Diary 2nd October 2015

Diary 2nd October 2015

Before I went to bed, I encountered a lovely post from a friend on FB whereby travelling on a train for to see America from East to West from Coast to Coast. 

Westwood to go and if I know of anyone with a beard for Movember.

Airtricity guy comes and says do you know what Unit PRice am being charged. He cheekily says as you can I'm from Airtricity. I said first I can't see what company you're from and 2ndly I've no interest in changing. Then he headed off as in being insulted or whatever.

I then got ready to head off to see The Maze Runner: Scorch Trials(Review here). I headed off to the Outhouse to pop my head in as one would say. hehehe. Gerry himself was there. O' Farrell joined us. He was upstairs with Men's Night. I then headed off to the film.

NEWS

9 People shot dead. 7 injured. 2 critical ill in hospital. They were asked if they were Christian, and if yes, they would see God in one sec. The gunman has been shot dead by police. He had spoken support of the IRA. He was a British then moved to US as a baby. They occurred in ROseburg, Umpqua College, Oregon, USA. PResident Obama has called for tighter gunlaws. He has spoken of "Routine", as in its the same same Columbia, Tucson, Aurora, Charlestonw, Newtown.

Brian Friel a Playwright, has died of natural causes at the age of 86. He wrote the infamous Dancing of Lughnasa and Philadelphia Here I Come. I'm almost sure as well he wrote a book relating to the IRA. I could be wrong. But am almost sure. He died in Greencastle, Co. Donegal. 

Diary 13th July 2015

I tidied up my shirts and sleeveless shirts as part of my cleaning weekly ritual.

Then after that I was uploading pics of myself onto Instagram, and a user by the name of Red Bull gives you wings, says and I quote: "Tbh don't like any of my pictures every again. I don't know u and I don't want to. Get off Instagram faggot". My reply to him was: "Thank you for your input@redbull_givesyou_wings . I'll be sure to pass it along to my supervisor. Have a nice day.". hehehe. Felt good about it. Bit shaken, but good. Knowing I turned a negative into a positive more so a BUSINESS experience. haahah. 

NEWS

A deal has been reached by the Eurogroup for Greece. Greece has been given until Wednesday to implement the Austerity with fears of a collapse in Govt meaning ending Tsipras' term . 

Eircode has been officially unveiled. Ireland is the only country in Europe that does not have a Postal Code system. 

German President Joachim Gauck is on a State Visit to the Republic of Ireland.

Legislation for the Same Sex Marriage Referendum, has now been delayed due to two legal challenges held in May/June of this year. The Marriage Referendum was passed by 1m votes. The first country every in the world to pass a Same Sex Marriage by POPLAR vote. It could be in the Statute Books ie the Bunreacht na hÉireann(The Irish Constitution) within months or a year. The Government had hoped to have started the process of Legalising Same Sex Marriage by August and the first Same Sex Weddings would take place in Sept. 

TECH NEWS

Nintendo President Satoru Iwata has passed away at the age of 55. He died July 11th of a Bile duct growth. He oversaw the launch of the Nintendo Wii U and the Nintendo 3DS. He worked across a widerange of flagship titles including but not least The Legend of Zelda, MarioKart etc.,e tc.,He faced stiff competition with Microsoft's XBox and Sony's PlayStation game consoles. 

Big Hero 6

I popped along to the most anticipated movie of my Babes Inflatables. Big Hero 6. The film surrounds an Inflatbles that sets about saving the a town. How it stats that is that a young kid Hiro has an amazing relationship with his Bro Tashadi. Hero starts with Robo Fighting. His bro Tashadi is exceptionally looking out for him. I've never seen such closeness. He brings his Bro Hiro to a Nerd School college kinda. Hiro is overwhelmed. He meets Baymax(INFLATBLES). He's an Inflatable Robot that is a "Healthcare Companion". They go on a journey in finding out the mysterious person who was involved the fire.

Overall a FANTASTIC film. Pure emotional at times. But fantastic. I smell a sequel on its way.

Diary 9th November 2014

Well I got up not to bad. After enjoying a great sleep, I headed onto my sis for a great visit. hehehe. WE chatted and looked TV and movies. hehhee. THats about it to be honest. She had a bit of a breakdown, due to which obviously I won't be getting into. Bottomline, I advised her of the situation. So hopefully alls' well. Both of us were playing Ring Cock, whereby we threw rings on the Inflatable cock I bought yesterday. It was so fun.

NEWS

Former Fianna Fáil, Minister  for Agriculture and Food Joe Walsh has died. He was 71. He served as Minister in '92-'94 and again '97-'04. He oversaw the Foot and Mouth Disease and introduced controls.

Remembrance Sunday in honor of those who died in two World Wars, and later conflicts.  Taeoiasach Enda Kenny laid a Wreath at War Memorial, Enniskillen(an IRA Bomb claimed 11 lives in 1987), while Minister for Foreign Affairs was at the Wreath Laying Ceremony in Belfast, UK. Other Dignitaries included Northern Ireland's First Minster Peter Robinson MP.
Dulbin, IRL was also a location of Remembrance, where Tánsite, US and British Ambassador also paid tributes in St. Patrick's Cathedral, The Lord Mayor of Dublin - having to defend his presence. 100s and 1000s of IRISH who fought in World War 1 including Michael Colton's Father
And Ireland's Ambassador(Dan Mulhall) to Britain was at the Senitaf, London, UK. Wreath's were also laid in Belfast, UK and Dublin, IRL

25th Anniversary of the FALLING of the Berlin Wall. German Chancellor Angela Merkel attended a Service in honor of those who died and perished at the hands of the Communist Regime of the East German Regime. She also said that fall of the wall has shown the world that "Dreams can come true". The Reunification of East Germany and West Germany signified the end of the Cold War. Mikaeil Gorbachev who was the last leader of the Soviet Leader was also in attendance and among the honored guests. Tonight at the Brandenburg Gate, 7,000 white balloons will be realsed symbolically reenacting the Fall of Wall on this Night 25 yrs ago.

Diary 30th October 201

Well what a day I had. At least in the positive sense. I got up around 2ish, when I had enough sleep from my hibernation yesterday. Afterall I was down in Meath yesterday. I looked at TV for a few hours.

Then I got ready to head out to the Outhouse, then onto the movies. In the meantime, I got a call from O' Farrell. So I headed to Outhouse first. I encountered Searson. We chatted. Told him of my Uncle's SLOW demise death. He's not obviously, but the painful waiting is bothering. Then O' Farrell popped along. I then asked if a guy who tells you just cause I won't send an ass pic, he says that I ain't gay. O Farrell is of the view it tells which sexual position you'd be, ie Top/Bottom etc., While there, I encountered David O' Toole. I got nervous at first. However, like I did to Paul the other day, I didn't talk to him at all either. Paul knows he did wrong. David I'm not sure. But I got the gut feeling, that perhaps he may know. Cause he left sad or whatever. I said his goodbyes to the two Brendan's etc., But I refused to talk to him in the first place.

So with that, Both O' Farrell n I headed on to see Gone Girl(Review here). Now he's seen the movie. SO he wanted my opinion. During the movie, I then taught to meself, to the above question I asked both Brendan's ie about the Ass question?? Sexuality DOES NOT define who you have sex with let alone who you share you're sexual body pics of ie ass, dick etc., etc., Its who you are ATTRACTED to.

So after the movie, I left Brendan to Camden St., where he walked home. On the way, I gave him Financial advice. Of which I quoted our Former Taoiseach Charles J Haughey(RIP), "We are living way beyond our means". What I mean by this quote in our case, is to cut back on the expenditure. Expenditure should be SMALLER than Income.

I was watching Late LUnch LIve from OnDemand on TV3. One of the episodes they had(This was from during the week) was Rory O' Neill aka Panti. They showed a clip from the Abbey THeatre whereby he gave a speech on Oppresion of gay. "Embarreased by his Gayness". His point was have you ever been with you GAY BEST FRIEND etc., and you feel embarrassed by his gayness etc., Now this is quite true of my mates BRendan S and a few other clowns. What I'm referring to is the Pride Regourt, whereby a few ppl where EMbarrest by my Gayness.

I went to attempt to look up if there was a way to download a few sections of the Late Late Show, I had missed from Friday just gone due to Box space issues. So as it happens, I looked on RTE Player, and went through it, ie whisked through it. And as it happened, didn't need it. I did download software, but as it happens didn't need it.

Diary 26th October 2014

Shortly before I went to bed, I got a Viber call from a mate, saying, that he got a call on his Ground(Landline) line, stating its from Microsoft and to download a program. I recommended to him , that as he knew himself, YET he still downloaded it. I remember I myself got scammed a few years ago, it sometimes, is still on going with my folks. Bottomline as I explained to my mate, that you NEVER receive  a call from a major corporation, let alone Microsoft. I said that Microsoft have Millions or even billions of Windows and their products Users. They are not gonna start ringing cause first its AGAINST THE LAW and second, time and financial costing. SO yeah its obviously a scam.

So for the next few hours, I was recording the State Funeral of Albert Reynolds who died in August of this year. This lasted 4hrs. Then afterwards, I headed onto my sis. We chatted mainly tonight. Twas nice and calm. Considering during the week she had a relapse. But all's well now. heheeh. WE looked at TV what else hahaah aswell. Then suddenly, I asked what if AIlish(Mom's Neise), and all the Dots, can't pin point anyone, but what if they were influencing Mom to say things like say Homophobia etc., I wouldn't put it past em, is what I'm saying.

Diary 12th September 2014

Now, as I had yet to sleep, I just continued my day. I was looking at Tonight with Vincent Browne. There was a quite interesting debate on being debated. Should the media be interested in every minor detail. E.g The alleged nude photos of Jennifer Lawrence. Like is there a need for the public to know such information. Eg that Vincent gave was the spat that the Health Minster(Varadkar) and the Taoiseach were having Vincent's point was do we need to know every single little thing. Or as he puts it "Tits for tats".

Then I started the tidy up of the place. Well more so making further room. I now have a bit of room for visitors(WHAT VISITORS, no one ever goes near a Hepatitis B guy - I'm leaving out my Family, cause obviously they come down. hahaha).

Then I got a call from O' Farrell to know plans for tonight. I was intended on going to A film, of which I wasn't sure which. I was to leave at around 7 - half 7. So instead, during my  tidy up, I found my bicycle pump. So I used that to inflate my babes, which some sadly are not staying, but NEVERTHELESS. And of course I was inflating my new exercise ball, that I got in Lidls last week.

On my way, Maureen rang me for a chat. However throughout the call, I couldn't' hear her. She has this habbit of holding the fire, as if it were on "fire" kinda thing. I got increasingly frustrated. She has been using a mobile phone for over 10 years.  So I just cut the convo  short. Then while I was on the phone, I had gotten a message from my mate Todd, wanting a bit of company for a meal or something. As it happens, I was very close. However due to communications errors etc., we weren't able to meetup.

So eventually, I arrived at the Outhouse. I encountered Gerry the teacher. Haven't seen him in ages. heeheh. I also encountered Noel of only whom I had met around Pride festivities.  There were also 2 HOT Indian guys who clearly hadn't any manners or either that they were VERY very shy. More than likely the latter. Then of course O' Farrell himself was there. O' Farrell had asked me if I had sent him a picture of me in my undies or something like that. This brought up in a derogatory sense, as they have nothing better to talk about. I'm talking about the Pride Festivities that was held this year. It was marred in controversy(well in my books anyways). Seriously guys, WOULD YOU's EVER SHUT THE HELL UP ABOUT MY. You talk the talk of letting go the past, NOW PRACTISE WHAT YOU PREACH. You's just have to gonna get use to it. They do it in the States, in fact a friend of mine, who was at the same pride as me this year NEVER got any STICK. NOW WTF WITH THAT. I shall be continued to express my sexuality. LIKE IT or LUMP IT. Then low and behold Ronan was there. He showed me pics of himself as Wolverine. And by jasues he's the splitting image of him, WITHOUT any Photoshopping. While he was browsing for the pics of Wolverine, he probably accidentally showed me a pic of a large cock with a ring on it. That was hot. hahaaha. Patrick was there to provide a few laughs. ahhahaha. Bernard hahahah like he was sitting in a Dracula sttyle armchair. heheheeh. I was introduced by O' Farrell to Cathal. Very nice bloke he is. His first time. I was amazed by the amount of ppl that was in attendance. Oh and not forgetting David. Afterall I had only seen him yesterday. hahaahha

As I was leaving for the film, I was getting the feeling of NOT to go, that I was having such a great time. However when the remark of my regout was made, I just had to get out. Even poor Noel taught he had said something. I said no that I was going to a film. So with that in mind, I set about going to the cinema to see Guardians of the Galaxy(Review here). However when I arrived, it wasn't meant to be. As the times were different. Perhaps I misread it or whatever. But this has happened in the past. So I went to see The Guest(Review here).

Then after the film, I headed home. Now as I didn't have cooking oil for my pasta tonight, I needed it badly. So I got it in my local garage. Imagine for  1.5ltr a small feckin' of a bottle, 4.10. Sure Tescos charge that amount for their BIG version and its a branded one too.

NEWS

Dr. REv Ian Paisley has died at the age of 88. He co-founded The DUP(Democratic Unionist Party) in 1970. He lead the party from '71 - '08. Born in Ballymena, Co. Armagh 1926. He was First Minister from 2007 until 2008.
He continued to serve as MP for North Antrim from 1970. til 2010. He once opposed Power Sharing, but later reversed his position. He retired COMPLETELY from Politics in 2011. He is survived by his Wife and Family. May he Rest In Peace

A Spinosauraus has been discovered. Shark to a Creature. Described to adapted life int eh water. Bigger than T-Rek. Lived most of its life in water. Lived 95 million years ago. 

Diary 11th September 2014

Well I eventually got up. I cleaned myself up. Then shortly as I had to head to Lidls to get myself some slippers.

So that was my first port of call. It was my intention to do my archival shopping as I like to call it. hahaha. So I first headed into Lidls, then I realsied that the slippers were actually in Aldi. I mistaken this. So I just got OJ. While here, I noticed while at the stalls, that there was a customer asking questions about a product to the security guy. Well as I said to myself, the manners of a pig. The mouth of him. More so the body language. While on the way to LIdls, I called into US Shop. I came across a deal for €15.More or less what Lidls would be charging for shoes. I had guessed that the sales person was an American. She's actually from Tampa in Florida.
Then I headed onto Aldi. This was the place, that I was spoz to get the slippers. When I was lining up for to pay for the slippers, a Filipino couple offered me there place ahead of them, as I was just getting one thing, and they were doing a large shopping. Twas really nice of em to be honest. So I thank you, them.
On the way to Tescos, I encountered a guy playing "Somewhere, my Love" on the flute. I beautiful rendition of an Italian Classic. Reminded me of the wonderful Holiday, in Lake Garda with the family. The best holiday I ever had with the family. Then onto Tescos, I went to get some milk and more OJ. Oh boi, love me some OJ. heheeh.
I then headed to the cinema to see Lucy(Review here), as the last time, I had seen, I had missed some of it.
I then headed onto the Outhouse, where I always feel safe and be myself. heheeh. I bumped into Mike, David and Brendan O' F. I then introduced myself to a guy Gar, who has been there and I've seen in in the past, but never got his name. So when I was getting something, I got talking to Mike. I had said some phrase or rather, and he then said something I don't think Ros na Run would have such language or whatever. Then we got talking about Gays in Soaps. Was quite intriguing it was. I reminded him that there is a gay male in Ros na Run currently, but he don't have any storyline currently. Although back in the late 90s, they had 2 gay characters. And he said that he actually remembers his Mom talking about it. Likewise in Fair City. There was 2 gay males back in the apparently late '80s. Now obviously I had seen this. But just couldn't remember the year. As it happens, it was in the time, I was in the Romanian Orphanage. So then I got my stuff, and headed onto the group. We were chatting and chatting. And told him my true inspiration of the HIV guy, I was chatting on Grindr. David was most intrigued. And as it happens, was possibly the same guy he was chatting to. As I said throughout the night, Such a small world. I then was intrigued with David's saying that a guy being straight is a turn on. I was quite intrigued by this. And then thought to myself, but sure, I see em all the time, and look at em. So yeah I quite agree with him. heehe
So then Brendan and I headed onto the cinema to see The Guest(Review here). On the way to the screen, the security guy, helped me bring my bags to the screen. Such a nice guy. heehehe. So then afterwards, I struggled with heading on home with heavy bags of the shopping. I had just past the pub Meaghers and to my surprise one of the customers who was smoking asked "If I had been fucked out". I said "Oh, Lord no". Then I passed the new Chinese name at least beside the pub. It has changed names twice. heeheh.

NEWS

America remembers Sept 11th 2001. 13yrs ago today America was under attack.. 2 Plains were hijacked and crashed into the the Twin Towers aka World Trade Center. America was completely UNPREPARED. Another Plain was hijacked and set for the Pentagon of which it was het. Then there was a 4th one I think it was going to the White House or Congress, I can't quite recall. The plain being hijacked, was actually intercepted by passengers aboard. The Plain crashed in a field in Pennsylvania.

The Jaws character who was the villain in two Bond Films has died at the age 75.

Diary 5th September 2014

Well after just a few hours sleep, I got up with a view of seeing Sex Tape(Review here) with the Best Buddies Meetup group aka Arwin's group. On my way, I bumped into Dave(who works behind the counter in Outhouse) and his friend. He too works their, Just can't think of his name. He was saying that there prob is a bunch of em, outside the Outhouse as they were closed. So I rerouted to pass the Outhouse to see if there was anyone. They all had gone.

I then went onto the cinema. Great to see it lively and bustling. Got my food and headed onto the screen. Was looking for Arwin. So I sent him a quick message just to let him know I was here. ie Checking myself in the Meetup. So he saw me. Then after the film, it was revealed that he had fallen asleep in the middle of the film. He had been at a previous meetup of a someone's birthday. So we all met outside. Had a bit of a chat. Then we all dispersed. Arwin and I headed on home. He lives close by me. So then shortly before I left him as he was quite tired, I had previously asked him, if I could add him on FB, I just couldn't remember if I actually did ask him. But eitehrway, I did ask him if he has any issues with gay people or gay rights etc., etc., Now considering his home country religion is Muslim a good chance. Am only guessing here, anyways, I was quite taken aback with his answer. His reply is he stands for Equailtiy. "If I help a poor person, don't mean I'm rich, likewise gay, If he sees a gay person in trouble and helps, don't mean he's gay.". So I said, cool, I think we'll be alrite. Ahem that his until he has to head off home due to his Visa restrictions of the Republic of Ireland.

I was chatting to a guy on Grindr. Imagine my first hook up in years. We were very close to closing the deal. heeheh. I obviously told him of my hepatitis status. BUT what stopped the meetup was his hairy chess. I ain't into a guy who has hair on his chests.

While surfing on Grindr too, I encountered a profile with an Aids symbol(In his case HIV), and I looked at his profile. I was very intrigued in what I saw. His quote NOT mine: "Seriously fellas, If you ARE going to message to ask questions: HOW I got it doesn't matter! But I'll give you a heads up lads: I didn't catch it  licking stamps. AND Yes I'm OK.". I just had to chat to him. I have taken a shine to him. He has helped me in ways no guy can understand. By that I mean, that I'm slowly accepting my  hepatitis B. Now this came from a guy who has HIV. He goes through the same stigma I go through, possibly worse. He is what I would call an Inspiration. I wrote back to him, and he said "Thanks fella". He reminded me that MOST guys are vaccinated against it or at least they should have been. I asked him, should I tell guys who I wanna have sex with or to just wait til I find that special guy. Bottomline must I tell of my status with causal sex OR wait til I have the relationship. His answer: "Grey area". He continued on by saying that "I think everybody responsible for their sexual health".

News

2 twin children have been found dead last night. It was then found that another person body has been found not too far from the twins bodies. It has been thought that it was a murder suicide. Now from my perspective, it is of my opinion that the older guy was suffering from depression, something like that. Now it is a possibility that the reason, that he couldn't talk about whatever was troubling him was one word STIGMA. Like my folks even would say it to me and to my sis, when I was battling depression. Oh get over it, or get out and about etc.,e tc., Its the likes of these that make people go physcotic or whatever. Bottomline, GET OUT THEIR AND TALK TO A PERSON YOU TRUST

Largest Dinosaur to ever walk the earth has been found in Argentina. It is thought to have been known as DreadNoughtis(aka Fearing Nothing) Shraanee as a plant eater. It would have weighed 65tonne. 11meter neck and a powerful 9meter tail. Measure 26meters in length

Dr. Martin Drennan , Bishop Of Galway is under fire for his comments on radio. He was referring to allocating money for Amach LGBT in Galway City. that was decided by the St. Vincent De Paul. Dr. Martin didn't want a Catholic Charity organsiation allocating money to an LGBT Group as it goes against the ethos of the Church of which he's a member of. No surprises there considering their past history of the Church.

Diary 25th August 2014

I hadn't gone to sleep yet. I was looking at the State Funeral of Former Taosieach Albert Reynolds. I was really touched when Fr. Brian Darcy mentioned that before Albert left politics or died, that he would like to see peace in the North. And to see Former British Prime Minister shedding a tear. That was really touching.

Throughout the whole day, I trying to scrape out the ice from my freezer. I had cleaned the Fridge part. But the Freezer was being a "Bitch". ahhaah. So I left it open for a few hours. It still came wouldn't come out. The shelf I mean.

So while the Funeral was on the TV, I was continuing the cleanup of the living area.  etc., etc.,


NEWS

Former Taoiseach Albert Reynolds was laid to rest after a funeral mass in Donnybrook, Dublin. He was laid to rest in the nearby Shangana Cemetery, Shankill.

Richard Attenborugh has died at the age of 90. He's best remembered for Gandhi in which it won 8 Oscars. For me personally, I'd have remembered him quiet well in the Jurassic Park Blockbusters series. He was the brother of Nature Documentary David Attenborough.

ESA(European Space Agency) has a launched an investigation in which an orbit went horribly wrong in that it went into the WRONG orbit. They were launched into the WRONG orbit. They blasted from French Ghiana.

Hundreds turn out for Black teenager Michael Browne who was shot by a WHITE Cop Darren Wilson in a confrontation over two week ago. It sparked several nights of rioting.

French President has literately "sacked" his government over Austerity measures.

Diary 23rd August 2014

As I've yet to sleep, hahahah, I continued with my workings. Currently cleaning the gunk or shit outta the fridge. Shortly before that, Mom invited me out for a meal. Dad and Mom collected me, and we headed out to Howth. for a bit to eat at Crabby Jo's in Howth. I pointed out to em on the way home, where Mom, Maureen, my sis and I had for a cuppa for my graduation(well end of year term in May of 09). and I also pointed out where the cycling group DublinFreeWheelers had their rest for to break the journey. Then we headed back to their place and had a cuppa.

Then I came back and finished off the fridge. So over night, I shall be leaving the shelves to stand overnight.

NEWS

The body of Albert Reynolds lies in repose in Dublin's Mansion house. It is to be brought to Donnybrook church for a Formal Removal service.

Diary 13th July 2014

As I went to bed QUITE late aka 4pm, a half hour earlier than yesterday - hahaha. It played up on getting to my sis quite late. So I then got up and got ready. Then I ended up at her place. I did appear to be a bit of a distraught ie in grievance as in the death of my Paps, good friend Sean. May he RIP. WE chatted for a bit. Its all we did. Not even a TV show let alone a movie. hahaha.

There were things on my mind. As in when I went in, I was about to burst into tears cause of the grievance. As I said to my sis on FB, "only the good ones are going". I had mentioned that I had hope to have Ailish and Noel over in the Outhouse, but then noted that they NEVER go out and or have a chat. I've always chatted with em in their house. NEVER outside. So I've had to drop them. I shall consider Mulligan(Ailish's Sister) and Eileen(Ailsih's Mom, My Mom's sister) thou. It then occurred to me, that I never had my Aunty(Nun) over at the Outhouse. She claims she ain't a homophobe. So I shall put it to her very soon.

We then chatted about Sean's death and brought many fond memories of him. (which is quite limited). I had remembered him, in terms of me helping him with the Broadband and the Cards that they used to play. My Dad and his friends used to play cards every month or so. They used to play in each others houses. When it was time for our house, my Mom would get a Chinese in for the men, and that we eat the leftovers. However since they have moved on in years, eg. Frank who suffered a stroke a few years ago, then there John Cadogan who sadly passed away a few years ago, then there's Gilbert, who has difficulty in breathing ie Tanks literally every step in his house. So its a pretty sad state of affairs. So they don't play cards anymore.

Afterwards the issue of my Mom in which I brought. Ahem the one in Romania I mean. In that I expressed the "feeling of someone following me" and dark LITERALLY dark shadows. My sis advised that its a possibility that as I have NO contact whatsoever with my birth mother and she the same with me. So my sis was trying to say that someone's trying to deliver news or contact via means of shadows or at the very least the "feeling" of being followed. Even on the way home, I heard something fall, thought it was coins or something. I even put the flash light of my cell phone on to see if anything dropped. But nothing. Then shortly afterwards, I got the "feeling" of being followed again. THANKFULLY no shadow let alone a dark one. Thats freaky alrite. But the feeling is quite scary thou. Ever since the feeling I have been getting, I have had thoughts that my Mom is actually WANTING me, as I expressed to me sis, that I have the need of being WANTED. Of course I have my Mom over hear, BUT when she goes, I'll have my sis of course, BUT NO MOM. etc., etc.,

I explained the Croke Park Debacle of Garth Brooks. I asked my sis who does me Pops blame. He said Garth himself. I somewhat agree. BUT, I actually blame the Promoters and the GAA. Of course he wouldn't blame the GAA. He loves his GAA - hahahah.

Then a delicate topic was brought up. I brought it up as inspired by Touched By An Angel whereby a person was having an episode of Paranoid Schizophrenia. I asked her if there was a way, I could "see" what that person is actually seeing whilst having the episode.

Dad loosing buckets of weight in our opinion cause of the "potential" loss of medical card. As I explained already about his medical card entitlements, my Dad's Medical card will be revoked which will be a big blow if it is being revoked. Now we men, don't like to express our feelings or whatever, clearly by his Weight loss, that's a possibility. Now his Dr., did say thou to loose weight, BUT the amount of weight he has lost, its a bit of a worry. In that he's hardly eating unlike the way he used to. He's even giving me food that he can't fininsh. So my sis n I came to the conclusion that's its a possibility that he's ain't eating as much, so that he can save on Medical Bills, ie Medication etc.,


Shortly before I left my sis, I asked her what does she think of what my friend Todd had said. In that when I was with him at the bar after Mrs. Brown's Boys: D'Movie(Review here) he had expressed on the way to the movie, his concern relating to a post I had put up. He's referring to a Hangman post. In which it states that if you continue to push a person to the limits, he/she may die ie through suicide or whatever. I had denied of such. He said that it must have been on my mind at the time.

Then I had stated that I have lost the mojo, or moxi or whatever when relating to the Citizenship and getting the requirements. I had told her, that I was moving to New York NOT for homophobia reasons, BUT the lack of respect or love from the LGBT Community over hear. Then relating to the Gay Marriage Referendum that  as the Referendum has been moved to Spring of '15, that I've lost the mojo for that too in getting the Citizenship Documents prepped up.

My sis was worried that when she tags a person that her name will appear on her exs page. As I understand, if you block a person, you're name will NOT be visible to that person. As far as that person is concerned, the person will think you've deleted your Facebook Account.

So I arrived home safe and sound, after the weird visioning, I had been encountering on the way home. I found my remote, that I had been searching for a few hours. I had to resort to manual which is a pain. I had to use the buttons on the Box in question.

I finally can now continue to download my gay porn. I had to pause it as my router was reset with the amount of disconnection on a constant basis. It was annoying me. So I reset it and compeltly forgot about my porn connection. I had forgotten how to forward my ports which is required to download Torrents ie gay porn.

NEWS

Germany first to win as a Unified Nation. West Germany won 3 times.. No European nation has ever won the Competition in South America

Bill O' Herlihy bows out after 50 years on TV. Anchored 10 World Cups. The 1990 World Cup was a career highlight. Born in Cork. He started his career with the Cork Examiner.  Moved from Print to RTE CA then to Sport. His Swan Song is gonna be the FIFA World Cup Final 2014 between Argentina and Germany.

It has been announced that Minister for Mental Health Kathleen Lynch(Labour) has been confirmed as to staying in her portfolio with an added responsibility of Primary Care. The remaining Junior Minisiterys will be announced by An Taoiseach Enda Kenny TD on Tuesday.

Pope Francis has been quoted as saying that he intends on finding a "Solution" to the celibacy issue of the Catholic Church.

The Fault in Our Stars

Well the movie was quite interesting but hugely emotional. The plot was quite simple, but complex at the same time. From what I could gather it was initially suggested that one of the lovers, which I will outline in due course, was dying of cancer. However as I rightly pointed out, it was actually both of em. Hazel(Woodley) is dieiing of cancer. Not sure the exact medicinal name. She has an Oxygen Tank to help her around. When she was a kid, she had an episode whereby her lungs were fluidly. She is being put on tablets as an experiment to absorb the fluid in her lungs. So afterwards, we see that she is highly depressed and her Mom suggests a Cancer Support group in an Episcopal church. Here she meets Gus(Augustus Waters - what a lovely name)(Elgort). He's some babe alrite. So precious. He too is dying of cancer. We are introduced with him as in he comes in with a mate of his Isaac(Wolfff). He too has a medical condition, in his case the Eyes. He eventually goes blind. Gus however is dying. His cancer has affected his leg and hence has a Prosthetic leg. Isaac's girlfriend Monica dumps him when he goes fully blind, sighting she can't deal with a person being blind. Gus and Hazel go out with each other and develop romantic feelings for each other. He uses a lovely metaphor with cigarettes. He is about to light the cigarette. He continues that if he DOESN'T light the cigarette that the cancer cannot be made worse "You put the killing thing right between your teeth, but you don't give it the power to do its killing. A metaphor.". So it is revealed that Hazel is book reader ie a book worm. She has this particular book that's of interest to her. She wants to head on over to Amsterdam, where the Author  is living. The scene of where Gus was on the plane and was told that was "his first time". I said to my friend, I can totally sympathize with him. As the plane was taking off, I felt I was actually on the plane. It went right through me. I just have a fear of flying especially with the taking off. Even the thought of it, makes me wanna vomit. I just can't handle it. Ill prob need Valium to control my anxiety. As Gus was taking off, on the plane, I felt his pain and excitement, I was the same. When the plane was moving, he was smiling and excited and likewise myself. When the plane reveed up to take off, He started to get anxious like me. Gus was so me(ahem the plane scene that is). Then he said about the scenery looking out the window. Yep you guessed it. Same with me. Shame I couldn't take pics on the plane. I think these days, you can. Then shortly afterwards they arrived safe and sounds in Amsterdam. They came across Peter Van Houten(Dafoe) who is the book author that Hazel is madly in love with. She wanted to know the ending of the book. He insulted her to the hills with particular reference to her illness. I was so crushed to hear such words. That she is " failed experiment in mutation." HE was such an ass. Gus reveals to Hazel that his cancer has come back with a vengeance. And hence he set up a "Pre-Funeral". He wants her to read a eulogy. Sadly Gus passed away. The cancer ate up his heart, previously his legs went. The scene where she was crying her eyes, lots of emotions came to mind. Namely my mom's death(which obv hasn't occurred) and my exs breakup as my heart was giving out to me  with  the  stress  of  the breakup. 

http://imdb.com/rg/an_share/title/title/tt2582846/

Diary 29th April 2014

I regret to inform you all that yet another Facebook family has passed away of suspicious circumstances. I first found out when I stumble upon a profile page of a familiar friend I knew William Jackson then it changed to RIP William Jackson. I just naturally assumed it was a joke. SO then I was doing some administration stuff ie tidying up my Facebook spreadsheet as I said all this in yesterday's blog. Then when I saw this page again and saw all the messages of support, tears began rolling outta my eyes when I learned the seriousness. Peter H J had only gotten engaged to William J by a few weeks I remember. William hadn't told his folks that he was engaged let alone married. But sadly Peter found William dead. I wrote to his former partner's page(William's) and Peter's page in question of support during this hard time. May William Rest In Peace.

I finally figured out a way to share my PIxable likes. PIxable actually provides a View Source link. Which then links me to the origin ie Facebook. Then I can share as normal. I am so delighted. hahaha

While I was watching TV in particular the News last night, my Sky Box got update with a new layout and User Interface. While I welcome the re-ogranisation and the features, it leaves the actual user interface alot to be desired, in that it appears alot darker and very modern ie more techie. Its the Theme is a bit of a trouble. but no doubt Ill prob get used to it. hahaah

I was due to get my Dole today, however I slept through the alarm. Now I went to bed after Dallas around 11am. So that didn't help. But while I continued to sleep, thoughts were racing through my mind of which the following was occurring in me head.
I'm not one bit surprised of Maureen's(Nun) views on homosexuality cause of the Catholics Church's views on the subject. BUT my mom should have known better. In that she knows a gay couple in the States yet she never told me why they were holding hands(the two Lizs) and nor only that she knew a gay person in her teaching career yet WHY THE HELL DID SHE BULLY HER OWN SON (ahem her so called son - the fostered one - if even that). My view on the subject is she sees me as a stranger. Well how can anyone blame me. The fact that my ex has forgotten all the horrible things that were done to him, (I'm grateful for him forgetting that - tahts a blessing in disguise).

I then was suppose to go to my weekly visit of my sis. However she wasn't feeling well. So I just continued staying on in bed. And got up around eventually at at half 11pm in the evening. So I just looked at Dallas and now the NEws.

Diary 28th April 2014

"Those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind. THis was the quote I was looking for yesterday. Well UPDATE I finally found it. I had seen it on a friend's(Mark Patrick H) Facebook in which he had updated a status with this quote. How this came about was that he liked my comment in which i Had said"My ex used to say taht all the time". I was going mad for hours until literally a few minutes ago. It took a notifciaotin from Facebook to let me know where I got this quote. ANd me looking up various sociatl networks looking up messages, etc.,

While I was at my computing, I noticed a bit of noise above me. Then I heard it beside me. I'm talking about above me as in neigbors likewise beside me. Then I heard more and even more louder noise. And when I looked out da window, Low and behold, I saw sirens from all corners of the street. I then went out in my onesie and asked whats going on. Fire was seen and smoke billlowing outta the ground(kinda weird) if you ask me. I later on only realised there is an underground Car park(Parking lot to my US Buddies). There was several fire brigades., a police car. As you can see in the first pic, the apartment just over the car park, there was a gay guy living there. I first came across him on Grindr and Grindr told me he was only a few feet away. He obviously wasn't into me. WE chatted briefly. I have seen him around. Clearly I knew he was gay. However I think he has since moved out, but elsewhere in the block, cause I hadn't seen him for a while. But I only saw him recently. But going further inside the complex meaning he has moved elsewhere.

Here's some pics of the resulting fire. From what I saw there was a white tape indicating a crime scene.

 


On a separate event, yesterday I was suppose to bring Chips to my sis. However I got distracted when I heard my neighbor next door closing her door, she then approached me as I was closing my door and said where are the bins(Waste Bins). I wasn't sure anything about em, as I don't use them. So I said she should contact the landlord. Now she was being nice and all. But this is the same person, from what I understand that the landlord does NOT allow more than one person in his flat. Cuase I told him a few months ago, that there was a man coming down the steps and passing my place. He found that a bit strange. Then recently I was checking the post for my sis and obv myself(sometimes her post still goes there) and I saw the same guy BUT this time with a  bicycle going into the apartment where the woman who asked about the bins. She comes in night hours. So its possible she could be a nurse or something.

SO I went off for a few winks after the early morning events. See above.
This is another strange but disturbing dream still connecting to my vegetarianism and my childhood in Romania.
I'm with my sis in my folks place in  the front room playing music videos. Then dad (the one who raised me and loved and loves me) brings in a ROMANIAN cow not an Irish one BUT A FREAKIN ROMANIAN cow. And says to me I want you to eat it. As disturbing as that sounds. sis n I then go to tescos to get a bit of grub. She's elsewhere in the shop. I'm in the yoghurt isle. I accidentally drop 1 r 2. I pick em up n go and purchase them. While picking em up i hear  shop assistants looking for em amongst themselves but I just continue bringing the broken ones to the counter.
Then i meet sis n mom r Maureen outside and I see them sitting on a bench in the dark with a fire keeping them warm. I exclaim that that is lovely. There is a man in front of the fire more or less saying the same thing in other words agreeing with me. Then I go to take my phone camera out to take a picture of the fire. However the man has blown out the fire.
Now separately but quite strange it's related well at least to the  Romanian cow at  least. I was wanting to tell my Neighbor who approached me regarding  bins that  they could be hidden inside the shed. So I popped along might I ad naked. So I ring the door bell r knock on the door. A man answers by right he shouldn't b there but anyways none of my business. Jnr wakes up when i start to picture the guy in trackies and I exclaim out loud to him "boy u r cute". I then say but this isn't the point. The point is the bins. Your roommate r whatever u call each other bf gf, the woman who lives here asked about the bins. I just remembered that my sis used to live above me and the landlord used to talk to her and said the shed. So then she popped out i said to her that if u were given a key r a combination lock code to try it. The bins could be there. Then out of the blue she saying that I'm her son. Now can anyone tell me how can you tell that by seeing a naked guy that I'm there son. So I asked her a few qs  like her name my orphanage name where I'm from surprisingly she answered them all including why she has a different accent, (English) like i have a different accent but some how ppl can tell I'm. foreign. So then I in a fit of anger I call mom (I'm sure u all should know who my mom is by now) and say "I'm getting da hell outta ere." But however it's too late. I have been kidnapped. But miraculously i posted "HELP HELP MY MOM WANTS ME BACK IN ROMANIA PLS HELP" on my Facebook. When my Romanian mother asks me about sis i says we ain't blood we grew up together in the orphanage n Ireland. To get out of it, I then say I'm gay. Cause I'd know that she wouldn't accept as shes Eastern European where Romania is. But not that didn't stop her.
The Dream ends when I wake up with my eyes very soar and with the tears dried up and all crusted up. Then when I was int he middle of sorting out my FB Friends on my spreadsheet one of the friends had a status of Page Not Found - which Facebook has if the person has blocked you or you have blocked them. So I found that while I was going through my mates on my spreadsheet. So when I stumbleupon a friend of mines RIP William Jackson page, I came across this page a few weeks ago. And thought it was a joke or something, but as it happens that it was actually William had actually day. NO words can describe the shock and horror I had gotten when I learned of his death. Like Peter had only engaged to him a few months ago. As my originally family as in the relatives mainly didn't work out, I started to get more involved on my Facebook family ie Friends.

Diary 20th February 2014

Today was a somewhat busy day. Following is the scheduled.

• Lidls shopping
• Laundry
• Crina

Mom collected me shortly after 1pm. Before Mom met me, I was very upset over the passing of one of my dear FB Friends: Richard Hancock. He had passed away of natural causes. He was very young(well no matter his age) that's the way I see him. May RIP. 

So when I got up, Mom met me and collected Crina afterwards. She was waiting at the steps. I couldn't stop admiring her top she had bought with my voucher I gave her for Christmas. We first dined in the Yacht of which I ordered my  salad that I loved.

Then we all headed off to Lidls in Artane. This was a new branch they opened. Twas magnificent. My bill was €25. Twas very good value. For 5 Bread, 5 OJ, 5 Milk, yeah great value. So Mom left both of us home, I helped Crina with her shopping. 

Then shortly afterwards when Mom left me home, I started to get things ready for the laundry. So stripped the bed and now its in the laundry. I was as always struggling with bringing the laundry to the shop. Then just literally right around the corner from the shop, I was battling hail stones. I kinda thought thou when I think about it, that one of the clouds in the sun(might I add), had a funny funnel shaped cloud. While right beside it, I saw a cloud shaped like a crystal clear mountain. Either Way Hail stones pouring outta the heaven, I mean like what gives.

So after the Laundry, I tried again to see if I could get my haircut, So I saw that the door was indeed opened so went up and as I was the only customer, he took me in. I asked him what had happened last week, when I attempted to get my haircut. He went onto explain that the place was opened. I said that I couldnt even get in, he said that he was prob getting lunch or something and that he had forgotten to put in a piece of paper to prevent the door from being locked. ANYways I got my haircut, of which I was delighted. He did say will I miss my warmth of the mop, I said that I rarely ever feel either difference. So I came home, in the sunshine might I add - hahaha as it was atoricuos going to the laundry.

I then headed to Crian like I do every week and on a SUnday too. Twas a wonderful and lovely and a comedic visit. WE were looking at Jackass Presents: Bad Grandpa. I most certainly was not impressed with the film, bottom line far too crude. No doubt. So we then looked at The Millers, and The King Of QUeens. Twas a most hearty evening. As I described to her, Instead of me going home crying my eyes out like last week, I was delighted to be walking home with a big happy face or as Lisa Simpson "Put on a Happy Face".

One thing I would like to point out thou, whenever I'm with Crina, my fam(minus the relatives), I feel like the young shy guy(well Crina feeling like a normal guy - depends on the mood I guess), BUT whenever I'm with my mates ie Brendans or anyone in the OUthouse ie THE GAY COMMUNITY(I am GEORGAN, not a shy guy. I have been feeling like this ever since I came out. ie like as if there was 2 GEorgians. I'm gonna have to bring this up with my Therapist on MOnday, see what he makes of it.
Another group of people I feel very comfortable around with ie being Georgian would be my FB mates. I've known a gud few of em be they allies or the LGBT Community. One person I have been in several contacts in recent years is my dear friend Karen Love. I have known her for several years now. How we met(FB) was actually through Cafe World. I recently regained contact with her.  I thought she had lost her job or something. But anytime I'm chatting with her I feel am in NYC there and then. Shes an ally of gays. She ain't gay herself, but fights for our rights. Im proud to call her a bestie.