Diary 31st January 2015

Spoz to have gone up to Ailish and Noel however Noel texted me "not to worry". Even thou he told me the night before it'd be no problem. Mom then rang me and I asked what up with Ailish and Noel. Mom explained then Teds Father is going and hence Noel was being short.

So I went up to Mom and Dad's instead. Had a ball with em. Hehhrh.

While with em, there was a piece on Doping in Sports in particular Cycling and now Rugby. I fully agree with the journalist. He's being silenced by major corporations and companies etc.,

Diary 30th January 2015

I was to do a few things. I contacted Frankie for to find out more about the Water Charge. He told me the Rent Increase will occur to cover the Water Charge. So its to going up by 5 a week. I enquired about the form too. He wants that the form be left for him, so that he can fill it out on my behalf. I then contacted Searson. No reply. Perhaps I sent it too late. I contacted Noel Hughes, he replied with to come up to him tomoz for 9pm.

So I headed onto Outhouse. The Men's Night so dead it was. So I went up and down to the cafe. I then went to the Cinema to see Big Hero 6(Review here)

Big Hero 6

I popped along to the most anticipated movie of my Babes Inflatables. Big Hero 6. The film surrounds an Inflatbles that sets about saving the a town. How it stats that is that a young kid Hiro has an amazing relationship with his Bro Tashadi. Hero starts with Robo Fighting. His bro Tashadi is exceptionally looking out for him. I've never seen such closeness. He brings his Bro Hiro to a Nerd School college kinda. Hiro is overwhelmed. He meets Baymax(INFLATBLES). He's an Inflatable Robot that is a "Healthcare Companion". They go on a journey in finding out the mysterious person who was involved the fire.

Overall a FANTASTIC film. Pure emotional at times. But fantastic. I smell a sequel on its way.

Ex Machina

Popped along to see Ex Machina. Which tells a story of a relationship with a man and a machine precisely AI. Caleb wins a trip to do an experiment. Overall a good movie. Very long drawn out. Mind u Caleb being very cute. They're was action by means of escape of Caleb and Ava in the last 10 mins.

Diary 29th January 2015

Today wasn't as busy. Went to meet Andrea for to see Ex Machina(Review here). I went to the outhouse with a view of getting a cuppa tea. However but only did I see Andrea there. I also learned of Mikes last day n that a party was on going. So the two of us headed on to the film. We went to centra so that I could top up my o2 money to top up my sky account.

After the film we were on the way home, Both Andrea and I headed to Panti to see of there was any one he knew. We looked briefly after a while we bumped into Mike n the gang. His goodbye party had continued onto Panti. Which was closing up anyways. We also learned of Mikes nomination to GALAs (Gay and Lesbians Awards ) being held in March.  Mike expressed a bit of concern over my recent postings of self harm bullying n parents etc. I took it with a grain of salt n still do. Hehhrh

Diary 28th January 2015

Well today was to be a productive day. I was to be at Jobnet Open Day for 10am sharp. I arrived at 10.20am. I was refused.

So i heard to Starbucks where my loyalty card wouldn't work. I tried topping it up.  Still wouldn't work. I was struggling to tell the sales guy what i was wanting as well as the tea. Even with the tea thru were offering me Hot soya. Heheh. Now now says i. There was an American women behind me wanting to change into dollars. But she wouldn't help me struggling to tell i wanted a croissant.

So I went back to jobnet. We were introduced to the course.  It's gonna be tedious and rigorous. One lad left his USB memory stick behind in a computer. I acttually felt sorry for him. He was gonna start telling his life story. But the way the mentor spoke to him. "Off with you"  wow never heard that one now in a long time.

So I headed onto towards the outhouse. On the way once and for all I wad gonna look for this infamous Basic Instincts sex shop. As expected couldn't find it. But got it eventually. They have such a wide variety of stuff. No doubt. Price is expectedly high. They were so accommodating. We will even measure you for clothing or whatever. They offer a cruise cinema like the Boiler House. So me thinks as I said on my Facebook that for my 31st I'll b heading there. I'll see how finance is nice to me. So instead of Pride I'll b going to these sex pride stuff eg gear Ireland etc etc.

Headed to outhouse where I found or just before I left that I had the charging cable with me all along. I was frustrated with myself thinking i left it at home.  Had a very nice sandwich.

Headed onto get my dole. There was a new fella in serving me in the post office. Sandra the proprietor was overlooking him. He's very cute mind u.

Then banking. Headed to Kennedy's to see Gerry. Hasn't seen him in ages. Search for link in blog. Headed to Tescos to get toilet Paper and to Topup my o2 money. Scribbles wouldn't work. Tried the new londis. They didn't know what it was. I was thinking in the bank I still don't think it's gonna work. So I headed on home. My phone died i got a missed call of Mom while i was with Gerry. I headed back home. Listened to the voicemail. It was just leaving food. I did recording. Then to setting up Inflatables and Puppys accs up.

Diary 27th January 2015

Well today i got up after booking the jobs coach or career coach as advertised in the jobcare course last week. As I booked too late i was told they 113 had booked for a venue of 65. So to come for 1.25 and it starting at half 1. So while waiting I encountered Lar who showed me Foam Restaurant where I brought Mom there and the area that he showed me the day after pride. The event was full capacity and as such they wouldn't let me in.

Headed onto o2 to get charger for cell they didn't. Then onto Carphone Warehouse. No avail. So I went onto PC World, And on the way to PC World. I came across a corner phone accessory shop. So got one there.

I then went to AIB to with draw My 44 from jobcare.

So I headed onto the outhouse with a view of meeting David. However as Sammy 2 decided to have his moment as in not charge so I cud reply to David I gave up. Apologiesed.

I then headed onto US Shop to get the t-shirt n top n shoes as the owner of the shop was leaving Ireland and heading back to US.

Then onto my folks to speeds up mom's lappy. Windows updates. Changed appearance to be of basic. I told Dad instead of discouraging Mom from using her lappy how about encouraging her.

Then to my sis. We chatted n chatted. Hehhrh

Diary 26th January 2015

Came home late from my sis. Watched Oscars from last yrs. Setup my Puppys Stanescu accs on new lappy. Heheh

Diary 25th January 2015

Not much was done today. I headed to my sis. Whereby I broke the news of her mother's passing well at least the ghost image I got via  a dream. She naturally broke down. As I did well distress at the very least. I felt her pain. Whats sickening thou in my opinion thou how she was never informed either by her birth family or at the very least her adoptive family. I will see if I can look into it.

Diary 24th January 2015

Regiee

Gay sister. Saw her and her partner in my old bedroom

Had a nice long nap. heheeh

Afterwards headed on up to Mom n Dad's to mainly show my Cert from Thurs and to ask a question about Water Charge form.

Low and behold Fina, Michael and Silvia were up there. I last saw Michael on the 2nd Jan with the Dots. However with Silvia and Fina, I hadn't seen them since I came out. Which is over 4 yrs ago. When Fina famously said to me, "We don't care if you're gay" I recall saying to here "Shhh" in case Silvia".

Diary 23rd January 2015

Saw my sis's biological/birth Mom as a ghost. I woke up with a fright as I was going up a red carpet stairs, and the ghost came down "through" me, as I felt it.

Screech is dead. I wanna get over 2 bollards. So I in my vehicle climb up one and go back down the other side. A man with his teller sees this. While he's standing he literally pushes up n down the trailer n his vehicle the other side. I get into a fit of laughing. Maureen my sis n i r walking down from the Orphange on a hot summer's day. We both encounter a house with a special attic. I get in to see all my old stuff magazines such PC Know How etc.

And to outhouse. Hehheh. Went to see Boyhood(Review here) with Barry.

Boyhood

Can see why Boyhood got an Oscar Nomination. The film was shot over 12 years, of the SAME characters. I thought it was very good. Told a story of a lad in his teen years ie adolescence.

Diary 22nd January 2015

Today was the Penultimate last day. We were graduating. We received our certs. I was a bit emotional leaving. As one user said the Department of Social Protection(Social  protection treat us like dogs. While jobcare treated you like humans. While another said a great start to 2015. We exchanged Fafcebooks and mobile numbers etc. So I headed onto the outhouse a bit down with the thought of leaving them. Never have I been so accepted.

Onto the post office to pay bills. It is my intention of moving all bills to o2 money minus rent n drumcondra credit union to save on Bank Fees. I asked the credit union the other day.

Came home to do a bit of cleanup. Clothing.

Met O'Farrell for American Sniper(Review here).

American Sniper

Film was very moving. Like everytime I saw a kid using war weapons etc. Then another just attempting to use a war head but ran. The main charterer surfers from PTSD. The plot told a true story of Chris Kyle who died from another veteran who went suffered from PTSD as well.

Diary 21st January 2015

Course. Today was mock interview day. After the interview we had feedback. Shortly before I went we were asked by the Social Media staff member to be "ourselves" while she takes a pic for Facebook.

So I headed up to Mom and Dad's. We had a great time. While heading up to Mom and Dad's I was constantly thinking of Reg(my Uncle who passed away in '13). It was the suit I wore for his funeral. I helped with Maureen's lappy. Dad enquired about his UPC and his motor tax.

I then setup my new lappy. I wasn't impressed with the work they had done for €99. So I just proceeded with playing with settings. Hehheeh

Went to see The Hobbit: The Battle of the Five Armies

Diary 20th January 2015

Course. Interview part 2. Yesterday concentrated on strengths and weaknesses. Advised on not using time management as my weakness. Today was S.T.A.R. Tell us abt a time when u were under pressure etc. During a break a course student was telling me about time management. He mentioned cock. I couldn't keep serious. Hahah.

Headed to outhouse. Waiting for O' Farrell. While doing so I was reading an article on two lesbians marrying and her son not accepting his mother. Was very moved by.

got my dole.

Then home. On the way I wanted to check if Drumcondra Credit Union to change DD method to credit card. Not allowed. Looking for Boxty. Mom collected me. Brought me home.

Rang sky. Was delighted  in one call to change my payment method My name and my username.

Went to My sis.

Diary 19th January 2015

Course. Interview part 1

Visited sis.

Diary 18th January 2015

Showered for the first time in about 2 months. Depression and shit delayed me. Updated my Dell lappy again with drivers. Saw that Leo Varadkar TD had come out publicly as a gay man. Mom asked me if I knew he was gay a few months ago.  Headed to my sis.

Diary 17th January 2015

Mom, Dad n Maureen were due to come down with a new mattress. However due to past behavior of dad ie to slice my precious I was advised to leave my folks obv not my babes haahaha outside. Maureen came at half 8. There were times I said theys not gonna come. However they did. As this took place for a half hr they were ere at 11.

So I headed off for a few hrs rest I headed to meet Todd. We went for a meal in Govinda's. (Review here)Afterwards to his place then to Panti.

Govinda's, Middle Abbey St

My friend and I popped along to Govinda's in Middle Abbey St. Great selection. Its a buffet style, whereby you choose what you want, and pay a certain price. Which is quite reasonable too. Too much hippy for my liking. One customer, although could have been a staff member thought i was a girl. Perhaps with my rainbow Scarfy. So two issues were at hand, a bit too homophobic for my liking. Like the person who accused me of  being a "woman" when he says "ladys first", then the staff member BEHIND the counter said something, then the fact that its a Christian type of restaurant. The food thou, very delicious. Great vegan offering. My friend thou advised strongly that Govinda's is very CHRISTIAN like hence "the hippy" lifestyle type. While personally I have no issues with any persons, I only take up issue, if a person actually accuses me of any sorts. So bottomline, I would not recommend Govinda's on Middle Abbey St(Not sure about other branches thou), for ANY gay people. Too christian for my liking. If you want Vegan food, there are plenty of other places in Dublin's Fair City.

Buffet Style

Buffet Style

Lemon Cheesecake

Raspberry Tea

Diary 16th January 2015

So I headed off for a few hrs rest I headed to meet Todd. We went to see The Hobbit.

Diary 15th January 2015

Course. Cover letter in a group. During the break one of the classmates asked the cafeteria lady what is this (referring to a dessert. )  she said to eat. Well the fit I got. I said i shud certainly hope so. Haha

Met Maureen. She went abt my babes. So in a punishment I didn't let her pay for my dessert. She was wanting to come to my place to tidy up.

Went to outhouse. On the way met Ronan. Filled out complaints form. Met David too

Headed home.

Headed to meet O'Farrell for Into The Wood(Review here) in Odeon

Into The Wood

Music was alrite. Plot great twist. Cudnt get half the jokes. Hehhehe. Witch told a story to a couple. For them to have a baby the witch requests cow "as white as milk" Red Cape gold shoe gold hair. Then there was another with the giant. Which I was slightly confused.

Diary 14th January 2015

Course. CV day
Introduced to jobnet

Mom collects me to go to PC World to collect lappy. However they failed to put the charger with the lappy. Collected dole.

Came back. Devastated about my Inflatables. So another blocking trip for awhile. I may have to do without lappy. But we'll c. What had happened hear was that, Dad had said to me, very clearly and strict tone, that I should do away with my Babes, ie the Inflatables. He said that I was to "promise" him to tidy my place up and deflate my babes. I was totally devastated. He clearly didn't understand my love for em. Not sure if he still does. Etc., So both Mom and Dad gave me 48hrs(ie two days) to get my place sorted as my Aunt(Nun) had a mattress to give me.

So Mom dropped me to my sis, and then in a quick turn around, I told Mom that I'll make my way home, that I wanted to stay assuming of course that my sis was ok with that, which at the time, she was. hahaha. Then Mom said, but you've to tidy up your place, I said I will do when I get back. So we left on a BAD note both Mom n I, I mean.

Diary 13th January 2015

PS THIS POST CONTAINS GRAPHIC CONTENT

Course CV personal profile
Cv. Mentor very worried about my lack of experience in driving ie career change

Frank called round to fix plumbing. Mom very unimpressed with job. Sure what's new. What had happened was every time, a person above me was flushing his toilet the "contents" of his would appear in my shower AND toilet. The smell was a horrible obv, so as such I couldn't shower for obvious reasons.

Mom called down to me to collect decorations. However she didn't know that Dad was on his way down to collect me for to go to PC World for the new lappy. As the other had died. So we both headed. Very helpful salesperson. Recommended me McAfee. Told me of the John McAfee ruining image of the company and so Intel bought em over McAfee. Recommended warranty. Great value might I add. Plus will have to wait till tomorrow to collect as PC World will set up for me. Amazed by dad's mathematical skills. Dad was calculating for me which would be better value, per month or per year or for 3 yrs. Clearly the 3yrs out did. haha.  We both headed to Little Chef now called Travelodge same as the hotel aspect. Then home to Mom and Dad's place. At first to put decorations up in the attic but with time catching up and his tiredness will leave till tomorrow. Mom brought me to My sis.

Diary 12th January 2105

Course. Elevator pitch.

Outhouse. Reported racist remark. Well it was a start anyways hahaah.

Home. Mom dropped laundry. Rang Landlord re shower plumbing problem.

Diary 11th January 2015

got up eventually after a vivid dream. Whearby a black man comes into my old bedroom to download information after my dad receives a phone call in the middle in the nite. Went to My sis. Chatted about Friday night's events.

Exodus: Gods and Kings

Plot slightly confusing. But very powerful stuff. I expect Oscars on the way to the point it was so well played.

Diary 10th January 2015

Quiet evening. Went to movies with Andrea to see exodus(Review here). Very busy it was. Never seen the likes. Told Andrea of the abuse I received yesterday.

Beaumont House, Shantalla Rd., Santry

Lovely setting. Got a salad and lovely lemon cheesecake. Great staff. Only fault NO veggie dish let alone vegan

Salad

Lemon Cheesecake

Raspberry Tea

Diary 9th January 2015

Dad and I continued. Packaged completely. Dad got a call from Gerry his Bro. He wanted a lend of a jack saw. I met Siobhan my cuz's bf. I hadn't seen Gerry since Reggies funeral. We then went to Beaumont House(Review here). I took down the lights outside. Packed them up. I then headed to outhouse. First to Lidl as I left my hat behind. Manners of a pig. Racism. Cineworld for Taken 3. Homophobic.

Following is the Facebook Status I posted in relation to the manners of a pig in Lidls in Parnell, Racist remark in the Outhouse and sadly the homophobic treatment, both my friend and I recieved.

I regret to inform you all that yesterday was not the best. Although I helped my folks with decorations, that was grand. By all means.

I popped along to Lidl, on Moore St., to see if my Hat was handed in. I went to a security guard who btw was actually looking at his cell phone, I asked if my hat was handed in, immediately he said no, Not even a budge to see if it were handed in. So after I paid for my kettle, I in a fit of rage, went to a Staff member, who gladly helped and asked around. I wanna thank him. But the security in LIdls' Moore St., clearly NEED retraining.

I then went to the Outhouse for my nightly entertainment. At one stage in the Men's Night, I was racially attacked indirectly. By this I mean, the lads were referring to some guy in the French Attacks or something, and the person(of whom shall remain nameless) said he "should go to the Romanian Orphange". I attempted to intervene by telling "errr hello, I was there", however he failed to listen. My friend who was with me throughout the night, told me that he has been told in the past that I am from Romania, and that he told me that he is actually racist. Despite the person knowing this, he made the remark. I was deeply gutted that I was lost for words. I shall be taking this matter with the Management of Outhouse and the Gardaí. RACISM MUST STOP. It won't stop if I sit back and do nothing.

My mate also came with me to the Cineworld Dublin to see Taken 3. I was most not prepared for what was to happen next. We were BOTH treated to Homophobic abuse throughout the film. It was quite scarey. My mate got the bate thou. We were treated to heckling. Although security was called a few times, that did not stop them. We were both called faggots and my mate was called OTHER names too. I was literally sick to the stomach with the treatment. To the point I actually wanted to vomit in my nachos which I had finished btw. The security guard came with us for protection. We were afraid that they were gonna follow us. So we joined up with two females(whom we would like to thank PROFUSELY), for company. We then left them when we found that the lads disappeared. This continued throughout the night. We both wanted the Cops involved. We were told they were on the way. However we later learned, THAT was not the case. Although Cineworld Cinemas is a VERY LGBT Friendly cinemas, I know many staff who are LGBT Friendly at the very least, some are gay even BOTH male and Female, I was MOST distraught to learn that the Gardai had NOT been called. Again I shall be taking the matter up with the Gardaí. HOMOPHOBIA MUST STOP. People in Republic of Ireland say Homophobia and living as a gay man is grand these days, it's NOT. If you people knew what actually happened. Like we were thrown at. Recorded and more than likely will be published on Facebook. If any of my Irish mates(of those that are left) or indeed international, comes across a video or photo or whatever of BOTH My mate and I, PLS REPORT to Facebook for Homophobic. On the way when I was leaving my friend to his Luas stop, the friend noticed that I was being homophobically looked at. I told him what my mother says to me all the time. HATERS hate SILENCE. I ignore all comments and looks etc.,

Diary 8th December 2015

Today we did jobs specs. We were required to do job specs on computer. I came across Dublin bus specs. I then headed to home. Lidl then to mom. Mom collected me at the garage. Dad took down the lights. He was soar. So we just put them away. Came home. Took down decorations.

Diary 7th January 2015

Today was quite productive. I had penultimate made plans with o farrell to see Annie with Daniel too. However it wasn't too be. I headed onto job care. Again the caters didn't understand dairy free. I then discovered a Romania church in the same building. I headed on with over is the students. He was being a friend. I was heading to Lidls to get Phenny. I then headed into Tesco to get butter. Then to my folks to take down decorations. Then to my sis.

Diary 6th January 2015

Day off coarse. Went to Outhouse to get a cuppa didn't know what green tea is let alone dairy free milk. Collected dole. Sis came down me.

Diary 5th January 2015

Nothing much to do today. Today was just a movie day. Hehhrh

John Carter

Very confusing film. Even to this day as I write this review, and several attempts of watching this film, I still find the plot confusing. Although action, not bad, plot still a mystery. So not the best.

Aliens In The Attic

Very children's film. Great plot. Aliens v humans. The family go on a vacancies for 4th July. They encounter aliens in the attic. One of the Aliens(mole I says hahah), acts all so human like, and is adopted by the youngest girl. awwww. So the "Mole", helps the humans out. So the alien invasion all "retreat"

Diary 4th January 2015

Met up with my sis. Chatted abt various. Was delighted to see her.

G-Force

Very cute n adorable film. Plot v simple. Guinea pigs known as G-Force help save the world. Feds shut down the force. Then when Mile appears as a mole, G-Force must save the world from appliances analiating humans

Attack of the Sabretooth

Great film. Very gory indeed to start. Plot very simple but slightly confusing as to role of the college students role in the film. Plot being 3 sabretooth are cloned. They start attacking people one by one. However a security breach by college manages to open ALL the sabretooths out. The company cloning is only opening it.

Diary 3rd January 2015

Went up to ailish n noel after they invited me up more so I ensured theys available. Hehh. Chatted. Noel told me that UTV is available on Sky. I had asked him what he makes of UTV Ireland. He said he'd was a bit disappointed that they've replaced utv. Yet Sky had both UTV n UTV Ireland. I disputed it as I can't get it. So I briefly Googled for a bit of a search.  I found that i have to add it manually BUT no recording feature. So i just deleted it.

Gangster Squad

Very good film. Very violent film, wouldn't be my cuppa tea. Tells a true story of Micky Cohen in LA. A gang is put together. One member of the gang is killed, as he's found to have been spying on Mickeys actions. Great action no doubt.

HANSEL & GRETEL: WARRIORS OF WITCHCRAFT

Fantastic film. Best film so far I've seen. Gretel suspects that she's a witch slayer. Jonah meantime had joined up to "transfer" should to the other side. However it is revealed he's a slayer too.

Diary 2nd January 2015

Fed up with very soar legs n arch. I was spoz to b up at mom's for 7ish. I had been told via sms that the Mulligans would b there. I headed up after struggling to get out of bed. I got Kathleen her bday pressie. She was most appreciated. As Dad says "puts pressure on all ya". Haha. Great laughs were had. As mom says like the"Good old days"  she said it with the most sincere face.

Diary 1st January 2015

I had decided not to go get up for either New Years Eve or New Years Day.  Likewise I did on Christmas Day and Stephen's Day, as a result of my continuing pining for the relatives.
After my sleepless night I cudnt sleep O' Farrell rang me to arrange meetup of cinema. we were to see The Theory of Everything(Review here). We had a drink first then the movie. I was distraught after what Mark had done. He first said he was Noel Hughes. I kept repeating to myself we have a mole in the family tree. ie constantly bullying like Keith etc. Then when I looked at the number even closely I thought it was Chris from Kells. But I later learned when Chris himself had texted me saying he was NOT out for New Years Eve yet this other guy was. The reason Chris had texted me I was going through all the numbers I had saved etc that had no names n just wanted to find out who was who. I was literarely in floods of tears. Nearly having blades to meself.  I later learned that he has some form of depression when I asked if he had a mental illness. So then I found out in the end that it was mark when I looked earlier in the convo that he attempted to ring me a few times. I was this close to putting the blades to myself. Like I said to myself while still in bed, right that's it, can't take any of this. So I set about to get ready to go to the bathroom when I got a text from an unknown name ie number with no name. I asked who's this. And he replied Noel. I said to him, that he has no idea how he has made me feel ie happy. It just take a few words or letters to get a person out of Self Harm. No question.

So i came home. Went to my sis' aid.

The Theory Of Everything

A very heartwarming film. Tells the story of Dr. Stephen Hawkins. Learned a few items. Never knew he had Motor Neuron Disease. It was sickening thou while he was undergoing treatment that his wife was hanky pankying around. I'm wondering did Stephen know that one of his kids was NOT his etc etc. Very comical. Not emotional as I thought. Just some scenes were. Eddie who played the part of the infamous Dr. was very impressive to the point, I actually thought it was actually him. hahaha. One thing thou because of the nature of the film, ie Dr. Hawkin's work, it was very complex for me to understand, ie Space Time Continuum etc., etc., Good chance my dad would understand the majority