 and iPhone 6 Plus. They also launched the Apple Watch. Innovation is key, however its also a problem at the moment since Job's death. The iCloud is also in controversial since the Jennifer Lawrence naked photos were found to have been in breach and the iCloud has been in the blame game. Apple even launched Apple Pay. This allows a user to use their mobile to pay for goods and services.

Diary 8th September 2014

Well what a night it has been. I first got up at around 6ish after 2 half hour sleep. It was my first day at a course I had applied for a few weeks ago. Its called the Personal Development Course being held at the Outhouse. It is funded by the Dublin's Gay Switchboard and the Gay Men Health Service(The crowd that diagnosed me with Hepatitis B)

So I set about heading off on my first night course. I wasn't one bit nervous on the way. In fact, I was looking for the house that Yurean(The guy I met at the DublinFreeWHeelers event).  I got talking to Yurean yesterday via WhatsApp. Now I ain't sure whether he knows am gay or whatever. But the fact that I had a profile pic of an undies pic? yeahhhhh. So he just gave me his house number. Which I don't quite understand. So Then I had actually passed it.

So anyways I arrived at Outhouse. I got my cuppa tea, as my breath was horrible. By cuppa tea, I actually mean Peppermint Green tea. And later on Raspberry Tea. Bernard then checked me into the list. I headed on up to the Red Room. There were about 13 or so others there. Dave the guy behind the counter was there too. So at least a familiar face. I was getting increasingly nervous, my heart pumping.

So then the two men Tony and .... were the two presenters. We the students(lightly put) were lsitening. Its a course that involves US. Our first exercise was to introduce ourselves and to tell them What would we like to get out of the course and how we heard about it. My example was all garbled. I literally said it in such a state that I was nonsensical. So what I told them and the group of course, was that Maureen(My aunt - the Nun one), had popped into the Outhouse when I was coming out at the time and had asked them that my nephew is having a hard time coming out, if they could recommend anything. They recommended this particular course. I misinterpreted as that they wanted me to go into Psychiatric care for being gay.
Our next item was a little game. Whereby we got into a circle, and CLOSING our eyes, that we just shout out numbers WITHOUT repeating. And if there was a repetition that we would move back out of the circle. now I GRAVE and GREAT difficulty in closing my eyes. I've never experienced such. Then again, when ever I'm told to close my eyes, I've always NOT been able to keep em closed. They some how always kept opening. But tonight, I was under severe stress and strain, in trying to keep em closed. Guys I never said or told anyone, that this course would be easy, in particularly my homophobia, MAY be rehased. I ain't sure. I've only done 1 class out of 6.
I loved the idea of the or the ananlgy of the "Fridge" conecpt. THey had a drawing  board and "Fridge" papter. Whereby any ideas put on the the "Fridge" paper, that it would be revisisited the next class or wahtever.
Our next item was what was the group execteatin of the course.

• Sharing Experience
• Achieveing stronger of understanding of self interation with other men in group
• Feel happier amongst urself
• I contributed to this particaurlar item, whereby I said that if for whatever reason that I would be TRIGGERED, cuase I was on the verge of it. Consdiernign I had enoguh crap from my friends behavior last week etc., I didn't need anymore. E.g when I said the psychiatric e.g from my Aunt that was about to trigger me. So my point, would da course be able to curtail the triggers. 

Next, What IS Personal Development. 

Strive in Self Discovering. As my device(Sammy 2 where I was taking notes - was acting up), I missed a bit of this section of the class. 

We were then asked to describe terms that relate to "Gay"/"Bisexual"

• Faggot(TOO Well Known to me - and everyone else hahaha)
• Steamer(Never heard of it)
• Shift lifter(Never heard of it)
• Cock Muncher(Never heard of it)
• TLDNS: The Love who dare not speak his name(Never heard of it - apparently its to do with Oscar Wilde)
• Friend
• ARse Bandit(Recently I was called this at Gay Pride 2014)
• Friend of Dorothy(more than likely referring to the film - The Wizard of Oz)
• Ponce(The Look/Non Word)(Never heard of it)
• Bum Snatcher(Never heard of it)
• Bitch
• Faghag(A friendly term of whereby a FEMALE is a companion to a gay man - VERY popular in the United States, kinda popular in Republic of Ireland. NOT sure about NI

Then onto DEFINITIONS of Internalised Homophobia. I found this to be of quite interesting. 

Distance from Early Friendships(In my case - they chickened out)

Soften the blow of being attacked by calling the person who calls you name, the same name. E.g if a guy calls you faggot and YOU are gay, then you call him faggot, and it will diffuse the situation. 

Low self Esteem/ Confidence
Avoidance of Gay venues
Wreckless sex ie Boilerhouse

There was a guy there who lived in Oz, and enjoyed every moment of it gay wise. When he moved back to Ireland, he was gobsmacked. This particular guy developed Internalised Homophobia. So I guess even from writing this blog post, has thought me that I actually HAVE Internalised Homophobia. And I don't even say it. In my case it is in relating to the abuse I would have received in the past.

So we got onto a lighter form of the course ie POSITIVES of Being Gay

• Meeting the wright person
• Learn more about your family and friends
• Love
• IN touch with your feelings
• can turn stereotypes
• Its OK if you look after your appearance
• I will survive
• Independent
• Beauty
• More wittier
• Aesthetic
• WE can be good talkers and listeners
• Better life
• Expressions Sexually
• Sexual health matters
• Open Minded
• Sensitive
• Tolerant
• Close Friends
• Motivation

So then at the very end of the course, we were all asked to give one word, some said They felt Younger when they came out of the course, others said they feel HAPPIER now. I said Very Intriguing and inquisitive of the course. 

Some were congratulated for ENTERING a gay venue ie the Outhouse for the first time. I remember the time like it was yesterday, my first time going into a gay bar ON ME OWN. It was unreal. My heart pumping etc., etc., Especially going into the Outhouse. Wow  was my heart not pumping. hahaha

So in the middle of the class, we were encouraged to go for a break. We all went down to the cafe. One of the class members Tom(I think), got talking to me. MY my, my confidence in TALKING to strangers like as in class members or etc., etc., BUY clearly I don't react too well to GROUP sessions etc., I did eventually come out of my shell. But  talking to my peers in person to person was a cinch. So I then got talking to Richard who is a Filipino from Manila. I was most intrigued of is name. I thought his name was in a Filipino spelling BUT nope. He said its just on his Birth Cert. heheeh. So then we went back up to the room to do our last exercise, which I have outlined above. Then the class came to an end for week 1. Our first session was over. So we should be settling in quite well. hehehe. So I came back down with my Raspberry tea I got during the break to finish it off in the cafe. I bumped into Searson. Great to see him.

On the way back home, I came across Yurean's place. So then I noticed something funny with the numbering. In that Numbers 90 DOWN to 1 is on the same ROAD as 1 to 90 on the same side. BUT with a BIG difference. Summerhill Parade AND Ballybough Road on the same road. Quite Unusual at the very least on the Numbers aspect.

NEWS

Cardinal Sean Brady has stood down after Pope Francis accepted his resignation. He stood down over age grounds. His tenure has been overshadowed by controversy over the hiding of the Brendan Smith case. Archbishop Éamonn Martin now replaces Sean Brady and becomes the Roman Catholic Primate of All Ireland and Archbishop of Armagh.

Buckingham Palace has announced that the Duchess of Cambridge Kate Winslet is pregnant with a second child. I wish her the very of everything.

A young lad by the name Quaid CLeven has won an award for wanting the inclusion of EVERYONE when it comes to sign language. He wants everyone to use sign language, so that everyone "can communicate together ". He would like the Irish public to get starting on Sign Language so that the Deaf people can communicate as he puts it. Also would be ideal if the Late Late Toy Show would do the same. Thats his hopes.

RYanair have purchased for $11bn for 737 Max. It can accommodate more passengers, fuel efficient. And travel further too.

Diary 7th September 2014

So I got up for a short time, after realisizing  that Beverley Hills 90210 Omnibus wouldn't be taped as my box was full. I in particular needed Ep4 and Ep5 of Season 1. Which I never knew Ep5 was on thou.

So I continued back to sleep. Then after my hibernation, I got up nice and prepped up and showered. I have decided that I shall let my bodily hair and my beard and my tache and of course my hair that i let it grow for Movember. Can't wait. The fact that sex is down the road It won't make any difference. If however, sex does come, I'll decide when the time comes. Bottomline, Ama just gonna let my hair grow for Movember. Again when the sex comes(if ever), then Ill see.

I then set about heading off to see my sis. I brought along stuff that she wanted me to get from Lidls which I got last week. So I set up which didn't take much to her Deep Fat Fryer. However the size of it, for the amt I paid. Then I blew up her Inflatable which is actually an Exercise Ball. As she was feeling a bit low, I decided to stay on with the help of a friend, I actually stayed on and said, I'll blow up the ball and so she can play with it, when she's feeling low. So I actually managed to do so. It took a bit of effort. But glad to do for someone in need. So we had cups of teas, laughs etc., At Two and Half Men as well. heheehe.

So when I arrived back home, I looked at my TV shows. During the midst, I got a notification that an old school mate of mine from High School who had a back brace wanted to become friends. Now the background to this friend, isn't too bad. But for lack of contact on any medium, I removed him. He wasn't homophobic. But he was pressing his beliefs and it bothered me at the time.

I was looking at the Diana: Her True Story movie from back in the 80s I think. It was quite fascinating. I'm assuming its based on the true story. Twould appear that she WANTED a marriage. But she was forced into marriage by the British Monarch(Royal Family). Even my own mother knew there was something going on. Nothing but a bully to Diana. She was known as the "Outcast" of the family. In fact what scared me when I heard one of the members of the public being interviewed regarding her death, he said that the paparazzi were following her in the car, which in the turn the paparazzi was doing it for us, so he made it out that WE THE PUBLIC were at fault for her death. That sent shivers down my spine. To such a sweet young person. She was only 37 if I recall rightly.

I really love looking at how things are done. Such as how are TVs made, or to my American followers, you should be familiar with Iced Green Tea, Mike  & Ikes etc., and also how Escalators and Bowling Lanes operate, Etc., etc., You get the gist of where I'm coming from. heehehe. I was always the curious one. hahaha.

Diary 6th September 2014

Well today being a quiet day.. As my Lappy was acting up, I was wondering why the time was very slow. Then I looked at my cell phone Sammy 2 and was found that Lappy 2 was behind 2hrs. So with that I quickly got ready for bed. Even a 2 or 3 hrs sleep would do me.

I was due to get up for the Vegetarian meetup at around 6ish. However with the previous banging or whatever your having yourself, hahaahah my Mom was banging at my door DESPITE her telling me she'll see me tomorrow, she came down anyways. So lack of sleep prevented me.

I was talking to Mom on the phone. In which we just chatted for a few. I of course welcomed her home from her hollier. She had previously invited me up to her place during the week. So I was between going up to her place or going to the movies to see Lucy. However the phonecall automatically I enticed me to the movies. But as it happens, I was didn't go to either event. I had also got up again for about quarter to 8. In which it was still late for the film. The film starting at 8. As it was Lucy I was intending on seeing, I was not gonna be late again.

Feeling of big huge as in gigantic, if  I consciously touch say my Jnr., i'd feel I'd be touching something minute etc., etc.,

Immediatley afterwards, I get a vicious dream of a guy in a prisonclothing ie Redish Orangie. He's being interview of something. As soon as the gard comes out of the cubicle, another insane prisoner in the shape of a bald guy, goes ape n manic. Gets the prisoner and puts him in a rope. He then jumps up and down while at the same time hanging the prisoner. The whole place goes dark. To find the culprit. Ever since I have been having darker thoughts. Thankfully of not suicide, but of a guy attacking everyone in the US. That sort of thing.

Diary 5th September 2014

Well after just a few hours sleep, I got up with a view of seeing Sex Tape(Review here) with the Best Buddies Meetup group aka Arwin's group. On my way, I bumped into Dave(who works behind the counter in Outhouse) and his friend. He too works their, Just can't think of his name. He was saying that there prob is a bunch of em, outside the Outhouse as they were closed. So I rerouted to pass the Outhouse to see if there was anyone. They all had gone.

I then went onto the cinema. Great to see it lively and bustling. Got my food and headed onto the screen. Was looking for Arwin. So I sent him a quick message just to let him know I was here. ie Checking myself in the Meetup. So he saw me. Then after the film, it was revealed that he had fallen asleep in the middle of the film. He had been at a previous meetup of a someone's birthday. So we all met outside. Had a bit of a chat. Then we all dispersed. Arwin and I headed on home. He lives close by me. So then shortly before I left him as he was quite tired, I had previously asked him, if I could add him on FB, I just couldn't remember if I actually did ask him. But eitehrway, I did ask him if he has any issues with gay people or gay rights etc., etc., Now considering his home country religion is Muslim a good chance. Am only guessing here, anyways, I was quite taken aback with his answer. His reply is he stands for Equailtiy. "If I help a poor person, don't mean I'm rich, likewise gay, If he sees a gay person in trouble and helps, don't mean he's gay.". So I said, cool, I think we'll be alrite. Ahem that his until he has to head off home due to his Visa restrictions of the Republic of Ireland.

I was chatting to a guy on Grindr. Imagine my first hook up in years. We were very close to closing the deal. heeheh. I obviously told him of my hepatitis status. BUT what stopped the meetup was his hairy chess. I ain't into a guy who has hair on his chests.

While surfing on Grindr too, I encountered a profile with an Aids symbol(In his case HIV), and I looked at his profile. I was very intrigued in what I saw. His quote NOT mine: "Seriously fellas, If you ARE going to message to ask questions: HOW I got it doesn't matter! But I'll give you a heads up lads: I didn't catch it  licking stamps. AND Yes I'm OK.". I just had to chat to him. I have taken a shine to him. He has helped me in ways no guy can understand. By that I mean, that I'm slowly accepting my  hepatitis B. Now this came from a guy who has HIV. He goes through the same stigma I go through, possibly worse. He is what I would call an Inspiration. I wrote back to him, and he said "Thanks fella". He reminded me that MOST guys are vaccinated against it or at least they should have been. I asked him, should I tell guys who I wanna have sex with or to just wait til I find that special guy. Bottomline must I tell of my status with causal sex OR wait til I have the relationship. His answer: "Grey area". He continued on by saying that "I think everybody responsible for their sexual health".

News

2 twin children have been found dead last night. It was then found that another person body has been found not too far from the twins bodies. It has been thought that it was a murder suicide. Now from my perspective, it is of my opinion that the older guy was suffering from depression, something like that. Now it is a possibility that the reason, that he couldn't talk about whatever was troubling him was one word STIGMA. Like my folks even would say it to me and to my sis, when I was battling depression. Oh get over it, or get out and about etc.,e tc., Its the likes of these that make people go physcotic or whatever. Bottomline, GET OUT THEIR AND TALK TO A PERSON YOU TRUST

Largest Dinosaur to ever walk the earth has been found in Argentina. It is thought to have been known as DreadNoughtis(aka Fearing Nothing) Shraanee as a plant eater. It would have weighed 65tonne. 11meter neck and a powerful 9meter tail. Measure 26meters in length

Dr. Martin Drennan , Bishop Of Galway is under fire for his comments on radio. He was referring to allocating money for Amach LGBT in Galway City. that was decided by the St. Vincent De Paul. Dr. Martin didn't want a Catholic Charity organsiation allocating money to an LGBT Group as it goes against the ethos of the Church of which he's a member of. No surprises there considering their past history of the Church.