Diary 12th October 2015

Diary 12th October 2015

It was my intention to meet up with Maureen today. Now considering I wouldn't have slept  or whatever. This was my plan in terms of sleep. I would stay awake and look at TV etc., after the sleep out and then head to my sis etc., Then meet up with Maureen THEN go to bed to catch up on lost sleep. However it wasn't to be, as I was physically exhausted from the Mental Health protest/march as I was falling asleep at the computer while looking at the TV after I came home from the sleep out. aka the News. hahaha. So instead I went to sleep for a few hours last night and then to my sis, as per schedule. So I cancelled Maudy yesterday and I'll be seeing her on Thurs.

So it'll be a TV Day as per norm. hahaha

Maureen popped down with some grub,, Was great to see her. heheeheh. She thought my hair was curly. I just said that my sis did it up for me last night. hahaah. Great laugh.

While looking at One Foot in the Grave and seeing Richard Wilson who plays Victor Meldrew, I looked him up to see what's he up to . heheheh. Then I found not only is he for gay rights, but that he came out as gay a few years ago back in '13. I never knew. hahaah.

My sis came down for some downloading. Then who should I see on the TV on Cheers, but none other than Senator John Kerry MA, who NOW is Foreign Secretary for the United States. I am gobsmacked.

So first I find out Richard Wilson who played Victor Meldrew came out Gay, and now Senator John KErry was a special appearance in Cheers. Wow, what a night so far. haahaahh

Diary 26th June 2015

Well after a long night of sleeping and then at times trying to sleep but more so struggling with my legs. I even slept ontop of Phenay, thinking he'd help me, sadly he didn't. eheheh. So then after a long time, I got up. Listened to voicemails. I did not appreciate the tone of Dad's voice and Mom's voice. I got the inclining or the vibe that I had done something wrong. So instead of ringing them of which I was gonna, I left my Mom a voicemail instead. She rang me back immediately. I declined and have done so to all calls.

So after that, I headed onto the Outhouse, was gonna pop into Penny's however they were closing up. So then, I headed onto the Outhouse. I saw Fire Brigade and Chemical Incident Unit, I said to my self, oh dear, hopefully it ain't the Outhouse. So I walked up slowly and saw that it was some laneway on the way to the Outhouse. heeheh. I was greeted by Bernard. Was great to see him. Went up to see the Men's night. hehehe. Not much around. But got a great welcome. heheehe.

I then headed to Cineworld to see Minions. (Review here). I then went to get my ticket at the machines, however it wouldn't work. So I saw that it had "expired", which was kinda weird. So I then saw that I had brought the WRONG, card. I said I'd give it a go, see would they let me in. However it wasn't to be. So I paid for a ticket. Then just before my cell went out of battery, I saw that my mate Todd, was saddened that I hadn't invited him. Says I to meself, Its not for the want of trying. I have asked him on numerous occasions in the past. Then shortly after the movie started, I could have sworn, I saw Todd himself in the front row. All that went through my mind, was that Todd would meetup afterwards and ask why I didn't invite him, etc., etc., but as luck would have it, it wasn't him. ahahah

NEWS

Tunisia has been hit in whats its been called a Terrorist attack, when a gun man opened fire on a beach. One Irish Citizen has been tragically shot dead.

France has been hit again in an Islamic Attack. The last time this occurred was when Charlie Ebdou was attacked for publishing an article on the profit Mohammed.

Gay Marriage has now been made legal in the US. ALL 50 States now has made Gay Marriage legal. Or as the leading Gay Marriage rights activist stated "not gay marriage, but MARRIAGE".

TECH

Facebook Messenger NOW does not require you to have a Facebook account to log into Messenger which is now a stand alone App. This was apparent, when I went to log into Messenger. It asked me for my cell phone number. Which at the time took too long, so I just skipped it. I vaguely remember this happened the last time.

Microsoft has now made Official Office Suite programs Word, Excel and Powerpoint Apps avaialbe for Android.

Diary 4th April 2015 - Easter Saturday

I popped along with Barry to see Cinderella(Review here). Great to see him. We had our traditional drink beforehand heehhe. I told him of how I knew I was gay, when in High School(Secondary School in Ireland), I saw my bully's Ciarán Healy's in his tighty wighties mmm. We were getting in OR out of our PE trackies. Can't quite recall exactly. But yeah, mmmm

Diary 10th March 2015

Mom collected me. Almost sure she'd have forgotten. Dole n bank. Collected laundry. Dad saying "you can't say that" when I asked him abt the Muslim ppl. Mom saying she's fed up listening to neggers relating to bishops negative comments. Then onto My sis.

Diary 9th January 2015

Dad and I continued. Packaged completely. Dad got a call from Gerry his Bro. He wanted a lend of a jack saw. I met Siobhan my cuz's bf. I hadn't seen Gerry since Reggies funeral. We then went to Beaumont House(Review here). I took down the lights outside. Packed them up. I then headed to outhouse. First to Lidl as I left my hat behind. Manners of a pig. Racism. Cineworld for Taken 3. Homophobic.

Following is the Facebook Status I posted in relation to the manners of a pig in Lidls in Parnell, Racist remark in the Outhouse and sadly the homophobic treatment, both my friend and I recieved.

I regret to inform you all that yesterday was not the best. Although I helped my folks with decorations, that was grand. By all means.

I popped along to Lidl, on Moore St., to see if my Hat was handed in. I went to a security guard who btw was actually looking at his cell phone, I asked if my hat was handed in, immediately he said no, Not even a budge to see if it were handed in. So after I paid for my kettle, I in a fit of rage, went to a Staff member, who gladly helped and asked around. I wanna thank him. But the security in LIdls' Moore St., clearly NEED retraining.

I then went to the Outhouse for my nightly entertainment. At one stage in the Men's Night, I was racially attacked indirectly. By this I mean, the lads were referring to some guy in the French Attacks or something, and the person(of whom shall remain nameless) said he "should go to the Romanian Orphange". I attempted to intervene by telling "errr hello, I was there", however he failed to listen. My friend who was with me throughout the night, told me that he has been told in the past that I am from Romania, and that he told me that he is actually racist. Despite the person knowing this, he made the remark. I was deeply gutted that I was lost for words. I shall be taking this matter with the Management of Outhouse and the Gardaí. RACISM MUST STOP. It won't stop if I sit back and do nothing.

My mate also came with me to the Cineworld Dublin to see Taken 3. I was most not prepared for what was to happen next. We were BOTH treated to Homophobic abuse throughout the film. It was quite scarey. My mate got the bate thou. We were treated to heckling. Although security was called a few times, that did not stop them. We were both called faggots and my mate was called OTHER names too. I was literally sick to the stomach with the treatment. To the point I actually wanted to vomit in my nachos which I had finished btw. The security guard came with us for protection. We were afraid that they were gonna follow us. So we joined up with two females(whom we would like to thank PROFUSELY), for company. We then left them when we found that the lads disappeared. This continued throughout the night. We both wanted the Cops involved. We were told they were on the way. However we later learned, THAT was not the case. Although Cineworld Cinemas is a VERY LGBT Friendly cinemas, I know many staff who are LGBT Friendly at the very least, some are gay even BOTH male and Female, I was MOST distraught to learn that the Gardai had NOT been called. Again I shall be taking the matter up with the Gardaí. HOMOPHOBIA MUST STOP. People in Republic of Ireland say Homophobia and living as a gay man is grand these days, it's NOT. If you people knew what actually happened. Like we were thrown at. Recorded and more than likely will be published on Facebook. If any of my Irish mates(of those that are left) or indeed international, comes across a video or photo or whatever of BOTH My mate and I, PLS REPORT to Facebook for Homophobic. On the way when I was leaving my friend to his Luas stop, the friend noticed that I was being homophobically looked at. I told him what my mother says to me all the time. HATERS hate SILENCE. I ignore all comments and looks etc.,

Diary 5th September 2014

Well after just a few hours sleep, I got up with a view of seeing Sex Tape(Review here) with the Best Buddies Meetup group aka Arwin's group. On my way, I bumped into Dave(who works behind the counter in Outhouse) and his friend. He too works their, Just can't think of his name. He was saying that there prob is a bunch of em, outside the Outhouse as they were closed. So I rerouted to pass the Outhouse to see if there was anyone. They all had gone.

I then went onto the cinema. Great to see it lively and bustling. Got my food and headed onto the screen. Was looking for Arwin. So I sent him a quick message just to let him know I was here. ie Checking myself in the Meetup. So he saw me. Then after the film, it was revealed that he had fallen asleep in the middle of the film. He had been at a previous meetup of a someone's birthday. So we all met outside. Had a bit of a chat. Then we all dispersed. Arwin and I headed on home. He lives close by me. So then shortly before I left him as he was quite tired, I had previously asked him, if I could add him on FB, I just couldn't remember if I actually did ask him. But eitehrway, I did ask him if he has any issues with gay people or gay rights etc., etc., Now considering his home country religion is Muslim a good chance. Am only guessing here, anyways, I was quite taken aback with his answer. His reply is he stands for Equailtiy. "If I help a poor person, don't mean I'm rich, likewise gay, If he sees a gay person in trouble and helps, don't mean he's gay.". So I said, cool, I think we'll be alrite. Ahem that his until he has to head off home due to his Visa restrictions of the Republic of Ireland.

I was chatting to a guy on Grindr. Imagine my first hook up in years. We were very close to closing the deal. heeheh. I obviously told him of my hepatitis status. BUT what stopped the meetup was his hairy chess. I ain't into a guy who has hair on his chests.

While surfing on Grindr too, I encountered a profile with an Aids symbol(In his case HIV), and I looked at his profile. I was very intrigued in what I saw. His quote NOT mine: "Seriously fellas, If you ARE going to message to ask questions: HOW I got it doesn't matter! But I'll give you a heads up lads: I didn't catch it  licking stamps. AND Yes I'm OK.". I just had to chat to him. I have taken a shine to him. He has helped me in ways no guy can understand. By that I mean, that I'm slowly accepting my  hepatitis B. Now this came from a guy who has HIV. He goes through the same stigma I go through, possibly worse. He is what I would call an Inspiration. I wrote back to him, and he said "Thanks fella". He reminded me that MOST guys are vaccinated against it or at least they should have been. I asked him, should I tell guys who I wanna have sex with or to just wait til I find that special guy. Bottomline must I tell of my status with causal sex OR wait til I have the relationship. His answer: "Grey area". He continued on by saying that "I think everybody responsible for their sexual health".

News

2 twin children have been found dead last night. It was then found that another person body has been found not too far from the twins bodies. It has been thought that it was a murder suicide. Now from my perspective, it is of my opinion that the older guy was suffering from depression, something like that. Now it is a possibility that the reason, that he couldn't talk about whatever was troubling him was one word STIGMA. Like my folks even would say it to me and to my sis, when I was battling depression. Oh get over it, or get out and about etc.,e tc., Its the likes of these that make people go physcotic or whatever. Bottomline, GET OUT THEIR AND TALK TO A PERSON YOU TRUST

Largest Dinosaur to ever walk the earth has been found in Argentina. It is thought to have been known as DreadNoughtis(aka Fearing Nothing) Shraanee as a plant eater. It would have weighed 65tonne. 11meter neck and a powerful 9meter tail. Measure 26meters in length

Dr. Martin Drennan , Bishop Of Galway is under fire for his comments on radio. He was referring to allocating money for Amach LGBT in Galway City. that was decided by the St. Vincent De Paul. Dr. Martin didn't want a Catholic Charity organsiation allocating money to an LGBT Group as it goes against the ethos of the Church of which he's a member of. No surprises there considering their past history of the Church.

Gay Quotes

If a person is homosexual by nature - that is, if one's sexuality is as intrinsic a part of one's identity as gender or skin color - then society can no more deny a gay person access to the secular rights and religious sacraments because of his homosexuality than it can reinstate Jim Crow. (Jon Meacham) - Gay Quotes 4 You! (android app)

Gay Quotes

What is straight? A line can be straight, or a street, but the human heart, oh, no, it's curved like a road through mountains. -Tennessee Williams

Gay Quotes

The white light streams down to be broken up by those human prisms into all the colors of the rainbow. Take your own color in the pattern and be just that. -Charles R. Brown

Gay QUotes

The token gay character is always so funny and so fantastic. That's happened a lot. Or they're often purely victims. (Ezra Miller) - Gay Quotes 4 You! (android app)

Gay Quotes

Gay TV has been immensely important in transforming American culture in a more gay-positive direction. (Tony Kushner) - Gay Quotes 4 You! (android app)

Gay Quotes

People who can't think of anything else but whether the person you love is indented or convex should be doomed not to think of anything else but that, and so miss the other ninety-five percent of life. -Robert Towne

Gay QUotes Android App

Gay Quotes

For a long time I thought I wanted to be a nun. Then I realized that what I really wanted to be was a lesbian. -Mabel Maney

Ryan Dolan - Start Again [Official Music Video]

The only thing I have to say: Very sad and "All because he was gay". Thats why he killed himself. By the time the closeted guy did something about it, it was TOO LATE. SO SAD

Irish pop singer Ryan Dolan, 2013 Eurovision Song Contest finalist, comes out as gay

So happy that Ryan Dolan who represented Ireland in the Eurovision Song Contest in Malmo, Sweden in 2013. He did a fantastic job of the entry. He only came out gay. He came out to his sis at 13, and to the public at 28(Current Age). Many congratulations to you Ryan. You are a true inspiration to all young gay men and women. Best wishes to you and your partner.



Irish pop singer Ryan Dolan, 2013 Eurovision Song Contest finalist, comes out as gay

Diary 2nd March 2014

TOday I got up quiet and serene. I headed down to see Crina as my weekly visit. When I arrived, Mom was there. WE chatted for a bit. Mom specified two items. She is under the illusion that I wanna move out. SHe has been asking my sis to look up daft.ie(Ireland's Property website). She hates where I'm livin, however she ain't the one living. I am. She is due to go to a viewing tomorrow(Monday). I say let her make an idot of herself. She hasn't listened. Well now she can go to all the viewings. THe only time I will ever move out is to New York. Not any other apt. Before she headed off, she told me that after my psychotherapy, that me Pa will be collecting me to get a new bike. However as pointed out in the following blog entry I can't allow my Paps to purchase a new bike for me. Not within my conscious. So as I said to her that I wanna be able to purchase it myself. In reply she said that I wouldn't want to fool Dad. I said back to her, that its up to her to fool him or not. I asked that she pass on the message.
Twas a nice visit and pleasant. However when I was browsing my Facebook on my Mobile device, I saw a quite interesting post that a friend of mine, had posted. It was in relation to Tim Cook, Apple's current Chief Executive(CEO). One thing that blew my mind was that he's actually gay. I wanted to double check this just to ensure that the post was actually true. To my surprise and happiness he is. Crina was wondering what was going on, like why was I so happy. Like think about it, the world's most powerful guy on earth: the Chief Executive of a very successful company is actually gay. Oh my god. Ama so happy to hear of this and still am.

When I got home, I continued to find out why I can't update or download my Android apps or install new ones. Or why it is so slow. My next troubleshooting method was to move the apps to the SD card and see would that do anything. I did Number to A(Apps names beginning with a number and letter "A"). I deleted cache, and data. Still to no avail. Im gonna do the next method. Which I am dreading, but something has to be done. I removed my PRIMARY Google account. It worked for awhile until I re added it back, back to square one.

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FROZEN - Gay Best Friend version

Found this quite hilarious. Its so cool. BAsed on Disney's Frozen soundtrack. Its the gay version of it. Im hoping to see it again the sing along version on TUes. Can't wait

Diary 11th February 2014

I had very interested dreams. One of which I was expecting a drag queen r cross dresser for a visit.  However it wasn't meant to be. Maureen had barged her way in. BUT it wasn't Maureen it was her sister Colette.  So I said excuse me but I'm expecting someone.  She was leaving stuff for me.  Then afterwards I'm a separate dream apparently I was living at home.  Me paps had a wok system installed.  Crina had only come home from hospital.  She sat on the steps waiting for me.  She had welcomed me home. Before the dream ended I remember asking dad "so u got it installed then", he replied very hesitantly. You see when we ever we would get something installed or buy a new appliances or even get extensions building to da house I would get very excited.
Another dream occurred at Maureens.  Where by I was collecting OJ bottles of cartons.  I had to move them, so dat the bottles of cartons wudnt block da door I had to double em up.
My last dream which was kinda scary involved me in cloudy scenery. Everytime I dropped down i had too see if I cud stay with a particular monster.  Which funnily enough were the same monsters as those in some movie I've seen.

So there was this question, I wanna asked my folks that my THerapist, began to think me on. And that was if you accept a person as a gay person etc., thats grand, BUT if you don't accept a person for their sexuality why keep contact with them so to speak. My therapist in replied to me: "Every person has a story": This began playing with my mind in the most severest of forms. So I decided to actually ask them this particular question. So while I was showering, All these racy thoughts were racing through my mind etc., such as if they don't accept me the PROPER way, that i'd attempt suicide. I then recall in me mind that if Crina were looking for me, I had sent the text notifying "if you can't get through to me, you'll know where I am". And then it went on to tell my sis, to please tell the 2 BRendans(they's me besties.) and that I'd see em.

So afterwards, I got myself a brekkie, and looked at MOnday's news. Then as I was about to head out to collect my state benefits, I had lost my card(AGAIN!!!!!) which is required for the collection of the state benefits. I was a bit anxious in getting to the bank before 4pm incase it didn't work in the post office. However with me looking for the card, I was too late. So it just had to be pure luck for it to work int eh Post Office.

As I had to get my laundry to be done, I had to trek it all the way to the laundry in Drumcondra, then to the post office. But as luck would have it, the card(bank) worked like a dream.

So then onwards to Ryans HArdware to get a new battery for the watch. However with a surprise turn, he didn't have it. I couldn't open the battery compartment. There was a customer there, and he had said something in the line of, "yeah didn't you just have something in" something like that he said. I was a bit disappointed actually to the point a teary came out. So I just assumed it was becasue of being gay or something(Pink watch).

So then in the cold, snowy wintery weather in February!!!!! I strayed up to Mom n Dad's. Twas lovely to see em. I felt like home once more. They asked me how my weekly apts, are going etc., I said everything's alrite EXCEPT I had told them, that there was a statement that the therapist had been troubling me, more tot he question I had asked him. I asked them, "Why do you want me in your lives, if you don't accept me being gay". Mom, then replied "but of course we do". I proceeded "no you don't". She asked "why?" I said, that "the fact you think I'm gonna find a lassie". I told her, "thats not accepting me, there's no question of it. " and Dad smiling away there. I said to myself, just gonna leave it. So then they told me they were over at my Aunty, as she has a cold. They told me that she wants her laptop fixed, and I had told em yeah I know about it, but nothing was prepared for what was to happen next. I asked them, how much will it be to get it fixed. It was my understanding that Maureen had to get it sent away to be fixed. HOWEVER, actually they wanted me to do it. HOW very cute and sly. As I had told her, that I didn't want to fix, let her Sister's get it fixed or fix it. When Dad told me that "She is paying in advance" something like that. I still didn't get it was me. It was one hella of laugh arlite.
So I proceeded to get it fixed, Updating Windows, Resetting her Email password, Disk CLeanup, Internet Browser Cleanup.
So as the hardware guy didn't help me with the watch, I had to ask my Dad, to have a look at even just to open the back. He successfully opened(of which I don't know how), but he did. As I thought Mom would have seen that I don't have my bike, when she was dropping the newspaper to her next door neighbors, but anyways, when they said something about having a light, I had to tell em, that my bike is in for "repair" more like STOLEN, hahahaah. So as I didn't have it, I was gonna walk home, but they insisted that I take ride home. So me Da left me home. With the window being frozen, he had to get warm water to get rid of it. While he was doing so, I posted my Exercise(walking) apps to my profiles. RunKeeper, MapMyWalk, and MyTracks.