Well today wasn't too bad. heheeh.
I first went to the Horticulture course, I was trialing as found out yesterday at the ICRG of where I was looking for. hahaha. I then headed onto the garden, which when I arrived, I joined a group of other people to listen in to identifying Weeds etc., One thing that really bothered me thou was that there was another class which is a year ahead of me, they were screaming, etc.,e tc.,, so I couldn't concentrate as such. So I began to rethink my options, of which was to do the computing, considering I am subscribed to Android blogs etc., so I still not sure. I'll get there, there's still hope and life in the old dog. haahah.
So then after the HortiCulture course, I headed onto get the Translation from +Word Perfect Translations in Ormond Quay, and then onto +An Post to find out what does "At" mean on the Postal Money Order form mean.
Then I went onto Mom and Dad's. We had a dinner, then I went to the Solicitor to go and get my Translation Certified as required for the Application. When I went their, it was found that I needed my Original Birth Certificate as ALSO requested by the State.
NEWS
It has been confirmed that the piece found off the coast of Réunion Island, Indonesia, is that of the missing plane the MH370. Flight Number MH370 was bound for Beijing traveling from Kualampur, So after 515???? Days, of the missing plane, hopes for the relatives of those missing has been improved.
Jonathan Irwin, who founded the Jack & Jill Foundation, has withdrew from Rénua in running hte next General Election, for health reasons.
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Wednesday, 5 August 2015
Tuesday, 7 October 2014
Diary 7th October 2014
So I continued sleeping. Had somequite but scary dreams.
I'm going to the Outhouse, as I near it, I realise I forgot something. So I had to go back to my gaf. When I come back, I see Maureen my Aunt(Nun). She let herself, haahah. Then I told her of my self harm and also NOT to mention Relatives ie Mulligans, Dots etc., The tears that came out of her eyes. I mean like the thickest tears I've ever seen. By thick, they were cylindrical in shape as they fell. You'd swear a pipe was coming out. Thats the shape I saw. Quite freaky alrite.
Another: I'm with my sis up in our house where we were raised. I look out the window and see Mary Doherty(Eileen's(My mom's sis) daughter), pull up in the Kelly's drive way(Kelly's being the CURRENT neighbors of my folks). Likewise on the other side, I see some activity. I'm looking out the window in my old bedroom. As I've still relationship problems, with the relatives, I go in next door with my sis, BUT I get the nervs. So in a last ditch effort, I hop out the window like a kangaroo and escape. I had seen someone moving behind the curtains and movement, made me uneasi. So I just had to get out. So then I realsie, when I went back up to my room and look out the window, I see it was someone else they were welcoming or giving a surprise.
Then shortly afterwards, I repost a phrase I saw on my FB recently, that UNIVERSAL Facts: That if someone appears in your dreams, that means that person MISSES you. I put this to my sis later on, and she says it means that I've to patch things up with that person.
I'm in a flood that has taken the whole apt. I try and poor Sammy ontop Fridge, likewise Patch ontop wardrobe. The flood gets high. In that I'm smothering ie drowning like that poor Filipino, who drowned in her Basement apt last year in Donnybrook. Am naked at my bay window and I loose consciousness. My mother looks frighteningly as she sees her son drowning. The Fire Brigade breaks me out. I regain consciousness. I grab my puppies who are soaking wet. The Fire Brigade team, tell me that I must let go of one. SO I let go of both. My heart is broken. I then relaise, I that I should have joined them, my puppies.
My Da is in bed NOT sleeping. I'm showering. The shower is beside him, literally. He times me cause of the water charge. He then stops the shower and pulls back the curtain. I of course pull it forward. I says "Hey, "I've yet to do me hair"
I'm in Kennedy's Pub where I used to work in Drumcondra. I haven't seen Gerry for awhile. To find out when roughly, I search for him in my Blog and to find out he ain't t here. As I started my blog in just under a year ago(Jan '14), I possibly haven't seen him since then. heheeh. He then invites me as always to say hello to George, n Eddie(Regular customers, I used to serve while working there). I says that I only hangout and go to Gay bars. He replies "Fucking faggot". I scream out balling crying. The boss Michael(who owns Kennedys of Drumcondra), is out side and notices somethings up. When he realsies why, he beats me up.
To prevent what happened on Sunday night, my folks come to pick me up. I don't wanna, due to Dad's attitude, from the American Cousins However, they have a spiral leg thing, that gets caught in my leg. They drag me back into the car. I yelp out for help. Someone takes pics. Me undergoing hardship, I misinterpret the person. And I yell to the person, "if anything happens to me", it'll be on your conscious. However I later learn, that the folks have been called in for questioning. They say "He's our son, we just wanted to give him a lift". The cops say, he maintains that he was "forced". Here's pics to proof. The cops says, "I don't see a person who has a spiral yolk as WANTING to be offered a lift". The cop continues, "Your both looking at life for this behavior".
Then I realsie after all this dreaming, that I was too late for my dole. So I just stayed on and slept. While sleeping thou, I was having terrible cramps in my legs.
On my way to my sis, I encountered Frank my landlord. He was most respectable to me. hehehe. He even asked how my sis was after her epileptic fit. As my sis said, he prob was having a bad day or something when I last saw him. heheh. I ain't sure. So then I headed on off to my sis for my weekly visit. As per usual had a great time. We watched Two and A Half Men and Golden Girls. Great. ehehehe.
NEWS
Former Minister of State at the Department of the Environment, Fergus O' Dowd TD, has hit back at Irish Water, with the way its being operated. He's questioned the need for PPS Numbers and their sheer ignorance. He says it "comes across as arrogant and uncaring" without properly explaining why they need PPS Numbers.
Dublin Airport Authority along with Irish Aviation Authority have BOTH been alerted by Ryanair, after BOTH aircraft came into contact with each other "slightly" scraped amongst each other. Both aircrafts, were being taxied to runway to headed to Brussells and Edinburgh Chareloi respectively. The winglet of one plane scraped the tale of the other aircraft.
I'm going to the Outhouse, as I near it, I realise I forgot something. So I had to go back to my gaf. When I come back, I see Maureen my Aunt(Nun). She let herself, haahah. Then I told her of my self harm and also NOT to mention Relatives ie Mulligans, Dots etc., The tears that came out of her eyes. I mean like the thickest tears I've ever seen. By thick, they were cylindrical in shape as they fell. You'd swear a pipe was coming out. Thats the shape I saw. Quite freaky alrite.
Another: I'm with my sis up in our house where we were raised. I look out the window and see Mary Doherty(Eileen's(My mom's sis) daughter), pull up in the Kelly's drive way(Kelly's being the CURRENT neighbors of my folks). Likewise on the other side, I see some activity. I'm looking out the window in my old bedroom. As I've still relationship problems, with the relatives, I go in next door with my sis, BUT I get the nervs. So in a last ditch effort, I hop out the window like a kangaroo and escape. I had seen someone moving behind the curtains and movement, made me uneasi. So I just had to get out. So then I realsie, when I went back up to my room and look out the window, I see it was someone else they were welcoming or giving a surprise.
Then shortly afterwards, I repost a phrase I saw on my FB recently, that UNIVERSAL Facts: That if someone appears in your dreams, that means that person MISSES you. I put this to my sis later on, and she says it means that I've to patch things up with that person.
I'm in a flood that has taken the whole apt. I try and poor Sammy ontop Fridge, likewise Patch ontop wardrobe. The flood gets high. In that I'm smothering ie drowning like that poor Filipino, who drowned in her Basement apt last year in Donnybrook. Am naked at my bay window and I loose consciousness. My mother looks frighteningly as she sees her son drowning. The Fire Brigade breaks me out. I regain consciousness. I grab my puppies who are soaking wet. The Fire Brigade team, tell me that I must let go of one. SO I let go of both. My heart is broken. I then relaise, I that I should have joined them, my puppies.
My Da is in bed NOT sleeping. I'm showering. The shower is beside him, literally. He times me cause of the water charge. He then stops the shower and pulls back the curtain. I of course pull it forward. I says "Hey, "I've yet to do me hair"
I'm in Kennedy's Pub where I used to work in Drumcondra. I haven't seen Gerry for awhile. To find out when roughly, I search for him in my Blog and to find out he ain't t here. As I started my blog in just under a year ago(Jan '14), I possibly haven't seen him since then. heheeh. He then invites me as always to say hello to George, n Eddie(Regular customers, I used to serve while working there). I says that I only hangout and go to Gay bars. He replies "Fucking faggot". I scream out balling crying. The boss Michael(who owns Kennedys of Drumcondra), is out side and notices somethings up. When he realsies why, he beats me up.
To prevent what happened on Sunday night, my folks come to pick me up. I don't wanna, due to Dad's attitude, from the American Cousins However, they have a spiral leg thing, that gets caught in my leg. They drag me back into the car. I yelp out for help. Someone takes pics. Me undergoing hardship, I misinterpret the person. And I yell to the person, "if anything happens to me", it'll be on your conscious. However I later learn, that the folks have been called in for questioning. They say "He's our son, we just wanted to give him a lift". The cops say, he maintains that he was "forced". Here's pics to proof. The cops says, "I don't see a person who has a spiral yolk as WANTING to be offered a lift". The cop continues, "Your both looking at life for this behavior".
Then I realsie after all this dreaming, that I was too late for my dole. So I just stayed on and slept. While sleeping thou, I was having terrible cramps in my legs.
On my way to my sis, I encountered Frank my landlord. He was most respectable to me. hehehe. He even asked how my sis was after her epileptic fit. As my sis said, he prob was having a bad day or something when I last saw him. heheh. I ain't sure. So then I headed on off to my sis for my weekly visit. As per usual had a great time. We watched Two and A Half Men and Golden Girls. Great. ehehehe.
NEWS
Former Minister of State at the Department of the Environment, Fergus O' Dowd TD, has hit back at Irish Water, with the way its being operated. He's questioned the need for PPS Numbers and their sheer ignorance. He says it "comes across as arrogant and uncaring" without properly explaining why they need PPS Numbers.
Dublin Airport Authority along with Irish Aviation Authority have BOTH been alerted by Ryanair, after BOTH aircraft came into contact with each other "slightly" scraped amongst each other. Both aircrafts, were being taxied to runway to headed to Brussells and Edinburgh Chareloi respectively. The winglet of one plane scraped the tale of the other aircraft.
Tuesday, 9 September 2014
Diary 8th September 2014
Well what a night it has been. I first got up at around 6ish after 2 half hour sleep. It was my first day at a course I had applied for a few weeks ago. Its called the Personal Development Course being held at the Outhouse. It is funded by the Dublin's Gay Switchboard and the Gay Men Health Service(The crowd that diagnosed me with Hepatitis B)
So I set about heading off on my first night course. I wasn't one bit nervous on the way. In fact, I was looking for the house that Yurean(The guy I met at the DublinFreeWHeelers event). I got talking to Yurean yesterday via WhatsApp. Now I ain't sure whether he knows am gay or whatever. But the fact that I had a profile pic of an undies pic? yeahhhhh. So he just gave me his house number. Which I don't quite understand. So Then I had actually passed it.
So anyways I arrived at Outhouse. I got my cuppa tea, as my breath was horrible. By cuppa tea, I actually mean Peppermint Green tea. And later on Raspberry Tea. Bernard then checked me into the list. I headed on up to the Red Room. There were about 13 or so others there. Dave the guy behind the counter was there too. So at least a familiar face. I was getting increasingly nervous, my heart pumping.
So then the two men Tony and .... were the two presenters. We the students(lightly put) were lsitening. Its a course that involves US. Our first exercise was to introduce ourselves and to tell them What would we like to get out of the course and how we heard about it. My example was all garbled. I literally said it in such a state that I was nonsensical. So what I told them and the group of course, was that Maureen(My aunt - the Nun one), had popped into the Outhouse when I was coming out at the time and had asked them that my nephew is having a hard time coming out, if they could recommend anything. They recommended this particular course. I misinterpreted as that they wanted me to go into Psychiatric care for being gay.
Our next item was a little game. Whereby we got into a circle, and CLOSING our eyes, that we just shout out numbers WITHOUT repeating. And if there was a repetition that we would move back out of the circle. now I GRAVE and GREAT difficulty in closing my eyes. I've never experienced such. Then again, when ever I'm told to close my eyes, I've always NOT been able to keep em closed. They some how always kept opening. But tonight, I was under severe stress and strain, in trying to keep em closed. Guys I never said or told anyone, that this course would be easy, in particularly my homophobia, MAY be rehased. I ain't sure. I've only done 1 class out of 6.
I loved the idea of the or the ananlgy of the "Fridge" conecpt. THey had a drawing board and "Fridge" papter. Whereby any ideas put on the the "Fridge" paper, that it would be revisisited the next class or wahtever.
Our next item was what was the group execteatin of the course.
Low self Esteem/ Confidence
Avoidance of Gay venues
Wreckless sex ie Boilerhouse
There was a guy there who lived in Oz, and enjoyed every moment of it gay wise. When he moved back to Ireland, he was gobsmacked. This particular guy developed Internalised Homophobia. So I guess even from writing this blog post, has thought me that I actually HAVE Internalised Homophobia. And I don't even say it. In my case it is in relating to the abuse I would have received in the past.
So we got onto a lighter form of the course ie POSITIVES of Being Gay
Some were congratulated for ENTERING a gay venue ie the Outhouse for the first time. I remember the time like it was yesterday, my first time going into a gay bar ON ME OWN. It was unreal. My heart pumping etc., etc., Especially going into the Outhouse. Wow was my heart not pumping. hahaha
So in the middle of the class, we were encouraged to go for a break. We all went down to the cafe. One of the class members Tom(I think), got talking to me. MY my, my confidence in TALKING to strangers like as in class members or etc., etc., BUY clearly I don't react too well to GROUP sessions etc., I did eventually come out of my shell. But talking to my peers in person to person was a cinch. So I then got talking to Richard who is a Filipino from Manila. I was most intrigued of is name. I thought his name was in a Filipino spelling BUT nope. He said its just on his Birth Cert. heheeh. So then we went back up to the room to do our last exercise, which I have outlined above. Then the class came to an end for week 1. Our first session was over. So we should be settling in quite well. hehehe. So I came back down with my Raspberry tea I got during the break to finish it off in the cafe. I bumped into Searson. Great to see him.
On the way back home, I came across Yurean's place. So then I noticed something funny with the numbering. In that Numbers 90 DOWN to 1 is on the same ROAD as 1 to 90 on the same side. BUT with a BIG difference. Summerhill Parade AND Ballybough Road on the same road. Quite Unusual at the very least on the Numbers aspect.
NEWS
Cardinal Sean Brady has stood down after Pope Francis accepted his resignation. He stood down over age grounds. His tenure has been overshadowed by controversy over the hiding of the Brendan Smith case. Archbishop Éamonn Martin now replaces Sean Brady and becomes the Roman Catholic Primate of All Ireland and Archbishop of Armagh.
Buckingham Palace has announced that the Duchess of Cambridge Kate Winslet is pregnant with a second child. I wish her the very of everything.
A young lad by the name Quaid CLeven has won an award for wanting the inclusion of EVERYONE when it comes to sign language. He wants everyone to use sign language, so that everyone "can communicate together ". He would like the Irish public to get starting on Sign Language so that the Deaf people can communicate as he puts it. Also would be ideal if the Late Late Toy Show would do the same. Thats his hopes.
RYanair have purchased for $11bn for 737 Max. It can accommodate more passengers, fuel efficient. And travel further too.
So I set about heading off on my first night course. I wasn't one bit nervous on the way. In fact, I was looking for the house that Yurean(The guy I met at the DublinFreeWHeelers event). I got talking to Yurean yesterday via WhatsApp. Now I ain't sure whether he knows am gay or whatever. But the fact that I had a profile pic of an undies pic? yeahhhhh. So he just gave me his house number. Which I don't quite understand. So Then I had actually passed it.
So anyways I arrived at Outhouse. I got my cuppa tea, as my breath was horrible. By cuppa tea, I actually mean Peppermint Green tea. And later on Raspberry Tea. Bernard then checked me into the list. I headed on up to the Red Room. There were about 13 or so others there. Dave the guy behind the counter was there too. So at least a familiar face. I was getting increasingly nervous, my heart pumping.
So then the two men Tony and .... were the two presenters. We the students(lightly put) were lsitening. Its a course that involves US. Our first exercise was to introduce ourselves and to tell them What would we like to get out of the course and how we heard about it. My example was all garbled. I literally said it in such a state that I was nonsensical. So what I told them and the group of course, was that Maureen(My aunt - the Nun one), had popped into the Outhouse when I was coming out at the time and had asked them that my nephew is having a hard time coming out, if they could recommend anything. They recommended this particular course. I misinterpreted as that they wanted me to go into Psychiatric care for being gay.
Our next item was a little game. Whereby we got into a circle, and CLOSING our eyes, that we just shout out numbers WITHOUT repeating. And if there was a repetition that we would move back out of the circle. now I GRAVE and GREAT difficulty in closing my eyes. I've never experienced such. Then again, when ever I'm told to close my eyes, I've always NOT been able to keep em closed. They some how always kept opening. But tonight, I was under severe stress and strain, in trying to keep em closed. Guys I never said or told anyone, that this course would be easy, in particularly my homophobia, MAY be rehased. I ain't sure. I've only done 1 class out of 6.
I loved the idea of the or the ananlgy of the "Fridge" conecpt. THey had a drawing board and "Fridge" papter. Whereby any ideas put on the the "Fridge" paper, that it would be revisisited the next class or wahtever.
Our next item was what was the group execteatin of the course.
- Sharing Experience
- Achieveing stronger of understanding of self interation with other men in group
- Feel happier amongst urself
- I contributed to this particaurlar item, whereby I said that if for whatever reason that I would be TRIGGERED, cuase I was on the verge of it. Consdiernign I had enoguh crap from my friends behavior last week etc., I didn't need anymore. E.g when I said the psychiatric e.g from my Aunt that was about to trigger me. So my point, would da course be able to curtail the triggers.
Next, What IS Personal Development.
Strive in Self Discovering. As my device(Sammy 2 where I was taking notes - was acting up), I missed a bit of this section of the class.
We were then asked to describe terms that relate to "Gay"/"Bisexual"
- Faggot(TOO Well Known to me - and everyone else hahaha)
- Steamer(Never heard of it)
- Shift lifter(Never heard of it)
- Cock Muncher(Never heard of it)
- TLDNS: The Love who dare not speak his name(Never heard of it - apparently its to do with Oscar Wilde)
- Friend
- ARse Bandit(Recently I was called this at Gay Pride 2014)
- Friend of Dorothy(more than likely referring to the film - The Wizard of Oz)
- Ponce(The Look/Non Word)(Never heard of it)
- Bum Snatcher(Never heard of it)
- Bitch
- Faghag(A friendly term of whereby a FEMALE is a companion to a gay man - VERY popular in the United States, kinda popular in Republic of Ireland. NOT sure about NI
Then onto DEFINITIONS of Internalised Homophobia. I found this to be of quite interesting.
Distance from Early Friendships(In my case - they chickened out)
Soften the blow of being attacked by calling the person who calls you name, the same name. E.g if a guy calls you faggot and YOU are gay, then you call him faggot, and it will diffuse the situation.
Low self Esteem/ Confidence
Avoidance of Gay venues
Wreckless sex ie Boilerhouse
There was a guy there who lived in Oz, and enjoyed every moment of it gay wise. When he moved back to Ireland, he was gobsmacked. This particular guy developed Internalised Homophobia. So I guess even from writing this blog post, has thought me that I actually HAVE Internalised Homophobia. And I don't even say it. In my case it is in relating to the abuse I would have received in the past.
So we got onto a lighter form of the course ie POSITIVES of Being Gay
- Meeting the wright person
- Learn more about your family and friends
- Love
- IN touch with your feelings
- can turn stereotypes
- Its OK if you look after your appearance
- I will survive
- Independent
- Beauty
- More wittier
- Aesthetic
- WE can be good talkers and listeners
- Better life
- Expressions Sexually
- Sexual health matters
- Open Minded
- Sensitive
- Tolerant
- Close Friends
- Motivation
So then at the very end of the course, we were all asked to give one word, some said They felt Younger when they came out of the course, others said they feel HAPPIER now. I said Very Intriguing and inquisitive of the course.
Some were congratulated for ENTERING a gay venue ie the Outhouse for the first time. I remember the time like it was yesterday, my first time going into a gay bar ON ME OWN. It was unreal. My heart pumping etc., etc., Especially going into the Outhouse. Wow was my heart not pumping. hahaha
So in the middle of the class, we were encouraged to go for a break. We all went down to the cafe. One of the class members Tom(I think), got talking to me. MY my, my confidence in TALKING to strangers like as in class members or etc., etc., BUY clearly I don't react too well to GROUP sessions etc., I did eventually come out of my shell. But talking to my peers in person to person was a cinch. So I then got talking to Richard who is a Filipino from Manila. I was most intrigued of is name. I thought his name was in a Filipino spelling BUT nope. He said its just on his Birth Cert. heheeh. So then we went back up to the room to do our last exercise, which I have outlined above. Then the class came to an end for week 1. Our first session was over. So we should be settling in quite well. hehehe. So I came back down with my Raspberry tea I got during the break to finish it off in the cafe. I bumped into Searson. Great to see him.
On the way back home, I came across Yurean's place. So then I noticed something funny with the numbering. In that Numbers 90 DOWN to 1 is on the same ROAD as 1 to 90 on the same side. BUT with a BIG difference. Summerhill Parade AND Ballybough Road on the same road. Quite Unusual at the very least on the Numbers aspect.
NEWS
Cardinal Sean Brady has stood down after Pope Francis accepted his resignation. He stood down over age grounds. His tenure has been overshadowed by controversy over the hiding of the Brendan Smith case. Archbishop Éamonn Martin now replaces Sean Brady and becomes the Roman Catholic Primate of All Ireland and Archbishop of Armagh.
Buckingham Palace has announced that the Duchess of Cambridge Kate Winslet is pregnant with a second child. I wish her the very of everything.
A young lad by the name Quaid CLeven has won an award for wanting the inclusion of EVERYONE when it comes to sign language. He wants everyone to use sign language, so that everyone "can communicate together ". He would like the Irish public to get starting on Sign Language so that the Deaf people can communicate as he puts it. Also would be ideal if the Late Late Toy Show would do the same. Thats his hopes.
RYanair have purchased for $11bn for 737 Max. It can accommodate more passengers, fuel efficient. And travel further too.
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