Well today, I got up slightly later than scheduled. I was due to get up for 5ish so that I could go and shower, however I went to bed too late. hahah. What's new. So then I got up later than scheduled further to 5 missed calls from me sis. And was found that my sis was telling me that Mom was on her way down to me, to find out if I were wanting to take the house ie rent it if it were to be available. This is what Mom, Dad and I were discussing on the phone last Thurs. After Seamus' wonderful meetup, I rang em back and I quote: "We have things to discuss", As it happens its that they had a payment plan for me as the Govt, wouldn't pay me my Rent Allowance for 700 a month. No question. So when Mom asked me on the phone, I said No.
So then I got up and headed off to see me sis. I didn't get to shower :(. So I just headed on off, as I got up late as in the time, I was spoz to be with my sis. Mom left us a takeout. Yet I still failed to take a pic of the takeout for to review on my blog. I keep forgetting. hahaaha. So both of us looked at Two and A Half Men for the night
As I was finishing up for the night. I was checking my notifications on FB. And it came up as "Page Not Found". Something like that. Which I kinda have been noticing this of late. A friend of mine liked a link. And that error came up. So I asked him for curiosity reasons, what it was. He replied. So I then went onto my own profile. And found that it was there. So I then rechecked the notifications itself. Low and Behold. What do I find it came back. So wtf like, right. Or as my American's would say ikr(I know Right!!!!!) ahahha.
Oh and guess who's making a come back into my life. Thou they have me surrounded etc., but they have been feeling left out ie, not showing enough LOVE. As I can't get sex from guys as a result of my Hepatitis B, I have decided to NOT BOTHER running after guys. I have my hands that do the job for me and my porn collection. BUT in terms of the ACTUAL love, yeah am actually talking about my BELOVED INFLATABLES. This came about when I was describing the love they showed me when they saved me from my suicide attempt earlier this year. So yeah LONG LIVE INFLATABLES. mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm. I'm in the process of blowing up Peppi again. heeheheeheh
I was looking at Ireland AM's 15th Anniversary celebrations. Parts of it was the Outtakes, ie Bloopers. Well theys were so funny. Splitting me sides laughing. One in particular, Alan who is one of the presenters of the show was doing the Cooking segment. He was putting his cooking on a device known as the Vibration Belt. However he called it the Vibrator. It was hilarious. Another was that Sinead and Mark(both presenters of the show) were presenting the Newspaper segment. However one of the staff members blocked Sinead's view, so that the Viewers couldn't see her BUT just Mark. However the staff member blocked again blocking BOTH. And finally Mark was finishing the show when he said "If you've just had sex..." he said the wrong word. And the laughs that came out of em. Alan, Sinead. Both of em said "Good on ya, Good on ya"
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Monday, 22 September 2014
Wednesday, 17 September 2014
Diary 12th September 2014
Now, as I had yet to sleep, I just continued my day. I was looking at Tonight with Vincent Browne. There was a quite interesting debate on being debated. Should the media be interested in every minor detail. E.g The alleged nude photos of Jennifer Lawrence. Like is there a need for the public to know such information. Eg that Vincent gave was the spat that the Health Minster(Varadkar) and the Taoiseach were having Vincent's point was do we need to know every single little thing. Or as he puts it "Tits for tats".
Then I started the tidy up of the place. Well more so making further room. I now have a bit of room for visitors(WHAT VISITORS, no one ever goes near a Hepatitis B guy - I'm leaving out my Family, cause obviously they come down. hahaha).
Then I got a call from O' Farrell to know plans for tonight. I was intended on going to A film, of which I wasn't sure which. I was to leave at around 7 - half 7. So instead, during my tidy up, I found my bicycle pump. So I used that to inflate my babes, which some sadly are not staying, but NEVERTHELESS. And of course I was inflating my new exercise ball, that I got in Lidls last week.
On my way, Maureen rang me for a chat. However throughout the call, I couldn't' hear her. She has this habbit of holding the fire, as if it were on "fire" kinda thing. I got increasingly frustrated. She has been using a mobile phone for over 10 years. So I just cut the convo short. Then while I was on the phone, I had gotten a message from my mate Todd, wanting a bit of company for a meal or something. As it happens, I was very close. However due to communications errors etc., we weren't able to meetup.
So eventually, I arrived at the Outhouse. I encountered Gerry the teacher. Haven't seen him in ages. heeheh. I also encountered Noel of only whom I had met around Pride festivities. There were also 2 HOT Indian guys who clearly hadn't any manners or either that they were VERY very shy. More than likely the latter. Then of course O' Farrell himself was there. O' Farrell had asked me if I had sent him a picture of me in my undies or something like that. This brought up in a derogatory sense, as they have nothing better to talk about. I'm talking about the Pride Festivities that was held this year. It was marred in controversy(well in my books anyways). Seriously guys, WOULD YOU's EVER SHUT THE HELL UP ABOUT MY. You talk the talk of letting go the past, NOW PRACTISE WHAT YOU PREACH. You's just have to gonna get use to it. They do it in the States, in fact a friend of mine, who was at the same pride as me this year NEVER got any STICK. NOW WTF WITH THAT. I shall be continued to express my sexuality. LIKE IT or LUMP IT. Then low and behold Ronan was there. He showed me pics of himself as Wolverine. And by jasues he's the splitting image of him, WITHOUT any Photoshopping. While he was browsing for the pics of Wolverine, he probably accidentally showed me a pic of a large cock with a ring on it. That was hot. hahaaha. Patrick was there to provide a few laughs. ahhahaha. Bernard hahahah like he was sitting in a Dracula sttyle armchair. heheheeh. I was introduced by O' Farrell to Cathal. Very nice bloke he is. His first time. I was amazed by the amount of ppl that was in attendance. Oh and not forgetting David. Afterall I had only seen him yesterday. hahaahha
As I was leaving for the film, I was getting the feeling of NOT to go, that I was having such a great time. However when the remark of my regout was made, I just had to get out. Even poor Noel taught he had said something. I said no that I was going to a film. So with that in mind, I set about going to the cinema to see Guardians of the Galaxy(Review here). However when I arrived, it wasn't meant to be. As the times were different. Perhaps I misread it or whatever. But this has happened in the past. So I went to see The Guest(Review here).
Then after the film, I headed home. Now as I didn't have cooking oil for my pasta tonight, I needed it badly. So I got it in my local garage. Imagine for 1.5ltr a small feckin' of a bottle, 4.10. Sure Tescos charge that amount for their BIG version and its a branded one too.
NEWS
Dr. REv Ian Paisley has died at the age of 88. He co-founded The DUP(Democratic Unionist Party) in 1970. He lead the party from '71 - '08. Born in Ballymena, Co. Armagh 1926. He was First Minister from 2007 until 2008.
He continued to serve as MP for North Antrim from 1970. til 2010. He once opposed Power Sharing, but later reversed his position. He retired COMPLETELY from Politics in 2011. He is survived by his Wife and Family. May he Rest In Peace
A Spinosauraus has been discovered. Shark to a Creature. Described to adapted life int eh water. Bigger than T-Rek. Lived most of its life in water. Lived 95 million years ago.
Then I started the tidy up of the place. Well more so making further room. I now have a bit of room for visitors(WHAT VISITORS, no one ever goes near a Hepatitis B guy - I'm leaving out my Family, cause obviously they come down. hahaha).
Then I got a call from O' Farrell to know plans for tonight. I was intended on going to A film, of which I wasn't sure which. I was to leave at around 7 - half 7. So instead, during my tidy up, I found my bicycle pump. So I used that to inflate my babes, which some sadly are not staying, but NEVERTHELESS. And of course I was inflating my new exercise ball, that I got in Lidls last week.
On my way, Maureen rang me for a chat. However throughout the call, I couldn't' hear her. She has this habbit of holding the fire, as if it were on "fire" kinda thing. I got increasingly frustrated. She has been using a mobile phone for over 10 years. So I just cut the convo short. Then while I was on the phone, I had gotten a message from my mate Todd, wanting a bit of company for a meal or something. As it happens, I was very close. However due to communications errors etc., we weren't able to meetup.
So eventually, I arrived at the Outhouse. I encountered Gerry the teacher. Haven't seen him in ages. heeheh. I also encountered Noel of only whom I had met around Pride festivities. There were also 2 HOT Indian guys who clearly hadn't any manners or either that they were VERY very shy. More than likely the latter. Then of course O' Farrell himself was there. O' Farrell had asked me if I had sent him a picture of me in my undies or something like that. This brought up in a derogatory sense, as they have nothing better to talk about. I'm talking about the Pride Festivities that was held this year. It was marred in controversy(well in my books anyways). Seriously guys, WOULD YOU's EVER SHUT THE HELL UP ABOUT MY. You talk the talk of letting go the past, NOW PRACTISE WHAT YOU PREACH. You's just have to gonna get use to it. They do it in the States, in fact a friend of mine, who was at the same pride as me this year NEVER got any STICK. NOW WTF WITH THAT. I shall be continued to express my sexuality. LIKE IT or LUMP IT. Then low and behold Ronan was there. He showed me pics of himself as Wolverine. And by jasues he's the splitting image of him, WITHOUT any Photoshopping. While he was browsing for the pics of Wolverine, he probably accidentally showed me a pic of a large cock with a ring on it. That was hot. hahaaha. Patrick was there to provide a few laughs. ahhahaha. Bernard hahahah like he was sitting in a Dracula sttyle armchair. heheheeh. I was introduced by O' Farrell to Cathal. Very nice bloke he is. His first time. I was amazed by the amount of ppl that was in attendance. Oh and not forgetting David. Afterall I had only seen him yesterday. hahaahha
As I was leaving for the film, I was getting the feeling of NOT to go, that I was having such a great time. However when the remark of my regout was made, I just had to get out. Even poor Noel taught he had said something. I said no that I was going to a film. So with that in mind, I set about going to the cinema to see Guardians of the Galaxy(Review here). However when I arrived, it wasn't meant to be. As the times were different. Perhaps I misread it or whatever. But this has happened in the past. So I went to see The Guest(Review here).
Then after the film, I headed home. Now as I didn't have cooking oil for my pasta tonight, I needed it badly. So I got it in my local garage. Imagine for 1.5ltr a small feckin' of a bottle, 4.10. Sure Tescos charge that amount for their BIG version and its a branded one too.
NEWS
Dr. REv Ian Paisley has died at the age of 88. He co-founded The DUP(Democratic Unionist Party) in 1970. He lead the party from '71 - '08. Born in Ballymena, Co. Armagh 1926. He was First Minister from 2007 until 2008.
He continued to serve as MP for North Antrim from 1970. til 2010. He once opposed Power Sharing, but later reversed his position. He retired COMPLETELY from Politics in 2011. He is survived by his Wife and Family. May he Rest In Peace
A Spinosauraus has been discovered. Shark to a Creature. Described to adapted life int eh water. Bigger than T-Rek. Lived most of its life in water. Lived 95 million years ago.
Tuesday, 9 September 2014
Diary 8th September 2014
Well what a night it has been. I first got up at around 6ish after 2 half hour sleep. It was my first day at a course I had applied for a few weeks ago. Its called the Personal Development Course being held at the Outhouse. It is funded by the Dublin's Gay Switchboard and the Gay Men Health Service(The crowd that diagnosed me with Hepatitis B)
So I set about heading off on my first night course. I wasn't one bit nervous on the way. In fact, I was looking for the house that Yurean(The guy I met at the DublinFreeWHeelers event). I got talking to Yurean yesterday via WhatsApp. Now I ain't sure whether he knows am gay or whatever. But the fact that I had a profile pic of an undies pic? yeahhhhh. So he just gave me his house number. Which I don't quite understand. So Then I had actually passed it.
So anyways I arrived at Outhouse. I got my cuppa tea, as my breath was horrible. By cuppa tea, I actually mean Peppermint Green tea. And later on Raspberry Tea. Bernard then checked me into the list. I headed on up to the Red Room. There were about 13 or so others there. Dave the guy behind the counter was there too. So at least a familiar face. I was getting increasingly nervous, my heart pumping.
So then the two men Tony and .... were the two presenters. We the students(lightly put) were lsitening. Its a course that involves US. Our first exercise was to introduce ourselves and to tell them What would we like to get out of the course and how we heard about it. My example was all garbled. I literally said it in such a state that I was nonsensical. So what I told them and the group of course, was that Maureen(My aunt - the Nun one), had popped into the Outhouse when I was coming out at the time and had asked them that my nephew is having a hard time coming out, if they could recommend anything. They recommended this particular course. I misinterpreted as that they wanted me to go into Psychiatric care for being gay.
Our next item was a little game. Whereby we got into a circle, and CLOSING our eyes, that we just shout out numbers WITHOUT repeating. And if there was a repetition that we would move back out of the circle. now I GRAVE and GREAT difficulty in closing my eyes. I've never experienced such. Then again, when ever I'm told to close my eyes, I've always NOT been able to keep em closed. They some how always kept opening. But tonight, I was under severe stress and strain, in trying to keep em closed. Guys I never said or told anyone, that this course would be easy, in particularly my homophobia, MAY be rehased. I ain't sure. I've only done 1 class out of 6.
I loved the idea of the or the ananlgy of the "Fridge" conecpt. THey had a drawing board and "Fridge" papter. Whereby any ideas put on the the "Fridge" paper, that it would be revisisited the next class or wahtever.
Our next item was what was the group execteatin of the course.
Low self Esteem/ Confidence
Avoidance of Gay venues
Wreckless sex ie Boilerhouse
There was a guy there who lived in Oz, and enjoyed every moment of it gay wise. When he moved back to Ireland, he was gobsmacked. This particular guy developed Internalised Homophobia. So I guess even from writing this blog post, has thought me that I actually HAVE Internalised Homophobia. And I don't even say it. In my case it is in relating to the abuse I would have received in the past.
So we got onto a lighter form of the course ie POSITIVES of Being Gay
Some were congratulated for ENTERING a gay venue ie the Outhouse for the first time. I remember the time like it was yesterday, my first time going into a gay bar ON ME OWN. It was unreal. My heart pumping etc., etc., Especially going into the Outhouse. Wow was my heart not pumping. hahaha
So in the middle of the class, we were encouraged to go for a break. We all went down to the cafe. One of the class members Tom(I think), got talking to me. MY my, my confidence in TALKING to strangers like as in class members or etc., etc., BUY clearly I don't react too well to GROUP sessions etc., I did eventually come out of my shell. But talking to my peers in person to person was a cinch. So I then got talking to Richard who is a Filipino from Manila. I was most intrigued of is name. I thought his name was in a Filipino spelling BUT nope. He said its just on his Birth Cert. heheeh. So then we went back up to the room to do our last exercise, which I have outlined above. Then the class came to an end for week 1. Our first session was over. So we should be settling in quite well. hehehe. So I came back down with my Raspberry tea I got during the break to finish it off in the cafe. I bumped into Searson. Great to see him.
On the way back home, I came across Yurean's place. So then I noticed something funny with the numbering. In that Numbers 90 DOWN to 1 is on the same ROAD as 1 to 90 on the same side. BUT with a BIG difference. Summerhill Parade AND Ballybough Road on the same road. Quite Unusual at the very least on the Numbers aspect.
NEWS
Cardinal Sean Brady has stood down after Pope Francis accepted his resignation. He stood down over age grounds. His tenure has been overshadowed by controversy over the hiding of the Brendan Smith case. Archbishop Éamonn Martin now replaces Sean Brady and becomes the Roman Catholic Primate of All Ireland and Archbishop of Armagh.
Buckingham Palace has announced that the Duchess of Cambridge Kate Winslet is pregnant with a second child. I wish her the very of everything.
A young lad by the name Quaid CLeven has won an award for wanting the inclusion of EVERYONE when it comes to sign language. He wants everyone to use sign language, so that everyone "can communicate together ". He would like the Irish public to get starting on Sign Language so that the Deaf people can communicate as he puts it. Also would be ideal if the Late Late Toy Show would do the same. Thats his hopes.
RYanair have purchased for $11bn for 737 Max. It can accommodate more passengers, fuel efficient. And travel further too.
So I set about heading off on my first night course. I wasn't one bit nervous on the way. In fact, I was looking for the house that Yurean(The guy I met at the DublinFreeWHeelers event). I got talking to Yurean yesterday via WhatsApp. Now I ain't sure whether he knows am gay or whatever. But the fact that I had a profile pic of an undies pic? yeahhhhh. So he just gave me his house number. Which I don't quite understand. So Then I had actually passed it.
So anyways I arrived at Outhouse. I got my cuppa tea, as my breath was horrible. By cuppa tea, I actually mean Peppermint Green tea. And later on Raspberry Tea. Bernard then checked me into the list. I headed on up to the Red Room. There were about 13 or so others there. Dave the guy behind the counter was there too. So at least a familiar face. I was getting increasingly nervous, my heart pumping.
So then the two men Tony and .... were the two presenters. We the students(lightly put) were lsitening. Its a course that involves US. Our first exercise was to introduce ourselves and to tell them What would we like to get out of the course and how we heard about it. My example was all garbled. I literally said it in such a state that I was nonsensical. So what I told them and the group of course, was that Maureen(My aunt - the Nun one), had popped into the Outhouse when I was coming out at the time and had asked them that my nephew is having a hard time coming out, if they could recommend anything. They recommended this particular course. I misinterpreted as that they wanted me to go into Psychiatric care for being gay.
Our next item was a little game. Whereby we got into a circle, and CLOSING our eyes, that we just shout out numbers WITHOUT repeating. And if there was a repetition that we would move back out of the circle. now I GRAVE and GREAT difficulty in closing my eyes. I've never experienced such. Then again, when ever I'm told to close my eyes, I've always NOT been able to keep em closed. They some how always kept opening. But tonight, I was under severe stress and strain, in trying to keep em closed. Guys I never said or told anyone, that this course would be easy, in particularly my homophobia, MAY be rehased. I ain't sure. I've only done 1 class out of 6.
I loved the idea of the or the ananlgy of the "Fridge" conecpt. THey had a drawing board and "Fridge" papter. Whereby any ideas put on the the "Fridge" paper, that it would be revisisited the next class or wahtever.
Our next item was what was the group execteatin of the course.
- Sharing Experience
- Achieveing stronger of understanding of self interation with other men in group
- Feel happier amongst urself
- I contributed to this particaurlar item, whereby I said that if for whatever reason that I would be TRIGGERED, cuase I was on the verge of it. Consdiernign I had enoguh crap from my friends behavior last week etc., I didn't need anymore. E.g when I said the psychiatric e.g from my Aunt that was about to trigger me. So my point, would da course be able to curtail the triggers.
Next, What IS Personal Development.
Strive in Self Discovering. As my device(Sammy 2 where I was taking notes - was acting up), I missed a bit of this section of the class.
We were then asked to describe terms that relate to "Gay"/"Bisexual"
- Faggot(TOO Well Known to me - and everyone else hahaha)
- Steamer(Never heard of it)
- Shift lifter(Never heard of it)
- Cock Muncher(Never heard of it)
- TLDNS: The Love who dare not speak his name(Never heard of it - apparently its to do with Oscar Wilde)
- Friend
- ARse Bandit(Recently I was called this at Gay Pride 2014)
- Friend of Dorothy(more than likely referring to the film - The Wizard of Oz)
- Ponce(The Look/Non Word)(Never heard of it)
- Bum Snatcher(Never heard of it)
- Bitch
- Faghag(A friendly term of whereby a FEMALE is a companion to a gay man - VERY popular in the United States, kinda popular in Republic of Ireland. NOT sure about NI
Then onto DEFINITIONS of Internalised Homophobia. I found this to be of quite interesting.
Distance from Early Friendships(In my case - they chickened out)
Soften the blow of being attacked by calling the person who calls you name, the same name. E.g if a guy calls you faggot and YOU are gay, then you call him faggot, and it will diffuse the situation.
Low self Esteem/ Confidence
Avoidance of Gay venues
Wreckless sex ie Boilerhouse
There was a guy there who lived in Oz, and enjoyed every moment of it gay wise. When he moved back to Ireland, he was gobsmacked. This particular guy developed Internalised Homophobia. So I guess even from writing this blog post, has thought me that I actually HAVE Internalised Homophobia. And I don't even say it. In my case it is in relating to the abuse I would have received in the past.
So we got onto a lighter form of the course ie POSITIVES of Being Gay
- Meeting the wright person
- Learn more about your family and friends
- Love
- IN touch with your feelings
- can turn stereotypes
- Its OK if you look after your appearance
- I will survive
- Independent
- Beauty
- More wittier
- Aesthetic
- WE can be good talkers and listeners
- Better life
- Expressions Sexually
- Sexual health matters
- Open Minded
- Sensitive
- Tolerant
- Close Friends
- Motivation
So then at the very end of the course, we were all asked to give one word, some said They felt Younger when they came out of the course, others said they feel HAPPIER now. I said Very Intriguing and inquisitive of the course.
Some were congratulated for ENTERING a gay venue ie the Outhouse for the first time. I remember the time like it was yesterday, my first time going into a gay bar ON ME OWN. It was unreal. My heart pumping etc., etc., Especially going into the Outhouse. Wow was my heart not pumping. hahaha
So in the middle of the class, we were encouraged to go for a break. We all went down to the cafe. One of the class members Tom(I think), got talking to me. MY my, my confidence in TALKING to strangers like as in class members or etc., etc., BUY clearly I don't react too well to GROUP sessions etc., I did eventually come out of my shell. But talking to my peers in person to person was a cinch. So I then got talking to Richard who is a Filipino from Manila. I was most intrigued of is name. I thought his name was in a Filipino spelling BUT nope. He said its just on his Birth Cert. heheeh. So then we went back up to the room to do our last exercise, which I have outlined above. Then the class came to an end for week 1. Our first session was over. So we should be settling in quite well. hehehe. So I came back down with my Raspberry tea I got during the break to finish it off in the cafe. I bumped into Searson. Great to see him.
On the way back home, I came across Yurean's place. So then I noticed something funny with the numbering. In that Numbers 90 DOWN to 1 is on the same ROAD as 1 to 90 on the same side. BUT with a BIG difference. Summerhill Parade AND Ballybough Road on the same road. Quite Unusual at the very least on the Numbers aspect.
NEWS
Cardinal Sean Brady has stood down after Pope Francis accepted his resignation. He stood down over age grounds. His tenure has been overshadowed by controversy over the hiding of the Brendan Smith case. Archbishop Éamonn Martin now replaces Sean Brady and becomes the Roman Catholic Primate of All Ireland and Archbishop of Armagh.
Buckingham Palace has announced that the Duchess of Cambridge Kate Winslet is pregnant with a second child. I wish her the very of everything.
A young lad by the name Quaid CLeven has won an award for wanting the inclusion of EVERYONE when it comes to sign language. He wants everyone to use sign language, so that everyone "can communicate together ". He would like the Irish public to get starting on Sign Language so that the Deaf people can communicate as he puts it. Also would be ideal if the Late Late Toy Show would do the same. Thats his hopes.
RYanair have purchased for $11bn for 737 Max. It can accommodate more passengers, fuel efficient. And travel further too.
Sunday, 7 September 2014
Diary 5th September 2014
Well after just a few hours sleep, I got up with a view of seeing Sex Tape(Review here) with the Best Buddies Meetup group aka Arwin's group. On my way, I bumped into Dave(who works behind the counter in Outhouse) and his friend. He too works their, Just can't think of his name. He was saying that there prob is a bunch of em, outside the Outhouse as they were closed. So I rerouted to pass the Outhouse to see if there was anyone. They all had gone.
I then went onto the cinema. Great to see it lively and bustling. Got my food and headed onto the screen. Was looking for Arwin. So I sent him a quick message just to let him know I was here. ie Checking myself in the Meetup. So he saw me. Then after the film, it was revealed that he had fallen asleep in the middle of the film. He had been at a previous meetup of a someone's birthday. So we all met outside. Had a bit of a chat. Then we all dispersed. Arwin and I headed on home. He lives close by me. So then shortly before I left him as he was quite tired, I had previously asked him, if I could add him on FB, I just couldn't remember if I actually did ask him. But eitehrway, I did ask him if he has any issues with gay people or gay rights etc., etc., Now considering his home country religion is Muslim a good chance. Am only guessing here, anyways, I was quite taken aback with his answer. His reply is he stands for Equailtiy. "If I help a poor person, don't mean I'm rich, likewise gay, If he sees a gay person in trouble and helps, don't mean he's gay.". So I said, cool, I think we'll be alrite. Ahem that his until he has to head off home due to his Visa restrictions of the Republic of Ireland.
I was chatting to a guy on Grindr. Imagine my first hook up in years. We were very close to closing the deal. heeheh. I obviously told him of my hepatitis status. BUT what stopped the meetup was his hairy chess. I ain't into a guy who has hair on his chests.
While surfing on Grindr too, I encountered a profile with an Aids symbol(In his case HIV), and I looked at his profile. I was very intrigued in what I saw. His quote NOT mine: "Seriously fellas, If you ARE going to message to ask questions: HOW I got it doesn't matter! But I'll give you a heads up lads: I didn't catch it licking stamps. AND Yes I'm OK.". I just had to chat to him. I have taken a shine to him. He has helped me in ways no guy can understand. By that I mean, that I'm slowly accepting my hepatitis B. Now this came from a guy who has HIV. He goes through the same stigma I go through, possibly worse. He is what I would call an Inspiration. I wrote back to him, and he said "Thanks fella". He reminded me that MOST guys are vaccinated against it or at least they should have been. I asked him, should I tell guys who I wanna have sex with or to just wait til I find that special guy. Bottomline must I tell of my status with causal sex OR wait til I have the relationship. His answer: "Grey area". He continued on by saying that "I think everybody responsible for their sexual health".
News
2 twin children have been found dead last night. It was then found that another person body has been found not too far from the twins bodies. It has been thought that it was a murder suicide. Now from my perspective, it is of my opinion that the older guy was suffering from depression, something like that. Now it is a possibility that the reason, that he couldn't talk about whatever was troubling him was one word STIGMA. Like my folks even would say it to me and to my sis, when I was battling depression. Oh get over it, or get out and about etc.,e tc., Its the likes of these that make people go physcotic or whatever. Bottomline, GET OUT THEIR AND TALK TO A PERSON YOU TRUST
Largest Dinosaur to ever walk the earth has been found in Argentina. It is thought to have been known as DreadNoughtis(aka Fearing Nothing) Shraanee as a plant eater. It would have weighed 65tonne. 11meter neck and a powerful 9meter tail. Measure 26meters in length
Dr. Martin Drennan , Bishop Of Galway is under fire for his comments on radio. He was referring to allocating money for Amach LGBT in Galway City. that was decided by the St. Vincent De Paul. Dr. Martin didn't want a Catholic Charity organsiation allocating money to an LGBT Group as it goes against the ethos of the Church of which he's a member of. No surprises there considering their past history of the Church.
I then went onto the cinema. Great to see it lively and bustling. Got my food and headed onto the screen. Was looking for Arwin. So I sent him a quick message just to let him know I was here. ie Checking myself in the Meetup. So he saw me. Then after the film, it was revealed that he had fallen asleep in the middle of the film. He had been at a previous meetup of a someone's birthday. So we all met outside. Had a bit of a chat. Then we all dispersed. Arwin and I headed on home. He lives close by me. So then shortly before I left him as he was quite tired, I had previously asked him, if I could add him on FB, I just couldn't remember if I actually did ask him. But eitehrway, I did ask him if he has any issues with gay people or gay rights etc., etc., Now considering his home country religion is Muslim a good chance. Am only guessing here, anyways, I was quite taken aback with his answer. His reply is he stands for Equailtiy. "If I help a poor person, don't mean I'm rich, likewise gay, If he sees a gay person in trouble and helps, don't mean he's gay.". So I said, cool, I think we'll be alrite. Ahem that his until he has to head off home due to his Visa restrictions of the Republic of Ireland.
I was chatting to a guy on Grindr. Imagine my first hook up in years. We were very close to closing the deal. heeheh. I obviously told him of my hepatitis status. BUT what stopped the meetup was his hairy chess. I ain't into a guy who has hair on his chests.
While surfing on Grindr too, I encountered a profile with an Aids symbol(In his case HIV), and I looked at his profile. I was very intrigued in what I saw. His quote NOT mine: "Seriously fellas, If you ARE going to message to ask questions: HOW I got it doesn't matter! But I'll give you a heads up lads: I didn't catch it licking stamps. AND Yes I'm OK.". I just had to chat to him. I have taken a shine to him. He has helped me in ways no guy can understand. By that I mean, that I'm slowly accepting my hepatitis B. Now this came from a guy who has HIV. He goes through the same stigma I go through, possibly worse. He is what I would call an Inspiration. I wrote back to him, and he said "Thanks fella". He reminded me that MOST guys are vaccinated against it or at least they should have been. I asked him, should I tell guys who I wanna have sex with or to just wait til I find that special guy. Bottomline must I tell of my status with causal sex OR wait til I have the relationship. His answer: "Grey area". He continued on by saying that "I think everybody responsible for their sexual health".
News
2 twin children have been found dead last night. It was then found that another person body has been found not too far from the twins bodies. It has been thought that it was a murder suicide. Now from my perspective, it is of my opinion that the older guy was suffering from depression, something like that. Now it is a possibility that the reason, that he couldn't talk about whatever was troubling him was one word STIGMA. Like my folks even would say it to me and to my sis, when I was battling depression. Oh get over it, or get out and about etc.,e tc., Its the likes of these that make people go physcotic or whatever. Bottomline, GET OUT THEIR AND TALK TO A PERSON YOU TRUST
Largest Dinosaur to ever walk the earth has been found in Argentina. It is thought to have been known as DreadNoughtis(aka Fearing Nothing) Shraanee as a plant eater. It would have weighed 65tonne. 11meter neck and a powerful 9meter tail. Measure 26meters in length
Dr. Martin Drennan , Bishop Of Galway is under fire for his comments on radio. He was referring to allocating money for Amach LGBT in Galway City. that was decided by the St. Vincent De Paul. Dr. Martin didn't want a Catholic Charity organsiation allocating money to an LGBT Group as it goes against the ethos of the Church of which he's a member of. No surprises there considering their past history of the Church.
Friday, 5 September 2014
Diary 4th September 2014
Following are the dreams I had last night.
WE're marching down O' Connell St., Then I encounter trouble with opening my Quorn Ham. So I ask someone. When they tell me cool. Then me and my buddy is with me in the Secret Garden. It's circular in shape with plants everywhere. However magic arises when my buddy presses something. Then I'm in trouble when dandelions etc are trying to eat me. So my friend attacks the guy who is controlling the giant. My friend defeats him and in turn the giant, falls over the ledge. I then strip down as it's a nudist colony. However I see a cute guy from far and wide in swim trunks with some girl. Now funny thing is this particular place, ie the Circular Secret Garden, I have had this particular dream or place before in the past.
I then eventually got up. I was just gonna stay on. However I wanted to get Fair City as there's a gay character coming out. And I didn't want to miss it. So I started to get ready. I was between of not bothering with Lidls or not. If I miss the Inflatable ball, big whoops etc., I had forgotten to get up for 7am as I explained in a previous entry that I shall be getting up or staying up for Lidl or Aldi. Well this morning I actually had forgotten.
So onwards and upwards to errands. My first was to get a second key cut for my sis, as she has since lost my original key that I copied for her. So I went into Ryan's Hardware. I had my phone positioned so that the clerk could see my photo I had on Swarm(Formerly Foursquare). I was changing my Profile PIc. He complimented nicely on it. I was well chuffed.
So then I went onto Drumcondra Credit Union to get a €100 quid for the Lidls items. While there, I noted on my received that my Irish name ie George was on my Account. So I asked that I changed it to my Romanian name. ie Georgian.
Then I went back home to my gaf, to free up some space, as this time, I wanted to get the news, again for the same reason that my box was low. Actually to zilch.
So I set about again to get my grub in Lilds. I got my stuff. TO my surprise, I was actually surprised that the stuff I wanted was there. I got the last two items, of the Deep Fat Fryer. and the Inflatable Balls ie the Exercise Maps.
It was my intention to go and see Lucy and some other movie, of which I cannot remember. Lucy was beginning at half 6. However, as I was starving me guts, I headed to the Outhouse. Initially it was for just a quickie ie cuppa green tea. I encountered Dave. (Not the guy behind the counter). Hes a lovely guy. WE chatted for a bit. Then I also encountered Ronan. Hadn't seen him in ages. The last time I had seen Ronan was for Guardian's of the Galaxy(Review here) back in mid August. So the three of us chatted amongst each other. Twas great. I was getting a pot of tea for Dave. While getting milk for the tea, Mike who was behing the counter, was figuring out why he wasn't getting any milk out of the machine. Well when he realsied what the true extent was, I got the fits of laughing. The carton of milk was inside the machine where the milk is suppose to come out of. It was so funny. Then I headed on to get ready for the next showing of Lucy for 8pm. Shortly before doing so, I was just about heading out to get ready, when I got enticed to a great but sad topic. The topic being HIV JUDGMENTAL people. MY friend Dave told me that when he was at Men's Night last that he was totally disgusted with how the gays, the men were being totally judgmental towards HIV. I can clearly relate. While I don't have HIV, I have its next neighbor the Hepatitis B. I was completely intrigued. And in that I learned that with the meds, that you must take them like a religion. His attitude towards the HIV, is that he DON't tell for casual or SEX partners BUT for RELATIONSHIP yes, a biggie. I was quite intrigued, and pondered to myself, should I do this. Cause If I NEVER told anyone, about my Hepatitis, that I would have buckets of sex all the time. But I was advised that I let my partners know in advanced. With his HIV he takes meds every single day. He told me that at one stage being with HIV you had a 50% chance of living. These days, over 90% of living a perfectly naturally healthy life. He also told me that if he weren't to take the meds, that he would be in critical condition. You see that's what the world needs. A guy like Dave here. To EDUCATE gays and guys alike. Like I have been preaching this continuously over the years. We need a guy like Dave to educate us all. I recently myself said to a guy on Bender, to go an educate himself. So then at Men's Night, Dave also reveled something startling, in that a VERY CLOSE friend of mine, had said something along the lines that HIV is diseased etc., etc., in other words he was being judgmental. I was so surprised to hear of such. And still can't.
So Brendan Searson came along, and was joined by us. However as I was in a hurry for the film, I popped along to the cinema, however I was too late. So I looked at the time for the next time for Into the Storm(Review here). And it wasn't for another hour and a half, at Half 9. So I headed back into the Outhouse. And had more cuppa teas and a sandwich etc.,
So then I bumped into another "Friend". He was meeting some guy for what was supposedly for a date or whatever, the guy invited him to his place. Where I would have expected to meet in a public place like Waterford City or Dublin or whatever. Well I yet got into another fit, when I put the idea of him showing the ropes of Waterford City. I instead got the fits of the guy showing his privates as a tour of Waterford city.
SO then after such a wonderful time, at the Outhouse, I headed onto the cinema to see Into the Storm. I had 2 bags from the Lidls shopping. A staff member of whom I don't recognsie asked if I needed help in bringing them to the screen. Come to think of it, another member of staff again whom I don't recognsie also asked gave the suggestion that I didn't want to distub anyone. She asked when getting a ticket, what seating would I like. I said middle of the middle. However she suggested perhaps one where you wouldn't be disturbing anyone. I was quite bemused and well chuffed.
Oh what a night it it was hahaha. To think I was gonna miss such a great night. I think not. haahahah
News
Joan Rivers an American comedian has passed away. She suffered a cardiac arrest within the last week. Her daughter announced her passing this morning(Irish time)
Tech News
Following are the products that Samsung launched at the IFA in Berlin.
Galaxy Note 4 - Samsung's flagship Phablet product. I have the older variant. Loving every minute of it.
Galaxy Note Edge
Gear VR(Virtual Reality Headset)
WE're marching down O' Connell St., Then I encounter trouble with opening my Quorn Ham. So I ask someone. When they tell me cool. Then me and my buddy is with me in the Secret Garden. It's circular in shape with plants everywhere. However magic arises when my buddy presses something. Then I'm in trouble when dandelions etc are trying to eat me. So my friend attacks the guy who is controlling the giant. My friend defeats him and in turn the giant, falls over the ledge. I then strip down as it's a nudist colony. However I see a cute guy from far and wide in swim trunks with some girl. Now funny thing is this particular place, ie the Circular Secret Garden, I have had this particular dream or place before in the past.
I then eventually got up. I was just gonna stay on. However I wanted to get Fair City as there's a gay character coming out. And I didn't want to miss it. So I started to get ready. I was between of not bothering with Lidls or not. If I miss the Inflatable ball, big whoops etc., I had forgotten to get up for 7am as I explained in a previous entry that I shall be getting up or staying up for Lidl or Aldi. Well this morning I actually had forgotten.
So onwards and upwards to errands. My first was to get a second key cut for my sis, as she has since lost my original key that I copied for her. So I went into Ryan's Hardware. I had my phone positioned so that the clerk could see my photo I had on Swarm(Formerly Foursquare). I was changing my Profile PIc. He complimented nicely on it. I was well chuffed.
So then I went onto Drumcondra Credit Union to get a €100 quid for the Lidls items. While there, I noted on my received that my Irish name ie George was on my Account. So I asked that I changed it to my Romanian name. ie Georgian.
Then I went back home to my gaf, to free up some space, as this time, I wanted to get the news, again for the same reason that my box was low. Actually to zilch.
So I set about again to get my grub in Lilds. I got my stuff. TO my surprise, I was actually surprised that the stuff I wanted was there. I got the last two items, of the Deep Fat Fryer. and the Inflatable Balls ie the Exercise Maps.
It was my intention to go and see Lucy and some other movie, of which I cannot remember. Lucy was beginning at half 6. However, as I was starving me guts, I headed to the Outhouse. Initially it was for just a quickie ie cuppa green tea. I encountered Dave. (Not the guy behind the counter). Hes a lovely guy. WE chatted for a bit. Then I also encountered Ronan. Hadn't seen him in ages. The last time I had seen Ronan was for Guardian's of the Galaxy(Review here) back in mid August. So the three of us chatted amongst each other. Twas great. I was getting a pot of tea for Dave. While getting milk for the tea, Mike who was behing the counter, was figuring out why he wasn't getting any milk out of the machine. Well when he realsied what the true extent was, I got the fits of laughing. The carton of milk was inside the machine where the milk is suppose to come out of. It was so funny. Then I headed on to get ready for the next showing of Lucy for 8pm. Shortly before doing so, I was just about heading out to get ready, when I got enticed to a great but sad topic. The topic being HIV JUDGMENTAL people. MY friend Dave told me that when he was at Men's Night last that he was totally disgusted with how the gays, the men were being totally judgmental towards HIV. I can clearly relate. While I don't have HIV, I have its next neighbor the Hepatitis B. I was completely intrigued. And in that I learned that with the meds, that you must take them like a religion. His attitude towards the HIV, is that he DON't tell for casual or SEX partners BUT for RELATIONSHIP yes, a biggie. I was quite intrigued, and pondered to myself, should I do this. Cause If I NEVER told anyone, about my Hepatitis, that I would have buckets of sex all the time. But I was advised that I let my partners know in advanced. With his HIV he takes meds every single day. He told me that at one stage being with HIV you had a 50% chance of living. These days, over 90% of living a perfectly naturally healthy life. He also told me that if he weren't to take the meds, that he would be in critical condition. You see that's what the world needs. A guy like Dave here. To EDUCATE gays and guys alike. Like I have been preaching this continuously over the years. We need a guy like Dave to educate us all. I recently myself said to a guy on Bender, to go an educate himself. So then at Men's Night, Dave also reveled something startling, in that a VERY CLOSE friend of mine, had said something along the lines that HIV is diseased etc., etc., in other words he was being judgmental. I was so surprised to hear of such. And still can't.
So Brendan Searson came along, and was joined by us. However as I was in a hurry for the film, I popped along to the cinema, however I was too late. So I looked at the time for the next time for Into the Storm(Review here). And it wasn't for another hour and a half, at Half 9. So I headed back into the Outhouse. And had more cuppa teas and a sandwich etc.,
So then I bumped into another "Friend". He was meeting some guy for what was supposedly for a date or whatever, the guy invited him to his place. Where I would have expected to meet in a public place like Waterford City or Dublin or whatever. Well I yet got into another fit, when I put the idea of him showing the ropes of Waterford City. I instead got the fits of the guy showing his privates as a tour of Waterford city.
SO then after such a wonderful time, at the Outhouse, I headed onto the cinema to see Into the Storm. I had 2 bags from the Lidls shopping. A staff member of whom I don't recognsie asked if I needed help in bringing them to the screen. Come to think of it, another member of staff again whom I don't recognsie also asked gave the suggestion that I didn't want to distub anyone. She asked when getting a ticket, what seating would I like. I said middle of the middle. However she suggested perhaps one where you wouldn't be disturbing anyone. I was quite bemused and well chuffed.
Oh what a night it it was hahaha. To think I was gonna miss such a great night. I think not. haahahah
News
Joan Rivers an American comedian has passed away. She suffered a cardiac arrest within the last week. Her daughter announced her passing this morning(Irish time)
Tech News
Following are the products that Samsung launched at the IFA in Berlin.
Galaxy Note 4 - Samsung's flagship Phablet product. I have the older variant. Loving every minute of it.
Galaxy Note Edge
Gear VR(Virtual Reality Headset)
Sunday, 31 August 2014
Diary 31st August 2014
I hadn't had a dream after a long time. Here's the latest dream I had last ngiht. I'm on a road walking, along in Ukraine, to be precise Donetske. The road then subdivides. Then you'd swear I was in a war zone or something.
I have noticed that something by means of a pattern. In that if i'm under stress, or i'm upset about something then I dream. Well as you can gather, my sis' condition doesn't help(although she is improving), added ontop of that my ex cheating on me, as I found out yesterday, then there is the little matter of the stigma that is rampant of Hepatitis B. Put all that into a pot, I bet you all it will get burned. Thats quite hella of lot alrite.
My first port of call was to go ahead to a meetup group known as DIGs(Dublin International Gays) in the Morrison Hotel on Dublin's Ormond Quay. Was great to see some familiar faces. Some were delighted to see me. Others NOT so much. But hey whatever. ahahaha.
So then on the way back, I called up to my folks. On the way, I encountered a work fence wide opened. Funny thought came by to me. In that continuously looking at my cell phone and I unwittingly walk in the a dead end hence why the work fence is put up int he first place. I laugh outrageously and splitting my sides from laughing. So then I arrived at Mom and Dads. WE chatted for a bit. I borrowed my Dad's Roof fire device. It allows to burn the Roof covering to the actual roof. I had a bit to eat. Mom left me down to my sis.
Twas wonderful to see my sis. I told her of my ex's infidelity. I asked her to define the term: "Cheat". What she said was quite remarkable. In that Offline Or ONLINE. From what I understand, if there's any "touching" to another guy, that classifies as cheating. So am assuming that when my ex's met up with his date Friday(the day he told me was shopping and he was up with his few "friends"), that would have hugged or at least kissed each other, private or whatever.
SO when I got home from my sis, I began to use my Dad's tool that he lent me. I took everything out of the fridge AND the freezer sections. Cause I was getting fed up of the shelvings in the freezer not being able to move. Although I did manage to get two of em out during the week. The last one was being a bitch to me. So I set things up as follows. I filled my shower full of water on the basin where you stand and blocked the shower so that the water wouldn't go down. Little did that work thou. The reason I did so, was to keep all my fridge aspect cool. I had my fridge contents ie Milk etc., in the sink. However with the heat of the Roof device, I had to transfer em. So that I did. However that didn't work at all, as I tried several items. The water kept going down the shower. So I was fretting as to how am I gonna keep my fridge items intact. Then The same went for the fridge. As I had to refreeze(which is not the best for some food items - so wish me the best of luck that I don't get the runs, when I go to eat em later on). This took a full hour. SO after an hour, I was delighted with the results. Its all sorted now.
I went to get my lunch(I know, I know: the time - whatever. hahahaaha), I made my pasta(the premade one where you but boiling water and put it on the hob). I went to get my alcohol drink of Smirnoff Lime. Now here's me thinking I don't need a mixer(ie OJ, Coke etc.,), I just poured myself a full glass of the stuff. Well by jasus I was not expecting that alrite. So strong. So I just throw it out. As I hadn't any mixer.
I have noticed that something by means of a pattern. In that if i'm under stress, or i'm upset about something then I dream. Well as you can gather, my sis' condition doesn't help(although she is improving), added ontop of that my ex cheating on me, as I found out yesterday, then there is the little matter of the stigma that is rampant of Hepatitis B. Put all that into a pot, I bet you all it will get burned. Thats quite hella of lot alrite.
My first port of call was to go ahead to a meetup group known as DIGs(Dublin International Gays) in the Morrison Hotel on Dublin's Ormond Quay. Was great to see some familiar faces. Some were delighted to see me. Others NOT so much. But hey whatever. ahahaha.
So then on the way back, I called up to my folks. On the way, I encountered a work fence wide opened. Funny thought came by to me. In that continuously looking at my cell phone and I unwittingly walk in the a dead end hence why the work fence is put up int he first place. I laugh outrageously and splitting my sides from laughing. So then I arrived at Mom and Dads. WE chatted for a bit. I borrowed my Dad's Roof fire device. It allows to burn the Roof covering to the actual roof. I had a bit to eat. Mom left me down to my sis.
Twas wonderful to see my sis. I told her of my ex's infidelity. I asked her to define the term: "Cheat". What she said was quite remarkable. In that Offline Or ONLINE. From what I understand, if there's any "touching" to another guy, that classifies as cheating. So am assuming that when my ex's met up with his date Friday(the day he told me was shopping and he was up with his few "friends"), that would have hugged or at least kissed each other, private or whatever.
SO when I got home from my sis, I began to use my Dad's tool that he lent me. I took everything out of the fridge AND the freezer sections. Cause I was getting fed up of the shelvings in the freezer not being able to move. Although I did manage to get two of em out during the week. The last one was being a bitch to me. So I set things up as follows. I filled my shower full of water on the basin where you stand and blocked the shower so that the water wouldn't go down. Little did that work thou. The reason I did so, was to keep all my fridge aspect cool. I had my fridge contents ie Milk etc., in the sink. However with the heat of the Roof device, I had to transfer em. So that I did. However that didn't work at all, as I tried several items. The water kept going down the shower. So I was fretting as to how am I gonna keep my fridge items intact. Then The same went for the fridge. As I had to refreeze(which is not the best for some food items - so wish me the best of luck that I don't get the runs, when I go to eat em later on). This took a full hour. SO after an hour, I was delighted with the results. Its all sorted now.
I went to get my lunch(I know, I know: the time - whatever. hahahaaha), I made my pasta(the premade one where you but boiling water and put it on the hob). I went to get my alcohol drink of Smirnoff Lime. Now here's me thinking I don't need a mixer(ie OJ, Coke etc.,), I just poured myself a full glass of the stuff. Well by jasus I was not expecting that alrite. So strong. So I just throw it out. As I hadn't any mixer.
Diary 30th August 2014
Well what a day its been. As I said yesterday. I was looking at TV throughout the day. When all of a sudden there was a loud bang in the sky. It was actually a Jet engine ie an Aeroplane. I've never heard of such thing ever happening. It must have been flying really low or something.
Then I started my next section of tidying the bottom of my bed. This is the result of the flood back in August Bank Holiday weekend. The same weekend I was with Daniel and Brendan O' Farrell. While doing so, I decided to look at my fella's Facebook page, which he's on my sex account.
Boi was I not expecting such. The first thing that appeared was that some guy had posted and tagged Christopher(my baby) saying that he enjoyed the DATE. Now only one word spells out to me. CHEATING. I was totally distraught. Only for my puppies and Inflatables, I wouldn't know what would happen. And Christopher replied to his apparent fella now, "Awww thanks sweetiexxxx". So I immediately in a fit of rage, Shouted at him by means of text and said the following: Firstly i said: "I don't think we're gonna work out. Best wishes in the future". He replied why? I then proceeded to shout at him by means of text: "Cause I just saw your FB and you cheated on me. Even thou we never met. Still hurts Like A BITCH". He replied saying He didn't cheat, we never met up. Bottomline, is you don't start saying in the chats on the Internet, "I love you" etc., exchanging roses etc., and then to say I didn't cheat. etc., etc., I proceeded to say to him, that I had to drag stuff outta him. I actually brought this up with Brendan yesterday. I mentioned to him, that Christopher is looking for a bf. And that's very shy. ie HE can't open up to people. Yet he can go up to Dublin(He's from Co. Meath) and make out in the middle of the city. Now what does that say to u.
So I removed him from my Viber, WhatsApp and as a Contact. Now my heart is breaking, but not as bad as the time with Keith. Afterall I was with him for 9months. With this fella for a week or so. I was beginning to develop feelings for him. BUT when he started to distance himself. He had asked me to be his bf. But I felt, that it should take things slow. Apparently he wanted it to be quick. SO I ain't sure. Another thing is that he's NOT begging. So apparently maybe he was a fake. Searson did try and warn me. While O' Farrell wished me every happiness. Sure look where that got me. hahaah
I also removed Mark Henry too the guy from Louth. On the foundation of him accusing me of cheating on my ex(Keith). He don't know me. So he had no right to say such. He saying that it ain't normal taking pics of guys on TV and in a chipper when I took a pic of the cute lad. mmmm. Even showing his undies. Now that's' hot. But anyways, the point being, is that he didn't like that I was doing so. As well as coming onto me INAPPROPRIATELY. So I decided to remove him too
So as well as to contend with guys stigmatizing me over Hepatitis B now I've to contend with this. I can honestly tell you guys and gals my viewers and reader of the this blog, that my future Husband to be is over in America. So I'm gonna try a suggestion. That I put up on ALL my profiles that I have Hepatitis B. Give a brief understanding.
So bottomline, I have my Puppies and Inflatables who'll NEVER leave me. My sis is living in a hospital these days. The two Brendan's have their own lives.
NEWS
Donald Tusk of Poland has just been voted as the newly elected EU Counsel President and Italy's' Federickee Margarini has been voted as EU's Foreign Policy Chief.
Penn State and University of Central Florida(UCF) started their Supebowl Season here in Dublin's very own Croke Park Stadium. Penn State won by a landslide. Up to 20,000 American Football fans cheered on their college teams. Some came by Boat, others by plane. Its the first time the teams have played OUTSIDE the States. Inside the stadium, was full of the Penn Lines and Florida Nights colors, ie the team colors. They battled it out for the Dan Rooney Trophy. PEnn State came out on top with a win.
Then I started my next section of tidying the bottom of my bed. This is the result of the flood back in August Bank Holiday weekend. The same weekend I was with Daniel and Brendan O' Farrell. While doing so, I decided to look at my fella's Facebook page, which he's on my sex account.
Boi was I not expecting such. The first thing that appeared was that some guy had posted and tagged Christopher(my baby) saying that he enjoyed the DATE. Now only one word spells out to me. CHEATING. I was totally distraught. Only for my puppies and Inflatables, I wouldn't know what would happen. And Christopher replied to his apparent fella now, "Awww thanks sweetiexxxx". So I immediately in a fit of rage, Shouted at him by means of text and said the following: Firstly i said: "I don't think we're gonna work out. Best wishes in the future". He replied why? I then proceeded to shout at him by means of text: "Cause I just saw your FB and you cheated on me. Even thou we never met. Still hurts Like A BITCH". He replied saying He didn't cheat, we never met up. Bottomline, is you don't start saying in the chats on the Internet, "I love you" etc., exchanging roses etc., and then to say I didn't cheat. etc., etc., I proceeded to say to him, that I had to drag stuff outta him. I actually brought this up with Brendan yesterday. I mentioned to him, that Christopher is looking for a bf. And that's very shy. ie HE can't open up to people. Yet he can go up to Dublin(He's from Co. Meath) and make out in the middle of the city. Now what does that say to u.
So I removed him from my Viber, WhatsApp and as a Contact. Now my heart is breaking, but not as bad as the time with Keith. Afterall I was with him for 9months. With this fella for a week or so. I was beginning to develop feelings for him. BUT when he started to distance himself. He had asked me to be his bf. But I felt, that it should take things slow. Apparently he wanted it to be quick. SO I ain't sure. Another thing is that he's NOT begging. So apparently maybe he was a fake. Searson did try and warn me. While O' Farrell wished me every happiness. Sure look where that got me. hahaah
I also removed Mark Henry too the guy from Louth. On the foundation of him accusing me of cheating on my ex(Keith). He don't know me. So he had no right to say such. He saying that it ain't normal taking pics of guys on TV and in a chipper when I took a pic of the cute lad. mmmm. Even showing his undies. Now that's' hot. But anyways, the point being, is that he didn't like that I was doing so. As well as coming onto me INAPPROPRIATELY. So I decided to remove him too
So as well as to contend with guys stigmatizing me over Hepatitis B now I've to contend with this. I can honestly tell you guys and gals my viewers and reader of the this blog, that my future Husband to be is over in America. So I'm gonna try a suggestion. That I put up on ALL my profiles that I have Hepatitis B. Give a brief understanding.
So bottomline, I have my Puppies and Inflatables who'll NEVER leave me. My sis is living in a hospital these days. The two Brendan's have their own lives.
NEWS
Donald Tusk of Poland has just been voted as the newly elected EU Counsel President and Italy's' Federickee Margarini has been voted as EU's Foreign Policy Chief.
Penn State and University of Central Florida(UCF) started their Supebowl Season here in Dublin's very own Croke Park Stadium. Penn State won by a landslide. Up to 20,000 American Football fans cheered on their college teams. Some came by Boat, others by plane. Its the first time the teams have played OUTSIDE the States. Inside the stadium, was full of the Penn Lines and Florida Nights colors, ie the team colors. They battled it out for the Dan Rooney Trophy. PEnn State came out on top with a win.
Thursday, 28 August 2014
Diary 27th August 2014
Well what a night it has been. I got up quite late. About 7pm. I had asked Mom that she let me know if the Mulligans were to come down to visit. Well indeed that she did. At quarter to 5, I got a voicemail(obv when I got up), saying that they are coming down, and to wonder if I'd be able to go up. So I said, I just might do that. Now after several days to a week maybe more, showered and prepped myself.I last saw the Mulligans on the night of 31st October 2010, when I had a mental breakdown. It was the night of the breakup of my ex. Thats the last time, I saw them. So October coming, it will have been 4 years. Now quite alot has happened on both parties. On my side, as you all have been reading. But clearly quite alot has happened on Mulligans side. Aging was a main one. I hardly recognised any of them. Some I did recognise. While I was getting ready. I had a panic attack. Suddlenyl all these thoughts began flushing like mind in my head. The minute I saw em all, my heart was pumping like mad. They all shook hands. Starting from JP(Kathleen's Son), Kathleen, Eileen(Kathleen's Mom), and Brendan(Eileen's hubbie). Twas wonderful to see em all. At some stage, I was thinking that I wasn't wanted, whenever I'd say something, I would be completely ignored. Then again, it has been 4 years. So I will have to regain the relationship that I once had JUST before I came out. Then out of the blue, Kathleen was talking about tolerance in UK and the Scotland that's wanting to divide and break away. She said stuff and one word came out well outloud. "Acceptance". Now I was quite taken aback. I didn't pay heed to it, didn't even react. I just continued on chatting. We all had drinks, then we continued onto the dining area and had a bit of grub. Then Martin(Kathleen's hubbie) asked that I help him with setting up Dad's TV to connect to his lappy for to show pics and photos of their time here in Ireland. They's living in England atm.
So bottomline, It was a mixture visit. Mom and Dad appreciated my help when clearing the dishes, so thats a plus. BUT when it came to the relatives, I will have to regain their relationship. I felt I was the black sheep ie a stranger. Of course they know me, but the vibes I was getting.
On the way up, thou I would like to let yee all know a little something. On the way up to the folks' place, I was chatting on Bender a bit of distraction. There was a guy who said he'd be interested for fun, and that he'd have SAFE sex. Of which I agree. Then as with my obligation, I told him of my hepatitis B. He then replied "No thanks man". I then replied with: "Grandie. Best wishes. Oh and btw get an education. It ain't FUCKING C jackass". Luckily my future bf, hopefully(all things going to plan.....) does NOT discriminate. The Irish need to get an education. I would have expected a 45 year old dude, to know of such. But apparently he didn't.
When I got up, after getting ready for the above event, just before I went out the door, I went to check on the freezer. I had over night, had 4 basins full of BOILING hot water and put them in the freezer overnight. So when I went to check on em they were as hard as ice, no actually they had turned into Ice. I had to laugh at it. hahha. But quite frustrating at the same time. I'm trying to cleanup the kitchen etc., but when this delays, it bothers me. So when I told the visitors above, they well Dad suggested that I Unplug the fridge freezer. I was afraid of doing so, as it would affect my 10 cartons of milk. But they suggested it only would be for about an hour or so if even that. So what I'm gonna do is borrow my Dad's roof melt burner(A machine that burns the Roof material to the ACTUAL roof).
NEWS
Brendan McGraw's search has resumed after a tip off from a member of public. He was abducted and murdered by the IRA 40yrs ago. His body hasn't been found since. All this could change, after a member off the public tipped off a location in Co. Meath
A 9 yr old girl has accidentally killed a 39yr old Instructor by a Oozie 9mm Gun. The girl lost control when the gun was TOO powerful and accidentally shot him in the end. As a result of this, rules and regulations have been changed. Customers must be 12yrs minimum.
Christine LeGard(Former Finance Minister in France, and Managing Director of the IMO) has been put under investigation for negligence in a fraud case. She was serving the Finance Ministry portfolio at the time.
TECH NEWS
Dropbox, an online cloud storage service, has signiccincatly dropped their prices and Introudced new features.
OLD Plan NEW Plan
100GB $10 1TB $9.99/m
200GB $20
500GB $50
New features include the ability to wipe your DropBoc DEVICE if your device has been comporimisted. What this means is if your Android device has been infected with a virus or wathever, DropBox files can be delted from the device and redownloaded to your device.
Currently for me, I'm paying Google Drive $2 for 100GB. per month. Now thats a hella lof cheaper. I ain't sure with Dropbox's Plans if its cheaper or not.
Wednesday, 27 August 2014
Diary 26th August 2014
Well what a day I had. Twas amazeballs. I got up at midnight, as I heard shouting in my apartment building. I would take it that the partner cheated on the woman. He was speaking softly, meaning perhaps that he's admitting. I ain't sure.
I was to meet my Aunty(Nun) as per our monthly meetups. I last saw her at the Pride Parade. Then the last meetup in question was back in June. And the last time I saw her was when I nearly gave such a reaction to a wee fright I gave her. It was the reaction that got me in stitches. So anyways, I made my way. I first popped into An Post for the Dole, then across the road for to transfer funds over. Then I set about meeting my Aunty in KC Peaches. (Review here). Oh, we had quite alot to discuss. hahhaa. When I was putting down the tray, My aunty put the tray behind the plant. There was a waiter coming out, I was trying to tell the waiter the "tray" is behind the plant. Maureen had to help me out. Dunno why I got such loss in words. I was even pointing to the waiter, "what do you call that", He didn't know. But knew the humour. Twas hilarious. I just got a loss of words.
Of late, I have been feeling very lonely. I don't have my mom(Marianna), although I do have a separate FB account for her, just so that I know shes in my life, secondly, no guy wants to go near a Hepatitis B guy. And so it has come for time for me to announce, that I have been seeing a guy(well we've yet to meet). I started chatting with him a few months, then I told him, I was going through a rough patch, and so he came back into my life recently. And continued our friendship. He has since portrayed he'd like to get to know me. I of course told him of my hep B and his wording NOT mine"Takes me more then that to keep u away from me (wink) if this isn't love that I don't know what love it (wink)". WE haven't officially announced anything. WE're taking things very slowly. However the reason I bring this up is that, I told my Aunty, that if there were to be any relationship, that I do not wanna hear any bull of homophobia from what I endured the last time. Including age difference etc.,
WE were also discussing my sis hospital expereince. She's in hospital for Pancreatisitis. and other mental difficulties. And now we're as a family after learning devastating news, that she was Raped via Rape Drug. She told Mom n myself, that the ex had injected her while she was asleep. Hence the bruising etc., The reason I bring this up, I explained to my aunty that there's a RIGHT way of explaining the wrong and the WRONG way of explaining the wrong. If you start saying, she deserves it, or she looking for attention or whatever, WRONG, that's WRONG. You support the person continuously, true and true etc.,
Then finally before we dispersed we then discussed Marks Woods adoption and wondered he was adopted as a baby, and yet I was 8 before I was adopted.
Then I had told her that the only way to learn a language is quite simple go to the country, converse with a person who has the language you are learning and most important in my opinion is to read and speak the language in your mind. Read signs etc., E.g today on the way to Maureen, I encountered "Trinity College, Dublin, Nursing and & Midwifery". I then read that in Irish: "Coláiste Tríonáide, Baile Atha Cliath, Altranais(Nursing) & Chnámhas,,,,(Midwifery)). Then I read another sign: "Grafton St., " Shr Grafton" etc., etc., Then I only remembered that I remember reading Irish for Summerhill(Cnoic on tSamhriadh) and Ballybough(Baile Bochta).Baile Boctha is literally meaning Poor Town. Then my friend O' Farrell told they could be taking it from the English and just "Irishing" it. .... eg
Then the two of us headed onto one of my errands of collecting my glasses. A new pair I was getting for free, as the previous kept breaking in half. etc., When the sales clerk was giving me my new ones, I had asked him to have a look at the old ones, as they were breaking. Then he gave em back to me, and asked if I'd like em to be cleaned etc., Very caring he was.
Then we both dispersed and said our good byes, I wanted to get my 5 milks, I have decided since last week to restock my fridge VERY SLOWLY thou, due to funding concerns. So I then decided to head onto Tescos in JErvis. My friend Christopher of whom I say at March of Marriage on Sunday also suggested Sunflower in Butter. So with that in mind, I looked for it, couldn't find it. And if I did find it, it DOES have milk. So not sure if he had right name. Then again, he couldn't remember the name of the brand anyways, he did say its far cheaper than normally. But eitherway, I as me sis would put it: "BINGED" on getting about 10 cartons of milk, ranging from Soya to Almond(5 of them), Hazelnut, Coconut(mmmmmmm) etc., etc.,
So then I headed onto the Outhouse. I got myself green tea ie Peppermint. mmmmmm. Then on my way out, I encountered the magazine, GCN in which I submitted a letter of an LGBT Divided, of which I submitted to the magazine.I noted the magazine has a new issue. To my surprise my publication wasn't available. SO I said I'd email the editor and see what up?. But then throughout my struggle on the way home with the milk, that perhaps one of my mates whom I told, about the publication apparently don't agree, and emailed the editor to NOT publish my content. I guess we'll never know. However I will email him and see what happens. If it so happens that it was indeed a person who has emailed behind my back to stop the publication of my content, then I shall seek Legal advice or whatever, maybe GLEN or somebody.
So then I arrived home, with a quickie of a toilet break to head off on my next errand. I then got ready and headed on off to my sis place. She's currently in hospital as I said above. She wanted me to check the post. Of which I did. On the way to the hospital, I encountered my old friend Michael Byrne's house who was in my High School class. Apparently he has emigrated or at the very least moved out.
I then arrived at the hospital, when I arrived, I was in the queue, and I was wondering how am I to get to see her. So as I saw a few people "sneaking in" to the area where my sis is, I said I'd try my hand. So I went to the Nurses station, and to see where she is. She was on a trolly ASLEEP. I did try to wake her. However as the Visiting Hours were for half 6 to half 7, I said i'd leave her. Considering I had arrived late.
So on my way home, I continued to looking at the Irish language signs. One such was Drom Áláinn(Dromawling). Again the name literally means "Lovely drums", however the English is quite similar to the Irish in terms of what you see on the page.
I was then on the way home, when I said I'd pop into Mom and Dads. I then immediately got a thought that the Mulligans would be there, and they'd see the TShirt, I was wearing "which bears the slogan: Feck off out of my life. I'm with Team Panti" and that Mom would be very nervous. And then Kathleen(one of the Mulligans) would say "Remember the little agreement we had" and then I would overhear and be very disgusted. The agreement that the Mulligans would be relating to Gays. Int hat Kathleen NOT in favor of em. and wanted Mom to do something. And as Mom went to PRide(where I blurt out to all), Kathleen then threathens here with the agreement????
I was to meet my Aunty(Nun) as per our monthly meetups. I last saw her at the Pride Parade. Then the last meetup in question was back in June. And the last time I saw her was when I nearly gave such a reaction to a wee fright I gave her. It was the reaction that got me in stitches. So anyways, I made my way. I first popped into An Post for the Dole, then across the road for to transfer funds over. Then I set about meeting my Aunty in KC Peaches. (Review here). Oh, we had quite alot to discuss. hahhaa. When I was putting down the tray, My aunty put the tray behind the plant. There was a waiter coming out, I was trying to tell the waiter the "tray" is behind the plant. Maureen had to help me out. Dunno why I got such loss in words. I was even pointing to the waiter, "what do you call that", He didn't know. But knew the humour. Twas hilarious. I just got a loss of words.
Of late, I have been feeling very lonely. I don't have my mom(Marianna), although I do have a separate FB account for her, just so that I know shes in my life, secondly, no guy wants to go near a Hepatitis B guy. And so it has come for time for me to announce, that I have been seeing a guy(well we've yet to meet). I started chatting with him a few months, then I told him, I was going through a rough patch, and so he came back into my life recently. And continued our friendship. He has since portrayed he'd like to get to know me. I of course told him of my hep B and his wording NOT mine"Takes me more then that to keep u away from me (wink) if this isn't love that I don't know what love it (wink)". WE haven't officially announced anything. WE're taking things very slowly. However the reason I bring this up is that, I told my Aunty, that if there were to be any relationship, that I do not wanna hear any bull of homophobia from what I endured the last time. Including age difference etc.,
WE were also discussing my sis hospital expereince. She's in hospital for Pancreatisitis. and other mental difficulties. And now we're as a family after learning devastating news, that she was Raped via Rape Drug. She told Mom n myself, that the ex had injected her while she was asleep. Hence the bruising etc., The reason I bring this up, I explained to my aunty that there's a RIGHT way of explaining the wrong and the WRONG way of explaining the wrong. If you start saying, she deserves it, or she looking for attention or whatever, WRONG, that's WRONG. You support the person continuously, true and true etc.,
Then finally before we dispersed we then discussed Marks Woods adoption and wondered he was adopted as a baby, and yet I was 8 before I was adopted.
Then I had told her that the only way to learn a language is quite simple go to the country, converse with a person who has the language you are learning and most important in my opinion is to read and speak the language in your mind. Read signs etc., E.g today on the way to Maureen, I encountered "Trinity College, Dublin, Nursing and & Midwifery". I then read that in Irish: "Coláiste Tríonáide, Baile Atha Cliath, Altranais(Nursing) & Chnámhas,,,,(Midwifery)). Then I read another sign: "Grafton St., " Shr Grafton" etc., etc., Then I only remembered that I remember reading Irish for Summerhill(Cnoic on tSamhriadh) and Ballybough(Baile Bochta).Baile Boctha is literally meaning Poor Town. Then my friend O' Farrell told they could be taking it from the English and just "Irishing" it. .... eg
Then the two of us headed onto one of my errands of collecting my glasses. A new pair I was getting for free, as the previous kept breaking in half. etc., When the sales clerk was giving me my new ones, I had asked him to have a look at the old ones, as they were breaking. Then he gave em back to me, and asked if I'd like em to be cleaned etc., Very caring he was.
Then we both dispersed and said our good byes, I wanted to get my 5 milks, I have decided since last week to restock my fridge VERY SLOWLY thou, due to funding concerns. So I then decided to head onto Tescos in JErvis. My friend Christopher of whom I say at March of Marriage on Sunday also suggested Sunflower in Butter. So with that in mind, I looked for it, couldn't find it. And if I did find it, it DOES have milk. So not sure if he had right name. Then again, he couldn't remember the name of the brand anyways, he did say its far cheaper than normally. But eitherway, I as me sis would put it: "BINGED" on getting about 10 cartons of milk, ranging from Soya to Almond(5 of them), Hazelnut, Coconut(mmmmmmm) etc., etc.,
So then I headed onto the Outhouse. I got myself green tea ie Peppermint. mmmmmm. Then on my way out, I encountered the magazine, GCN in which I submitted a letter of an LGBT Divided, of which I submitted to the magazine.I noted the magazine has a new issue. To my surprise my publication wasn't available. SO I said I'd email the editor and see what up?. But then throughout my struggle on the way home with the milk, that perhaps one of my mates whom I told, about the publication apparently don't agree, and emailed the editor to NOT publish my content. I guess we'll never know. However I will email him and see what happens. If it so happens that it was indeed a person who has emailed behind my back to stop the publication of my content, then I shall seek Legal advice or whatever, maybe GLEN or somebody.
So then I arrived home, with a quickie of a toilet break to head off on my next errand. I then got ready and headed on off to my sis place. She's currently in hospital as I said above. She wanted me to check the post. Of which I did. On the way to the hospital, I encountered my old friend Michael Byrne's house who was in my High School class. Apparently he has emigrated or at the very least moved out.
I then arrived at the hospital, when I arrived, I was in the queue, and I was wondering how am I to get to see her. So as I saw a few people "sneaking in" to the area where my sis is, I said I'd try my hand. So I went to the Nurses station, and to see where she is. She was on a trolly ASLEEP. I did try to wake her. However as the Visiting Hours were for half 6 to half 7, I said i'd leave her. Considering I had arrived late.
So on my way home, I continued to looking at the Irish language signs. One such was Drom Áláinn(Dromawling). Again the name literally means "Lovely drums", however the English is quite similar to the Irish in terms of what you see on the page.
I was then on the way home, when I said I'd pop into Mom and Dads. I then immediately got a thought that the Mulligans would be there, and they'd see the TShirt, I was wearing "which bears the slogan: Feck off out of my life. I'm with Team Panti" and that Mom would be very nervous. And then Kathleen(one of the Mulligans) would say "Remember the little agreement we had" and then I would overhear and be very disgusted. The agreement that the Mulligans would be relating to Gays. Int hat Kathleen NOT in favor of em. and wanted Mom to do something. And as Mom went to PRide(where I blurt out to all), Kathleen then threathens here with the agreement????
Tuesday, 19 August 2014
Diary 18th August 2014
Recently I have been blocked on Facebook. It has been quite disheartening. I keep a record of guys I add or send requests to etc., Quite alot of guys I had befriended over the years, have not only removed me, which I don't mind, but to BLOCK me. I take that to heart. There is no need to block a person unless for a particular reason. I recently emptied my Block List on Facebook, which would help me better in terms of finding out who has blocked me and not. If I have no interest in keeping a friendship, I remove the person, then to ensure that they don't get my feeds, I block them TEMPORARILY then they are off my Follow list.
Then recently I was looking for a sex whats new - hahahaha on Grindr and various sites. Any guy I'm NOT into, I tell them that I have Hep B, and they go ahead and block me. I don't mind. BUT guys I'm into and I divulge my hep b status, they IMMEDIATELY Block me.
I wonder will America be as welcoming. As Ireland is spoz to be the "Land of the Welcomes". I most certainly have not been welcomed in recent months ESPECIALLY since I came out Hepatitis B. So I guess the Boilerhouse is my friend. Then again, I will have to come out Hep B to them as well and all. So I guess JO and Solo is Georgian's IMMEDIATE future.
On the way to the college, for the Information session as per the letter below, I was thinking to meself. That Sky provide 3Player(TV3's OnDemand Service name), yet they don't offer RTE Player. Which is an awful shame. Cause currently. For the news, I download my News Bulletins from 3Player and then Ireland AM, and Midday and Tonight with Vincent Browne(Current Affairs as I call em). I also download their documentary. Bottomline is, that I get to have space on my Box, hahaha. SO that's awesome. But RTE :(
I got a letter in the post from Social Welfare notifying me of a FIT(FastTrack Information Technology) course(something to do with courses and my payment). So with that in mind, I then headed to Whitehall College of Further Education where I previously went back in 2004 as I hadn't enough College Points to get into NCI. I went the back route. SO I was admiring the lovely building. I saw one of my former Lecturer there. Nothing's changed staff wise. On his phone. That didn't bother me thou. I was quite shocked when I went in. There was hardly a soul. I had arrived at 2.40. The time in the letter said 2pm. They were acutely finishing up. They had such a brazen attitude. Literally laughing in my face. I said that the letter never said the time it finishes. yet they were packing up. They hire staff, who DON'T have knowledge of the module they are teaching. What a joke.
So then I headed towards my folks. As it was a lovely day. Literally as I was in the door. It started showering. SO me in my shorts, I was quite lucky. hahaah.
So then with my horninsiness hahaha, I took a few NSFW pics and watched Fair City. JUST to free UP space on my Box. Never ending to my busyiness.
NEWS
A vulnerable young woman who wanted an abortion under the new law, gave birth to a Premature Baby via Ciscariaon. Under the new legislation, she was refused an abortion.
Then recently I was looking for a sex whats new - hahahaha on Grindr and various sites. Any guy I'm NOT into, I tell them that I have Hep B, and they go ahead and block me. I don't mind. BUT guys I'm into and I divulge my hep b status, they IMMEDIATELY Block me.
I wonder will America be as welcoming. As Ireland is spoz to be the "Land of the Welcomes". I most certainly have not been welcomed in recent months ESPECIALLY since I came out Hepatitis B. So I guess the Boilerhouse is my friend. Then again, I will have to come out Hep B to them as well and all. So I guess JO and Solo is Georgian's IMMEDIATE future.
On the way to the college, for the Information session as per the letter below, I was thinking to meself. That Sky provide 3Player(TV3's OnDemand Service name), yet they don't offer RTE Player. Which is an awful shame. Cause currently. For the news, I download my News Bulletins from 3Player and then Ireland AM, and Midday and Tonight with Vincent Browne(Current Affairs as I call em). I also download their documentary. Bottomline is, that I get to have space on my Box, hahaha. SO that's awesome. But RTE :(
I got a letter in the post from Social Welfare notifying me of a FIT(FastTrack Information Technology) course(something to do with courses and my payment). So with that in mind, I then headed to Whitehall College of Further Education where I previously went back in 2004 as I hadn't enough College Points to get into NCI. I went the back route. SO I was admiring the lovely building. I saw one of my former Lecturer there. Nothing's changed staff wise. On his phone. That didn't bother me thou. I was quite shocked when I went in. There was hardly a soul. I had arrived at 2.40. The time in the letter said 2pm. They were acutely finishing up. They had such a brazen attitude. Literally laughing in my face. I said that the letter never said the time it finishes. yet they were packing up. They hire staff, who DON'T have knowledge of the module they are teaching. What a joke.
So then I headed towards my folks. As it was a lovely day. Literally as I was in the door. It started showering. SO me in my shorts, I was quite lucky. hahaah.
So then with my horninsiness hahaha, I took a few NSFW pics and watched Fair City. JUST to free UP space on my Box. Never ending to my busyiness.
NEWS
A vulnerable young woman who wanted an abortion under the new law, gave birth to a Premature Baby via Ciscariaon. Under the new legislation, she was refused an abortion.
Friday, 8 August 2014
Diary 7th August 2014
As a result of me staying on in bed yesterday, I had some freakiest of dreams. Here's a sample of what I endured.
Me going upstairs a building or something and finding a new LGBT Center.
And another
Me being accused of breaking and entering beside Cineworld. All I did was literally open a store that's unbreakable ie "Unreleased the two latches". Then when I go into Cineworld , I am greeted by a cautious looking Caitriona Perry(Currently RTE's Washington Correspondent) and she sees me, then I only realised why. So then a Garda or whatever then says to me, "Good Morning/Afternoon/Evening or whatever, my name is Garda ....... You have been accused of .....". It goes on.
I got my blood test done as requested from the doctor(Physician) last week. I got my Vitamins etc., etc., tested. I was told that my Hepatitis B was already tested back in April. How this came up was I had asked the Nurse, if it was at all possible to send the results to my Specialist in the Mater hospital as I had missed the appointments on two occasions. One in April and another in June.
Then I got another visit from Mom. Again she was wanting to have a wee chat. I again, wanting to stay on in bed ie not wanting to see her. hahaha. She was about to head off, when my feckin' alarm goes off. Then she came back. So in the end I had to let her in. She again poked my precious babes the Inflatables. Awww to see them being poked and playing around. awwwwwwww.
So I got up. Mom n I had a wee chat. She wanted me to come out with her. But I had plans made and I was getting up literally before I left.
I then set about heading off to meet my mate Brendan S. We were to see the film Guardians of the Galaxy. (Review here).
We then headed to the Outhouse. We took Pics of each other.(hahhaahah not that way). Mike K was t here. Twas wonderful to see him. When I was getting my Peppermint Tea, he was describing how to make it myself. I was quite interested in hearing what he had to say. Get leaves, and put them int he window. Something like that. It would attract the flies. Which would be great for my fly problem currently in the flat.
So then I headed back to see what I was expected GodZilla(Review here). But in a fit of anger, I says to Searson "Fuck it". As in The Take 2 of the film that the cinema do on a Thursday. Cineworld do a second run of the movies big blockbusters. However, I for a several times this week have taught that this week was next week. ie Thinking today was the 14th. So, I then said to Searson, I'm not going home. It'd be too early. So I went to Dawn of the Planet of the Apes(Review here.)
Shortly before I went to bed, I did a few errands. Namely, I headed to Drumcondra Credit Union and then to Scribbles for to get cash for Joseph and the Amazing Technicolor Dreamcoat next week and LIdls too. Few bootys ama gonna get.
Next on my list was to clean up the dishes I haven't washed in months and cutlery. Then finally just about as I was to head off, I was looking at Midday. One topic on the agenda was "Earliest Memories". Got me thinking. My earliest memories was in the orphanage. I keep getting flashbacks(some in the negative(majority) and some in the positive). One whereby I shit int he bed(literally) and another everytime, I smell something(food I mean e.g The WATERMELON - mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm) over hear in Ireland and I recognise it, I say Oh Yeah I had that over in Romania(like in an orphanage). And this particular old style jeep. I'll never forget it. Both my sis n I are walking with someone, and we pass a WHITE colored house. White as in a painted stoned type house.
NEWS
Russia has imposed Trade Imports ban to Russia as EU and USA has imposed sanctions for the Ukraine/Russia war. Following are the categories of food of which the Russia Federation has banned from Imports into the country.
Meat, Fish, Dairy Fruit and Veg from the following Countries
USA; ALL 28 EU Countries(Incl Ireland); Canada; Australia; and Norway which is a Non-EU Member
Australia has held a National Day of Mourning. 28 of the Australians were victims. 298 were aboard the illlfated shot down flight.
A Monkey or whatever, who took a selfie, has caused an uproar in US Copyright Laws. The photographer who left his camera down, claims that as it was taken on his camera, he owns the copyright. But the site Wikimedia upon where it was uploaded to says otherwise.
Me going upstairs a building or something and finding a new LGBT Center.
And another
Me being accused of breaking and entering beside Cineworld. All I did was literally open a store that's unbreakable ie "Unreleased the two latches". Then when I go into Cineworld , I am greeted by a cautious looking Caitriona Perry(Currently RTE's Washington Correspondent) and she sees me, then I only realised why. So then a Garda or whatever then says to me, "Good Morning/Afternoon/Evening or whatever, my name is Garda ....... You have been accused of .....". It goes on.
I got my blood test done as requested from the doctor(Physician) last week. I got my Vitamins etc., etc., tested. I was told that my Hepatitis B was already tested back in April. How this came up was I had asked the Nurse, if it was at all possible to send the results to my Specialist in the Mater hospital as I had missed the appointments on two occasions. One in April and another in June.
Then I got another visit from Mom. Again she was wanting to have a wee chat. I again, wanting to stay on in bed ie not wanting to see her. hahaha. She was about to head off, when my feckin' alarm goes off. Then she came back. So in the end I had to let her in. She again poked my precious babes the Inflatables. Awww to see them being poked and playing around. awwwwwwww.
So I got up. Mom n I had a wee chat. She wanted me to come out with her. But I had plans made and I was getting up literally before I left.
I then set about heading off to meet my mate Brendan S. We were to see the film Guardians of the Galaxy. (Review here).
We then headed to the Outhouse. We took Pics of each other.(hahhaahah not that way). Mike K was t here. Twas wonderful to see him. When I was getting my Peppermint Tea, he was describing how to make it myself. I was quite interested in hearing what he had to say. Get leaves, and put them int he window. Something like that. It would attract the flies. Which would be great for my fly problem currently in the flat.
So then I headed back to see what I was expected GodZilla(Review here). But in a fit of anger, I says to Searson "Fuck it". As in The Take 2 of the film that the cinema do on a Thursday. Cineworld do a second run of the movies big blockbusters. However, I for a several times this week have taught that this week was next week. ie Thinking today was the 14th. So, I then said to Searson, I'm not going home. It'd be too early. So I went to Dawn of the Planet of the Apes(Review here.)
Shortly before I went to bed, I did a few errands. Namely, I headed to Drumcondra Credit Union and then to Scribbles for to get cash for Joseph and the Amazing Technicolor Dreamcoat next week and LIdls too. Few bootys ama gonna get.
Next on my list was to clean up the dishes I haven't washed in months and cutlery. Then finally just about as I was to head off, I was looking at Midday. One topic on the agenda was "Earliest Memories". Got me thinking. My earliest memories was in the orphanage. I keep getting flashbacks(some in the negative(majority) and some in the positive). One whereby I shit int he bed(literally) and another everytime, I smell something(food I mean e.g The WATERMELON - mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm) over hear in Ireland and I recognise it, I say Oh Yeah I had that over in Romania(like in an orphanage). And this particular old style jeep. I'll never forget it. Both my sis n I are walking with someone, and we pass a WHITE colored house. White as in a painted stoned type house.
NEWS
Russia has imposed Trade Imports ban to Russia as EU and USA has imposed sanctions for the Ukraine/Russia war. Following are the categories of food of which the Russia Federation has banned from Imports into the country.
Meat, Fish, Dairy Fruit and Veg from the following Countries
USA; ALL 28 EU Countries(Incl Ireland); Canada; Australia; and Norway which is a Non-EU Member
Australia has held a National Day of Mourning. 28 of the Australians were victims. 298 were aboard the illlfated shot down flight.
A Monkey or whatever, who took a selfie, has caused an uproar in US Copyright Laws. The photographer who left his camera down, claims that as it was taken on his camera, he owns the copyright. But the site Wikimedia upon where it was uploaded to says otherwise.
Saturday, 26 July 2014
Diary 25th July 2014
Well after a great sleep yesterday, I got up with a slightly happier mood,(I have Patch to thank - heheeh). I got up, with a view of doing the News Bulletins from July 24th and free up space. However it wasn't to be. I showered. Getting rid of all the hair, that I had let overgrown over several days to a possibly week. So then I headed on with my first errand of getting my haircut. There was an auld lad in front of me. I vaugley recognised him. When it was confirmed he's an accountant for Jim Markeys across the road, I remember seeing him there alrite. The accountant customer was asked what he does for a Friday ngiht. His idea, is very simpley and elegant. Pub then onto another pub, for music and the he simply hops into a taxi. Twas great to see a bubbly guy(barber). We remembered dear old Kevin, Who was my manager in Spar in Drumcondra where I used to work, when I was a kid for pocket money. heheeh. He even remembers Don - my nemesis. Wow, talk of bringing up my past. It was amazing. My birthday of this year has brought up some happy BUT painful memories. Ain't that abnormal. So with such a happy face(for once - at least)
So then I headed back thinking I had a bit of time, but as it happens, I didn't have that much time. It was my plan to see How to Train Your Dragon 2(Review here), as the last time,So then I popped my head into the Outhouse, literally. As the film was starting at 6pm. I saw Brendan S. Great to see him. Then I headed onto the Cinema, for my peaceful time. heheehe. I was late for the beginning. But as it happens, I wasn't as late as I thought I was. It was really effective alrite as I said in my review.
I then headed back to the Outhouse where I was greeted by Dave. I had hoped to get a sandwich. However, Dave explained that there aint no Lettuce and JUST Tomato. So I jsut left it and got my Green Tea of Raspberry. Ohmmmmm So scrumptiouslioucious. as I don't take their Tea anymore(cause I first keep forgetting to bring my soya and they don't have it and secondly my wish of weight loss and not only that the discovery that Soya brings upon Man Boobs as mentioned by one of my FB Mates). I had asked Dave, that can it be done, whereby I bring my OWN green tea, and they just give me the hot water. He was a bit apprehensive about it. So he just recommended that I ask Joe. So we just left it at that. Now, as I don't take their tea for Men's Night, which they get for free(some arrangement in advance is made), I had to bring my Green Tea in a Paper cup. Which I didn't mind. So ownards I headed on up. Great to see a lively bunch. heeheheh. Patrick, Brendan S, Brendan O' F, Eddie, Ken(who left shortly after I arrived), Peadar, Bernard, Ollie and a few others I couldn't recall their names, BUT obviously recognsied. Patrick brought up a story he heard on Liveline(Joe Duffy on RTE Radio 1). Whereby he heard a woman from Donegal. A guy went into a bar in none other than a Budgie Smuggler, from what I gather is a swimwear or underwear that only covers ONE side of your cock. Something like that. But it ain't what I thought. Eitherway it was featured on the Liveline. Shame I didn't see the guy. hahahah. mmmmm. So then Brendan O' F later on told me that his mother was asking for me. I can't tell you how happy that made me feel. The feel that ANOTHER mother was asking for me. heheeh. Its kinda weird come to think of it that my mother asked me to send her love to all when I was at the Andre Rieu Satellite Concert last Saturday. Brendan S, then told me that he put O'F and myself and whoever else on a Restricted List. Its a feature on FB. I never got the jist of it. He put it in lamens terms. This means that if he posts anything public, then we'll get the post. He was under the da illusion that he posts too much. He was told something of this. I told him that that's wrong. and they's nothing but a lier. I told him, that my sis posts BUCKETS(which I don't mind - obbbbbbv), but that he hardly posts at all. I have him on the Notifications.
So then onwards to my next film. I headed this time with O' Farrell to see Transformers: Age of Extinction(Review here). Before we went in, O' Farrell asked me which Hepatitis, I had, whether it was B or C. I explained that I contracted it along time ago in Romania. BUT, that it got "activated", when I "drank myself to death" a few years ago while I was enduring Homophobia. I used drink as a coping mechanism. NOT that it didn't work. However that's another story for another day. So then we headed in. We unfortunately had some unpleasant experience. There was a family of god only knows how many. They were all UNDER 12(considering the film was 12A Certification provided by IFCO). The Mom n Dad were there. The Dad sat beside me and the Mom down with the kids. They were making noises. As if it wasn't bad enough the screen in question hadn't turned on the 3D aspect of the film. IT was all blurry. But getting back to the kids, CLEARLY the film was not suitable for 7 or 8 year old kids. How they got through is beyond me. I will bring it up with the staff next time I go to the cinema. Brendan had to go out to seek a staff member. The staff member had a talk with the parents and the kids themselves. This didn't stop one of em throwing somethings at Brendan. He got really mad. Saying "Obey your parents". I "will have you thrown out of the theatre". So then we headed on WITHOUT confronting the ill fated family. They should have had a babysitter or if they couldn't afford or they couldn't find a babysitter, just do without it. Oh I ain't letting Cineworld away with it. I will notify the staff and/or Management.
So after some unpleasantness, I left O' Farrell to Luas and then as I got a bit lost myself I just went towards Capel St., of which I couldn't find Panti Bar. Kinda weird, as I haven't been there since last year for Géilí - last year's Pride Events(2013). I happened to bump into Joe from the Outhouse. Was great to see him. I vaguely recongised Noel Gannon. Which is kinda weird, didn't think he was that small. But eiterhway, he didn't recognise me at all. Joe says to me, Not norm to see me in these parts hahaha. I felt like spilling my guys about my dear Mother(Romania), but ietherway, was great to see him. He made a suggestive move to suggest I was looking for a bit of actions, not Panti I'll be looking for action. hahahaah. I had one Vodka & DASH of Coke. Twas lovely. Slightly stronger than what you'd get in the George. Another gay bar.
So then I headed on towards home. I was looking for Barber that Frank my barber had mentioned. On the way, I happened to come across an Internet Cafe or at least what used to be. I recall the days, on a Sunday, whereby I'd sneak out via lies to my folks to go to the Internet Cafe on a Sunday when me Pops would be looking at the match. It was a ritual with me. I used to go their to print stuff off from Ros na Run and of course to surf as well. Now in those days we had the 56K modem(ahhhh memories), there was no such things as Facebook, NOT even Bebo had existed when I was growing up.
NEWS
It has been announced that all 116 passengers Algeria Airlines all have perished.
US President Barack OBama, has hit back at Ireland's Tax Inversion. Ireland's Corporate Tax is 12.5%. From my understanding, Obama is stating that US Companies who come over here, are actually paying at Irish Rate NOT the home company's country. It first started when it was found that Apple(Being an American company) was actually paying IRISH Tax Rate NOT their own country's rate.
So then I headed back thinking I had a bit of time, but as it happens, I didn't have that much time. It was my plan to see How to Train Your Dragon 2(Review here), as the last time,So then I popped my head into the Outhouse, literally. As the film was starting at 6pm. I saw Brendan S. Great to see him. Then I headed onto the Cinema, for my peaceful time. heheehe. I was late for the beginning. But as it happens, I wasn't as late as I thought I was. It was really effective alrite as I said in my review.
I then headed back to the Outhouse where I was greeted by Dave. I had hoped to get a sandwich. However, Dave explained that there aint no Lettuce and JUST Tomato. So I jsut left it and got my Green Tea of Raspberry. Ohmmmmm So scrumptiouslioucious. as I don't take their Tea anymore(cause I first keep forgetting to bring my soya and they don't have it and secondly my wish of weight loss and not only that the discovery that Soya brings upon Man Boobs as mentioned by one of my FB Mates). I had asked Dave, that can it be done, whereby I bring my OWN green tea, and they just give me the hot water. He was a bit apprehensive about it. So he just recommended that I ask Joe. So we just left it at that. Now, as I don't take their tea for Men's Night, which they get for free(some arrangement in advance is made), I had to bring my Green Tea in a Paper cup. Which I didn't mind. So ownards I headed on up. Great to see a lively bunch. heeheheh. Patrick, Brendan S, Brendan O' F, Eddie, Ken(who left shortly after I arrived), Peadar, Bernard, Ollie and a few others I couldn't recall their names, BUT obviously recognsied. Patrick brought up a story he heard on Liveline(Joe Duffy on RTE Radio 1). Whereby he heard a woman from Donegal. A guy went into a bar in none other than a Budgie Smuggler, from what I gather is a swimwear or underwear that only covers ONE side of your cock. Something like that. But it ain't what I thought. Eitherway it was featured on the Liveline. Shame I didn't see the guy. hahahah. mmmmm. So then Brendan O' F later on told me that his mother was asking for me. I can't tell you how happy that made me feel. The feel that ANOTHER mother was asking for me. heheeh. Its kinda weird come to think of it that my mother asked me to send her love to all when I was at the Andre Rieu Satellite Concert last Saturday. Brendan S, then told me that he put O'F and myself and whoever else on a Restricted List. Its a feature on FB. I never got the jist of it. He put it in lamens terms. This means that if he posts anything public, then we'll get the post. He was under the da illusion that he posts too much. He was told something of this. I told him that that's wrong. and they's nothing but a lier. I told him, that my sis posts BUCKETS(which I don't mind - obbbbbbv), but that he hardly posts at all. I have him on the Notifications.
So then onwards to my next film. I headed this time with O' Farrell to see Transformers: Age of Extinction(Review here). Before we went in, O' Farrell asked me which Hepatitis, I had, whether it was B or C. I explained that I contracted it along time ago in Romania. BUT, that it got "activated", when I "drank myself to death" a few years ago while I was enduring Homophobia. I used drink as a coping mechanism. NOT that it didn't work. However that's another story for another day. So then we headed in. We unfortunately had some unpleasant experience. There was a family of god only knows how many. They were all UNDER 12(considering the film was 12A Certification provided by IFCO). The Mom n Dad were there. The Dad sat beside me and the Mom down with the kids. They were making noises. As if it wasn't bad enough the screen in question hadn't turned on the 3D aspect of the film. IT was all blurry. But getting back to the kids, CLEARLY the film was not suitable for 7 or 8 year old kids. How they got through is beyond me. I will bring it up with the staff next time I go to the cinema. Brendan had to go out to seek a staff member. The staff member had a talk with the parents and the kids themselves. This didn't stop one of em throwing somethings at Brendan. He got really mad. Saying "Obey your parents". I "will have you thrown out of the theatre". So then we headed on WITHOUT confronting the ill fated family. They should have had a babysitter or if they couldn't afford or they couldn't find a babysitter, just do without it. Oh I ain't letting Cineworld away with it. I will notify the staff and/or Management.
So after some unpleasantness, I left O' Farrell to Luas and then as I got a bit lost myself I just went towards Capel St., of which I couldn't find Panti Bar. Kinda weird, as I haven't been there since last year for Géilí - last year's Pride Events(2013). I happened to bump into Joe from the Outhouse. Was great to see him. I vaguely recongised Noel Gannon. Which is kinda weird, didn't think he was that small. But eiterhway, he didn't recognise me at all. Joe says to me, Not norm to see me in these parts hahaha. I felt like spilling my guys about my dear Mother(Romania), but ietherway, was great to see him. He made a suggestive move to suggest I was looking for a bit of actions, not Panti I'll be looking for action. hahahaah. I had one Vodka & DASH of Coke. Twas lovely. Slightly stronger than what you'd get in the George. Another gay bar.
So then I headed on towards home. I was looking for Barber that Frank my barber had mentioned. On the way, I happened to come across an Internet Cafe or at least what used to be. I recall the days, on a Sunday, whereby I'd sneak out via lies to my folks to go to the Internet Cafe on a Sunday when me Pops would be looking at the match. It was a ritual with me. I used to go their to print stuff off from Ros na Run and of course to surf as well. Now in those days we had the 56K modem(ahhhh memories), there was no such things as Facebook, NOT even Bebo had existed when I was growing up.
NEWS
It has been announced that all 116 passengers Algeria Airlines all have perished.
US President Barack OBama, has hit back at Ireland's Tax Inversion. Ireland's Corporate Tax is 12.5%. From my understanding, Obama is stating that US Companies who come over here, are actually paying at Irish Rate NOT the home company's country. It first started when it was found that Apple(Being an American company) was actually paying IRISH Tax Rate NOT their own country's rate.
Tuesday, 8 July 2014
Diary 7th July 2014
Well after staying up while of course keeping myself busy of course, I set about going along my busy errands again. hahaah. My first stop was An Post to transfer funds over from An Post Savings to my Bank to pay off a bill.
ON my journeys, I just remembered that my Paps and I had a confrontation regarding homeless ppl and druggies etc, etc., yesterday. I had said to him that "Everyone has a story". He continued to say that they chose that life.
I continued to think. heheeeh. That regarding the Gareth Gates controversy that's ongoing, that the GAA were selling concerts WITHOUT a license. Unfortunately 400k ppl who bought tickets maybe affected. More than likely the issue will be resolved. HOWEVER, the issue at hand hasn't. So I'd say that the Government will be looping all the loopholes.
Unfortunately my Earphones the ones that costed €20 have said its good byes. haahah. I must have sat on em or something in the cinema. Anyways, as I don't have music now for awhile, I would think quite alote to myself.
So then I set about heading on to my main area of my errands, my Unlimited Card. I headed to Cineworld first. Initially I was going to go to Lidls for the clogs first, but then I said to myself, if I have to wait in Cineworld for a film to finish so that I can go upstairs to check out myself, then I could simply hop to Lidls, get my clogs etc., However it wasn't meant to be, as I'll shortly explain. Anyways, I arrived. There was a group of people outside, I thought the cinema was closed, I couldn't find anywhere when the cinema opens. But I saw a guy coming out. So I just went in. There was hardly a soul around. There were a few ahead of me. There was a woman ordering 40 tickets apparently a group. Took quite a while. When it was my turn, I was asked to wait aside as she was the only staff on the floor. At this stage, I was saying to myself, I could have got my clogs by now. Eitherway, I continued to wait. Then the management Steph, came by, to check to see if my card was around. To my surprise. So I must have dropped it somewhere. Steph told me, that if I wanted to, I could wait til the film is over, however thats WASN'T n option, to wait 3hrs as Transformers is 3hrs long, give or take. I was most certainly not gonna wait that length. So I just rang up the Helpline and ordered a new card, pay another €16. Nothing knew. hahahah.
So then onwards to my next errands was to get Clogs in Lidls. I then realised that I was running low on OJ. I got Batch bread, which I haven't had for YEARS. Can't believe how long it has been. heheehh
So then on my way home, I saw the Temple Street Children's Hospital where I spent many sorry years -hahah. Not sure about that. Its there(Temple Street Children's Hospital) where I learned of my fate ie the Hepatitis B, (That I still continuously get judged on - most recent was that time the guy said "Nah your grand"). I'm told Its there I got vaccinated for to get into Ireland from Romania and hence I was diagnosed with Hepatitis B(Thou I wasn't told til the age of 25 when I was using sex as a coping mechanism with the homophobia. I was told by the Gay Men Health Clinic here in Dublin). By law I should have been told when I turned 18. But my "sensitivity" was an issue. Which is a load of bull. Here I was having sex with guys, NOT knowing I could have passed it onto them, like I did have Bareback on 2 occasions. Once was a HIV Health Scare. Twas a scary 3 months like Rose Nylon on Golden Girls(cept the episode made it for 72hrs - but reality its actually 3 months(Well Ireland anyways). I'd wander at times, why they haven't beaten me up or whatever. It's a strong possibility I'll have to get same for USA as well. What great memories I have of this hospital. My sis' chin was in bits after my so called "friend" from my Elementary School pushed her off the bike, something like that. Where my willy got caught in the zipper. Where my "juice" was NOT being cleaned by a young handsome(NOTTTT) Georgian ie Me, and hence got infected or whatever. Everytime I wank or get a hardon or even a bulge and hence don't clean my "Juice" off the willy, I get an awful pain. Back in those days, I never knew what the word "Juice" was or wanking etc., Thinking about, does it make sens a young lad of early teens can have a wank or bulge or whatever??? If so It proves that I was gay or I WAS BORN GAY to all those Str8 Naysayers. I would have been in my early teens, when I was getting bulges or whatever from looking at those fine things, esp the bully whom I saw in his tighty whities. mmmmm. So I ended up in Hospital. I remember the nurse cleaning the willy with a tissue, it hurt like a bitch.
Now the above paragraph, just goes to show, that my memory is slowly coming back hahaha of the good auld days, of my youth. Shortly I will be publishing my youth pics of myself obviously. hehehe. Now I did tell my Aunt(Nun) at our last meetup relating to me not remembering my youth. These things takes time.
I then continued on my journey on the way home. I hopped into Spar to see if they have ALMOND. I intend changing over to ALMOND ever since I was told that too much soya for MEN, gives far too much estrogen and Man Boobs, which I have noticed of late on me. Obv they ain't noticeable to the naked eye, but I too see a fraction of it. Its gonna be slightly expensive. As Lidls or Aldis DON'T sell any of it. I popped into Tescos to get Vegan Butter. But as they didn't have it, I jsut got some salad for myself. I then set about continuing on my track. As I was on my travels, I was seeing people and kept saying to myself wow ain't he/she splitting image of a person. Namely Berni Woods(Mark Woods adopted mother, she adopted him from Romania(BUT as a baby)); a bank staff in Drumcondra branch. etc., et.c, This happened a few times.
You all find that weird????Cause I do.
NEWS
Pope Francis has met with Survivors of the Clerical Child Sex Abuse. Out of 6, 2 came from Ireland.2 UK and 2 from Germany. Marie Collins who is a campaigner and abuse survivor assisted the 2 that came from Ireland. Marie Collins is a member of the Vatican's Child Protection Committee He "Humbly asks for Forgiveness"
ON my journeys, I just remembered that my Paps and I had a confrontation regarding homeless ppl and druggies etc, etc., yesterday. I had said to him that "Everyone has a story". He continued to say that they chose that life.
I continued to think. heheeeh. That regarding the Gareth Gates controversy that's ongoing, that the GAA were selling concerts WITHOUT a license. Unfortunately 400k ppl who bought tickets maybe affected. More than likely the issue will be resolved. HOWEVER, the issue at hand hasn't. So I'd say that the Government will be looping all the loopholes.
Unfortunately my Earphones the ones that costed €20 have said its good byes. haahah. I must have sat on em or something in the cinema. Anyways, as I don't have music now for awhile, I would think quite alote to myself.
So then I set about heading on to my main area of my errands, my Unlimited Card. I headed to Cineworld first. Initially I was going to go to Lidls for the clogs first, but then I said to myself, if I have to wait in Cineworld for a film to finish so that I can go upstairs to check out myself, then I could simply hop to Lidls, get my clogs etc., However it wasn't meant to be, as I'll shortly explain. Anyways, I arrived. There was a group of people outside, I thought the cinema was closed, I couldn't find anywhere when the cinema opens. But I saw a guy coming out. So I just went in. There was hardly a soul around. There were a few ahead of me. There was a woman ordering 40 tickets apparently a group. Took quite a while. When it was my turn, I was asked to wait aside as she was the only staff on the floor. At this stage, I was saying to myself, I could have got my clogs by now. Eitherway, I continued to wait. Then the management Steph, came by, to check to see if my card was around. To my surprise. So I must have dropped it somewhere. Steph told me, that if I wanted to, I could wait til the film is over, however thats WASN'T n option, to wait 3hrs as Transformers is 3hrs long, give or take. I was most certainly not gonna wait that length. So I just rang up the Helpline and ordered a new card, pay another €16. Nothing knew. hahahah.
So then onwards to my next errands was to get Clogs in Lidls. I then realised that I was running low on OJ. I got Batch bread, which I haven't had for YEARS. Can't believe how long it has been. heheehh
So then on my way home, I saw the Temple Street Children's Hospital where I spent many sorry years -hahah. Not sure about that. Its there(Temple Street Children's Hospital) where I learned of my fate ie the Hepatitis B, (That I still continuously get judged on - most recent was that time the guy said "Nah your grand"). I'm told Its there I got vaccinated for to get into Ireland from Romania and hence I was diagnosed with Hepatitis B(Thou I wasn't told til the age of 25 when I was using sex as a coping mechanism with the homophobia. I was told by the Gay Men Health Clinic here in Dublin). By law I should have been told when I turned 18. But my "sensitivity" was an issue. Which is a load of bull. Here I was having sex with guys, NOT knowing I could have passed it onto them, like I did have Bareback on 2 occasions. Once was a HIV Health Scare. Twas a scary 3 months like Rose Nylon on Golden Girls(cept the episode made it for 72hrs - but reality its actually 3 months(Well Ireland anyways). I'd wander at times, why they haven't beaten me up or whatever. It's a strong possibility I'll have to get same for USA as well. What great memories I have of this hospital. My sis' chin was in bits after my so called "friend" from my Elementary School pushed her off the bike, something like that. Where my willy got caught in the zipper. Where my "juice" was NOT being cleaned by a young handsome(NOTTTT) Georgian ie Me, and hence got infected or whatever. Everytime I wank or get a hardon or even a bulge and hence don't clean my "Juice" off the willy, I get an awful pain. Back in those days, I never knew what the word "Juice" was or wanking etc., Thinking about, does it make sens a young lad of early teens can have a wank or bulge or whatever??? If so It proves that I was gay or I WAS BORN GAY to all those Str8 Naysayers. I would have been in my early teens, when I was getting bulges or whatever from looking at those fine things, esp the bully whom I saw in his tighty whities. mmmmm. So I ended up in Hospital. I remember the nurse cleaning the willy with a tissue, it hurt like a bitch.
Now the above paragraph, just goes to show, that my memory is slowly coming back hahaha of the good auld days, of my youth. Shortly I will be publishing my youth pics of myself obviously. hehehe. Now I did tell my Aunt(Nun) at our last meetup relating to me not remembering my youth. These things takes time.
I then continued on my journey on the way home. I hopped into Spar to see if they have ALMOND. I intend changing over to ALMOND ever since I was told that too much soya for MEN, gives far too much estrogen and Man Boobs, which I have noticed of late on me. Obv they ain't noticeable to the naked eye, but I too see a fraction of it. Its gonna be slightly expensive. As Lidls or Aldis DON'T sell any of it. I popped into Tescos to get Vegan Butter. But as they didn't have it, I jsut got some salad for myself. I then set about continuing on my track. As I was on my travels, I was seeing people and kept saying to myself wow ain't he/she splitting image of a person. Namely Berni Woods(Mark Woods adopted mother, she adopted him from Romania(BUT as a baby)); a bank staff in Drumcondra branch. etc., et.c, This happened a few times.
You all find that weird????Cause I do.
NEWS
Pope Francis has met with Survivors of the Clerical Child Sex Abuse. Out of 6, 2 came from Ireland.2 UK and 2 from Germany. Marie Collins who is a campaigner and abuse survivor assisted the 2 that came from Ireland. Marie Collins is a member of the Vatican's Child Protection Committee He "Humbly asks for Forgiveness"
Wednesday, 11 June 2014
Diary 10th June 2014
After my another hibernation, I got up first looking at yesterday's morning news. Then shortly afterwards I showered. Then I got a call from Mom saying Dad wanted to have a look at an email or something. So Mom collected me. I had a look at the the email that Dad was interested. As it happens Katie Moran had invited him to connect with her on LinkedIn. He also wanted to figure out the Awards from Bord Gais Energy his Gas provider. So I reset his password. We also looked up Springboard. Mom wants me to do a course to keep me occupied. Mom had mentioned that Kathleen was wanting to run after me. I had said to her, that no one was running after me. She said that she had stopped her in her tracks at the Kitchen by saying that he's probably gone around the corner.
So then afterwards, as I had yet to get my dole, Mom dropped me down to get it, I then went to the AIB to lodge my money in via the Numbers (ahem my Bank details, as I have lost my AIB Bank Card yet again. . So I've given up getting a replacement. So Ill just keep to the numbers. )that I got last week.
Shortly before I headed off to my sis, I was checking my notifications on Facebook and noticed that I had received a notification from some woman liking a post I had posted that I was watching Mrs. Brown's Boys on TVTag ON my Inflatables page NOT the Facebook Timeline where it should be going. So I investigated and to my surprise all the posts I have been liking with TV shows and even my Diary entries ie the Blogs from both Blogger and Wordpress were all going there. So I immedleity went onto IFTTT website and disable the Triggers or the Recipes or whatever. So I have turned off all Recipes. I tested it, and it still went onto my Inflatables. IFTTT is a wonderful site, it describes as "Getting the Internet to work for you". So for e.g Everytime I post a Blog post on Blogger, It automatically posts to my Facebook Timeline.
So as time was not on my side, I got myself ready for the sis' visit. Twas wonderful, to see her. We saw Rio 2 and Two and A Half Men(Ashton Kutcher). Oh and of course Mike & Molly. I don't really care for Kutcher's Episodes. However when I saw Jake(Aengus T Jones), I got really excited. Twas wonderful. However she reminded me that's older epsidoes. As int eh series he's gone to the Miliary. I was a bit sad. awwww.
So then I arrived home, with terrible aches and pains and possibly diaraoes coming around. I guessed either that my sis put dairy milk in my Tea by accident(duhhh) or most probable cause my Mom's CHEESE Quiche. I felt a bit tired etc., stomach cramps. So that's probably it. How am I gonna tell her, I don't want DAIRY. FULL STOP. SHE NEVER LISTENS. Like the State, when u have a knife in your back they will take u seriously. While I Was with my sis, it only occurred to me that it was possible that I had missed my appointment fo my Hep B Blood Test of which I go for every year. When I came back, I then noticed that it was actually 4th. I don't know what to do, or how I even forgotten about it. What excuse will I use this time round. hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm. I then continued on the investigation relating to my Inflatables getting my Posts from me Checkin to TV Shows etc., So then I noticed something, a bit of a pattern. In that all the posts that were going to my Inflatables were from Twitter. So then I went onto my Twitter account and noticed another investigative measure. I had enabled Posts to my Inflatables Page from Twitter. Cause everytime I had posted something on my Twitter account, they were all going to my Inflatables Page as well as my Timeline.
NEWS
Government of Ireland: Announces Inquiry of teh Mother and Babies Homes. Bishops apologise
Surviiros of the Ilfated Cork Crash in 2011 have been reliving the horrors by retelling in the Inquest. in which 6 passengers died.
Crew Members of the South Korean Ferry are on trial. Charged with Homicide with Willful Negligence
MH370 Australian talking Monitory now.
Apparently it is illegal to have sexual activiitys if you have an Intellectual Disablilty unless marriage. Criminlisises Sexual Actiivites betweeen poeple wioth INtellectural Disablity unelsss they are marraied to aone another. WOW, just wow. So you're telling me, people who DON'T have an intellectual disability are allowed to have sex, yet with INTELLECTUAL U can't?????
The Cook Report allegations of bugging on the Garda Ombudsman Commission, has been found no evidence
So then afterwards, as I had yet to get my dole, Mom dropped me down to get it, I then went to the AIB to lodge my money in via the Numbers (ahem my Bank details, as I have lost my AIB Bank Card yet again. . So I've given up getting a replacement. So Ill just keep to the numbers. )that I got last week.
Shortly before I headed off to my sis, I was checking my notifications on Facebook and noticed that I had received a notification from some woman liking a post I had posted that I was watching Mrs. Brown's Boys on TVTag ON my Inflatables page NOT the Facebook Timeline where it should be going. So I investigated and to my surprise all the posts I have been liking with TV shows and even my Diary entries ie the Blogs from both Blogger and Wordpress were all going there. So I immedleity went onto IFTTT website and disable the Triggers or the Recipes or whatever. So I have turned off all Recipes. I tested it, and it still went onto my Inflatables. IFTTT is a wonderful site, it describes as "Getting the Internet to work for you". So for e.g Everytime I post a Blog post on Blogger, It automatically posts to my Facebook Timeline.
So as time was not on my side, I got myself ready for the sis' visit. Twas wonderful, to see her. We saw Rio 2 and Two and A Half Men(Ashton Kutcher). Oh and of course Mike & Molly. I don't really care for Kutcher's Episodes. However when I saw Jake(Aengus T Jones), I got really excited. Twas wonderful. However she reminded me that's older epsidoes. As int eh series he's gone to the Miliary. I was a bit sad. awwww.
So then I arrived home, with terrible aches and pains and possibly diaraoes coming around. I guessed either that my sis put dairy milk in my Tea by accident(duhhh) or most probable cause my Mom's CHEESE Quiche. I felt a bit tired etc., stomach cramps. So that's probably it. How am I gonna tell her, I don't want DAIRY. FULL STOP. SHE NEVER LISTENS. Like the State, when u have a knife in your back they will take u seriously. While I Was with my sis, it only occurred to me that it was possible that I had missed my appointment fo my Hep B Blood Test of which I go for every year. When I came back, I then noticed that it was actually 4th. I don't know what to do, or how I even forgotten about it. What excuse will I use this time round. hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm. I then continued on the investigation relating to my Inflatables getting my Posts from me Checkin to TV Shows etc., So then I noticed something, a bit of a pattern. In that all the posts that were going to my Inflatables were from Twitter. So then I went onto my Twitter account and noticed another investigative measure. I had enabled Posts to my Inflatables Page from Twitter. Cause everytime I had posted something on my Twitter account, they were all going to my Inflatables Page as well as my Timeline.
NEWS
Government of Ireland: Announces Inquiry of teh Mother and Babies Homes. Bishops apologise
Surviiros of the Ilfated Cork Crash in 2011 have been reliving the horrors by retelling in the Inquest. in which 6 passengers died.
Crew Members of the South Korean Ferry are on trial. Charged with Homicide with Willful Negligence
MH370 Australian talking Monitory now.
Apparently it is illegal to have sexual activiitys if you have an Intellectual Disablilty unless marriage. Criminlisises Sexual Actiivites betweeen poeple wioth INtellectural Disablity unelsss they are marraied to aone another. WOW, just wow. So you're telling me, people who DON'T have an intellectual disability are allowed to have sex, yet with INTELLECTUAL U can't?????
The Cook Report allegations of bugging on the Garda Ombudsman Commission, has been found no evidence
Friday, 30 May 2014
Diary 29th May 2014
Today I was due to get up for about 3ish so that I can put the money in for the Rent Bill. I got up at 1 and sorry that I didn't stay up. However I was tired and groggy and I wouldn't mind that I went to bed earlier yesterday, still I failed to get up for 3ish. Instead, I saw the red light, that was helping me to gauge when to get up. But that didn't help as it was actually recording the 6.1 News and NOT forgetting Knots Landing. I was so pissed with myself. I rang my sis immediately, to let her know my status. I was meeting her to get my Poddy(Oh boy, have I missed you). Then meeting O' Farrell for the film. So I dropped my sis half way down to her gaf, where her fiance is. For privacy reasons, I cannot divulge her location and of course reasons for reasons of Mental Bullying by the folks. So after that, I headed onto meet Brendan. HOPING to god he was still there. I had my music of which I was delighted with. I had missed it so much. Music is my life.
So then I met O' Farrell. Was delighted to see him. We chatted for a bit before the film.
Maleficent. Review here. We then headed off after the film, to his bus. On the way we stopped into McDonalds had a chat. Twas wonderful chatting about my sexing days to him. I had used sex at the time to cope with homophobia. So now that I'm on the bandwagon, why can't I bring myself. It don't help when I have to bring up the Hep B, like considering it ain't that bad. Even if I had HIV which thank god I don't, SAFETY is a key concern to me. Yet stigma is still there. So afterwards, I headed on home.
Finally Marian Harkin returning MEP has been re elected. Congratulations. Delighted for you.
275 votes ahead and a full recheck of over 64000 got underwear yesterday. On my way home, thou, I received a horrific fright. I thought they were gonna attack me. Well actually it was a woman, might I add a pregnant woman. I was listening to my music, as I said it is my life. Or as some would say: "Music is my life". Well as I said, I was listening to my music, she approached me and tapped me on my shoulder. No one can imagine the fright I got. Its indescribable. I replied to her "You frightened the shite out of me(me continuously repeating)" saying nearly shouting the street down to the point that people well cars, nearly was stopping to see what was going on.
I was over the moon to learn that Marian Harkin because the last person to get re-eelcted to MEP.
The following are the Stats for all the Party s in the Republic of Ireland who have been elected to European Parliament:
11 Seats
FG 3
SF 3
IND 4
FF 1
FF Cope conceeded
3 Labour TDs have announced their candidacy for their Deputy Positions: Following are the TDs
Jnr. Alan Kelly
Jnr. Sean Sherlock
Michael McCarthy
Alex White due to declare for Leader of the Labour Party.
Apple purchases BEATS for $3BN. acquiring because of its Music Streaming service. to compete Spotifly and Dr. Drey has 3 sep companies in Ireland. iTunes service has been decreasing in numbers due to the rise of Music Streaming services etc., such as Spotify, Pandora, etc.,
Three's acquisition of O2 is confirmed by the Commission of Communication of Europe. They have allowed the acquisition of fears of competition decreasing and prices being hiked up. However the European Commission is so far happy with the plans.
The whsitleblower controversy has rosen up again. This time, with the mistreatment that Sgt, Maurice McCabe has been getting.
So then I met O' Farrell. Was delighted to see him. We chatted for a bit before the film.
Maleficent. Review here. We then headed off after the film, to his bus. On the way we stopped into McDonalds had a chat. Twas wonderful chatting about my sexing days to him. I had used sex at the time to cope with homophobia. So now that I'm on the bandwagon, why can't I bring myself. It don't help when I have to bring up the Hep B, like considering it ain't that bad. Even if I had HIV which thank god I don't, SAFETY is a key concern to me. Yet stigma is still there. So afterwards, I headed on home.
Finally Marian Harkin returning MEP has been re elected. Congratulations. Delighted for you.
275 votes ahead and a full recheck of over 64000 got underwear yesterday. On my way home, thou, I received a horrific fright. I thought they were gonna attack me. Well actually it was a woman, might I add a pregnant woman. I was listening to my music, as I said it is my life. Or as some would say: "Music is my life". Well as I said, I was listening to my music, she approached me and tapped me on my shoulder. No one can imagine the fright I got. Its indescribable. I replied to her "You frightened the shite out of me(me continuously repeating)" saying nearly shouting the street down to the point that people well cars, nearly was stopping to see what was going on.
I was over the moon to learn that Marian Harkin because the last person to get re-eelcted to MEP.
The following are the Stats for all the Party s in the Republic of Ireland who have been elected to European Parliament:
11 Seats
FG 3
SF 3
IND 4
FF 1
FF Cope conceeded
3 Labour TDs have announced their candidacy for their Deputy Positions: Following are the TDs
Jnr. Alan Kelly
Jnr. Sean Sherlock
Michael McCarthy
Alex White due to declare for Leader of the Labour Party.
Apple purchases BEATS for $3BN. acquiring because of its Music Streaming service. to compete Spotifly and Dr. Drey has 3 sep companies in Ireland. iTunes service has been decreasing in numbers due to the rise of Music Streaming services etc., such as Spotify, Pandora, etc.,
Three's acquisition of O2 is confirmed by the Commission of Communication of Europe. They have allowed the acquisition of fears of competition decreasing and prices being hiked up. However the European Commission is so far happy with the plans.
The whsitleblower controversy has rosen up again. This time, with the mistreatment that Sgt, Maurice McCabe has been getting.
Tuesday, 13 May 2014
Diary 13th May 2014
After a nice night of sleep with the exception of course me thinking having a wet dream, it was actually my bladder gave out. This has happened slightly too many times with in the recent weeks. So when I got up after the events, I went to check the post. and I noticed that I got something by way of a gift from the Government of Ireland(well Local Authority). Am talking about, I got my Voting Card, required to place my vote in the upcoming Local and European Elections. I was delighted as I kept checking the site and the site kept failing to show that my details had been registered. Eitherway, am very happy.
So with that in mind, I headed to An Post to get my weekly payment on a nice and lovely sunny day. Then afterwards, I headed to RYan's Hardware to get my new Laundry Basket(Wicker). I headed to Scribbles to top up my O2 Money. I really miss getting my Inflatables. My inflatables want me and love me. No one wants me for sexually. Ever since that guy back in early April said "No thanks", I have lost my view of sex well in Ireland. Perhaps in America they might be the same, I'll never know. Or they might be nice about it. As long as Protection is enforced, I don't mind. So instead I do teasing, that does it for me. Unfortunately I'll never have a blowjob, with another human being let alone a fuck. or even a solo wank with another human being. So then afterwards, I headed to Tescos with my Wicker basket in tow. My biceps were getting soar but bulging so I took my jumper off and felt very sexy. Its my intention to feel sexy. But actually having sex now that's a whole different ball game altogether. I then put things away from the shopping in Tescos.
I then made my way to the Mater Hospital Misercordiae(Love that name - the time I was in the Mater for my back problem, I asked a member of staff how you pronounce it. )My sis is in their due to mental illness abuse and that's only putting it likely. When I arrived at the new Wing of which I saw when I was cycling home one time. I arrived on time, however due to me getting lost in the new wing, I was getting frustrated. I went onto a lift, of which I eventually learned it was only for staff and it was refusing to take me to 5th floor where me sis is. So eventually a member of staff came to my aid when they were bringing a patient to a floor. So when I got off the 5th floor, I was getting even further frustrated in that I was actually in the WRONG wing. I wasn't able to gain access to some floor. So I was going up and down stairs, still trying. So when I was about to give up in that I was gonna text her(my sis) and tell her I'm running outta of patience, I asked a member of staff where is her ward. I was then told I was in the wrong section altogether. She's in the OLD ward and I was in the new ward. So eventually I found her hahah. We chatted. Its all we ever do. heheeh. I simply said to her, something has to be done. Like she's been ending in hospital or whatever for several weeks now. Which is quite out of the norm.
So with that in mind, I headed to An Post to get my weekly payment on a nice and lovely sunny day. Then afterwards, I headed to RYan's Hardware to get my new Laundry Basket(Wicker). I headed to Scribbles to top up my O2 Money. I really miss getting my Inflatables. My inflatables want me and love me. No one wants me for sexually. Ever since that guy back in early April said "No thanks", I have lost my view of sex well in Ireland. Perhaps in America they might be the same, I'll never know. Or they might be nice about it. As long as Protection is enforced, I don't mind. So instead I do teasing, that does it for me. Unfortunately I'll never have a blowjob, with another human being let alone a fuck. or even a solo wank with another human being. So then afterwards, I headed to Tescos with my Wicker basket in tow. My biceps were getting soar but bulging so I took my jumper off and felt very sexy. Its my intention to feel sexy. But actually having sex now that's a whole different ball game altogether. I then put things away from the shopping in Tescos.
I then made my way to the Mater Hospital Misercordiae(Love that name - the time I was in the Mater for my back problem, I asked a member of staff how you pronounce it. )My sis is in their due to mental illness abuse and that's only putting it likely. When I arrived at the new Wing of which I saw when I was cycling home one time. I arrived on time, however due to me getting lost in the new wing, I was getting frustrated. I went onto a lift, of which I eventually learned it was only for staff and it was refusing to take me to 5th floor where me sis is. So eventually a member of staff came to my aid when they were bringing a patient to a floor. So when I got off the 5th floor, I was getting even further frustrated in that I was actually in the WRONG wing. I wasn't able to gain access to some floor. So I was going up and down stairs, still trying. So when I was about to give up in that I was gonna text her(my sis) and tell her I'm running outta of patience, I asked a member of staff where is her ward. I was then told I was in the wrong section altogether. She's in the OLD ward and I was in the new ward. So eventually I found her hahah. We chatted. Its all we ever do. heheeh. I simply said to her, something has to be done. Like she's been ending in hospital or whatever for several weeks now. Which is quite out of the norm.
Sunday, 11 May 2014
Diary 11th May 2014
I got up without hesitation. Slightly on the groggy side, but nothing major to the report.
I was looking at the news. When I started to get the cramps and then the diarrhea that I have been having for the past few days due to possibly the Lactose Intolerance or perhaps the severe stress I was under in the dreams I was having the week gone past. So eitherway I made my way over my sis.
We were the whole night listening to a recording she had made while her Aunt(Nun) was visiting her. Some points of which I shall be making were quite disturbing to hear. Throughout the recording, I kept hearing the kettle going off. I had understood she was boiling the kettle and then getting a cuppa. But actually she was forgetting to get the cuppa tea. If found that hilarious. hahaah. My folks had expressed an interested in a grand child by my sis meeting someone no matter her gender. But the only problem is as I understand that anyone who has a Mental Illness or Disorder, their child may be taken off them. The person must have been psychiatric in the clear for a minimum of 10yrs. However that said, it is with great regret, that she won't' be able to bear a child because of the mental torture she has been receiving over the years. So its quite ironic to say alrite. Maureen on the recording states that the withdrawing from her life n dat of the folks too would help her in overcome the problems. This by far is the worse that I found disturbing. Considering we've been in their lives for 22 yrs almost. And to say good bye. Best wishes. I compare it to a relationship. The fact of the matter is that don't want to acknowledge any wrongdoing. It would actually be worse in my opinion.
Then towards the end of the recording, when she was going up the steps and going back in from the car(Mom had popped down to her while Maureen(Nun) was there) twas not bad an idea of hearing on the recording her footsteps, going up the steps, closing the main door, closing her own flat door etc.,.
So before I left, she asked which aspects did I find disturbing, and I said the above are the points I found quite distressing. In particular the aspect where Maureen was under the illusion to just say good bye and not hold accountable. Then before we dispersed I had mentioned to her that my friend Todd, had mentioned that I possibly got Hepatitis B via an STD aka a sexual assault in the orphanage. He has mentioned this in the past.
Now while also listening to the recording, I was at the same time trying to install Foursquare. As on my home screen, the icon that was on the homescreen was dimmed out as much to say that the Foursquare app is either not installed or the SD Card isn't mounted properly. I usually move the apps to the SD card. I restarted the phone to ensure the SD Card was mounted. Still failed to get it to work. So then I went into my App Drawer and it was still dim. So I was left baffling. This has happened in the past to other apps. I tried reinstalling via Play Store. Several attempts were made but failed all attempts. So I did a quick Google search. And I was recommended to uninstall the app, and try again. Of which I did. And eventually it got installed.
I was looking at the news. When I started to get the cramps and then the diarrhea that I have been having for the past few days due to possibly the Lactose Intolerance or perhaps the severe stress I was under in the dreams I was having the week gone past. So eitherway I made my way over my sis.
We were the whole night listening to a recording she had made while her Aunt(Nun) was visiting her. Some points of which I shall be making were quite disturbing to hear. Throughout the recording, I kept hearing the kettle going off. I had understood she was boiling the kettle and then getting a cuppa. But actually she was forgetting to get the cuppa tea. If found that hilarious. hahaah. My folks had expressed an interested in a grand child by my sis meeting someone no matter her gender. But the only problem is as I understand that anyone who has a Mental Illness or Disorder, their child may be taken off them. The person must have been psychiatric in the clear for a minimum of 10yrs. However that said, it is with great regret, that she won't' be able to bear a child because of the mental torture she has been receiving over the years. So its quite ironic to say alrite. Maureen on the recording states that the withdrawing from her life n dat of the folks too would help her in overcome the problems. This by far is the worse that I found disturbing. Considering we've been in their lives for 22 yrs almost. And to say good bye. Best wishes. I compare it to a relationship. The fact of the matter is that don't want to acknowledge any wrongdoing. It would actually be worse in my opinion.
Then towards the end of the recording, when she was going up the steps and going back in from the car(Mom had popped down to her while Maureen(Nun) was there) twas not bad an idea of hearing on the recording her footsteps, going up the steps, closing the main door, closing her own flat door etc.,.
So before I left, she asked which aspects did I find disturbing, and I said the above are the points I found quite distressing. In particular the aspect where Maureen was under the illusion to just say good bye and not hold accountable. Then before we dispersed I had mentioned to her that my friend Todd, had mentioned that I possibly got Hepatitis B via an STD aka a sexual assault in the orphanage. He has mentioned this in the past.
Now while also listening to the recording, I was at the same time trying to install Foursquare. As on my home screen, the icon that was on the homescreen was dimmed out as much to say that the Foursquare app is either not installed or the SD Card isn't mounted properly. I usually move the apps to the SD card. I restarted the phone to ensure the SD Card was mounted. Still failed to get it to work. So then I went into my App Drawer and it was still dim. So I was left baffling. This has happened in the past to other apps. I tried reinstalling via Play Store. Several attempts were made but failed all attempts. So I did a quick Google search. And I was recommended to uninstall the app, and try again. Of which I did. And eventually it got installed.
Thursday, 10 April 2014
Diary 10th April 2014
As part of my nightly schedule of my phone cleanup, I end all tasks, clear memory and finally use a Battery App(DU Battery Saver), to ensure optimistcity of Battery. Then I just so happen to look at my notification bar and saw that my clock or alarm App icon had been disabled ie not showing. So could this be the reason why I fail to get up in time in the past, ie alarm not going off. hmmm says Stanescu. So tongiht when I go off, I'll try just the basics ie Clear Memory and End Tasks.
Well today being a quiet day, My first job was to try and get contact to the Mater hospital regarding my Hep B Appt I missed yesterday due to the alarm, still not working.
So after failing to reach them, I just went ahead and showered. Then afterwards, I was listening to Music videos. Gawd be the days of listening to the Oldies. love em to bits.
As today was a quiet day, I didn't do much. I did however went along to see Noah on me own. I dropped my friend's birthday card which was actually last Sunday, but with me being late for dropping the card in I failed to drop in the card. E.g I was suppose to bring the card along with me to give to him, when I met him last week for the cinema. I was also last week when I failed to bring it with me to him last week at the cinema, was suppose to drop it by him while on my way to Cineworld. His cinema is Odeon as its clsoer to him. So eventually I dropped by with the card. Then I made my way to Cineworld. While I was getting my ticket, they were playing Let It Go(Idina Menzeal) in the box office area. Twas most wonderful to hear it again. The staff was getting giddy aka happy. It was the song that really helped me to move on from the homophobia. Its an impressive movie, no doubt. What was going through my mind in the film, was My Aunty(Nun) would love it. She could explain what is true and what is not true in the Bible. Then I basically got another understanding of the movie. The Bible version I ain't sure. But the movie states, that God wanted Animals, and Birds to leave leaving NO man alive after the flood. It also stated int he movie, that God gives you the strength when one of the character stated I need animal and or cannibalism to live ie to have strength. I said to myself, technically NO. I'm a vegetarian turning vegan. I'm still here after almost 2 years of vegetarianism ie no meat or dairy products in my system. I'm currently living on SOya, and plant based food. So technically Meat eaters don't need Meat to live. So far I've seen the movie 3 times. All that goes trhoguh me mind is one word: QUESTIONS. Like Did God REALLY want to kill women, Did God want animal eaters etc., etc.,
So then after the film I says to meself, nahhhh I won't bother bringing my Aunty along.
Throughout the day several things have been going through my mind, in particular after yesterday's wonderful evening I had with Brendan O' F. That its possible that I could be falling for him.
Then antoehr idea, that was going through me head, nahhh don't wanna move to NY. But the bf thing is a big major problem.
Then antoehr idea, would be that everytime I listen to 2010 music video esp Gaga's Bad Romance and Alejandro etc., the likes of these vids, remind me of my ex. Of which I have been thinking of late.
Well today being a quiet day, My first job was to try and get contact to the Mater hospital regarding my Hep B Appt I missed yesterday due to the alarm, still not working.
So after failing to reach them, I just went ahead and showered. Then afterwards, I was listening to Music videos. Gawd be the days of listening to the Oldies. love em to bits.
As today was a quiet day, I didn't do much. I did however went along to see Noah on me own. I dropped my friend's birthday card which was actually last Sunday, but with me being late for dropping the card in I failed to drop in the card. E.g I was suppose to bring the card along with me to give to him, when I met him last week for the cinema. I was also last week when I failed to bring it with me to him last week at the cinema, was suppose to drop it by him while on my way to Cineworld. His cinema is Odeon as its clsoer to him. So eventually I dropped by with the card. Then I made my way to Cineworld. While I was getting my ticket, they were playing Let It Go(Idina Menzeal) in the box office area. Twas most wonderful to hear it again. The staff was getting giddy aka happy. It was the song that really helped me to move on from the homophobia. Its an impressive movie, no doubt. What was going through my mind in the film, was My Aunty(Nun) would love it. She could explain what is true and what is not true in the Bible. Then I basically got another understanding of the movie. The Bible version I ain't sure. But the movie states, that God wanted Animals, and Birds to leave leaving NO man alive after the flood. It also stated int he movie, that God gives you the strength when one of the character stated I need animal and or cannibalism to live ie to have strength. I said to myself, technically NO. I'm a vegetarian turning vegan. I'm still here after almost 2 years of vegetarianism ie no meat or dairy products in my system. I'm currently living on SOya, and plant based food. So technically Meat eaters don't need Meat to live. So far I've seen the movie 3 times. All that goes trhoguh me mind is one word: QUESTIONS. Like Did God REALLY want to kill women, Did God want animal eaters etc., etc.,
So then after the film I says to meself, nahhhh I won't bother bringing my Aunty along.
Throughout the day several things have been going through my mind, in particular after yesterday's wonderful evening I had with Brendan O' F. That its possible that I could be falling for him.
Then antoehr idea, that was going through me head, nahhh don't wanna move to NY. But the bf thing is a big major problem.
Then antoehr idea, would be that everytime I listen to 2010 music video esp Gaga's Bad Romance and Alejandro etc., the likes of these vids, remind me of my ex. Of which I have been thinking of late.
Wednesday, 9 April 2014
Diary 9th April 2014
PS This post contains NSFW material.
This is one strange dream I've been having whereby its dark. I am in a house whereby i come across a guy. Then I come across this series of paintings. The one at the end is painted where the guy is jerking off. In my mind he's jerking off for real as if in front me, ie animated. Then it reaches climax and I get the brunt of it. Whereby the cums stings my eyes etc ie like a fountain., I wake up in a fright. And think to myself did I just have a wet dream. There is no evidence. So i says to myself, what the hell just happened. It would appear that I lost control of the bladder. This has happened in the past and not only that the dream scene I just described, I vaguely recall being there in the past as well. I don't know whats going on as regards the bladder.
I left my Lappy on last night to finish off a Johnny Toruqe Collection porn download. I think he's gay. He's a hottie eitherway. But because of Lappy being left on, the screen was keeping me awake. I had an appointment this morning for 11. I didn't get to sleep til about 6. I went at half 3 to bed and tried sleeping for 3.5 hours. But because of this, I failed to attend my appointment. I was so pissed off with mself. I had got up at 11.10. Which was obviously too late to do anything. So I jsut stayed on in bed. Then I woke up eveutally around half 5 to a raught of missed phonecalls, Mom, Mom's neighbor(Bob) - advise on the Microsoft situation. He has a Windows XP laptop of which no more Windows Updates will be released for the operating system. This was announced yesterday(8th April). I have announced to the family that I will be getting out of the PC Industry. And pursue a different career. So I won't be returning Bob's call. and of course a missed call from Brendan O' F. When I saw Mom's missed call I could swear she was gonna get me to ring back Bob. She did call down to me to give me a Chinese. Ever since the Chinese I have been living in the bathroom. Either too much soya or something. Does anyone know if their cow's milk in Soya sauce for the rice?
Initially I was suppose to meet Brendan for the half 5 showing of Muppets Most Wanted. HOwever he was one of as I said many missed calls. He explained that it ain't on at half 5. Which I found bizzare.
We were then suppose to see the 8pm showing of Noah. So when I went to get the ticket, I was advised that this is the iMax version of the movie. I was left puzzeled. However that said, I expressed its a waste of money to have a iMAX 2D version. If its 3D then, no problem. Sure the 2D version we saw was as good enoguh as it is. So then Brendan had to come down to get the ticket refuneded and corrected. It was foudn in the end that he was told taht both 9.10 and 8pm showings were the iMAX version. So in the end after getting the tiems right, we went to book the 9.10 showing.
Afterwards I met Brendan O' F in the end. We had a lovely wonderful and hearty chat. Various issues between Hep B status, my family as in acceptance of a boyfriend(what a face he portrayed). I explained that I can't EVER have a boyfriend over in Ireland EVER, as they are just far too judgmental. I went onto to explain that they DESTROYED my ex. Now he's apparently moved on with his life. But no doubt that there are some scars their. I then explained that my folk's MINUS my sis are like a magnet. He said well what if you just get a bf over here, WITHOUT telling them. I said that would probably work EXCEPT that they'd go out of there way to find out about him, OR bully my sis into finding out who George is going out with OR if not, just pop down to me while fucking my bf or just laying side by side. EITHERWAY THEY'S JUST A MAGNET. WE then moved onto the historic President's Visit State Visit tot eh UK. I asked him what are his views. He admitted that he wants a UNITED Ireland, like I do. He also said that his party Fine Gael are of the view that they maybe running elections up in the North of Ireland aka Northern Ireland.
So we just then headed into the film. Ahem - Noah that is. hahaha. As I had missed the beginning of it last Sunday with the Cineworld Craicheads.
This is one strange dream I've been having whereby its dark. I am in a house whereby i come across a guy. Then I come across this series of paintings. The one at the end is painted where the guy is jerking off. In my mind he's jerking off for real as if in front me, ie animated. Then it reaches climax and I get the brunt of it. Whereby the cums stings my eyes etc ie like a fountain., I wake up in a fright. And think to myself did I just have a wet dream. There is no evidence. So i says to myself, what the hell just happened. It would appear that I lost control of the bladder. This has happened in the past and not only that the dream scene I just described, I vaguely recall being there in the past as well. I don't know whats going on as regards the bladder.
I left my Lappy on last night to finish off a Johnny Toruqe Collection porn download. I think he's gay. He's a hottie eitherway. But because of Lappy being left on, the screen was keeping me awake. I had an appointment this morning for 11. I didn't get to sleep til about 6. I went at half 3 to bed and tried sleeping for 3.5 hours. But because of this, I failed to attend my appointment. I was so pissed off with mself. I had got up at 11.10. Which was obviously too late to do anything. So I jsut stayed on in bed. Then I woke up eveutally around half 5 to a raught of missed phonecalls, Mom, Mom's neighbor(Bob) - advise on the Microsoft situation. He has a Windows XP laptop of which no more Windows Updates will be released for the operating system. This was announced yesterday(8th April). I have announced to the family that I will be getting out of the PC Industry. And pursue a different career. So I won't be returning Bob's call. and of course a missed call from Brendan O' F. When I saw Mom's missed call I could swear she was gonna get me to ring back Bob. She did call down to me to give me a Chinese. Ever since the Chinese I have been living in the bathroom. Either too much soya or something. Does anyone know if their cow's milk in Soya sauce for the rice?
Initially I was suppose to meet Brendan for the half 5 showing of Muppets Most Wanted. HOwever he was one of as I said many missed calls. He explained that it ain't on at half 5. Which I found bizzare.
We were then suppose to see the 8pm showing of Noah. So when I went to get the ticket, I was advised that this is the iMax version of the movie. I was left puzzeled. However that said, I expressed its a waste of money to have a iMAX 2D version. If its 3D then, no problem. Sure the 2D version we saw was as good enoguh as it is. So then Brendan had to come down to get the ticket refuneded and corrected. It was foudn in the end that he was told taht both 9.10 and 8pm showings were the iMAX version. So in the end after getting the tiems right, we went to book the 9.10 showing.
Afterwards I met Brendan O' F in the end. We had a lovely wonderful and hearty chat. Various issues between Hep B status, my family as in acceptance of a boyfriend(what a face he portrayed). I explained that I can't EVER have a boyfriend over in Ireland EVER, as they are just far too judgmental. I went onto to explain that they DESTROYED my ex. Now he's apparently moved on with his life. But no doubt that there are some scars their. I then explained that my folk's MINUS my sis are like a magnet. He said well what if you just get a bf over here, WITHOUT telling them. I said that would probably work EXCEPT that they'd go out of there way to find out about him, OR bully my sis into finding out who George is going out with OR if not, just pop down to me while fucking my bf or just laying side by side. EITHERWAY THEY'S JUST A MAGNET. WE then moved onto the historic President's Visit State Visit tot eh UK. I asked him what are his views. He admitted that he wants a UNITED Ireland, like I do. He also said that his party Fine Gael are of the view that they maybe running elections up in the North of Ireland aka Northern Ireland.
So we just then headed into the film. Ahem - Noah that is. hahaha. As I had missed the beginning of it last Sunday with the Cineworld Craicheads.
Tuesday, 8 April 2014
Diary 8th April 2014
Shortly before I went to sleep, I decided outta me head to have a look at the storage space. And to my surprise I noted that it was less than a GB(to be precise 612MB). I found this quite disheartening. Says I to mseself, the device needs minimum 1GB to operate smoothly. So I opened up File App to see if there was photos store on it, instead of the SD. Its the number one reason I bought an SD card afterall. So I continued on investigating. I then opened up the Gallery App. I saw 30 pics I had taken of meself stored on the device. I then said it couldn't take that much. So I opened up Camera360 and Camera apps to find out where are the pics being stored. I was still baffled as to how this could have happened. It was found dat my backup App: AppSaver does not save backups to SD BUT to local which don't make sense. I'll have to contact the developer to see if there is a way for to save backups to SD. After all if I loose the device or have to factory reset. I'll have to redownload. Which currently is so painful. I'm still reinstalling my device after several months.
So afterwards I headed to sleep then I woke up after a few hours sleep to a busy day.
I first headed to the Post Office per normal. The clerk asked me if I was putting money into my bank. She mistakened my passport to be that of the bank card. I explained AGAIN, that it has taken to the highseas.
So as a result I've had to go to the bank. Not my favorite if you ask me. But who is???? So I produced my passport to lodge my money.
So then I headed back home. Getting ready to see my sis as per usual. She asked that I get her a few things.
I then headed onto my sis. I first headed to Centra as I got a text(SMS) from them telling me that Pepsi Max is only .50c. I asked that they scan my Centra Reward card be scanned. They said they don't do it anymore. In fact they haven't for along time. I think months she said. I said that's quite strange as I got a text from them. So we left it at that. A lady in front of me, elderly if I can recall, dropped something. Clearly she didn't hear me calling after her. The clerk sales told me don't worry about it.
I then proceeded to Tescos to get a few things for me sis. I got a few stuff for myself. U could betcha my biceps were quite large, wit the weight of the products. I dropped one of them. But it was just porridge. Course no one helped. No surprised. There was a time, you would actually go out of your way to pick up something. Oh no. Tooooo proud to keep their nickers up. (FEELING FRUSTRATED).
So I eventually arrived at my sis place. We chatted n chatted. Looked at Two and A Half Men, Everybody Loves Raymond(aaaaah Memories) and Mike and Molly. I was sorry to see her in so much pain from her womanhood problems(you all know what I mean - wink wink). So I helped out making cups of teas.
So afterwards, I headed on home. As I have an appointment for my liver(Hep B), I shall be heading to bed early. I'm currently looking at the news. I shall be doing another photo shoot of by bits. heeheheh(shhhh I won't tell if you won't)
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