Diary 31st January 2016

Today was a very quiet day. Although I can't fathom why my PRE - cold issues came back. By that I mean my pissing still seems to be coming out without "my permission", hahahaha. Then the sleeping which takes a few hours to actually hit the pillow and sleep??

Then I headed to my sis for a nice reminiscent movie ie the Other Guys. Awwww what great memories and laughs. We also watched the White Chicks. hahahaah. Then during the night, I then got a sudden back ache. Was I holding the rubbish bag, I doubt it. But it happened.

Diary 30th January 2016

I'm with my mom queuing up for drivers license. Then out of the blue these men come out of nowhere. I tell mom to go and get down n hide. However they spot her n shoot her in the leg. I cover up her mouth to prevent screaming. N she does what Clarkes father did in that she don't want to be saved. So the guy holds her by her hair n the screams!!!!! Then he rips off her head. I go into manic n can't scream anymore. So in a fit I attempt to jump off the floor. I tell everyone down below to move away. A woman then catches me. But she herself is caught. So that said the men them throw me off as per my wish. 

So then afterwards, after being in bed for almost a week, today was my first day officially out of bed. So I headed out to see Star Wars. 

When I came back, I put away shopping I had bought last Sunday. 

Diary 29th January 2016

I'm at a hotel. A trick is played on me. Whereby my bikey is sold. So I get him back when am told that a dog is woofing in the courtyards. I become so emotional when reunited.

I then have another dream whereby a guy flies me off into a room. Then this happens a second time. On both times, pictures of women's boobies etc is found on display. The first time I don't do anything. The second time I'm abt to attempt to delete em by selecting, however they disappear when the guy tells me they're deleted and you're fired., I react so badly to the point I scream out loud. I tell them first Am gay n second for u to first not to interview other people you automatically assume. You're some leader!!!!!! 

Maureen, My sis, mom n I are in someplace in Romania here called duag r duaw. On a white bus with the name in gold.  My sis talks to locals and I breakdown exclaiming "Il never have that"

Dad came to collect me. I got ready for to meet him. We registered the citizenship letter and then got a bite to eat in scrumptious cafe. It was scrumptious alrite. Haha. Then afterwards I came home.

For ready for the Dr appt. He examined basically. I told him abt my back trouble he wouldn't hear of it. Then with medication I told him I don't take capsules. Yet he gave em. So went to pharmacy n they told me to go back to the reception. The reception asked me with a stern face something wrong I told em. So she came back possibly from the Dr.  Then having seen no change I then decided to try n chance me arm n head to lydons pharmacy. They were so kind to change it to vegetarian Ie no capsule. So yeah. Delighted. 

Diary 28th January 2016

Sad thought but happyish towards the end. I've been diagnosed cancer ♋ as a result of the lump on me back. I tell my folks. They recommend I don't tell me sis. However I would tell her in person. I then proceed to tell her. I'll be going into hospital n chances are of me coming out of it are slim. So on my dying bed I'm there saying my goodbyes n then just abt me going that I see Mariana n her two daughters aka my two step sisters. Its what they call a miracle. I then proceed to say Mama. But then when I see Him I say oh. So I scream Mariana instead. I threaten the cop with the European court of human rights cause I know Romanian courts are as corrupt as themselves if u ever touches her with anything. I then lastly exclaim that my life was over when I came out. Enjoying family unity. Kathleen's Doncaster trip etc. Janices house Asda  with my sis meal out with the Mulligans in campo......

Maureen called by to give me grub. Then went back for further sleep. Then got up for mom. We were to collect my social welfare and then head to ndls. However with the rain, and of course traffic to add onto of all that not a chance. So we left it. The guy in post office me thinking he is Italian is actually Romanian. He told me "I'm Romanian. I see yuo are too".  Says I back to him "God You took your time. Hahaha".  So wet left it at multmesc, his reply cu placere which means you're welcome. I thought it was funny thou. Hahaha

So went to moms house for a grub too. Waited for dad to return from his lunch which he has every month with his retires teachers. Dad returns. He told me a memory which I got a fit of laughing. wherreby when my sis n i came over from Romania we went to this house in fox rock to have a meal. Then on the way home my sis says to mom or dad can we go to McDonalds. Aweee. This woman was teaching with dad. Her daughter worked out in NV orphanage. I checked up on dads computer one last time. I defaulted his email program to the original. Hehehe.

Headed to my sis. Then a cuppa. So while I was with my sis Maureen rang to congratulate me on my citizenship I told her off this memory and hence it came back to her.

So came home. 

Diary 27th January 2016

Supposed to have gone to NDLS. However my cold in the way, I couldn't be bothered. So I continued onto my folks.

I started by installing Windows Vista Service Pack 1 that was on my drive. I then removed Norton as the Norton uninstall tool had been corrupt. So I removed.  I continued on for a few hrs. So while waiting around I had heard that the Taoiseach (Irish Prime Minister) is to dissolve the 32nd Dáil). So I said to Dad I had best free up space on my Box. Hahaha. Shortly before I gave up I decided to try the emails once more and low and beholds it actually out worked. So Norton was working, updates were still downloading and emails yeah. I had re-imported the settings for dads Account settings is the Emails pop n smtp etc etc. Even though I had done this previousl, it still didn't work. 

Then I came home only to realise that the letter I had received  hadn't been opened. It was to tell that my citizenship had come through. 

Diary 26th January 2016

After a near 24hr sleep it was time to get up for to be medically assessed for my injury benefit. 

I first went to collect my medical cert albeit it took longer. The receptionist weren't calling numbers at all. 

Then I rushed onto oisin house. The nurse brought me into the assessment room. Then I was asked questions as per the form the assessor was required. He brought up my uncles death which started the whole thing with back pain etc. 

Then went to mom and dads to figure out what to do about his lappy. So I put it down to lack of updates.  So spent several hrs installing. 

Then afterwards I headed back to my place to collect my sleeves and Boi were they came in very handy tonight. I was non stop at them while I was with my sis. Reasoning being the bringing up of my uncles death then the st Stephens day massacre etc etc then whether or not Il b STARTING on disability allowance etc etc.   We looked at Alvin 4. Happy king Julien day from the film  Madagascar.

Diary 25th January 2016

Mom was to collect me for the Driver's License. 

So my first port of call was the Garda station. I was afraid the Garda would notice the days of my OLD passport as I can't find the newest r current. That went well. So my next was to go onto

NDLS(National Driver's License Section). As I had failed to bring in a Proof of Address that THEY wanted, I was placed on rejection list as I failed to have a proof of address. Like I had brought in a proof of  address from my bank, but it was a Correspondence from the bank. They wanted a STATEMENT. 

Bike

So Mom left me at the bike shop. However thou when I arrived, I was hit with a €30 bill. I was charged an extra €20 although he took a fiver off at least that was something. When he mended the old tyre it burst on him and hence he couldn't get my permission to meet me know as he wasn't given a contact number.

So then afterwards, I went back to bed for the whole day until my appointment tomorrow with Social Welfare in Óisín House. 

Diary 24th January 2016

Well what a night of health endurement I went through. It involved piss and cumming. Which the latter I don't understand. I wasn't even horny. I wouldn't mind but I did go to the loo during the night.

So then I got up eventually. Looked at yesterday's news. Then afterwards I got ready for to head on my long trail of going into town to go and get "Marianna" and my sis's care bare and of course my two Birth Sisters. hehehe. I left at 17.18. I arrived at 17.40. So I was very close. heheheeh. The shops were closing at 6pm. They close early on a Sunday. haahahah. So then my first shop was Toymaster for to get my sis Care Bear, I had seen the other day. Then next to go and get my BIG teddy bear. I then quickly googled opening hours, for PC World. As it was closing at half 6, I said I'd go. As my GoPro didn't come with any memory let alone Internal Memory. heeheh.

So then I struggled as ever hahaha, with my trousers falling off me with severe weight loss, and then. So I came back to my place for a brief period to get my sleeves, and to drop Marianna and my Sis 2 back at home. heheeh.

So then I headed onto my sis. I wanted to get Coffee and Cereal ie the Vegan Cereal. So I headed to Centra in Fairview. Then I headed on to my sis, again struggling with my bags. I then headed onto her. We chatted invariably. I told her of my episode of what happened to me when I was with Ailish and NOel last ngiht. She put it down to a Virus, that I may have picked up. Then I made a point of why I name my teddys after my birth family ie Mariana and my two birth sisters. Like with me I don't even know what my Mother looks like let alone my two sisters. My sis ova here  was saying that it might be an idea to wait until am ready. However with my age, I think it'd be better if I were told EARLIER in life than if I were to wait.

Diary 23rd January 2016

One of many weird but sad dreams whereby my mate Brendan S' mom might be on deaths door. Then another one whereby my cousin Dara is after someone who  murders his mom.

Then eventually I woke up with a slight pain in my throat. So took ibuprofen. Then tirelessly brought the bike to the cycle shop to mend as a result of a puncture on Thurs night coming home from Cineworld. Then I headed on towards the folks, and reaslised that I left my glasses behind so I had to go back all the way to my place go get em. Then up to mom and dads. So when I arrived, I had a nice meal. Then I got down to business or as one would say got down and dirty hahaha. So my first job was back up his documents etc., and his emails. then the reinstallation. Then afterwards we had meals in between. Norton was giving me hassle in that I wasn't able to give him the newest version. So rendered him with an old version. Then the emails wudnt work, which this it kept asking me to enter his username and password, however that didn't wouldn't work. The updates took their time. So in the end I left it at that.

I was also due to pop into Ailish and Noel. While there I began to feel dizzy, very cold and my fingers were getting numb. I felt faint consistently, even my body getting very cold constantly. To the point my teeth were clattering. I put it down to the fact that they didn't have any heating on. But then I just  remembered that I shitted out every single shit previously. Could it be that I got rid of too much!!!!!  Who knows. So I went back into mom n dad's shivering. Twas quite harrowing. Twas a bit frightening. But thou getting back to the actual topics or chats thou. We chatted about various things such my new Nexus Tablet etc., Then Ailish went to ask about the Mulligans. I found out recently in the last few days, that JP had blocked me on my old account which of course I was distraught at the time. Then afterwards, Ailish then asks me "Do you think she don't like Gays". She's referring to Kathleen btw. I said there's no doubt. Like I explained to them that she never replies to any of my emails or even Facebook Messages. So then Noel asked me how do they deal with Christmas lights. heheeheh. Like everytime they take down or even put up the lights they end up tangled. So I explained that whatever way you put them up, then you go the opposite. Then I had told them that I really enjoyed doing up my Dad's lappy. hahhaah. Everyone knows a computer. BUt these days, jobs are in developers. 

Diary 22nd January 2016

Well the most anticipated day finally arrived where I was finally gonna get "Mariana" Teddy bear or whatever shape or form. hahaha. 

I had asked my mate Barry to come out with me to Leixlip whereby he told me that there is a toyshop that I would like. He made it out to be a huge shop with plenty of teddy bears etc., etc., 

So then I made my way. As reported yesterday I had a puncture in my back wheel and as such I would have to walk in. Now I had aspirations and ambitions as to how to get "Marianna" home, would I need to get it delivered home or what. 

On the way thou, I brought my two "gloves" which techncially are my Neck Scarfs. HOwever one of them had gone missing. As I could not in good fatih leave him behind, I had to trawl all theway back to get him. hehehe. He's my everything. With this thou it rendered me being late for Barry. We were to meet at the BUs Stop. 

When we arrived at Leixlip, We had a subway, sub. Twas delicious. They have a new Veggie platter yoke. Twas scrunmptious and of course my precious Olives. mmmm. Then came the time to bring "Marianna" home, hwoever when I arrived, it was unreal.It was a pokey of place. I was deeply disappointed. I didn't even buy one, not one. Then I went across the road to go and have a lookise. However the disapsobiulityes of the children in the shop of which is a shop that sells to Children with INtellecutal Disabsiltyes, brought too much harsh memroeis of the Orpahange. So I just left. We then went on a lovely walk but very deep walk by means of convo. I revealed that I was a result of a rape. He's under the illusion that women are aborting everyday regardless of the law. If the referendum is passed that it'll just be easier. So between me saying Yes or No, I still am conflicted. 

So then we got a drink of cafe. We were sitting beside a beautiful firelit fireplace. OH it was homeley. heheeheh. We were sitting relaxing and calmly. I did my usual biting while in the restauartnt bathrooms. I couldn't hack that I thoguht I could get a clearer picture of wherther to get Yes or No. 

Then we got the bus back. He got off at his stop. Got myself a teddy as a rep of my birth sis' of wich I don't know her name. Awwwww

Then afterwards, I relaxed for a few minutes, before I was to go out again. hahaah. So I got ready and then headed on my merry way. I chatted to Gerry for a few minutes. and litereally said hello and goodbye and then headed onto my film. heheeheh. 

Diary 21st January 2016

Well while I was sleeping Afterall I hadn't slept for the day Wednesday heheheh.

So as such I had the following dreams.

Whereby I throw the bomb into the Domican College grounds which is a secondary school up the road from where I grew up. hehehe. However the red light is flashing and as such I throw it at the lights of Grace Park Road. We all are affected.

The above dream in my opinion was as a direct result of when Mom told me thaat American's say "Get a life" relating to my sis' personal issues(which obvious I ain't gonna get into).

Then a thought entered my mind, in which I actually got up was I'm with my partner and that I have an episode of stress ie crying consistently and that the partner can't handle it. So he dumps me into Kilduff and he says he loves me with all his heart, but he can't hack this with this "Mental case", so Kilduff then says its at this time he needs all the support afterall his FAM in Romania dumped him. The partner says he didn't even know he was from Romania let alone his background.

So eventually I got up. I was to collect my 2nd payment of €101 from Basic Supplement Welfare Allowance. hehehe.

So then I came back did a bit of recording. Then afterwards I popped down to my sis to see her. Had a wee chat, as I was in a rush for to see Star Wars. haahah.

However when I arrived, I again got my times mixed up. hahaahah. So I waited til 9.20pm instead. haahah. So shortly after I left Cineworld, for to head home, that my bike got punctured. I was not in the mood to walk home with the bike. So I cycled albeit, not the best in the world, hahaha, but hey. But after Quinns, I walked home from there. There was a terrible noise of a gunshot consistently coming from my bike. hahaha.

Diary 20th January 2016

Today was a semi-quiet day. hahahah. What I mean by that is simply put I was to go to the Dr.s Appt to be precise the Blood Test. So I headed down their. When I was getting one of the Blood Test I noted one of the tubes wasn't filling up fully. So I joked perhaps all my blood has been taken, hahhaah. But axs it happens its just the structure of the Test Tube.

So onwards to my next errand. Which was to go and get my NDLS Driver's License form filled out my the Cops ie the GArdaí. However I regret to say that as I don't have a passport with me or PHotoID, they weren't able to fill out at all.

So that said, or moving on as one would say, My next errand was to withdraw more money for my expenditure. hahaahah. So I went tot eh ATM only to find out that it wasn't working. So perhaps they were maintaining it or whatever. So I went in. Withdrew. Then I said I may as well ask. When I go to log into my INterent Banking Account, they at times ask me for my Home Phone and Work Phone. Of which my House phone, my OLD phone were in use. So they updated needed information.

Then afterwards, I then headed as I only remembered on my way that I was to collect my glasses. THen on the way I decided to go and get the GoPro aswell while I was at it. hahaah. ON the way of getting my glasses  I noticed this boat like statute I took pics of it, by plenny it. hahaahah. So then I got my glasses refitted. hahaah.

Then on the way back up to PC World where GoPro was to be born, mmmm, I encountered a 1916 Memory Tour bus which by the way costs €20, but anyways I took a few pics of the bus in question and of course the old style bus they are now using for Tourist buses.

I then went to PC World, so then I went to get one and I was told it don't come with a MicroSD card at all, not even a Built-in memory, so I asked what's the recommended size of which I was told 32GB HC. Then I wanted to get a stand for the actual GoPro. I would have had just the bare amount, unfortunately the Insurance was what took it all away. So the salesperson was telling me that I would be able to bring it back if anything happens to it. So to be a smart ass, I asked what if I literally drop it on the ground and stamp on it. Well the laugh I got. hahaha.


So then I headed towards my bike from Specsavers, I encountered Amnesty International. I wanted to subscribe to them, however I was tied for time, So I went to Specsavers, did my business, then I went back to collect my bike, before I head on off, I approached him. I asked that I sign up. He was quite taken aback. Highly appreciative. He's never had anyone approach him, cause normally they approach the people etc.,

However on the way to PC World, I encountered a shop known as Jean Stop, whereby they were selling clothing and of particular type. I was interested in the undies that has "explicit" sayings like "Av ya seen my nuts", "Makin' bacon", etc., etc., So I went with Av ya seen my nuts.

So then I went back on home. In the meantime, I noted thou that it was 13.04 in which my time to finish the recording I had left on while I was out.

So then I decided. to get my food shopping done too. hehehehe. So I rang Mom as she has a car to help me with my soon to realise €145 in Tescos(€71), Lidls(€24) and SmallChanges(€50.55). Then I realised that I had left my Coffee and Cereal behind. So I went back out to Tescos in Drumcondra to SOCALL get my Coffee however they were too expensive as I left behind more coins. hahahah.

So then I popped into Centra to see if I could get any coffee, but as it happens, they didn't have. I then went into Pizza Dog, to get meself some hotfood. While waiting, a woman came in to hand in her CV. The worker who served me, was talking to her. He asks for experience etc., HOWever thou, she was wanting to apply for a driver's job. When the woman left, he told me, a woman driver abnormal, something like that. I didn't like this tone. So I said back to him: "Times are achanging man".

Then I came back home to get some needed rest. hahahah. I then started to undo the shopping that I got. and put them away into Freezer, Fridges and the dry food too. hehehehe

Diary 19th January 2016

Well today was quite a day. hahahah. After my hibernation, mmmmmmmmmm, I was to get up for half 2 so for to get ready for my doctor's appointment. However I had to get up slightly earlier as the rubbish that was against the door, where I left it yesterday, I spent time in moving some of the rubbish. And putting stuff away. hehehe

So I headed to my drs appointment for to get him to fill out a Medical Report for the Driver's LIcvense. He told me that there's no need for me to get a Medical Reporter as my General Health hasn't changed since my last driver's license issuing. I said what about my back or even my "Lovers" ie the eyes. hahaha. The back he was very against it. He went on by saying "You don't want to drive", I said of course I do. hahahah. So he said don't put it down. So he got me to read letters as per the Eye report.

Then onto Drumcondra to get my big Mother of a savings. I went to credit union, and I said to him I'd like to withdraw from my account and leave a couple of euros to keep the Account opened. So that said I gave him my Member number and he said that's back in the stone age, ie donkey years ago. So with that in question he asked for security questions. Apparently I had left out the digit 4 in my membership number. hahaha

Then onto An Post to get my Rent Allowance. While waiting there was a kid with his mother and brother or whatever. And the kid told the clerk that he'd wish to put €10 into the account. So adorable to look.

Then onto my Medical Cert to be put into Store St., Then onto my infamous Specsavers debacle. As reported on Sat, Maudy was making a racket. So I brought in the glasses for to drop them in for repair. I rang Maureen to find out what exactly did she tell the Supervisor. Cause I did get it for €33.50 which my aunt had said. She told me that she had said to them I'm a good Customer. Says I to her for a person whom the MOTHER pays??? how am I a good customer? She then answered it was in relation to that I give them custom ie walking in etc., etc.,

Then onto Easons for to get +Inflatables Stanescu R2D2. However I was distraught to learn they ain't selling anymore. None in the warehouse etc.,e tc.,So then I asked if my Easons Voucher is working anymore she put likely no. As there is no balance. I in the meantime purchased a 1916 Magazine. While the salesperson was doing up my purchase a noise or something was heard. Says I to her perhaps a "Ghost", haahaha.

So then just passing a Garda Stop van, I decided to try my luck and see if he could fill out my NDLS form, he said he's no stamp, which is required.

So I continued onto Pennys to get the stuff I failed to have enough for the last day. Then Mom rings me, while on the way to H&M, she brought up my Mom, my birth Mom. She was saying there's nothing can be done, until I brought up Andrea. I started to get teary. So I said to Mom am here in the City, so with that she changed the subject.

So then I headed to Tescos on the way to sis to get a few goodies. Then I headed onto my sis, of which I brought my sleeves - awwwww. Then while I was on the way up to my sis, I described this to my sis. I had two Neck Scarfies on the middle of the handlebars. While gaining momentum or speed, the scarfies were "flying" and eventually flipped over. I thought this was so adorable. Says I to me sis that If I had my GoPro, I would have recorded this and shown it to her. hehehe. She then noticed my Sleeve agitation, hahaah. Reason being its all non-too familiar. aka Social Welfare and an odd time my Mom but defo SociaL WElafre. As reported, I will be faced with a €400 bill of owing them back money they overpaid me in the coming weeks. My sis and I did a few calculations. So following are the calculations:

IB 84.50
SWA 101
RA 77

So the above I normally get would be 265 approx.

So with the deductions. The highest I can afford to payback would be €50 a week to SW. Which would last two months. So following is what would be the week WITH deductions

IB 84.50
SWA 51
RA 77

So that brings it to 191. That's just bare minimum for Bills. So I would be having for myself about €10 a week, I would double it when I want to see a film in iMAX ie for the iMAX Fee AND the food of course. When I go to iMAX I LOVE food in their ghahaha. It adds to the movie. or as they say "Be a part of the movie".

Diary 18th January 2016

Well today was a relaxation day. eheheheh.

Was looking at my last Dallas, for in like forever. Quite emotional to be honest. hahhaah. And I wouldn't mind I had a dream of Sue Ellen and Cliff of whom they had an affair in the series, and Cliff wanted an abortion whereas Sue Ellen wanted to keep the baby but Cliff didn't want If I recall was NOT in the series. In the series BOTH parties wanted the baby, but sadly she lost it.

I rang for a Blood Test appointment to for Kilduff. She wants my Blood Results.

Then it was time for the Vantage Point film. I seen it about 2 or 3 times. The plot was very simple, but the construction so confusing and all over the place. BUT the music was just so compelling. Quoting myself: "Music adds to the film" Well this particular one was fantastic. heheeh

So while looking at it, I was cleaning beside the bed more so down at the end of it. hahaah. I came across MORE Christmas Lights that I never put up, whoopise. hahahaha. then the dust got to me, so I quet for the night. hahahah.

Diary 17th January 2016

Today I got up after my sleep out hahaha. I then proceeded to listen to 9 voicemails. Maureen was saying and complaining that her legs were cold, despite me telling her that I ain't gonna do such. Then I continued to listen to Mom's. Her first voicemail was a very jumpy mood saying I will pick you up and then the next voicemail was from Mom again this time in a sombre mood as much as to say she was disappointed. Although I had heard from one of MANY voicemails from Maureen saying that things didn't work out for my sis. She was to have shown Brooklyn to Mom and Dad. I had seen it already.

So that said we were to meet for Brooklyn take 2 with my sis. ehehehe. Afterwards then I joined with Mom, Dad , and my sis to go and see the movie up at the folks. My mom found it very emotional as she recalled her Aunt Eleanor emigrating to the USA. They all found it funny when I got "hot". hahahah what a  laugh. SO we then had a dinner first then the movie and then shortly before heading home, we had a cuppa.

So then I had hoped to go and get my new baby R2D2 and of course the clothes in question. I really wanted to show me sis. However timing wise, it wasn't to be. I do hope on Tues. heeheh

So then onto what I unexpected what would happen. I made my way to my sis with first getting food for her and myself. Then a few hours into the night, I had made up my mind to go and ring Fiona Brennan - Spitari to ask questions relating to my long wanting Mother ie Birth Mother. Likewise my sis wanted the same for her family too. In the interest of privacy I shall leave out my sis' privacy. On the other hand, for me personally thou, I will outline the points.

• I was told that my Mom NEVER saw site of me and immediate put me in the Orphangage. However that wasn't the case. I was with my mother for TWO WEEKS(Which brings a large smile to my face as I write this).
• Fiona told me that I "copied" the other orphans behavior like banging heads, biting sleeves etc., etc., And as such did NOT display Mental Health problems at the time. 
• However one thing I was most shocked was that I learned that the orphans EXCLUDING my sis and I were actually experimented. I ain't sure exactly what was the actual product or whatever. Then my sis explained as such why the behavior ie the side effects of the experimentation. 
• I was told by my Aunt etc., that my Mom didn't want me cause of the step father as I was had as a fling. This was clarified. Fiona told me the same, however, extra info was added. In that I had 2 Step Sisters ie My mom had two girls WITHIN marriage, whereas I was OUTSIDE marriage. Back in those days, Sex outside marriage was totally frowned upon. I'd imagine its still is. My stepfather who btw is actually a Police Man, don't know shit about me. hahaha. If he were to find out, things would not result the best. 

Diary 16th January 2016

Well what a day it turned out to be.

I had told my Aunty last night saying I'll cough up the money myself eventually. However my aunt came to the door, banging all sorts, windows, doors and obviously doorbell. I had told her spcailly NO.

I was to go up for to watch Brooklyn(Review here) with my family. However I wasn't really bothered and continued sleeping.

Then I was to get my new baby +Inflatables Stanescu R2D2 a Star Wars figurine. heheeheh. I saw it yesterday with Maudy. We were coming out of Easons, and wanted to know if it were for sale. The woman said yeah. Says I, I thought you only sold Books, hehehe and she said no sir we sell everything. hahaha.

So then I just slept it out the whole night.

Diary 15th January 2016

Two very weird dreams. One being Sue Ellen wants to have Cliff's baby, however he wants the procedure BUT she don't.

I was to call to O' Farrell to go and contact him in 3 weeks time.

I got up eventually hahahah for to meet my Aunt on my monthly meetup. We had a nice pleasant chat. hehehehe. A bit emotional relating to my Mom in Romania, but nothing can be done. Then we chatted of the recent goings on with Social Welfare and now the Mother issues, On my way to the bike, I saw my baby +Inflatables Stanescu R2D2 which is a character from Star Wars franchise. I was overwhelmed. hehehe. I intend on getting it. heheeh.

So then afterwards, I headed then to Specsavers for Take 2 in terms of my glasses. I had found my old glasses that are rimless. So I asked if they could just put my old lenses on the new frames and the woman said no, as they are rimless and they can't be put into Framed glasses. So I left it at either I find my lenses or pay up. hahaah

So I popped up to my sis for a brief period. We had a nice cuppa tea n chat. heheheeh. Then afterwards, I headed n back home.

Then afterwards, I headed on back home for a period. before heading on back out for to see Star Wars.hehehehhe. So while I was at home, I got a doorbell ring. It was a courier delivering a package for Flat 6. While answering the door I accidently hit off my drive and it then stopped my recording which was an awful shame as I needed the space on my Sky Box for the Batman movies. heehehe. So then it was my intention to get clothes that I couldn't get yesterday and to get my R2D2 +Inflatables Stanescu . hheeheh. However both shops were closing at 8, and I received 2 phonecalls which delayed me ie I wasn't able to get the stuff.

So then I headed onto my night out, hahahah. I was getting slightly nervous with being in the Outhouse. Like I hadn't been there since before Christmas. So that being the case, I had a chat with the lads. Twas lovely and pleasant heheeeh. Then I headed onto the cinema.

Diary 14th January 2016

Today finally came the day of my Psychiatric App. My main objective was to get the required help on how to deal with my recent trauma of Social Welfare or as Dr. Christina puts it as Financial Stability. But moving on thou, my trauma from Romania too. So I met my sis for moral support.

So then afterwards, I then headed on back home. eheheheh. I was looking at the news. Then I started to look for my Driver's License and my glass lens. hehehe.

So after awhile, I got ready to head onto Cineworld to see Star Wars. heheheh. It's the only movie that's out there that am interested. Like there's Oscar 2016 Nominated movies out at the moment, but I've no interest in em. hahaha. So just as I had my arm exposed as I was changing into my Star Wars tshirt, I just ate my arm as if it were my sleeve. Its my new baby now. awwwww. So then I headed on out.

I wanted to get Google Chromecast which allows to "Cast", videos, pictures etc., to a TV. hheeheh. Also DVD Recordables for to create a Windows 8.1 Installation Recoverable Media. heheeheh.

So then I headed to Pennys to looksie around, Initially, I wasn't gonna bother, but one of the mannequins attracted me to him. mmmm as he was wearing a Black Short Shorts, and Bright Red/Orange Tshirt Workout or Performance. So then I picked out few items, however I then went to check out the cash in my bag, and surprise surprise I had nothing but the "clothes on my back" as they say. I just had enough for food in the cinema. I had miscounted. So I just left the clothes back.

When I got back, I was looking for the rope cable that I usually tie my bike along with the lock, and I noticed it was missing. So I checked inside. Me thinkgs it was stolen.

Diary 13th January 2016

I got up pretty early for to get a few errands done. My first was a nice start to the day, by means of having a cuppa with my sis.

Then my next was to get to Social Welfare. Today was simply to collect my last payment via check. hahahaha. Then I told them that what was on my mind for several days to weeks, in that they were overpaying me. Now I was advised by my folks not to say a word. However, this would render me being broke in weeks to come when it comes the time to repay them. So I decided that I bring it up today so that they can start the repayments asap. So I'll get a letter n I'll pay them back over 400. It was on my mind for days to weeks

So then I went to Specsavers to fix glasses more so a replacement. However as it wasn't a manufacturing fault Il b charged €56 unless I get my lenses. However, that said, I did in the meantime find my older glasses. So I'll try my luck and see if anything can be salvaged.

I then went to An Post to get my rent allowance as per standard. You may recall guys, that the guy who served me a few months ago, and I had a huge smile on my face. Spitting image of Gerry's wife PAuline's Sister's son Aaron. But this guy is so cute. heehhe. He even dresses like as O' Farrell says: "He's one of us", ie I bet u a €1000 that he's gay. hehehehe.

So then I went onto AIB to lodge money from both the Cheque and the Rent Allowance. The AIB Lodge machine got my cheque stuck and got worried. I tried getting it out. heehehe. I got it out eventually.

So then I headed into Gerry to chat with Gerry. While chatting he had a TV with beautiful pictures on and the music. He told me its an app known as RTE Gold. hehehe.

I then headed onto Mom n dad's to return their lunch box and bag. I then wanted to check dads computer 💻 original installation dates being 2007. He wanted to check his UPC(now known as Virgin Media) however He or I didn't know the password.

So then afterwards, I headed on home for a sleepy bed, as I was to get up early for tomorrow's PHysciatric App.

Diary 12th January 2016

Today was not bad. Twas alrite. heeheheh

I woke up at midday. Couldn't sleep any further. So I turned on my Electric blanket, to half way. It eventually helped. When it did, my sis had arrived. hahahah.

So my sis did her downloading. I told her that my baby, Windows 10 had arrived. Awww my baby. heheeh. So I told her to ensure she gets everything she needs BEFORE the upgrade which will result in loss of files. So then we headed to her place via Tescos. Got a few things there. hehe. So I headed on off early. She has an appoitnemten tomorrow. heheheh

So when I came back, I continued on to look for the Driver's License. I'm getting this sense that I have actually seen it in my apartment.

Diary 11th January 2016

Well today was quite an emotional day. So I coped with it my self-harm which as I said to my sis, that I use my sleeve BEHIND the scenes and the skin ie biting the arm when I got a chance. It all started off when my Pops collected me to objectively to go and get my printer. I was using it to go and reconnect with my pops and obviously of course to print in my place instead of my folks.

So like I said my Dad collected me, we headed on up to Airside to go and get the printer. We headed to PC World. I saw the printer I was interested in. ehehhee. Then afterwards, I wanted to get a network cable aka RJ45 for my connection between the Sky Box and the Router so that I could get my Sky Box Sets and the HD channels whcih I will add onto my subscription very soon. heheeheh. I had hoped for tomorrow, however my Payment for the week that I missed my payment of the MEdical Cert aka the Injury Benefit. hehehehe. SO we'll see. But that said thou, that I do intend, on applying for that extra subscription, hehehe.

So conetinetueing on I saw a Hard Drive for 5TB for about €200. At first I didn't get it, I wanted to see price wise in Harvey Norman's. So my Dad and I headed there, and compared prices. hehehe I was most suprised thou with their prices. heheeheh. However thou it was 2TB of CLOUD storage, which I've no interest in at this moment in time. Then I headed back to PC World to get the HDD. In Harvey's thou, my Dad and I looked at washing machine. heeheh. I was amazed at Harvey Norman's staff responded when I told the staff member that the HDD was more expensive than PC WOrld's.

So then we got a bite to eat in TravelLodge what used to be the Little Chef. I had meself a Vegetarian LAsagnae. heheeh. However the fact that it was so creamy and not forgetting the cream or maynossaie on the salad. SO yeah I had the shits for the rest of the day.

So then I headed back home with Dad to his place. Put up my decorations in the attic for Christmas. hehehe. In his place of course. Then afterwards I was joined by my sis to head to my Aunt Colette. She is currently in an Orthopaedic Hospital. As I said previously she had suffered a mini-stroke back in November of 2015. So seeing her really through me off. HOWever thou' I greeted her by "Queen Brady", hahaahah. But seeing her so frail or with grey hair etc., etc., I just was not prepared. Like aging etc., then to hear of my Dad's friend with Aneurysm, so yeah as u can gather why it was an emotional day.

So I continued self-harming on my arm in Mom's car etc., etc., even when pissing etc., So then we went back to Mom's place to go and get a cuppa. hehehehehe. I then headed back to my place with my new printer, my new hDD etc., etc., heheheheheheh.

I also got a chance to question about my Driver's license. As Mom wants' me to drive again, I need my license. However I have lost it. So with that in mind, I was going to find out the procedure on Los/Stolen License. So what I've to do is Medical Report/Eye Sight Report and obviously firstly get my glasses fixed. hehehehe. So then I fill out an Application form with €35. hehehehe

Diary 10th January 2016

Well today was not bad a day. Fairly quiet to b honest. As I had gone to bed late, I was slightly late for my sis. When I woke up, I awoke to 2 voicemails ALL from my family home. Quiet curious I was. So I listened to my voicemails, all I could here was Dad saying Printer and to veto it or something like that. I was under the illusion he wanted something printed off or whatever or that maybe there was an error. So on the way home, I got a thought whereby, I was being put into a trap ie that they find out am buying my +Furry Babys Stanescu for my sis as well.

So when I arrived up, I got a bit of grub. Then I said to Dad where's ur baby something like that. I was acclaiming what's the issue or whatever. So he says to me, "Here's ur baby", hahahaha. So that said it was Maudy's printer. I said to myself, wow, a junkyard. That I get second hand stuff. So I said at the time without acknowledging a lie that it ain't compatible with my computer which at the titme would have been the truth cause I looked it up and it only stated WIndows Vista being the latest version. So then I also noticed that it does not have a Photocopier aspect. So in the end I did not take it on the basis of the lack of the photocopy function.

So then I headed back home to collect my sis' new +Furry Babys Stanescu and my sleeves. heheheh. So we both watch Drake n Josh

Diary 9th January 2016

Several but weird dreams

I'm in a party or whatever and as a dresscode is undies. I get so Horny that I wanna release myself. While releasing I do so in the toilets, However there's a situation of whereby there's a couple of peoples waiting outside. It finishes when they disappear.

Cristiano Ronaldo does a strip tease mmmm. He strips down of Undies over undies etc., then just about we see his ball(wink wink!!!), He gets a stage fright.

Then separately my folks n sis' pop down however I don't want em however they see my head. So I open the door. They have a looksie around.

Then as I couldn't further sleep, I then put on my onesie, I then started to mess with cables, as I needed space for my PVT recordings. So for that I have two HDDs, but no cables. So I looked tirelessy for the cables. Of which I eventually found it.

So then I was looking at TV well more so movies. WHile doing so, I was sadly taking down decorations. HOwever that said, witht eh Christmas just gone, I honestly didn't have any sadness taking em down, not even taking down my pop's decorations with him.

So then I got ready to head out to get my sis and I the puppys of which I saw over the Christmas a husky for my sis and a PAtch Jnr exact twin. As I wasn't terribly excited of another Patch Jnr, there was another one just like my sis's Floppy but mine's called Kathleen. However this one is a bit sturdier. So that said, I said I'd get him and name him NOEL. heheeheh. My folks they'd be named after. So I then headed to Lidls to get a few Workout gear. hehehe

So afterwards, in the terecoruceries rain, I came back home as I wasn't gonna hang around for a few hours for the film.

So I came back to learnt that my PVT had cut off my recording of Meet THe Fockers which was a huge blow. But I had ran out of space on my USB Device. :(. So I obviously wasn't gonna restart as I was heading to a 2hr and 13mins film. So bottomline, the film started at 20.50 and finished at 23.15. So If I were to start a recording on my PVT ie a 2hr film, I'd have to start it 20.30 and it would finish at 22.30. Now my film would STILL be on, by the time I'd get out let alone home, it'd be too long the file. heheheh

Diary 8th January 2016

Thinking of moving to Galway however CineWorld prevent me as I'm subscribed to them they've no other branch I realize I'll never b able to leave Dublin so I just self-harm via biting viciously my arm. 

So then I had slept again. As I failed to sleep right up to what I had hoped, I got up an hour beforehand. hehehee. 

Again I was to be up for 10 for Dad's decorations, however, one extra ingredients. and that was to Take 2 to go and get the Bank Statements. However this time, I had my card and PIN. That said I could have done this without a card, eitherway I did print all my printing in the Bank of the statements. 

Then I headed on off back to Mom's car and we both headed on off to Folk's place to coneitnet on with the decorations. This time we were in the back garden. Again continuing on, with breaks etc., etc., Then Mom dropped me to the Credit Union to withdraw for the Printer I hope to get on Monday. 

So then afterwards, I then headed back to bed as I again failed to sleep. 

Diary 7th January 2016

I'm in a restaurant of the worst service in my life. Initially, I see singing about gay people like a laugh or whatever. I ignore and sit down with my mates. We have a great meal except main meal in which one of my mates asks the waitresses where is it. In the meantime, the waiters start stripping tease which was hot. Mmmm n yet I felt nothing. Is it cause the appropriateness of the action. Cause I went to the gay party then but was told to go back or I was given dirty looks. However, there was one strip tease that got me going thou, hahaha in which he starts to use a scissor to rip his undies. mmmm

I slept until about 3am, in which I had the above dream. Then afterwards, I just laid awake with my legs paining me. so with that in mind, I eventually got up for to get ready for to take down Dad's decorations with him. So my sis n I were collected. Had a bit of grub. Then we got to work,  Afterwards, Both my sis n I headed on home. 

So then afterwards, I headed on to sleep as a failure of lack of sleep previously. 

Diary 6th January 2016 - Feast of the Epiphany(Three Wise Men visited Jesus in the Manger); Women's Christmas

Little humour to start off the blog, hahaha, as I was writing the above Blog title, literally, I got a fit of the giggles. I recalled a quote from Mrs. Brown's Boys Christmas Special '14. Mrs. Brown herself says:

"Wise!!!They got fucken lost", what a class quote from her shows.

The Feast of the Epiphany aswell as being a religious aspect is actually also a day for the women, ie Women's Christmas or in Irish Nollaig na mBán. You may also hear down through your travels Nollaig Beag which means Little Christmas. Women's Christmas was actually started in Co. Cork and continens to be an Irish Tradition.

And now back onto me, hheheeheh,

I struggled along to get out of bed for Social welfare, sure who would. hahaha. But that said thou I was saying to meself, could I try tomorrow Thurs, but NO cause Dad wants my sis n I for the decorations to yank your chain down, hahha, Friday assuming he wants me at least back on Friday for the outside lights, ehhehehe so that would be a no no. I said I have to get up for the sake of the payments and more so my bank. Like at the time of writing I was €189 in DR aka DR. So I proceeded to go on in and then head to see Social Welfare. I'd prefer if I didn't but hey, nothing can be done. Besides my legs were killing me going in let alone going out. The guy then told me everything's in order. TO come back for the final time. He proceeded to give me an envelope and went to post it. I said that I wasn't ready for it. I've to get details as in Checklists ie I was to get my statements from the Bank and the Credit Union. So he told me come back with everything next week. I then asked, do I have to come in everyweek, like and he said it'll be put into the Post Office. So he told me come back with everything and that he'll post my DA for me. When he asked that I sign the checks ie the payments, he noted I was a leftie. heheheh. He also noted to me that If I had come back  a  day late that I would missed a payment. He was the exact same guy who clearly is gay who upset me the day I broke in front of the family. Hence why I have a +Furry Babys Stanescu called Kathleen as my mom cried into my arms comforting me. 

I then proceeded to head to the bank AIB to lodge my checks in. Still worrying thou no cash will go in, but nothing can be done thou. However at the same time I went in to get my statements for the Disability Allowance. Apparently it'll cost me €3 per page for them to send it out to me. Which is quiet bizarre. So I went to the machine however I tried it but it just gave me ONE page, so I'll try with my NEW card and pin. 

Then I went to the Credit Union for again to get Statements from the savings account I have. Only realised that the loan had been payed off in November a week before social welfare were going on about on my case. Hmmm.

So then I came back and decided to head back to sleep. Then while sleeping a memory came back of whereby I was l listing of all the home alone movies I have. Home alone 3 I was studying it r whatever I had watched it when I came back from a boat trip on the StenaHSS. We went over to Holyhead, Wales,UK. In a cold wet Nov. We looked around. I bought r whoever a PC Game on a Floppy disk 💾 god b the days. It was a Christmas 🎅 quiz game 🎮   there was a question about Wet wet wet a music band.

I then woke up for a few hours to do the last two Home Alone films. heheehh

Then just as I wake up I gave myself a horrible trigger point whereby when I recalled Social Welfare upsetting me on Wed 23rd and Mom comforting me. Then in the thought, I rush out wanting to cry further, however Dad being obsessed with his Christmas Lights Bulbs, warns me not to step on the ligts as at the time in reality my sis and my Dad were doing up the lights when Mom n I came back. I accidentally or whatever step on one of them. Then Dad gets angry and I squabble up or crumble to a pancake kinda shape ie embryo more so. I scream "get away from me". He then opens up and says come I want to hug you. So I in my infinite wisdom, actually go up and get hugged, however he continues to squeeze me rendering me breathless and then breaks my spinal chord in half. And then throws away my body like a rag doll down the bottom of the garden. My sis and Mom witness this and exclaim to the Emergency Services that "I have witnessed an actual murder". Remember "A life is NOT replaceable whereas , Christmas Light Bulb IS replaceable". So then I was putting on my Onesie, and I grabbed my sleeve and had at it and of course my arm while I was in teh toilet too. I was describing I use sleeves more so than arms. The arm is for private self harm or where no one is looking and the sleeve is ONLY for those who don't judge me ie my sis. 

Diary 5th January 2016

Today was fairly cool, cept the self harm, but hey, nothing's new there. hahah.

So then my sis arrived down for her traditional downloading, and more important to see Santi, Snowy and their pappy Father Christmas +Inflatables Stanescu.

Then I was to do my traditional Social Welfare financing etc., So my first port of call was to collect my Medical Cert, then onto An Post to collect my Rent Allowance which would help bring down my DR ie debt with the bank. Then I continued onto Store St., to drop in my Medical Cert. Then I decided to pop into Peadar who works in SmallChanges to hand in his card. heheeh. I never knew he had Irish. Was wonderful.  heheheeh.

So after my errands, I then headed back drenched head to toe to my sis in my place. We then headed off to her place. On the way, I got a few crisps AND my lovely Pinenuts Salad. mmmm.

Diary 4th January 2016

So when I came back from my sis, I was there blowing up my Father Christmas inflatables via electricity. However he kept getting caught in the pressies. In that the Presents that are aback kept getting tangled.,

I was checking my Google+ Notifications when one of them was my YouTube videos notifications. A user had complained that the sound was not the best, I actually agreed. Recently in the last few months I have found this to be true, so I tried various settings. Then I changed the default BEAT Audio settings and changed it. So now when I record video and Audio, I should be able to hear my voice slightly higher ie my listeners will be able to hear it higher now. heeheheh.

I was there trying to put on my onesie, when I kept falling all over the place. At first I thought for a second I couldn't remember how to put one on. hahhaah. What a laugh. heheheeh.

I was looking at an episode of The Simpsons entitled The Frying Game, whereby Homer and MArge were sentenced to Death in the electric chair. The Last RItes were being read by a Catholic Priest. MArges puts "We appreciate your coming to comfort us, but we're don't Catholic", his response i'm an IRish accent, "THen I hope you enjoy your stay in hell". Then a fight ensues between Rev Loveyjoy and the Catholic PRiest. THe Priest exclaims: "Go home and have sex with your wife". I then got a sudden thought. ARe the Catholics actually BACKWARDS, when it comes to Priests marriage etc., cause in the UK they do actually have Vickers whereby they get married ie WOMEN priests. hmmmm.

Diary 3rd January 2016

Well today was quiet, heheeh and at the same time emotive hence my self harm.

So I eventually got up after a dream of whereby Mom asks me to take over the decorations from now on. And I wouldn't mind that I was looking at the lights that are up NOW, does this suggest, that this dream will come alive in REALITY, you never know. hahaha

So that said then I headed on off  to visit my sis. hehehe. ON the way I went to get my little salad yolk I love. mmmmm. I then continued onto my sis. Whereby she loved my pressie to her. heheeheh. When I arrived, Mom left me some dinner UNCOOKED, of which I took as a total insult. So I gave it to my sis. I couldn't think for a sec why she did this. I thought it was because one of the relatives had read my blog or something. But the a "penny drops" But then my sis put a "finger on", or whatever, when she pointed out that on New Years Day meal, I was very quiet or whatever but apparently slurred speech. This was due to the night before events. I got drunk to try and block out the memorys of Stephen's Day. So while pissing as I described before, I hold my Jnr in my left hand of which normally I use my other hand, and the right hand in my mouth biting it like the sleeve. I went even further.

Diary 3rd January 2016

Diary 2nd January 2016

Well after a nightmare of 24 hrs give or take of thoughts, or dreams, was always something, I awoken to my next door neighbour, cleaning up. Says I to meself, is he just cleaning up to PREVENT floods or actually has a flood occurred. So I got out of my comfort naked self to "feel" or touch the carpet to ensure NO water was there. heehhe. Thankfully it wasn't.

I was due to getup around midnight to do some recordings, then failing that was to get up for 1ish, however that didn't materialise. I then was to get up for around 5ish to hand in my Medical Certificate for payment on Monday(NOT that'll happen now) hahahah. But just try it. However that didn't work out eitherway. So I met up with Barry for to see Star Wars. While waiting for Barry, I got my sis TWO new Polos as she calls him, replacing the hole that I got for her Christmas pressie. hehehe. Then we met up afterwards again for a drinkie. heheheh. I then told him of the recent goings on. He suggested that the back of the brain theirs a part of the brain called Immediol, something like that whereby if that part is missing, that the person would have NO fear hence the recent outbursts. Even to this day, Martin Mulligan who was beside Dad and myself n sis, can't for the life think why would he says such. Like just cause a person likes slasher films, don't mean she should join ISIS. I saw a face that I would never wanna see again. I'm referring to Martin btw. So after all that UNPLEASANTNESS, Barry then asks how are all the "Furry Babys", well the bubbliness that I got out of that. Considering, Ducky and Baby AIN'T puppys whatsoever, so I'm gonna start renaming my accounts to Furry Babys Stanescu. Awww the thought of it. heeheh, so adorable. So while Barry and I were drinking, Eoin came round to us. At first I didn't even recogniser him, perhaps without his shorts, heheeh then again there was another guy wearing shorts too. So I don't know. heheheeh.

Diary 2nd January 2016

Diary 1st January 2016 - New Years Day

PS THIS POST CONTAINS GRAPHIC CONTENT

Well today was not bad a day. After last night's celebrations, of which my main aim was to try and forget what my pops said to my sis n I back on Stephen's Day. So afterwards,  I got up after MORE lack of sleep for a dinner with Mom, Dad, Maureen and my sis. The Mulligans were up their when we arrived. heheeh. They were heading on up to Eileens for a meal or something. hehehhe.

So then after the meal, we all dispersed. I headed for my 24hr sleep. Which is quite true when you think about it. hahaha.

One of the dreams that I had was that I'm with a friend in a classroom or some building. The friend is shot several times in front of my eyes. I then am questioned by the cops as to what exactly happened. One of the questionings, I'm at a tourism item my Mom on some boat or about to hope on one that shows us Flowers on the tour. While writing one of the explanations on paper, for the cops, I break down, with my paper in front of my face hiding my emotions. So it is with great regret that Mom n I have to let the tourism boat to someone else.

Then thoughts arrived of which one was to go and ask my sis for advise on Sleepers as she calls em, then another horrific one is as follows:

A severe thought enters my brain when I recall my drink being spiked or at least being worried about it. Then afterwards  I then wakeup with a gun to my head when I wanna escape. 2 girls r raping me. One sticks a thread down the slit of my penis while the other is sucking it. Then I attempt to escape but the gun is still on my forehead. So somehow I escape naked. Wanting someone to run me over doesn't work so I attempt to jump off Luke Kelly bridge. However realising no ones around I walk into the Mater naked  and scream that I was raped by two lesbians. So in the meantime I puncture something in my arm and have at it by means of scissoring the skin.

I have noticed thou that I have been failing to sleep immediately the way I used to. I had buckets of blankeies on me, not even that did the job. So I put Kathleen and my Sammy atop me. OH it made me feel loved again. heheeheh

Another thought that I had is that for 2016, I just need to know truthfully why I was given up. SO for the "truthful" as much as possible. The minute Maureen gives me the number. I will ring the person who was in charge of the foster process. I understood she was in contact with Marina. heehhe. So my next Puppys or whatever I'll be getting will be called Marina. ie my Birth Mom's name. 

Diary 1st January 2016 New Years Day