Diary 6th May 2014

The dreams starts off with me showing a couple around looking for a place to stay in my area where I grew up: Drumcondra. I am showing a house where me ex and I stayed. Then we later approach a house. When the door opens a person dressed up in a costume. We later learn when we go into the house that its all in the name of Japanese Tradition. the man takes the head of the costume off and is revealed to be of Irish origin. Yet the house inside is of Japanese. So antoehr couple joins us. They too are looking for a place. The dream then evolves to me showing other couples peopel etc., ie a realtor possibility is what I could be. where to go etc., So then the couples are outta me dreams and turns into a Catch me if you Can game. I later learn the girl who is running after me is Mom's friend's daughter who wants to go out with me, I say that i'm busy. But she insists. So I start going towards the city center. I then start hiding book shops etc., I even go into a Pride shop(to give her the heads up - yet that don't stop her. hahaah). I'm on a floor that's like an escalators cept your not going up or down. But being move from one position to antoehr. Airports have it theses days. I'm  on a floor that has loads of lifts. And only realise it with the up symbol, that I have been going up constantly when I never saw the Up symbol. I then go apparently to the top floor where there are Simpson comics and now As GAEilge. I put the comics in front of my face she don't see me and the dream ends when my name is called out, meaning I have won the game, cause she can't find me. hahaha.

So I eventually got up, when I knew I heard "George". hahah. So I proceeded to head to get my dole in Post Office. Would you believe it the person who abused verbally the hella outta me last week served me. She couldn't' stand the sight of me. No doubt.  Whether that means that she was wrong when she clearly saw how distressed I was last week. Again I do admit, I was wrong in attempting to get payment the last minute before they close up, HOWEVER she had no right to speak to me in that matter. I told my sis today, that I had hoped that there was another customer with me, then she mightened be so quick to judge let alone berate me.

So after the unpleasantness face was over, I headed on to Ryan's Hardware to get Mould Spray. Its a blessing in disguise. Loving it so much, this is my 3rd bottle. Its used to get the terrible mould problem I have. Nothing can be done. ahaha

So then I headed into Thunders, where I get my delicious jam, to see if they get a gluten free and or Dairy-free(Egg free - for those that think Eggs are NOT dairy). The clerk told me that the Apple Tart is Dairy Free and the Gingers Men are Gluten Free. Personally I've nothing against gluten free. I subconsciously was asking cause I was gonna get my Godmother, Cousin Ailish. Yes you heard me. hahaah. My mom reminded me last week of Alilsih' birthday. Ailsih is Ceoialic ie can't handle Gluten hence the term Gluten FREE.

So then I headed to Tescos to see if my curiosity was gonna kill. I just wanted to see if they had Pure butter. To my happiness and surprise, there was. I also saw Ian(Taxi driver) a regular customer of a pub I used to work in: Kennedy's.

So onwards and upwards I say. hahaha. I headed into Scribbles to get the card and scratch card for Ailish. I realised that I hadn't written the card, I don't have any pens anymore. So I was shitteing meself getting anxious.

So then I decided to head up to me folks to get a pen. Then I remembered that Mom had told me yesterday, "just drop the card in the post box". That could have meant that she mightened be home let alone dad. He could be at the Dental Hospital or whatever. So I said if they ain't home, then Ill head back to my place and right the card, then head back up to Ailish and pop it in there. So when I rang the doorbell, it so happens they were both there. Mom and Dad I mean. So I had a cuppa tea. Then Dad asked that I help out with the Mulching of the leaves he had left over. So when tidying up, I also happened to come across a bucket with a trawl that it so happens he was looking for. He was over the moon, so that  he even bought another trawl and yet he lost that one too. hahaha. He also found that one too. Ain't it so interesting. I boasted myself(Not that I do much of that in any shape of form) by saying my my "Ain't I the lucky guy who brings luck with him". hahaha. He possibly found the new trawl when he spotted my watch(which I had left down because of the mulching - might I add the rainbow colored watch) - so possibly what stood out in which he found his other trawl. So then shortly afterwards, I had a cuppa, then shortly before I headed off both Mom and I dropped in Ailish' pressie. Ailish for the first time in a long time,  asked me to drop up to her. I then asked her if Noel(her hubbie) had my number. Cause initially back a few months ago, he kept making up escusings me by saying to wright my number down and he'll put it in his phone. Then the next time I called round, he asked for my number again, he genuinely said that he lost the sheet of paper of where I put the number on, and yet he still lost it. So fast forwarding to present, I ensured he had my number. I asked ALisih if he still had my number. So all is cool. However when Ailish asked me to call up to her, I can't remember if Mom was beside me ie so that Ailish could see. Mom has since invited me to a dinner on Thurs evening???? So still at a lost. OH decisions decisions decisions. So afterwards, I headed back to my gaf, relaxed for a few hours before leaveing for my sis.

I got a distressed call from my sis saying that she had received such an abuse from my Paps, and that she'd like my company earlier than normal. So with that in mind, I set about heading off. I then realsied that I had left my Pure butter in Mom and Dad's fridge and that I wanted it badly. So I called up to my sis via my folks and as well as the letter for my citizenship. My mom is trying to sort out the citizenship business too as am I. When I saw the Form 8 Application Form for the citizenship, I nearly fainted and went paile. Dad was looking at me strange. As If I was gonna burst. I was infuriated to believe that all this time I had been waiting 5 yrs, until 2013 to find out that the Application had NOT been sent in. I mean like WTF right???? Then I also realised, why have we  been submitting Documentation otherwise. Another problematic field. So onwards and upwards I says.

So I arrived at me sis. WE chatted about what exactly happened. I couldn't talk her out of OD. I mentioned that even I'm in  her presence that should eliviate the need to dice herself. and OD for that matter. But sadly it didn't . She was that distressed. However a lovely quote did come out in the end. "You're an Angel in disguise, you're hard to find and I'm lucky to have found you and I'm not letting go of you. " That really touched me and moved me. She wanted to got to ER. So she first came to my gaf for a cuppa. WE noticed a disturbing sign,on an election poster of a previous Party Minister. With words "Fag" and a mustache drawn on him. Now personally I ain't sure if the politician is gay or whatever.

So I eventually found myself on my way home while my sis headed to ER.

Diary 28th April 2014

"Those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind. THis was the quote I was looking for yesterday. Well UPDATE I finally found it. I had seen it on a friend's(Mark Patrick H) Facebook in which he had updated a status with this quote. How this came about was that he liked my comment in which i Had said"My ex used to say taht all the time". I was going mad for hours until literally a few minutes ago. It took a notifciaotin from Facebook to let me know where I got this quote. ANd me looking up various sociatl networks looking up messages, etc.,

While I was at my computing, I noticed a bit of noise above me. Then I heard it beside me. I'm talking about above me as in neigbors likewise beside me. Then I heard more and even more louder noise. And when I looked out da window, Low and behold, I saw sirens from all corners of the street. I then went out in my onesie and asked whats going on. Fire was seen and smoke billlowing outta the ground(kinda weird) if you ask me. I later on only realised there is an underground Car park(Parking lot to my US Buddies). There was several fire brigades., a police car. As you can see in the first pic, the apartment just over the car park, there was a gay guy living there. I first came across him on Grindr and Grindr told me he was only a few feet away. He obviously wasn't into me. WE chatted briefly. I have seen him around. Clearly I knew he was gay. However I think he has since moved out, but elsewhere in the block, cause I hadn't seen him for a while. But I only saw him recently. But going further inside the complex meaning he has moved elsewhere.

Here's some pics of the resulting fire. From what I saw there was a white tape indicating a crime scene.

 


On a separate event, yesterday I was suppose to bring Chips to my sis. However I got distracted when I heard my neighbor next door closing her door, she then approached me as I was closing my door and said where are the bins(Waste Bins). I wasn't sure anything about em, as I don't use them. So I said she should contact the landlord. Now she was being nice and all. But this is the same person, from what I understand that the landlord does NOT allow more than one person in his flat. Cuase I told him a few months ago, that there was a man coming down the steps and passing my place. He found that a bit strange. Then recently I was checking the post for my sis and obv myself(sometimes her post still goes there) and I saw the same guy BUT this time with a  bicycle going into the apartment where the woman who asked about the bins. She comes in night hours. So its possible she could be a nurse or something.

SO I went off for a few winks after the early morning events. See above.
This is another strange but disturbing dream still connecting to my vegetarianism and my childhood in Romania.
I'm with my sis in my folks place in  the front room playing music videos. Then dad (the one who raised me and loved and loves me) brings in a ROMANIAN cow not an Irish one BUT A FREAKIN ROMANIAN cow. And says to me I want you to eat it. As disturbing as that sounds. sis n I then go to tescos to get a bit of grub. She's elsewhere in the shop. I'm in the yoghurt isle. I accidentally drop 1 r 2. I pick em up n go and purchase them. While picking em up i hear  shop assistants looking for em amongst themselves but I just continue bringing the broken ones to the counter.
Then i meet sis n mom r Maureen outside and I see them sitting on a bench in the dark with a fire keeping them warm. I exclaim that that is lovely. There is a man in front of the fire more or less saying the same thing in other words agreeing with me. Then I go to take my phone camera out to take a picture of the fire. However the man has blown out the fire.
Now separately but quite strange it's related well at least to the  Romanian cow at  least. I was wanting to tell my Neighbor who approached me regarding  bins that  they could be hidden inside the shed. So I popped along might I ad naked. So I ring the door bell r knock on the door. A man answers by right he shouldn't b there but anyways none of my business. Jnr wakes up when i start to picture the guy in trackies and I exclaim out loud to him "boy u r cute". I then say but this isn't the point. The point is the bins. Your roommate r whatever u call each other bf gf, the woman who lives here asked about the bins. I just remembered that my sis used to live above me and the landlord used to talk to her and said the shed. So then she popped out i said to her that if u were given a key r a combination lock code to try it. The bins could be there. Then out of the blue she saying that I'm her son. Now can anyone tell me how can you tell that by seeing a naked guy that I'm there son. So I asked her a few qs  like her name my orphanage name where I'm from surprisingly she answered them all including why she has a different accent, (English) like i have a different accent but some how ppl can tell I'm. foreign. So then I in a fit of anger I call mom (I'm sure u all should know who my mom is by now) and say "I'm getting da hell outta ere." But however it's too late. I have been kidnapped. But miraculously i posted "HELP HELP MY MOM WANTS ME BACK IN ROMANIA PLS HELP" on my Facebook. When my Romanian mother asks me about sis i says we ain't blood we grew up together in the orphanage n Ireland. To get out of it, I then say I'm gay. Cause I'd know that she wouldn't accept as shes Eastern European where Romania is. But not that didn't stop her.
The Dream ends when I wake up with my eyes very soar and with the tears dried up and all crusted up. Then when I was int he middle of sorting out my FB Friends on my spreadsheet one of the friends had a status of Page Not Found - which Facebook has if the person has blocked you or you have blocked them. So I found that while I was going through my mates on my spreadsheet. So when I stumbleupon a friend of mines RIP William Jackson page, I came across this page a few weeks ago. And thought it was a joke or something, but as it happens that it was actually William had actually day. NO words can describe the shock and horror I had gotten when I learned of his death. Like Peter had only engaged to him a few months ago. As my originally family as in the relatives mainly didn't work out, I started to get more involved on my Facebook family ie Friends.

Gay Quotes

For a long time I thought I wanted to be a nun. Then I realized that what I really wanted to be was a lesbian. -Mabel Maney