Well as per my normal schedule of me staying up for the day, I was looking at TV. heheheh. I was looking at Ros na Run. I had 5 1hr episodes making that 5hrs to go through. However when I went to go and calculate the length of time to record on the PVT, I miscalculated the required time. So as such, I was slightly late in going to bed. hahaha. I had hoped around 8 or 9. But it was 1 int he morning by the time, I reached my beddie. heehehe.
Monday 30 November 2015
Sunday 29 November 2015
Diary 29th November 2015
Well today was quite an unusual day. By that the weather played its part. Then the fact that I did banking on a Sunday, which I don't normally. However it had to be done. hahahah. By that I mean that as I need the cash BEFORE Westwood comes in on Tuesday, I wouldn't be able to pay Franky. So I moved swiftly. Initially I was gonna leave it til next Tuesday, however my cash wouldn't allow it ie DOUBLE payment for him. So I said I'd go and do it.
So my day started off with me getting up around Midday, and then heading off after a few tv shows. So then I headed on off to AIB Bank, however I needed change from Kennedy's. Brian asked me if all I was doing was getting change everyday. I then said to him NO, that that's not true. hahaha. to go and get a definition. ahahah. Brian although loved my beard. haahahah. The other Brian(Paula's dad - whom Paula herself was an employee) likes it but sarcastically ie he says when you start growing it, I said the beginning of the month, and he says you mean in the 4years, hahaaha. So then I moved onto the last minute decision, to the Sunday Market in SmallChanges building. heeheh. I found a few gift ideas. heheeheh. When I came out of the Sunday Market, it poured out of the heavens via Winds. oh boiiiii.
Then my sis came to my place for the downloading. We were chatting, and supporting each other. heehheh. Then we went for a bit of shopping. In the meantime, I had gotten a takeout too. I headed to her place then for the night. We had great laughs too.
So my day started off with me getting up around Midday, and then heading off after a few tv shows. So then I headed on off to AIB Bank, however I needed change from Kennedy's. Brian asked me if all I was doing was getting change everyday. I then said to him NO, that that's not true. hahaha. to go and get a definition. ahahah. Brian although loved my beard. haahahah. The other Brian(Paula's dad - whom Paula herself was an employee) likes it but sarcastically ie he says when you start growing it, I said the beginning of the month, and he says you mean in the 4years, hahaaha. So then I moved onto the last minute decision, to the Sunday Market in SmallChanges building. heeheh. I found a few gift ideas. heheeheh. When I came out of the Sunday Market, it poured out of the heavens via Winds. oh boiiiii.
Then my sis came to my place for the downloading. We were chatting, and supporting each other. heehheh. Then we went for a bit of shopping. In the meantime, I had gotten a takeout too. I headed to her place then for the night. We had great laughs too.
Saturday 28 November 2015
Diary 28th November 2015
Today was a quiet day. I was due to go and see Good Dinosaur. HOwever it wasn't to be as I had gone to bed late. heheeh I had every intention thou to get up for 10ish or the wee hours of the morning. HOwever as I was charging my sex phone, it had been turned off, so I was charging Paddy(iPad), Lumy, Sammy 2. So as such I woke up at 6am the next day. hahaah. So I took a leak, and then I went to clear up a bit of space on my box. ehehehe. Then I headed back to bed. awwww. I had my sleeves, and my blankies to keep me company. Then I reaslied thou now, that if my folks are helping me or lending a hand on my finance, that I'll actually be a looser financially I mean. By that as reported in the Budget 2016, those on Social Welfare will be getting 75% of the Christmas Bonus ATOP their Social Welfare benefit. So what this means is that those on the basic rate like Disability, Job Seekers etc., will get 141 atop their payment. But with me, I won't. I'm storming heaven with tears that I will be able to get the Christmas Bonus. Like PRessies, Cards, Stamps have to be bought you know, and not only that my OWN pocket Money. While obviously Bills are highly important, so is the life etc., just as important. Like my Food intake is also affected too.
Friday 27 November 2015
Diary 27th November 2015
PS This Post contains GRAPHIC content
Well not bad a day today. Before I do go on thou, I mysteriously actually forgot to mention one fact. On the way home yesterday evening from Social Welfare, I was cycling home in Drumcondra. My bike currently has brake issues. So as such I had to use the wire to brake. But unfortunately it wasn't in time thou. So to make sure that I don't crash into a car or whatever, I purposely crashed into a light yolk that tells cars to stay in lane. A pedestrian looked in disgust. Now there was no need for such a face. I was simply trying to NOT break the lights, so I just stopped suddenly. Like everyone does it.
So moving on, I got a missed call from Mom. My sis had been told that Mom was calling into Social Welfare in Kings Inn St., and as such I was gonna wanna find out what the story was. So when I rang her back, there was no mention of it. So am not sure exactly. heeheh. But eitherway, she rang to say she'd drop down food. She arrived earlier than anticipated. I then got €300 as part of my bills issue with the Income aka the Social Welfare issue. So shortly while trying to sleep: of which it kept me awake more or less, I had a sever thought relating to ISIS(The Terrorist crowd - I don't know what it stands for). The thought being that I am kidnapped by them and they slice me throat on video ie killing me, and they post the video like they have been doing constantly with other victims. My sis and my mates find this video on FB or the INternet or wherever. On the video, they say my name "THis is Georgian Stanescu, he is scum....something like that" and if that wasn't bad enough, the terrorist guy has the knife to my neck and draws the shape of the slice, but I says as I ain't into Pain, he just shoots me in the Back, and as that don't kill me, he shoots me in the Temple ie the head. "
I then headed to meet Barry. I initially was to lodge €80 for this week's rent, however it wasn't to be. Then to get a few things ie the groceries again, not to be. So to make a long story short, I went to the Outhouse then the film. I got a greeting cards and pens in EuroGiant. So then I was gonna write the card in the shop however I said I'd pop into the Outhouse to write the card, how WRONG I was, hahaahah. Barry himself was there. Oh don't get me wrong, I obviously didn't mind him being there, hehehe. but for Card writing? ahhh well. At the end of the day its the THOUGHT that counts. He was most appreciative. I asked Barry about humans growing fangs in particular Romanians and Vampires etc., I first started by asking "Can I ask you a stupid question", I then immediately said to him thats a quote from Mrs. Brown's whereby Winnie asks Mrs. Brown herself. And Mrs. Brown replies "No better woman I know", hahahaa. But anyways moving on, thou, me thinking biting into my skin for self harm reasons or whatever would it grow fangs. I first ensured he WASN'T a vegetarian, and just as well I didn't go into detail as he told me he is actually queasy when it comes to these things. And as such I didn't. Like my sis was grand, so I was able to describe the skin coming off as if I were a cow being slaughtered or whatever. But moving on thou he explained Evolution that would take over 1,000s of years. etc., Like I was intrigued what did he mean.I thought he meant do humans get medication and they change or whatever. But what he meant, if all we had to survive on then perhaps the fangs would grow. Quite interesting. I says. Barry and I went up to men's Night. I corrected myself to Patrick in that I told him the CORRECT time of the Christmas Concert next Sunday week. He described where Pepper Canister Church. So then I was chatting to a guy beside me, for a bit and to others of course. Great chat alrite. heeheh.
So then moving on, Both Barry and I headed onto the cinema to realise that the time online AGAIN has changed. So we left immediately for the film. After the film, we saw a character from the Star Wars film, So we took a few selfies. Then on the way home, I took a few pics of the Christmas Decorations in O'Connell St., then I saw a notice that Cyclists are to be weary that there are NOW Luas lines
Well not bad a day today. Before I do go on thou, I mysteriously actually forgot to mention one fact. On the way home yesterday evening from Social Welfare, I was cycling home in Drumcondra. My bike currently has brake issues. So as such I had to use the wire to brake. But unfortunately it wasn't in time thou. So to make sure that I don't crash into a car or whatever, I purposely crashed into a light yolk that tells cars to stay in lane. A pedestrian looked in disgust. Now there was no need for such a face. I was simply trying to NOT break the lights, so I just stopped suddenly. Like everyone does it.
So moving on, I got a missed call from Mom. My sis had been told that Mom was calling into Social Welfare in Kings Inn St., and as such I was gonna wanna find out what the story was. So when I rang her back, there was no mention of it. So am not sure exactly. heeheh. But eitherway, she rang to say she'd drop down food. She arrived earlier than anticipated. I then got €300 as part of my bills issue with the Income aka the Social Welfare issue. So shortly while trying to sleep: of which it kept me awake more or less, I had a sever thought relating to ISIS(The Terrorist crowd - I don't know what it stands for). The thought being that I am kidnapped by them and they slice me throat on video ie killing me, and they post the video like they have been doing constantly with other victims. My sis and my mates find this video on FB or the INternet or wherever. On the video, they say my name "THis is Georgian Stanescu, he is scum....something like that" and if that wasn't bad enough, the terrorist guy has the knife to my neck and draws the shape of the slice, but I says as I ain't into Pain, he just shoots me in the Back, and as that don't kill me, he shoots me in the Temple ie the head. "
I then headed to meet Barry. I initially was to lodge €80 for this week's rent, however it wasn't to be. Then to get a few things ie the groceries again, not to be. So to make a long story short, I went to the Outhouse then the film. I got a greeting cards and pens in EuroGiant. So then I was gonna write the card in the shop however I said I'd pop into the Outhouse to write the card, how WRONG I was, hahaahah. Barry himself was there. Oh don't get me wrong, I obviously didn't mind him being there, hehehe. but for Card writing? ahhh well. At the end of the day its the THOUGHT that counts. He was most appreciative. I asked Barry about humans growing fangs in particular Romanians and Vampires etc., I first started by asking "Can I ask you a stupid question", I then immediately said to him thats a quote from Mrs. Brown's whereby Winnie asks Mrs. Brown herself. And Mrs. Brown replies "No better woman I know", hahahaa. But anyways moving on, thou, me thinking biting into my skin for self harm reasons or whatever would it grow fangs. I first ensured he WASN'T a vegetarian, and just as well I didn't go into detail as he told me he is actually queasy when it comes to these things. And as such I didn't. Like my sis was grand, so I was able to describe the skin coming off as if I were a cow being slaughtered or whatever. But moving on thou he explained Evolution that would take over 1,000s of years. etc., Like I was intrigued what did he mean.I thought he meant do humans get medication and they change or whatever. But what he meant, if all we had to survive on then perhaps the fangs would grow. Quite interesting. I says. Barry and I went up to men's Night. I corrected myself to Patrick in that I told him the CORRECT time of the Christmas Concert next Sunday week. He described where Pepper Canister Church. So then I was chatting to a guy beside me, for a bit and to others of course. Great chat alrite. heeheh.
So then moving on, Both Barry and I headed onto the cinema to realise that the time online AGAIN has changed. So we left immediately for the film. After the film, we saw a character from the Star Wars film, So we took a few selfies. Then on the way home, I took a few pics of the Christmas Decorations in O'Connell St., then I saw a notice that Cyclists are to be weary that there are NOW Luas lines
Thursday 26 November 2015
Diary 26th November 2015
Well after a wonderful sleep, although with a few dreams of weird, nothing major to report, hehehe, I had ongoing disappointment and worries with Social Welfare.
Now the day started when I woke up around 12ish and got up. I looked at a few Documentaries. Then I headed on off to Social Welfare to hand in my MR1 Certification form. I went up to Desk 29(by the looks my new home -hahaha). I told the guy of my case. He noted or more so I let him know of why the form was half empty. I said to him I can't complete the form as I don't have a job, he said I shouldn't have filled it out. He asked me for my PPS Number, and he told me that my payment has been suspended. Whether he meant the Rent Allowance, which I already knew or if the Job Seekers itself was suspended. So I asked if I could speak to a member of the A-Team, he was most ignorant, NOT in the right job me thinks. Like He kept moving and moving away, everytime, I attempted to ask him anything.
So I rang my sis and asked her to put me on speaker, so I wont have to repeat myself. It was kinda cool thou putting myself "on conference call", haahah.
So I came back did more recording on TV. Then shortly afterwards, my sis called down with Mom and I had a brief chat with Mom. My sis told me that I'd be getting a bit of help with cash as I've yet to pay for my Rent, ya knowwww. So as part of my anxiety or whatever, I had a wonderful bite of the sleeve, awwwwwwww. I wanted to cry, but just couldn't. So I had a go at my sleeve. He most definitely NOT be worn outside. hahahaa.
I then left my sis back to her place. Mom in the meantime had told my sis while in my place and while getting my sis a cuppa tea, that my Pops would be dropping down the cash to me tomoz while get this my sis at HER home AND my Mom at her weekly Gallery, ie NO WOMEN, to help me or whatever, I said to her under NO circumstances, will I accept Money from Dad on his own, let alone anything. I continued to repeat throughout the night how coincidental was the whole thing. hmmmm. Like he'd talk about Westwood etc.,etc., he'd make me promise that I cancel it, of which I recently learned that's not possible til a year has elapsed, well who knew. heheehe. And not only that I don't need the cash now, as I have his €80 he gave me as part of €150 that me Pops gave me last week. If I don't get paid at all next week ie Tuesday 1st, THEN and only then will I accept extra cash from my folks, BUT ONLY IN WOMEN's PRESENCE.
I was there wanting to post to my Facebook a status relating to a TV SHow I am watching IrelandAM. When I did so, I used the hashtag, of which I have been using all the time.and as such I went about posting it. However when posting hashtags, usually it'd change colors, however this time NADA. I posted a sample status of jst #vegan, and that worked and I only realsied it that I had actually written out the hashtag.
Take a look at the following convo guys. Does she really think I'm stupid......
Now the day started when I woke up around 12ish and got up. I looked at a few Documentaries. Then I headed on off to Social Welfare to hand in my MR1 Certification form. I went up to Desk 29(by the looks my new home -hahaha). I told the guy of my case. He noted or more so I let him know of why the form was half empty. I said to him I can't complete the form as I don't have a job, he said I shouldn't have filled it out. He asked me for my PPS Number, and he told me that my payment has been suspended. Whether he meant the Rent Allowance, which I already knew or if the Job Seekers itself was suspended. So I asked if I could speak to a member of the A-Team, he was most ignorant, NOT in the right job me thinks. Like He kept moving and moving away, everytime, I attempted to ask him anything.
So I rang my sis and asked her to put me on speaker, so I wont have to repeat myself. It was kinda cool thou putting myself "on conference call", haahah.
So I came back did more recording on TV. Then shortly afterwards, my sis called down with Mom and I had a brief chat with Mom. My sis told me that I'd be getting a bit of help with cash as I've yet to pay for my Rent, ya knowwww. So as part of my anxiety or whatever, I had a wonderful bite of the sleeve, awwwwwwww. I wanted to cry, but just couldn't. So I had a go at my sleeve. He most definitely NOT be worn outside. hahahaa.
I then left my sis back to her place. Mom in the meantime had told my sis while in my place and while getting my sis a cuppa tea, that my Pops would be dropping down the cash to me tomoz while get this my sis at HER home AND my Mom at her weekly Gallery, ie NO WOMEN, to help me or whatever, I said to her under NO circumstances, will I accept Money from Dad on his own, let alone anything. I continued to repeat throughout the night how coincidental was the whole thing. hmmmm. Like he'd talk about Westwood etc.,etc., he'd make me promise that I cancel it, of which I recently learned that's not possible til a year has elapsed, well who knew. heheehe. And not only that I don't need the cash now, as I have his €80 he gave me as part of €150 that me Pops gave me last week. If I don't get paid at all next week ie Tuesday 1st, THEN and only then will I accept extra cash from my folks, BUT ONLY IN WOMEN's PRESENCE.
I was there wanting to post to my Facebook a status relating to a TV SHow I am watching IrelandAM. When I did so, I used the hashtag, of which I have been using all the time.and as such I went about posting it. However when posting hashtags, usually it'd change colors, however this time NADA. I posted a sample status of jst #vegan, and that worked and I only realsied it that I had actually written out the hashtag.
Take a look at the following convo guys. Does she really think I'm stupid......
Hello, how's your day? My name is Jill Mary Johnson an Agent from Facebook Inc. Nice meeting you.
I am authorized to send you the friend request by Mr Mark Zuckerberg the Founder and CEO of facebook and me myself is a member of the facebook team.
Georgian
`Right so you've nothing to do with the grouop The WIld Ones?
Jill Mary
what's that Sir?
Georgian
you tell me
You work for Mark Zuckerberg
Jill Mary
yes Sir
I am sent to contact you today to pass you a vital information concerning your Facebook account.
Georgian
righhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhtttttttttttttttt
Jill Mary
Have any of our Facebook staff inform you about the ongoing international Facebook lottery, And have you been inform about your winnings.?
Georgian
Yes and that I won €5bn
Thank you so much
Jill Mary
that's not from us Sir
Georgian
ahhh now
come on
of course it is. hahaha
Jill Mary
not Sir
Georgian
yes
Jill Mary
ok
Wednesday 25 November 2015
Diary 25th November 2015
Well after yesterday's not my finest hour, I decided to sleep my life as per always, hahahah. Before I headed on off to sleep, I rang the Rents Unit, and never got through. By that I mean I rang and it dialled toned out. So I just gave up and I went to sleep from 1pmish til about midday the next day. Was the best sleep ever, hahaha
Tuesday 24 November 2015
Diary 24th November 2015
Well what a day today turned out to be. Like just WOW. Twas just unreal. Like it all started off when I got up around 1ish, showered, then I headed on off to the Dr.s Appt for 2.50pm. I was looking for items before heading out. I found them in the end.
I was called eventually, then the Dr., told me that all I need to do is to collect it, without the Dr., While that's all grand, however LAST MINUTE, really pissed me off.
While waiting around, I then was hoping to go to Social Welfare BEFORE 4pm, as they close. THe last time, the A -Team member of staff told me to hand my certificate to a guy on floor and to mention A-Team to the person, however there was no one around, There was the security guy at the Door, of which he would be a FLoor guy aswell, I don't like the cut of him, far too rude etc., So then I headed on up and waited for a ticket number as per norm, of which I didn't mind, however thou when I went to the desk, I was then told to go and fill the form up completely then bring it back to them. Says I to meslef, "wow, way to go Stany, bring in an EMPTY form, hahaah", that's the only laugh I got throughout the day, hahahah.
Then afterwards, I headed on up to An Post directly and got my dosh. However just as I went into An Post, something was telling me what happens if... well as it happens that was the case, well the Rent Allowance was taken.
But I didn't realise this until I was failing to count MINIMUM €200 to be lodged into the machine. I then realised CRAP I actually realised they actually took it off me. I confirmed this with my reciept from SociaL Welfare. So I just lodged €140 into the bank. And even that I STILL didn't have enough for the Rent, as my previous Debts were paid off, namely the Loan DD from last Friday(20th Nov), so that was a no no. I then was left thinking n thinking to how to meet the missing €80 for the BILLS alone, let alone myself.
So armed with ONE bad news, I was about to be hit with ANOTHER bad news, which I won't get too detailed, but here goes, When I arrived home from the bank, I arrived to whats described as a NEW bed, hahahah. Now what I mean is that I had received new Duvet, Duvet Covers, Pillows and Pillow CAses. and not forgetting THROW(awwww) and of course the Electric Blanket. NOW what you ask me, HOW can this have been done while I was out, hmmmm. My sis was down for downloading, BUT my Mom brought my sis and obviously herself down to do the bed up. Now while I can appreciate all the hard work of my sis and my Mom for purchasing the goods, I still disputed the fact, that I didn't want it especially the Electric Blanket for Electrical reasons ie cost reasons of the bill, yet she still went in. When my sis was telling me all of this, I was visibly very upset. Now obviously I know, I know, I'll continue to say and say again, but that said Mom didn't even ask my permission to enter my property ie my Flat. She's hated from Day one. We get that, but to do this. That's so cruel. like such Deception.
So then my sis obviously stayed with me, for moral support and of course her wonderful thing known as downloading. hehehe. We chatted, had fun, looked at yesterday's news. We saw a new series Blindspot. AS part of the fun, a TV ad appeared for selling Tablets(computers) in Harvey Normans. I only realsied that Tablet serves as the medicinal AND the computer gadget aka Samsung Galaxy Note series or the iPad series etc., I even said to my sis "here have a look at the TV", I even paused the ad just to show. Just goes to show you, what you learn. hahaah. We got a takeout, and while eating, I noticed that there was meat in the Wrap, of which I didn't take, obviously. I then ensured that the bed clothing were VEGAN, ie nothing from an animal, otherwise, I would give it to her. While in my gaf, I got the sudden urge to bite my "Towely", namely made of the Arm warmers and the beach towel of which I warp the arm warmers with a beach towel and I just bite it as if it were a Sandwich. heheheeh. I was just so upset that I wanted to cry it out, but as my sis said one stage, "I'm all cried out", So I just bit it as if it were Violife Cheese sandwich, mmmmmmmmmmmmm. It brought back my childhood sleeve habit I used to have. Now I haven't bitten my sleeve in sometime. Back when I was living with my folks, I would bite the sleeve almost every single day or whatever,. especially when I was coming out, that my jumpers would be made into Rags, ie NOT wearable to the public anymore.
I then brought her back to her place, had further chats and cups of tea. Again further chats were had as I said. My sis wanted to get this sorted out, ie the finance at the very least. As I said above, Social Welfare cut off my Rent Allowance. So both of us did calculations. So to surmise finally, I will be ringing Rents Unit tomorrow, and if I get it back, I'll only need borrow €80 from the folks OTHERWISE, I will have to borrow €120 per month from my folks to meet the missing €80. I use to put in€220 into the bank for BILLS alone, however as a result today, that ain't gonna happen for the foreseeable future. So when I got home, I told my sis, I won't be able to afford the Electric Blanket AND the portable Halogen Heater that my Pops got me. Obviously I have been using it this past few days ESPECIALLY during the cold spell. But I can't afford it with the cost of electricity. So my sis clobbered our heads together to figure something out, which ALL depends on the phonecall, which I'll be making it tomoz. Then when my sis told me that she will be going for a few 40 Winks, I understood she meant she WINKS 40 times, but she actually meant for 40mins, aka 1mins PER wink, WOW. Whats even further worrying or whatever is that I should have known this YEARS ago when I was young, ie LATE DEVELOPMENT. I then headed on home after the wee hours of the morning.
Why did my Mom NOT put me up for adoption INSTEAD of Orphange, likewise my sis, hmmm. THis question I asked myself while getting Crisps for my lunch BEFORE starting today's news, ie watching it. I'm almost sure my sis told me, I just can't quiet recall it.
I was called eventually, then the Dr., told me that all I need to do is to collect it, without the Dr., While that's all grand, however LAST MINUTE, really pissed me off.
While waiting around, I then was hoping to go to Social Welfare BEFORE 4pm, as they close. THe last time, the A -Team member of staff told me to hand my certificate to a guy on floor and to mention A-Team to the person, however there was no one around, There was the security guy at the Door, of which he would be a FLoor guy aswell, I don't like the cut of him, far too rude etc., So then I headed on up and waited for a ticket number as per norm, of which I didn't mind, however thou when I went to the desk, I was then told to go and fill the form up completely then bring it back to them. Says I to meslef, "wow, way to go Stany, bring in an EMPTY form, hahaah", that's the only laugh I got throughout the day, hahahah.
Then afterwards, I headed on up to An Post directly and got my dosh. However just as I went into An Post, something was telling me what happens if... well as it happens that was the case, well the Rent Allowance was taken.
But I didn't realise this until I was failing to count MINIMUM €200 to be lodged into the machine. I then realised CRAP I actually realised they actually took it off me. I confirmed this with my reciept from SociaL Welfare. So I just lodged €140 into the bank. And even that I STILL didn't have enough for the Rent, as my previous Debts were paid off, namely the Loan DD from last Friday(20th Nov), so that was a no no. I then was left thinking n thinking to how to meet the missing €80 for the BILLS alone, let alone myself.
So armed with ONE bad news, I was about to be hit with ANOTHER bad news, which I won't get too detailed, but here goes, When I arrived home from the bank, I arrived to whats described as a NEW bed, hahahah. Now what I mean is that I had received new Duvet, Duvet Covers, Pillows and Pillow CAses. and not forgetting THROW(awwww) and of course the Electric Blanket. NOW what you ask me, HOW can this have been done while I was out, hmmmm. My sis was down for downloading, BUT my Mom brought my sis and obviously herself down to do the bed up. Now while I can appreciate all the hard work of my sis and my Mom for purchasing the goods, I still disputed the fact, that I didn't want it especially the Electric Blanket for Electrical reasons ie cost reasons of the bill, yet she still went in. When my sis was telling me all of this, I was visibly very upset. Now obviously I know, I know, I'll continue to say and say again, but that said Mom didn't even ask my permission to enter my property ie my Flat. She's hated from Day one. We get that, but to do this. That's so cruel. like such Deception.
So then my sis obviously stayed with me, for moral support and of course her wonderful thing known as downloading. hehehe. We chatted, had fun, looked at yesterday's news. We saw a new series Blindspot. AS part of the fun, a TV ad appeared for selling Tablets(computers) in Harvey Normans. I only realsied that Tablet serves as the medicinal AND the computer gadget aka Samsung Galaxy Note series or the iPad series etc., I even said to my sis "here have a look at the TV", I even paused the ad just to show. Just goes to show you, what you learn. hahaah. We got a takeout, and while eating, I noticed that there was meat in the Wrap, of which I didn't take, obviously. I then ensured that the bed clothing were VEGAN, ie nothing from an animal, otherwise, I would give it to her. While in my gaf, I got the sudden urge to bite my "Towely", namely made of the Arm warmers and the beach towel of which I warp the arm warmers with a beach towel and I just bite it as if it were a Sandwich. heheheeh. I was just so upset that I wanted to cry it out, but as my sis said one stage, "I'm all cried out", So I just bit it as if it were Violife Cheese sandwich, mmmmmmmmmmmmm. It brought back my childhood sleeve habit I used to have. Now I haven't bitten my sleeve in sometime. Back when I was living with my folks, I would bite the sleeve almost every single day or whatever,. especially when I was coming out, that my jumpers would be made into Rags, ie NOT wearable to the public anymore.
I then brought her back to her place, had further chats and cups of tea. Again further chats were had as I said. My sis wanted to get this sorted out, ie the finance at the very least. As I said above, Social Welfare cut off my Rent Allowance. So both of us did calculations. So to surmise finally, I will be ringing Rents Unit tomorrow, and if I get it back, I'll only need borrow €80 from the folks OTHERWISE, I will have to borrow €120 per month from my folks to meet the missing €80. I use to put in€220 into the bank for BILLS alone, however as a result today, that ain't gonna happen for the foreseeable future. So when I got home, I told my sis, I won't be able to afford the Electric Blanket AND the portable Halogen Heater that my Pops got me. Obviously I have been using it this past few days ESPECIALLY during the cold spell. But I can't afford it with the cost of electricity. So my sis clobbered our heads together to figure something out, which ALL depends on the phonecall, which I'll be making it tomoz. Then when my sis told me that she will be going for a few 40 Winks, I understood she meant she WINKS 40 times, but she actually meant for 40mins, aka 1mins PER wink, WOW. Whats even further worrying or whatever is that I should have known this YEARS ago when I was young, ie LATE DEVELOPMENT. I then headed on home after the wee hours of the morning.
Why did my Mom NOT put me up for adoption INSTEAD of Orphange, likewise my sis, hmmm. THis question I asked myself while getting Crisps for my lunch BEFORE starting today's news, ie watching it. I'm almost sure my sis told me, I just can't quiet recall it.
Monday 23 November 2015
Diary 23rd November 2015
As per my weekly schedule I was taping Fair City of which I haven't seen since the beginning of October. I was fixing up the TV so that it faces me, it kept disconnecting the cable and more so the stand that my Dad fixed for me a few weeks ago. However while looking at the show, there was a breakup on the show ie a same sex breakup. Such harrowing words went right through me, "I Cant even see her, It's like looking at nothin'. "
I also was suppose to be in the new job for midday today, but following advice from Mom and Dad AND Social Welfare and of couse Ailish and Noel, I decided against it. So I emailed the company, and rejected the offer.
I also was suppose to be in the new job for midday today, but following advice from Mom and Dad AND Social Welfare and of couse Ailish and Noel, I decided against it. So I emailed the company, and rejected the offer.
Sunday 22 November 2015
Diary 22nd November 2015
Well what a night. Although I didn't have vicious dreams or anything of that sort, the negativity was trying to crawl back. This was evident, by means of talking about Coming out etc., etc., last night with Ailish. Its unfortunate but as one would say, "Nothing lasts forever".
I then got up when I heard my sis at the door. We chatted for a bit. I then afterwards got grub for her and myself. For the first time, in forever, (see what I did there - hahaha), they had no Paper Bags, so I to make do with a box, like the way they do in Lidls. hahahaha. I then went down to Nicos and Tasty Gardens to get myself a takeout. eheheh. We saw Mom briefly. I was very disheartened to learn that my aunt who's not well spoken of Colette that she suffered a Mini Stroke. I was literally speechless. Never thought I'd see the day. I can only wish her a speedy recovery. So then I headed back to her place. heeheh for to see Ted 2(Review here)
I then got up when I heard my sis at the door. We chatted for a bit. I then afterwards got grub for her and myself. For the first time, in forever, (see what I did there - hahaha), they had no Paper Bags, so I to make do with a box, like the way they do in Lidls. hahahaha. I then went down to Nicos and Tasty Gardens to get myself a takeout. eheheh. We saw Mom briefly. I was very disheartened to learn that my aunt who's not well spoken of Colette that she suffered a Mini Stroke. I was literally speechless. Never thought I'd see the day. I can only wish her a speedy recovery. So then I headed back to her place. heeheh for to see Ted 2(Review here)
Diary 21st November 2015
Today was a fairly quiet day. I was going to go to the cinema, however as they're ain't that much films out at the moment, I wasn't gonna go and bother. hahah. As I said to Ailish n Noel that Cineworld is gonna be packed to the gills with all the Geeks and Nerd etc., etc., for Star Wars film. hahaha. So that said, I decided to head instead to Ailish n Noel's instead. However that said thou. When the alarm went off at 8.15pm, I turned it off so that I could get up at 8.35pm, however for some strange reason, I couldn't find the phone, so I looked at my other phone the Lumy reported the time at 9.07pm, so what the hell happened, like wtf. hahaha. SO I got up at 9.15 instead and apologised to both of em, like I still fail to understand what exactly happened. haahha.
So with this in mind, I headed on off to Ailish n Noel's as part of my monthly schedule. We chatted had a lovely Lemon sponge Cake. ohhh it was heaven. mmmm. Then part of the chatting we were yaking about Dad's brother and my sexuality. I had said that they literally are Anti-Gay and possibly would never change. Although as Alish puts it, if I were to be around them like I was with Mom's side of the family, then perhaps, but no I've no plans on coming out to them. Although only a handful knows like Maura(Dad's sister in law) and Criona(Dad's Sister's daughter aka Niece). I was trying to recall what his relatives were saying about Gay people, of which I couldn't remember. I then got talking about Christmas and she brought a wonderful memory of whereby on the 8th Dec every year, Dad and I would do the Trimming of the tree and Mom n my Sis would go to into town for pressie shopping. Everytime Dad would be righting cards, I would be very board. There was no such thing as Facebook let alone Internet. So when Dad would be doing the cards, I would be thinking to meself, awww wanna do more decorations etc.., etc., I told them of my "two new jobs", they understood like Mom n Dad yesterday that if there's NO basic wage, then it ain't secure. She even thought if it were legit. hahaah. Ailish told me that Michael Gill called up to her father Brendan. And what a reaction I got. I hadn't heard his name in years. hahaahah. He had called up to Brendan on his way to the airpor. I asked how is he related to Brendan. He his Brendan's First Cousin aka Michael's Mother and Brendan's Father are brother n sister.
So with this in mind, I headed on off to Ailish n Noel's as part of my monthly schedule. We chatted had a lovely Lemon sponge Cake. ohhh it was heaven. mmmm. Then part of the chatting we were yaking about Dad's brother and my sexuality. I had said that they literally are Anti-Gay and possibly would never change. Although as Alish puts it, if I were to be around them like I was with Mom's side of the family, then perhaps, but no I've no plans on coming out to them. Although only a handful knows like Maura(Dad's sister in law) and Criona(Dad's Sister's daughter aka Niece). I was trying to recall what his relatives were saying about Gay people, of which I couldn't remember. I then got talking about Christmas and she brought a wonderful memory of whereby on the 8th Dec every year, Dad and I would do the Trimming of the tree and Mom n my Sis would go to into town for pressie shopping. Everytime Dad would be righting cards, I would be very board. There was no such thing as Facebook let alone Internet. So when Dad would be doing the cards, I would be thinking to meself, awww wanna do more decorations etc.., etc., I told them of my "two new jobs", they understood like Mom n Dad yesterday that if there's NO basic wage, then it ain't secure. She even thought if it were legit. hahaah. Ailish told me that Michael Gill called up to her father Brendan. And what a reaction I got. I hadn't heard his name in years. hahaahah. He had called up to Brendan on his way to the airpor. I asked how is he related to Brendan. He his Brendan's First Cousin aka Michael's Mother and Brendan's Father are brother n sister.
Saturday 21 November 2015
Friday 20 November 2015
Diary 20th November 2015
Not bad a day today. hahahaah. Yesterday on my way out of Social Welfare, I was apparently by a lady to sign up to a job open day. hahahah. So I then headed into Phoenix Marketing aka Marketing Hub. I realised last minute that I had to go in PRofessional Dress Code. So I quickly put things on and headed on out. I then arrived at the Business on Talbot St., when I arrived there was music VERY informal, I was very peed off. hahaahah. Then after about a half hour of waiting around. We were treated to a presentation, then afterwards we were required fill out an Assessment Sheet ie just simply a feedback in my opinion. We were to get a feedback by the Close of Business. I then got talking to one of the contestants. During the whole Open Day, I got the automatic impression of a Quick Money Making scheme, ie like just for a few days, there was an employee who made over 2grand hahaah. So then I came back home on a cold NOW rainy afternoon. So then afterwards, I was getting things ready when I came back like getting into my casual wear or whatever, when I got a call from them. How quick they were to reply. As it happens, I actually got GREAT news, in that I got the job. However the reason I ain't dancing for joy is that although I get paid commission type etc., etc., BUT Social Welfare, which I can easily tell them to stuff it, but the problem the biggest being is the lack of knowledge on Sales. Like there was a guy who had a BSc in Environmental Studies etc., and then a woman in Psychology.
While during the presentation, I was thinking of my Olives I bought in tescos, and how to use em instead of pitch forking them. So I decided I could pour out the Salad my Aunt gave me onto a plate and mix the olives with the salad. mmmmm
Then when I was settled down, my sis called down to me for to download. hehehe. She helped me find Cry Cry. I was on the bed, the other day, throwing my Cry Cry like a frisbee, and literally couldn't find him, whatsoever. I was getting a bit sad.
So that said and done, I headed on to the Outhouse for a bit craic or as I said to Ollie "Ceol agus Craic ach seachan an Ceoil ár ndeogh". (Music and craic but minus Music of course), hahaha. It was a bit bouncy bouncy. I went there thou, to thank Bernard profusely for just a wee chat ie talk, aka Mental Health. I had told him of my distressing dreams of Romania etc., Although my sis knows a hella lot more, but whatever I must have said to him, I haven't had any distressing dreams of late, not even weird ones. I was even getting worried, that I may have "passed" on my dreams or any distressing form to him. But what's also possibly and I think the truth, is that Bernard never came from an Orphange whereas my sis and I did. Then again who knows. Only the man upstairs knows. So what am trying to say, I was able to relate to a person who was NOT in my situation, hmmmmmmm
So that said, I then headed on up to Mom and Dad's for clarification purposes. As you can gather, I was offered a job, from Phoenix Marketing. I was torn between telling "Social Welfare to stuff it", with their Disability Payments etc., etc., or more so their treatment of my Mom. And of course my knowledge. However ONCE again my Back and my now my Knees were brought in. AS part of the job would be to go and sell and make a commission ie WALKING, which over exerting doesn't help my knees at all.
While looking at TV, the Travel series Great Journey Railways, I was admiring the Trams etc., and the Cable Cars. Awww yeahhhh. I recognised the seating made for Dublin BUs, heheeheh. I'm almost sure Dublin BUs' are made by Germany. Then seeing the Trams, so adorable in Freidburg and Hanover.
While during the presentation, I was thinking of my Olives I bought in tescos, and how to use em instead of pitch forking them. So I decided I could pour out the Salad my Aunt gave me onto a plate and mix the olives with the salad. mmmmm
Then when I was settled down, my sis called down to me for to download. hehehe. She helped me find Cry Cry. I was on the bed, the other day, throwing my Cry Cry like a frisbee, and literally couldn't find him, whatsoever. I was getting a bit sad.
So that said and done, I headed on to the Outhouse for a bit craic or as I said to Ollie "Ceol agus Craic ach seachan an Ceoil ár ndeogh". (Music and craic but minus Music of course), hahaha. It was a bit bouncy bouncy. I went there thou, to thank Bernard profusely for just a wee chat ie talk, aka Mental Health. I had told him of my distressing dreams of Romania etc., Although my sis knows a hella lot more, but whatever I must have said to him, I haven't had any distressing dreams of late, not even weird ones. I was even getting worried, that I may have "passed" on my dreams or any distressing form to him. But what's also possibly and I think the truth, is that Bernard never came from an Orphange whereas my sis and I did. Then again who knows. Only the man upstairs knows. So what am trying to say, I was able to relate to a person who was NOT in my situation, hmmmmmmm
So that said, I then headed on up to Mom and Dad's for clarification purposes. As you can gather, I was offered a job, from Phoenix Marketing. I was torn between telling "Social Welfare to stuff it", with their Disability Payments etc., etc., or more so their treatment of my Mom. And of course my knowledge. However ONCE again my Back and my now my Knees were brought in. AS part of the job would be to go and sell and make a commission ie WALKING, which over exerting doesn't help my knees at all.
While looking at TV, the Travel series Great Journey Railways, I was admiring the Trams etc., and the Cable Cars. Awww yeahhhh. I recognised the seating made for Dublin BUs, heheeheh. I'm almost sure Dublin BUs' are made by Germany. Then seeing the Trams, so adorable in Freidburg and Hanover.
Thursday 19 November 2015
Brooklyn
Wow, Just wow. What a film. I was most impressed by the performances by all involved especially Saoirse Ronan's who played Eilis. She has been tipped for Oscar 2016. Such powerful performances. Great well done. My number one pet peeve other than Music, which am delighted was wonderful and fantastic, BUT the plot, which I will outline in a mo. I was most impressed with the way they portrayed the 1950s. Highly recommended. When in particular the way they used to use the Boat from Cobh, Co. Cork. The film is set in Enniscorthy, Co. Wexford. So Eilis prob got the train over to Cobh or something. But the number one thing that got to me was the emotions. She showed true character as per Colm Tobin's novel.
THe plot as I said above was most appreciative very simple. Eilis is currently living with her Mother and Rose(Glascott). She gets a hankering to move to Brooklyn, New York City whom she was helped by Fr. Flood(Broadbent) in terms of a Visa AND a Job. She got a job as a sales person in Balloci a jewellery or something. Says I to meself, my god you could just literally sale into a job, but these days, totally different. So she meets a sexy young Italian buck Tony(Cohen). It is with great sadness, of which I won't bother getting into it, forces Eilis to return back to Ireland. So while back, her friend or neighbor Nancy(O' Higgins) sets her up with a guy, with a very cute mmmmm guy Jim Farrell(Gleeson). Before Eilish returns to IReland, TOny marries Eilis so that EIlis "promises" to return back to him. Whilst in Ireland, she gets feelings for Ireland again AND my precious Jim. So M Kelly(Brennan) being the villain I take it, makes up her mind for EVERYTHING by revealing "how small this world is", when she reveals that a "young girl from Enniscorthy", married TOny an "Italian". So on that note, I will leave you all to guess the rest. ahahah.
Diary 19th November 2015
Although so far, not bad a day, hahaah, It was quite a good day.
I couldn't sleep anytime after 10. So I got up, looked at yesterday's news. Then it was time to go back to Social Welfare to hand in the Letter that the doctor yesterday made for me. However Mom asked if I had the paper that the guy in Social Welfare yesterday, made out, and I had left it behind, so as such, the Doctor couldn't make out the CORRECT version. This was made out today when the letter wasn't accepted. So that said I was asked to get the correct things as "this has to be sorted".
So I headed back, looked further more news. heehehe and current affairs.
I then got ready for the latter of the night. hahaahah. Ohhhh the memories. I do really miss the cinema. The depression does really get in the way of life alright. Or as my sis puts it, "debilitating". But this time round, I went to see Brooklyn(Review here).
I couldn't sleep anytime after 10. So I got up, looked at yesterday's news. Then it was time to go back to Social Welfare to hand in the Letter that the doctor yesterday made for me. However Mom asked if I had the paper that the guy in Social Welfare yesterday, made out, and I had left it behind, so as such, the Doctor couldn't make out the CORRECT version. This was made out today when the letter wasn't accepted. So that said I was asked to get the correct things as "this has to be sorted".
So I headed back, looked further more news. heehehe and current affairs.
I then got ready for the latter of the night. hahaahah. Ohhhh the memories. I do really miss the cinema. The depression does really get in the way of life alright. Or as my sis puts it, "debilitating". But this time round, I went to see Brooklyn(Review here).
Wednesday 18 November 2015
Diary 18th November 2015
Well what a day it has so far turned out to be.
I was due to get up for 10.15am. As reported yesterday, I was to come back today otherwise my Payment would be suspended or stopped. So fearing this, I got ready. However as the same mistake made, in that I set the alarm for 10.15 PM instead of AM. The fact that I woke up around 9.15 it was kinda a blessing in disguise as I was checking my phone to see is it time to get up etc., So at 10.35, I got up quickly wondering why the alarm never went off. So am glad to report that I was on time(almost) hahahah. However while cycling, I kept getting calls from Mom, and I was telling her that am cycling, I cannot accept calls. There was a white car beside me with the word "Revenue" on it. Well who knew they had their own cars . hahaah. Like I actually thought these were cops or something. So eventually I met Mom at the Social Welfare. While waiting around, Mom asks me what about the Job place, could he have meant there. I was getting increasingly anxious and nervous, as if I wasn't enough. So I got a ticket for Desk 29(I call it the Information Desk), when my number was called, I was required to wait around for a further minutes for my name to be called. He didn't call me to be in private, instead he called me publicly and said to come back 3pm, 15h00. Well I was getting very pissed off, but none so than Mom. Like wow. ahhah. She really put them ALL in their place. So we eventually got talking to a gentleman who knew his manners. The reason Mom came in the first place was she was worried about back, while doing the job at hand. So I've to get a Medical Certificate from the Doctor after he said: "Yep we know what to do with you". So afterwards, Mom treated me to a lovely Lasagne and Soup in Cucina. I booked an appointment for the doctor to get the Certificate.
So then afterwards, We dispersed, I went to Outhouse to relaxes after a harrowing experience and then afterwards, I wanted to get to the French Embassy for to lend my support by signing the book of condolences, however when I arrived, there were a couple of people there, I then headed back home.
Then after about an hour, I then headed to my Doctors appt, Met Mom. I was at teh appoitnment lietereally for a few minutes. Scoialiois or now known as Dorsal Spinal Scoliosias is NOT a Disablety Allowance contestant. What I mean having Scoailios does not entitled you to Disaislblty Allowance. Only time will tell. So if anything arises, that the Chief Medical will be in contact with my Dr. So for now, I will be requried to make a Dr's Appt everyweek, which as I said to Mom is bull. To get a new MR1 Cert.
I was due to get up for 10.15am. As reported yesterday, I was to come back today otherwise my Payment would be suspended or stopped. So fearing this, I got ready. However as the same mistake made, in that I set the alarm for 10.15 PM instead of AM. The fact that I woke up around 9.15 it was kinda a blessing in disguise as I was checking my phone to see is it time to get up etc., So at 10.35, I got up quickly wondering why the alarm never went off. So am glad to report that I was on time(almost) hahahah. However while cycling, I kept getting calls from Mom, and I was telling her that am cycling, I cannot accept calls. There was a white car beside me with the word "Revenue" on it. Well who knew they had their own cars . hahaah. Like I actually thought these were cops or something. So eventually I met Mom at the Social Welfare. While waiting around, Mom asks me what about the Job place, could he have meant there. I was getting increasingly anxious and nervous, as if I wasn't enough. So I got a ticket for Desk 29(I call it the Information Desk), when my number was called, I was required to wait around for a further minutes for my name to be called. He didn't call me to be in private, instead he called me publicly and said to come back 3pm, 15h00. Well I was getting very pissed off, but none so than Mom. Like wow. ahhah. She really put them ALL in their place. So we eventually got talking to a gentleman who knew his manners. The reason Mom came in the first place was she was worried about back, while doing the job at hand. So I've to get a Medical Certificate from the Doctor after he said: "Yep we know what to do with you". So afterwards, Mom treated me to a lovely Lasagne and Soup in Cucina. I booked an appointment for the doctor to get the Certificate.
So then afterwards, We dispersed, I went to Outhouse to relaxes after a harrowing experience and then afterwards, I wanted to get to the French Embassy for to lend my support by signing the book of condolences, however when I arrived, there were a couple of people there, I then headed back home.
Then after about an hour, I then headed to my Doctors appt, Met Mom. I was at teh appoitnment lietereally for a few minutes. Scoialiois or now known as Dorsal Spinal Scoliosias is NOT a Disablety Allowance contestant. What I mean having Scoailios does not entitled you to Disaislblty Allowance. Only time will tell. So if anything arises, that the Chief Medical will be in contact with my Dr. So for now, I will be requried to make a Dr's Appt everyweek, which as I said to Mom is bull. To get a new MR1 Cert.
Tuesday 17 November 2015
Diary 17th November 2015
Well what a day, it turned out to be. I had some weird dreams, but one thing striking is that Sammy +Puppys Stanescu for the second night in a row, ends up at the end of the bed. I ain't sure why? but since the dream I had the other night regarding Sammy being wet etc., Sammy has been at the end of the bed. :(
So with that in mind, I headed on off to sign on, as I realsied last night that today was Sign On day in Intreo in Parnell St., So I headed to get the dole. The two of them Sandra and Niall were BOTH free, normally one of them would gesture to me however neither peep outta of them except Sandra laughing. So I went to her, did my business. Then I headed to the bank, Nothing unusual there. heheehe.
Then I headed to Sign On in Intreo. While waiting, the person behind the window, gestured to me to go to the next window, however there was no one their, so I stayed in line. Then a guy behind me went ahead of me and signed on there. So another guy behind me queued up behind me and I said to him, they ain't got no heads, with the ignorance of them. I was referring to the guy behind the window whom eventually served me. When I was finished signing on, he tells me to be here for 11am tomorrow morning. I asked why and he said you have a cleaning job. Otherwise if you fail to show up, you will loose or suspend your Payment.
So then I headed back up towards Mom n Dads. On the way, I stopped at SmallChanges to get my weekly groceries. When I arrived, Peadar was at the Juice Bar ie the Deli. It had finally been opened. So I wished him a congratulations. I then got my stuff and headed up to Mom n Dads.
So I headed up to Ma n Pa. My main aim was to welcome Mom back from her short trip to Sligo and to return Dad's shopping bag. I had hoped to welcome her back with my sis. Which in the end it did turn out. So I sent an email to Greyhound and Jim Moran on behalf of Dad. While chatting before the meal, Dad couldn't even look at me at my beard. I said its for Movember.
So moving on, I headed on back home, My sis and I went to Centra, to get a few grubs and back to my place. Then headed to her place for a few minutes.
So with that in mind, I headed on off to sign on, as I realsied last night that today was Sign On day in Intreo in Parnell St., So I headed to get the dole. The two of them Sandra and Niall were BOTH free, normally one of them would gesture to me however neither peep outta of them except Sandra laughing. So I went to her, did my business. Then I headed to the bank, Nothing unusual there. heheehe.
Then I headed to Sign On in Intreo. While waiting, the person behind the window, gestured to me to go to the next window, however there was no one their, so I stayed in line. Then a guy behind me went ahead of me and signed on there. So another guy behind me queued up behind me and I said to him, they ain't got no heads, with the ignorance of them. I was referring to the guy behind the window whom eventually served me. When I was finished signing on, he tells me to be here for 11am tomorrow morning. I asked why and he said you have a cleaning job. Otherwise if you fail to show up, you will loose or suspend your Payment.
So then I headed back up towards Mom n Dads. On the way, I stopped at SmallChanges to get my weekly groceries. When I arrived, Peadar was at the Juice Bar ie the Deli. It had finally been opened. So I wished him a congratulations. I then got my stuff and headed up to Mom n Dads.
So I headed up to Ma n Pa. My main aim was to welcome Mom back from her short trip to Sligo and to return Dad's shopping bag. I had hoped to welcome her back with my sis. Which in the end it did turn out. So I sent an email to Greyhound and Jim Moran on behalf of Dad. While chatting before the meal, Dad couldn't even look at me at my beard. I said its for Movember.
So moving on, I headed on back home, My sis and I went to Centra, to get a few grubs and back to my place. Then headed to her place for a few minutes.
Monday 16 November 2015
Diary 16th November 2015
Well today was a quiet day.
I was looking at the news, as per norm and the current affairs. Then onto my 13/14 hrs of Knots Landing. Twas quiet emotional thou at the end, when the series ended. Obviously its being repeated. I'm a sucker for endings thou. hahaah.
Then while doing that, I was doing a new idea of selfies/photo shoot, whereby I use Lappy's own Cyberlink YouCam, the software that I use to go and record Videos for my VLog. heehheeh.
THen while sharing my PUppys, to my Facebook gstanescu84 account, everything was grand. THen it came the time to post my Photos of myself up and the button for to select the album never showed up. ???? I restarted the phone, reset the app, Still nothing. So hopefully its just a bug and Facebook will fix it in no time.
I was looking at the news, as per norm and the current affairs. Then onto my 13/14 hrs of Knots Landing. Twas quiet emotional thou at the end, when the series ended. Obviously its being repeated. I'm a sucker for endings thou. hahaah.
Then while doing that, I was doing a new idea of selfies/photo shoot, whereby I use Lappy's own Cyberlink YouCam, the software that I use to go and record Videos for my VLog. heehheeh.
THen while sharing my PUppys, to my Facebook gstanescu84 account, everything was grand. THen it came the time to post my Photos of myself up and the button for to select the album never showed up. ???? I restarted the phone, reset the app, Still nothing. So hopefully its just a bug and Facebook will fix it in no time.
Sunday 15 November 2015
Diary 15th November 2015
Today was pretty a quiet day. heehehe. As a result from last night's nightmare, (No end in site), I welcomed my sis to spend more or less the day with me. heehehe. I had gotten up at 10am, as I couldn't sleep any further, but most further my box was getting full of whcih I was worried, as I wanted The Week In Politics etc., and espc WundayAM. hahaha.
So my sis arrived around half 1. We basically for the day watched TV. To clear up space, I was watching Saturday AM, #saturdayamtv3, and the coverage of the French Attacks #PrayForParis. THen onto Taxi and Saved By The BEll. I met her at Cetnra, where I got a bit of grub formyself. heeheh.
So my sis arrived around half 1. We basically for the day watched TV. To clear up space, I was watching Saturday AM, #saturdayamtv3, and the coverage of the French Attacks #PrayForParis. THen onto Taxi and Saved By The BEll. I met her at Cetnra, where I got a bit of grub formyself. heeheh.
Saturday 14 November 2015
Diary 14th November 2015
Well what can I say, while it wasn't as bad as previous nights, it was just as bad, I was due to go and see the Zombie movie tonight and then bring Dad's bag up to him that he left shopping for me in and then onto the event at hand. However I realsied that I hadn't turned on the alarm, and as such I woke up at half 9, so I said I'd leave it. I was getting a bit nervous with this particular event at hand, don't know why thou considering there is no dress code of any form, other than you can' t go there naked like. BUt apart from that you can go in ur undies or in my case I would have gone in my Singlet.
So that said, it was regrettable that I didn't go as I had my nightmare. I've never cried in all my life as I have in the past few weeks now. My latest nightmare was whereby I was with my family: Mom, Dad and my sis in the house I grew up in. Mysteriously in the back garden, I see a tiger all covered in Oil(perhaps representing Veganism in my dream), then I see my nightmare coming through whereby my Sammy +Puppys Stanescu is wringing wet, hardly any stuffing etc., inside. I go upstairs in the toilet, and shout down to my sis, don't she want to keep HER puppys, and shockingly NO in a calm voice. I ran into my old bedroom to ensure what I saw WASN'T what I had hoped, and low and behold, my dear sweetie had fallen victim to such vandalism or whatever. So in a distress mental state, that my trousers and undies are half way down, and obviously my top is still on. Now I'm sitting against my Mom's statue in such a state. my sis and Mom are cooking dinner, my Dad in the garden, and my sis asks "what did you say you wanted: sauce or nuts", Something like that. I didn't care about my dignity enough to pull up my trousers. When my sis asks the question I break down. She comes out to me worryingly.
So with the above, one begins to wonder why are my dreams escalating. Like to my darlings +Puppys Stanescu , then my veganism etc., etc., So I began to wonder that my dreams escalated worse could it be that a loved one has died??? Like the quote from Pan :"How can you love someone you've never met"
So that said, it was regrettable that I didn't go as I had my nightmare. I've never cried in all my life as I have in the past few weeks now. My latest nightmare was whereby I was with my family: Mom, Dad and my sis in the house I grew up in. Mysteriously in the back garden, I see a tiger all covered in Oil(perhaps representing Veganism in my dream), then I see my nightmare coming through whereby my Sammy +Puppys Stanescu is wringing wet, hardly any stuffing etc., inside. I go upstairs in the toilet, and shout down to my sis, don't she want to keep HER puppys, and shockingly NO in a calm voice. I ran into my old bedroom to ensure what I saw WASN'T what I had hoped, and low and behold, my dear sweetie had fallen victim to such vandalism or whatever. So in a distress mental state, that my trousers and undies are half way down, and obviously my top is still on. Now I'm sitting against my Mom's statue in such a state. my sis and Mom are cooking dinner, my Dad in the garden, and my sis asks "what did you say you wanted: sauce or nuts", Something like that. I didn't care about my dignity enough to pull up my trousers. When my sis asks the question I break down. She comes out to me worryingly.
So with the above, one begins to wonder why are my dreams escalating. Like to my darlings +Puppys Stanescu , then my veganism etc., etc., So I began to wonder that my dreams escalated worse could it be that a loved one has died??? Like the quote from Pan :"How can you love someone you've never met"
Friday 13 November 2015
Diary 13th November 2015
Well today is my first day without the alarm. heheh. I had slept about 20+ hours. ahhaah. However it didn't come with no dreams thou. :(.
DREAMS
My sis makes a lovely dinner while I look forward to many films. I with my partner if I recall rightly.
My other dreams which was more distressing thou, I tell my sis that I hit my Dad back in the head when he hits me in the head. This happens TWICE the dream I mean. This time, in the second dream O'Farrell is there facing me with his back and NOT facing my sis. O' Farrell wants to know arrangements as to when shops open. I say Tescos and some other place opens early. He heads off and FAILS to return. Perhaps he arrived in the middle of family drama. While telling her I breakdown twice or MORE SO emotional.
So then it was time to head out. hahahah. Like I had watched the time at 4pm, and then next it was 5.15. So I then headed on off to An Post to get my cash for tomorrow night at Profile. Then afterwards, I decided to head via Arran Quay to go and see exactly where tomorrow night's Profile will be held which is in Voodoo lounge. heeheh.
So then I headed to Aldi to see if they had any Vegan range of Christmas goodies. heehehe like Christmas Pudding, Mince Pies etc., etc., On the way to Aldis, I decided to go round by Henry St to get the lights on Camera, haahaha. I had been in Pennys getting a few more Scarfies. awwww. I saw that they now sell Christmas Undies and Jumpers. I shall defo get Christmas Undies. Still not sure about the Jumper thou. hahah.
I then headed to the outhouse for a few hours. Twas grand. Great chats were had etc., I was curious when Bernard told me that to get rid of the dreams, that I shuold consdier seeing a counsellor. Then shortly afterwards he had conencted that if I contiuneu having dreams, taht teh abuser is enjoying life, and that if and when I see the counsellor and stop the dremas, that he'll be in hell. I then headed to see Spectre(Review here).
DREAMS
My sis makes a lovely dinner while I look forward to many films. I with my partner if I recall rightly.
My other dreams which was more distressing thou, I tell my sis that I hit my Dad back in the head when he hits me in the head. This happens TWICE the dream I mean. This time, in the second dream O'Farrell is there facing me with his back and NOT facing my sis. O' Farrell wants to know arrangements as to when shops open. I say Tescos and some other place opens early. He heads off and FAILS to return. Perhaps he arrived in the middle of family drama. While telling her I breakdown twice or MORE SO emotional.
So then it was time to head out. hahahah. Like I had watched the time at 4pm, and then next it was 5.15. So I then headed on off to An Post to get my cash for tomorrow night at Profile. Then afterwards, I decided to head via Arran Quay to go and see exactly where tomorrow night's Profile will be held which is in Voodoo lounge. heeheh.
So then I headed to Aldi to see if they had any Vegan range of Christmas goodies. heehehe like Christmas Pudding, Mince Pies etc., etc., On the way to Aldis, I decided to go round by Henry St to get the lights on Camera, haahaha. I had been in Pennys getting a few more Scarfies. awwww. I saw that they now sell Christmas Undies and Jumpers. I shall defo get Christmas Undies. Still not sure about the Jumper thou. hahah.
I then headed to the outhouse for a few hours. Twas grand. Great chats were had etc., I was curious when Bernard told me that to get rid of the dreams, that I shuold consdier seeing a counsellor. Then shortly afterwards he had conencted that if I contiuneu having dreams, taht teh abuser is enjoying life, and that if and when I see the counsellor and stop the dremas, that he'll be in hell. I then headed to see Spectre(Review here).
Thursday 12 November 2015
Diary 12th November 2015
Well I wasn't gonna attempt to sleep again for to wake up for Franky. SO I stayed up and waited for him. So for obvious reasons I won't be going out tonight.
So while waiting for him, I did my various TV shows. Maureen called by to drop by food. We had a laugh when she said to me "There's a shed in Mom n Dad's". hahaahah. I got such a fit. I turned into a joke, "oh yeah throw a gay man into the shed". hahahaha.
So then after her, he shortly arrived. He disconnected the alarm box from the Electricity, and then I only found out last night why I didn't hear Franky when he tried getting at the door. Its cause Dad had disconnected the Bell by accident. So that said Franky connected everything up Bell wise, and bob's ur uncle. Everything's back to normal. hahahaah. Oh and PS he mentioned to get my Aunt off his back as well.
So while waiting for him, I did my various TV shows. Maureen called by to drop by food. We had a laugh when she said to me "There's a shed in Mom n Dad's". hahaahah. I got such a fit. I turned into a joke, "oh yeah throw a gay man into the shed". hahahaha.
So then after her, he shortly arrived. He disconnected the alarm box from the Electricity, and then I only found out last night why I didn't hear Franky when he tried getting at the door. Its cause Dad had disconnected the Bell by accident. So that said Franky connected everything up Bell wise, and bob's ur uncle. Everything's back to normal. hahahaah. Oh and PS he mentioned to get my Aunt off his back as well.
Wednesday 11 November 2015
Diary 11th November 2015
Just before I was heading to bed, Dad pops down to take a look at the alarm. I'm their sitting on toilet doing my business when he rings the doorbell. And says I to myself, "crap" the +Inflatables Stanescu. Well I can tell you this much, I never got off the toilet as quick as I did for the Inflatables. Cause the last time he had an issue by means of slashing em. So I hid the majority in the BAthroom and the rest under the covers. There was one thou however that he still can't get around it haha with his face. hehehe.
So after Dad left, I checked my mail of which one was Specsavers and Sky. I knew what Sky was which is a bill increase. Nothing's new in that department. ahhaah. However when I read further, I was delighted to learn that the RTE Player is to come to Sky's Catch Up TV Service which I get free as part of my subscription. I was more than delighted. LIke I won't be recording RTE News or RTE Shows anymore. I just download and Record. Yeahhhhhhhhh happy dayssss.
Well after a restless night, but I must say I did get a few hours wink alrite. hahhaa with the alarm still going off. haahha, I got up for today's meetup ie Cornucopia(Review here) with the Vegetarian Society of Ireland. I used maps to see where it would take me. So I followed it, well I never, I was taken to places which is actually illegals ie illegal turns. It was a great meetup. hehehe. I met up with a few ladies who were there when I arrived. heehheh. On the way, I came across a child and his mother. There was a flace linen curtain and a Vase in front. The Vase being glass by the looks of it. The child was there pulling at the curtain, and I got the fright of me like thinking he'd knock down the vase. As I was going down to get my food I came across Ursula Halligan from TV3. She came out gay a few months ago before this years Historic Same Sex Referendum. She is TV3's Political Correspondent in TV3 News. So I got talking to a few of the women, She was telling me that she lives in MAnchester and is home for the week or something. So I asked if she was going to Manchester Pride or if she's ever been or something. She said "I ain't gay". I said ya don't' have to be gay. Just like ya don't have to be a vegetarian to eat vegetarian. So long as you're NOT against Gay people etc., Then I was about to head off, when I got talking to Vinny, of which I realsie he was actually Albanian, well who knew. hahaah. I then was asked by Gerard where I Was from, ie he was keen on my accent, So I dubbed him Accentology the study of accents. haahah. Then we all agree that the prices are exorbitant. So I was explained thou which obviously one factor is the location ie Grafton St, where Rent prices are quite high and another of which I learned was that the food is cooked at 40C, so to keep the ntirietnwts instead of loosing them. Gerard whom I was chatting too BEFORE going home was talkign abotu PUppy Famrs.I referred hims to NARA and ARAN. ARAN has been around for several years. He was saying there;'s hundreds of them. I said ARAN can help. His arguement was that its far too much. Mine was ya have to inject a virus. To do so ARAN being the virus, it will evnetually pull em all down. Other topics discucessed were Remembering our school days. I did Plough and hte Stars for LEaveing Cert and Home ALone for Junior Cert
So after Dad left, I checked my mail of which one was Specsavers and Sky. I knew what Sky was which is a bill increase. Nothing's new in that department. ahhaah. However when I read further, I was delighted to learn that the RTE Player is to come to Sky's Catch Up TV Service which I get free as part of my subscription. I was more than delighted. LIke I won't be recording RTE News or RTE Shows anymore. I just download and Record. Yeahhhhhhhhh happy dayssss.
Well after a restless night, but I must say I did get a few hours wink alrite. hahhaa with the alarm still going off. haahha, I got up for today's meetup ie Cornucopia(Review here) with the Vegetarian Society of Ireland. I used maps to see where it would take me. So I followed it, well I never, I was taken to places which is actually illegals ie illegal turns. It was a great meetup. hehehe. I met up with a few ladies who were there when I arrived. heehheh. On the way, I came across a child and his mother. There was a flace linen curtain and a Vase in front. The Vase being glass by the looks of it. The child was there pulling at the curtain, and I got the fright of me like thinking he'd knock down the vase. As I was going down to get my food I came across Ursula Halligan from TV3. She came out gay a few months ago before this years Historic Same Sex Referendum. She is TV3's Political Correspondent in TV3 News. So I got talking to a few of the women, She was telling me that she lives in MAnchester and is home for the week or something. So I asked if she was going to Manchester Pride or if she's ever been or something. She said "I ain't gay". I said ya don't' have to be gay. Just like ya don't have to be a vegetarian to eat vegetarian. So long as you're NOT against Gay people etc., Then I was about to head off, when I got talking to Vinny, of which I realsie he was actually Albanian, well who knew. hahaah. I then was asked by Gerard where I Was from, ie he was keen on my accent, So I dubbed him Accentology the study of accents. haahah. Then we all agree that the prices are exorbitant. So I was explained thou which obviously one factor is the location ie Grafton St, where Rent prices are quite high and another of which I learned was that the food is cooked at 40C, so to keep the ntirietnwts instead of loosing them. Gerard whom I was chatting too BEFORE going home was talkign abotu PUppy Famrs.I referred hims to NARA and ARAN. ARAN has been around for several years. He was saying there;'s hundreds of them. I said ARAN can help. His arguement was that its far too much. Mine was ya have to inject a virus. To do so ARAN being the virus, it will evnetually pull em all down. Other topics discucessed were Remembering our school days. I did Plough and hte Stars for LEaveing Cert and Home ALone for Junior Cert
Cornucopia, Wicklow St., Dublin, Ireland
Twas an quite a visit today. I have been to Cornucopia several times, today I decided to do a review as I've never done so. hahaah.
Today I had Soup, Salad and Dessert. The Soup and Dessert I wholeheartedly enjoyed. the Salad not so much. Now as regards the staff, they were very accommodating. I've never had an issue with Staff or their foods hence why I keep going back to em. hahaha. The only thing I would say is to offer MORE vegan alternatives ie HOT foods. I wanted the Baked cheese thing, However as it wasn't Vegan, I had to make do with Salad, with as you can gather, did not enjoy.
The Soup was a mushroom creamy consistency. Green in color as per the pic. It was absolutly heaven. Totally enjoyed it.
My next was the Salad, I was hoping for a hot dish, however it wasn't to be, as the stuff I wanted was Cow cheese instead my baby Violife Cheese which is Vegan. So I stuck with the Salad, of which I didn't enjoy it one bit. Oh their was taste no doubt, but I just didn't care for it.
So I moved onto the Dessert, as I said to my colleague, I like to "end on a sweet note" as per what my mother would say. hahha. I had a lovely Tart of which was a lovely soft consistency texture, and a crumbly base. It was all heaven. hehehe.
Today I had Soup, Salad and Dessert. The Soup and Dessert I wholeheartedly enjoyed. the Salad not so much. Now as regards the staff, they were very accommodating. I've never had an issue with Staff or their foods hence why I keep going back to em. hahaha. The only thing I would say is to offer MORE vegan alternatives ie HOT foods. I wanted the Baked cheese thing, However as it wasn't Vegan, I had to make do with Salad, with as you can gather, did not enjoy.
The Soup was a mushroom creamy consistency. Green in color as per the pic. It was absolutly heaven. Totally enjoyed it.
My next was the Salad, I was hoping for a hot dish, however it wasn't to be, as the stuff I wanted was Cow cheese instead my baby Violife Cheese which is Vegan. So I stuck with the Salad, of which I didn't enjoy it one bit. Oh their was taste no doubt, but I just didn't care for it.
So I moved onto the Dessert, as I said to my colleague, I like to "end on a sweet note" as per what my mother would say. hahha. I had a lovely Tart of which was a lovely soft consistency texture, and a crumbly base. It was all heaven. hehehe.
Tuesday 10 November 2015
Diary 10th November 2015
Today wasn't a great start to my day. First off was my dreams starting up again, however NOT as bad, but still. The dream in question featured a guy I had feelings for who actually exists on my Facebook, then in the dream, I meet his parents, and afterwards, I am called back with cautious results. By this I mean that the Father doesn't say anything, he writes it on a piece of paper. I don't quite recall it, however its quite harrowing, as he don't approve his son's date. Something to that effect.
So afterwards, I got up, I was about to head out to Dole, when my sis called by. She was due to come down to me around 7ish, which would allow me to shower, however it wasn't to be. I was letting her in, when all of a sudden, my alarm goes off. As I don't remember the PIN or whatever, I couldn't knock it off. So my sis was downloading with the alarm in her ear.
So eitherway, I headed out to the Dole. I was just 5mins almost late. So was over the moon, when I got the dosh. hahahha. I then headed to the bank, and afterwards, onto Small Changes. where I saw Peadar continuing his work ont eh Delicatessen. I was a bit disappointed. But hey, hahahaa. I then headed on home.
So when I got back, I was trying to figure out the PIN for the Alarm. I rang Dad to figure out if he has the PIN number, as the day I moved in, I was required to go into Social Welfare and Dad and the Alarm guy was there to set it up. I rang Franky, however as per usual, it was to voicemail. I rang him twice and left a voicemail once.
So we then headed to my sis' place popped into Centra where I came across a familar vegan BRand, Wholefoods and then we headed to Tescos where I needed butter and wanted to get a PEsto Salad with Cashew, however they had none. So we watched Minions(Review here). So afterwards, when I came back to my place, I tried silencing the alarm bell. However I attempted to unscrew the bell, however I was getting nerves via the Wires as the wires were in the way. I was throughout the night, trying to use my phone for to ring Franky my folks etc., however I couldn't the app would crash. I attempted to find out who was ringing me ie Missed calls. Couldn't even get into Voicemail let alone the Phone app.
While going through the emails, I got an email from a newsletter, MakeUseOf which a Tech newsletter. THe email said that "We Miss You" in the subject, which in then said that they had noticed an absence from me reading the newsletter, which I normally go through everyday. THat said I was quite surprised. Like I do log into the account/site. However I rarely actually comment on articles they post, yet they noticed my absence. So with my curiosity, I just had to email the Newsletter Editor. hahaha.
So afterwards, I got up, I was about to head out to Dole, when my sis called by. She was due to come down to me around 7ish, which would allow me to shower, however it wasn't to be. I was letting her in, when all of a sudden, my alarm goes off. As I don't remember the PIN or whatever, I couldn't knock it off. So my sis was downloading with the alarm in her ear.
So eitherway, I headed out to the Dole. I was just 5mins almost late. So was over the moon, when I got the dosh. hahahha. I then headed to the bank, and afterwards, onto Small Changes. where I saw Peadar continuing his work ont eh Delicatessen. I was a bit disappointed. But hey, hahahaa. I then headed on home.
So when I got back, I was trying to figure out the PIN for the Alarm. I rang Dad to figure out if he has the PIN number, as the day I moved in, I was required to go into Social Welfare and Dad and the Alarm guy was there to set it up. I rang Franky, however as per usual, it was to voicemail. I rang him twice and left a voicemail once.
So we then headed to my sis' place popped into Centra where I came across a familar vegan BRand, Wholefoods and then we headed to Tescos where I needed butter and wanted to get a PEsto Salad with Cashew, however they had none. So we watched Minions(Review here). So afterwards, when I came back to my place, I tried silencing the alarm bell. However I attempted to unscrew the bell, however I was getting nerves via the Wires as the wires were in the way. I was throughout the night, trying to use my phone for to ring Franky my folks etc., however I couldn't the app would crash. I attempted to find out who was ringing me ie Missed calls. Couldn't even get into Voicemail let alone the Phone app.
While going through the emails, I got an email from a newsletter, MakeUseOf which a Tech newsletter. THe email said that "We Miss You" in the subject, which in then said that they had noticed an absence from me reading the newsletter, which I normally go through everyday. THat said I was quite surprised. Like I do log into the account/site. However I rarely actually comment on articles they post, yet they noticed my absence. So with my curiosity, I just had to email the Newsletter Editor. hahaha.
Monday 9 November 2015
Diary 9th November 2015
When I got back from my sis, I sorted out my SD cards and my Me folders that I've yet to upload onto my social media accounts.
Sunday 8 November 2015
Diary 8th November 2015
I woke up from a FABULOUS sleep. heheeh. Yeah you's heard me. hahahah. After such an ordeal I've had in eh last few days, I woke up Dream Free. Cause If I hadn't I would have done anything literally. I even crossed the Cross, hoping it would help. hahahaha. So with this in mind, I headed onto my sis, with great news. heheeh. She stormed heavens to pray that I don't get such tramautic crap. So we chatted, as norm,. We had a great night. hahahaah.
Saturday 7 November 2015
Diary 7th November 2015
PS This post contains NSFW content by means of self harm and suicidality. ie TRIGGER
Well as you can gather no improvement on my thoughts. So my last thought before I actually got up was to butcher meself depending on Maureen's answer, if she remembers a black guy in eh orphanage and if she does, then I would butcher meself like a carcass, like the way they yank the skin thing off before the meat in question and it hanging off and then somehow getting up to the hospital. I attempt to put toilet paper, as I don't have any bandages. But low and behold I saw Sammy his ass facing me, and I said to myself I wanna see his face , hahah. So I played with BOTH Patch n Sammy. ehehhe and my Ducky and my Sleevenies, hehehehe. So that got my suicidality and self harm, more so self harm thoughts away.
So I got up and rang Maureen my Aunt to find out if she remembers the Black guy who was in my dreams a few months ago, as expected she couldn't remember. So then I got up showered and watched the news. My sis popped down for some downloading.
I then headed out with a view of seeing Edmund, head of Vegan Ireland and Evelyn and the french woman GLoria(Glo) and then onto Pan(Review here) and then to folks as Ailish and Noel are away to mind Noeleen and Andrew's kids as they themselves are celebrating their 17th ANniversary in Rome, funnily where they got married initially. ahahah.
So then I headed onto Edmund and saw them at the table to protest against Fur, as per every Saturday afternoon. Then afterwards, the 4 of us, Edmund, Glo, Evelyne and myself headed onto Cornucopia. heheh. I had a beautiful Vegan Chocolate FUdge Cake. It was so scrumptious and heaven. hahha. We were chatting away, I was chatting with GLo, and before you know it, time caught up with us and as such, I wasn't able to get a pressie AND the cinema in at all. The pressoe, was well too late. And then cinema indeed hahaah. We were chatting about her course which brought great memories back from my college days. However with programming!!!!. Like although I love it an all, I just can't hack it in a business environment.
So I headed on up to Mom n Dad's directly. heehehe. I was joined by my sis. We had a nice meal. ehheh. hhahaaLooked at TV etc.,
Well as you can gather no improvement on my thoughts. So my last thought before I actually got up was to butcher meself depending on Maureen's answer, if she remembers a black guy in eh orphanage and if she does, then I would butcher meself like a carcass, like the way they yank the skin thing off before the meat in question and it hanging off and then somehow getting up to the hospital. I attempt to put toilet paper, as I don't have any bandages. But low and behold I saw Sammy his ass facing me, and I said to myself I wanna see his face , hahah. So I played with BOTH Patch n Sammy. ehehhe and my Ducky and my Sleevenies, hehehehe. So that got my suicidality and self harm, more so self harm thoughts away.
So I got up and rang Maureen my Aunt to find out if she remembers the Black guy who was in my dreams a few months ago, as expected she couldn't remember. So then I got up showered and watched the news. My sis popped down for some downloading.
I then headed out with a view of seeing Edmund, head of Vegan Ireland and Evelyn and the french woman GLoria(Glo) and then onto Pan(Review here) and then to folks as Ailish and Noel are away to mind Noeleen and Andrew's kids as they themselves are celebrating their 17th ANniversary in Rome, funnily where they got married initially. ahahah.
So then I headed onto Edmund and saw them at the table to protest against Fur, as per every Saturday afternoon. Then afterwards, the 4 of us, Edmund, Glo, Evelyne and myself headed onto Cornucopia. heheh. I had a beautiful Vegan Chocolate FUdge Cake. It was so scrumptious and heaven. hahha. We were chatting away, I was chatting with GLo, and before you know it, time caught up with us and as such, I wasn't able to get a pressie AND the cinema in at all. The pressoe, was well too late. And then cinema indeed hahaah. We were chatting about her course which brought great memories back from my college days. However with programming!!!!. Like although I love it an all, I just can't hack it in a business environment.
So I headed on up to Mom n Dad's directly. heehehe. I was joined by my sis. We had a nice meal. ehheh. hhahaaLooked at TV etc.,
Friday 6 November 2015
Diary 6th November 2015
PS This post contains NSFW content by means of self harm and suicidility. ie TRIGGER
While last night's sleep wasn't as bad as the previous night's, it most sure was no better. I endured, such traumatic events again and again and again. I endured more harrowing dreams and more so thoughts this time round. Like one of the thoughts, would be when I'm with my folks, that I go up and tell em that I've been raped by the guy in Romania. It has been made clearer to me that its a very strong possibility that I have may have been molested. So in so telling em this, I react very bad like a maniac in terms of crying constantly and braking plates etc., Then another thought would be that I be on the edge of the River Liffey, And in so doing I ring Barry whom I hold dearly as a very well respected friend and of course my sis. They both meet each other to state that "I'm sorry to meet you under the current circumstances", while attempting to save me I hold onto a pole but the wind whisks me in, and somehow I end up in Vincent's Hosp. I again react badly when staff attempt to touch me. I ask them what you give me, they tell me Haloperidol. Then another is that I kill myself cause I ate meat, despite giving several hundreds to animal charities and sanctuaries etc., So inso doing I give my family a letter stating that "I couldn't look at other Vegans etc., and tell them I ate an animal by accident. I couldn't even live with myself". Something like that. Then another would be that I put up on FB that I just can't deal with all of this dreams etc., etc., and tagging Curt, My sis etc., etc.,
While last night's sleep wasn't as bad as the previous night's, it most sure was no better. I endured, such traumatic events again and again and again. I endured more harrowing dreams and more so thoughts this time round. Like one of the thoughts, would be when I'm with my folks, that I go up and tell em that I've been raped by the guy in Romania. It has been made clearer to me that its a very strong possibility that I have may have been molested. So in so telling em this, I react very bad like a maniac in terms of crying constantly and braking plates etc., Then another thought would be that I be on the edge of the River Liffey, And in so doing I ring Barry whom I hold dearly as a very well respected friend and of course my sis. They both meet each other to state that "I'm sorry to meet you under the current circumstances", while attempting to save me I hold onto a pole but the wind whisks me in, and somehow I end up in Vincent's Hosp. I again react badly when staff attempt to touch me. I ask them what you give me, they tell me Haloperidol. Then another is that I kill myself cause I ate meat, despite giving several hundreds to animal charities and sanctuaries etc., So inso doing I give my family a letter stating that "I couldn't look at other Vegans etc., and tell them I ate an animal by accident. I couldn't even live with myself". Something like that. Then another would be that I put up on FB that I just can't deal with all of this dreams etc., etc., and tagging Curt, My sis etc., etc.,
Thursday 5 November 2015
Diary 5th November 2015
Well what a night I suffered last night, shortly after going to bed.
Dreams
1) Group
of lads waiting outside with weapons, I accidently pull back my blanky and
they come charging at me, I get the fright of my life
AFterwards, with the fright I woke up to take a leak, and only remember why I got the shits yesterday before going to bed, and that is
because of the relatives that maybe making fun of me video etc., and the keith vid
top. Now what am saying ere is, that I made a video of me singing THe WIld Rover from the Dubliners concert, I was looking at. Then when I email Michael that he goes and shows the video etc., etc., then to hear of the mockery or whatever. This occurred a few years ago when my sis told me of this, Michael showed around in a mockery format of my ex and I kissing to his family.
Dreams reuming
2)shitting in bed literally. Bringing my Romanian nightmare back to life. I apparnetly did this in the orphanage.
3). I was clearly suicidal, no one gets me, its unreal.
4)Devastated
to find out it was Dara Coffey who spreading rumours about me sexing with a
woman, cause I say I am fuckign gay".
5) Then another being I'm in a line, being told by the soldier to stay in line. Yet the soldier gestures something else, he continues to tell me to stay in line. I get mixed signals.
6) Then another one which might I remind you repeated. WHat I mean is that I'm with a group of people or something, We are running with another person. And then perahsp beat him up. Soemthing to that affect.
As
u can gather, it wasn’t the best night of my life. In fact the worse. Like I mean, I had diarrhea, Leg
pains, Stomach pains, Back pain, oh boi the back pain, and of course the above
dreams, of which I’ve never had in me life. It was unreal.
So
after that, I was to meet Maureen. It was unfortunate thou, that I was very
late for her. I then realised that I had put it as PM instead of AM. Ahahah. So
I got to meet her, in the end. I told her of the above Dreams. She puts it as
me release my “fears” outta my system. We chatted about Romania, sure what's new. hahaah.
I headed onto the cinema to see Pan(Review here). I then went onto the Outhouse. Where I was greeted with alot guys. heeheh. I told em of my above dreams. There was a cousnellor who was there I didn't even know. hahaah. He told me that in the Soldier dream, that the soldier is acutgally "me" and that I am questioning myself or telling myself someting. Then shortly afterwards O' Farrell came along, back to square one with him, I think. The fact that I paid for him :( :(. Then shortly afterwards, I headed on back home.
Wednesday 4 November 2015
Diary 4th November 2015
Today, as I had no plans of going out, I decided to stay up a bit and do a bit of recording. hahah.
I was looking at the Dubliners Vicar St concert. Well by George did it bring some fond memories, some painful but fond. Depending. Now what I mean by that is, that I was singing a song, and I dedicated it to Martin Mulligan(Kathleen's hubbie). Had rush thoughts of Michael Doherty looking at my video on Youtube, and making a mockery of while passing it around to others on New Years Eve kidna. How he gets hold of it is, that I email it to him, WHICH I will be doing so, eitherway. hahaha.
The other was after Sabrina, was a music video from Lady Gaga - Bad Romance. Now again more painful memories came back as I was singing the song, the Take 2, ahahah. Which as I explained in the video that my ex and I were picking "our song" etc., etc.,
I was looking at the Dubliners Vicar St concert. Well by George did it bring some fond memories, some painful but fond. Depending. Now what I mean by that is, that I was singing a song, and I dedicated it to Martin Mulligan(Kathleen's hubbie). Had rush thoughts of Michael Doherty looking at my video on Youtube, and making a mockery of while passing it around to others on New Years Eve kidna. How he gets hold of it is, that I email it to him, WHICH I will be doing so, eitherway. hahaha.
The other was after Sabrina, was a music video from Lady Gaga - Bad Romance. Now again more painful memories came back as I was singing the song, the Take 2, ahahah. Which as I explained in the video that my ex and I were picking "our song" etc., etc.,
Tuesday 3 November 2015
Diary 3rd November 2015
Today was fairly quiet. hehehe
My sis popped down to me earlier than anticipated, I then got ready for the dole. Then onto the bank as per my normal schedule. I added an extra €20 ontop my €220. So I'll be left with €10 or so for myself. Afterwards I headed onto SmallChanges, When I arrived there was no activity at the Deli Counter. So I asked Peadar and he told me it was gonna be next week. The fact that I saw a Drumcondra Market sign, I assumed the Deli would be the Drumcondra Market, but it wasn't to be. So then I headed on home afterwards. heeheh.
So my sis being still at home and myself looked at TV. She was tired, so she took a few forty winks. I looked at TV. heehhe. Then I emptied one of the clothing bags that Clean Freaks gives back to me. hahaha.
My sis popped down to me earlier than anticipated, I then got ready for the dole. Then onto the bank as per my normal schedule. I added an extra €20 ontop my €220. So I'll be left with €10 or so for myself. Afterwards I headed onto SmallChanges, When I arrived there was no activity at the Deli Counter. So I asked Peadar and he told me it was gonna be next week. The fact that I saw a Drumcondra Market sign, I assumed the Deli would be the Drumcondra Market, but it wasn't to be. So then I headed on home afterwards. heeheh.
So my sis being still at home and myself looked at TV. She was tired, so she took a few forty winks. I looked at TV. heehhe. Then I emptied one of the clothing bags that Clean Freaks gives back to me. hahaha.
Monday 2 November 2015
Diary 2nd November 2015
My normal TV special day whereby I stay up. Checking my coupla hundred notifications on FB, that I had stored on the computer. However as November was the month I was starting the UPDATING of Computer programs, Apps on Cell Phones etc., and December being the Operating System Upgrade to WIndows 10 on Lappy, Android Lollipop on Sammy 2, and Lumy will get Windows Phone 10 eventually towards the end of November.
So I started the Sammy 2's Apps Updates, of which went quite well. hahhaah. Then while checking one of the notifications, I got a comment from a friend of a friend on FB, saying he feels sorry for the guy who was asking what is a Zip Tie which was me of course. The friend of the friend said he felt for me. Perhaps cause of my stupidity or whatever, or the fact that I ain't from the US. hahah.
So I started the Sammy 2's Apps Updates, of which went quite well. hahhaah. Then while checking one of the notifications, I got a comment from a friend of a friend on FB, saying he feels sorry for the guy who was asking what is a Zip Tie which was me of course. The friend of the friend said he felt for me. Perhaps cause of my stupidity or whatever, or the fact that I ain't from the US. hahah.
Sunday 1 November 2015
Diary 1st November 2015
Well what a day it turned out to be. A negatively day was turned into a positive day.
I was due to be up for 1ish for to go to Dublin Vegfest, aka International Vegan Day. However my legs were killing me, and crying out for me. So eventually I got up for half 3ish. I was gonna shower for Movember, ie to shave EVERYTHING, literally. hahaah. However it wasn't to be. So I headed on off to F2 Center in Fatima, Rialto. Its a very ignored place in the City ie The Liberties. I used my Lumy to direct me to the place at hand, as per usual it wasn't helpful. Google Maps would tell me to reroute or I'm going the wrong way. However with Maps from Windows Phone, nope it wouldn't. So eventually I arrived. THe place was bouncing when I arrived, even at an hour left. I arrived at 4ish. They didn't even check my ticket. I missed out on Goody bags. Aww well. However great stuff was on show. The venue thou is VERY Questionable. They perhaps were trying to put an ignored place on the maps. I ain't sure. But very questionable. Like when I was leaving, I hopped on my bike and simply put, I was asked "Are you ready, " I said ready for what, and the guy said "A new life", and he sniggered. So yeah venue for a MAJOR event, very questionable. And how it was Modern, ????? Very small if you ask me. I thought it'd be a huge hall.
So I headed on back. I arrived back to my sis. We had a great time. I showered, as per my schedule, although LATER than scheduled, but I had to do it, so in accordance with the Movember Charity. So we chatted but more so while she was downloading, we was looking at Saved By The Bell. So I left her at her place. We chatted for a bit and headed on back home. eheheh
I was due to be up for 1ish for to go to Dublin Vegfest, aka International Vegan Day. However my legs were killing me, and crying out for me. So eventually I got up for half 3ish. I was gonna shower for Movember, ie to shave EVERYTHING, literally. hahaah. However it wasn't to be. So I headed on off to F2 Center in Fatima, Rialto. Its a very ignored place in the City ie The Liberties. I used my Lumy to direct me to the place at hand, as per usual it wasn't helpful. Google Maps would tell me to reroute or I'm going the wrong way. However with Maps from Windows Phone, nope it wouldn't. So eventually I arrived. THe place was bouncing when I arrived, even at an hour left. I arrived at 4ish. They didn't even check my ticket. I missed out on Goody bags. Aww well. However great stuff was on show. The venue thou is VERY Questionable. They perhaps were trying to put an ignored place on the maps. I ain't sure. But very questionable. Like when I was leaving, I hopped on my bike and simply put, I was asked "Are you ready, " I said ready for what, and the guy said "A new life", and he sniggered. So yeah venue for a MAJOR event, very questionable. And how it was Modern, ????? Very small if you ask me. I thought it'd be a huge hall.
So I headed on back. I arrived back to my sis. We had a great time. I showered, as per my schedule, although LATER than scheduled, but I had to do it, so in accordance with the Movember Charity. So we chatted but more so while she was downloading, we was looking at Saved By The Bell. So I left her at her place. We chatted for a bit and headed on back home. eheheh
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