Diary 30th July 2015

Today was somewhat a less of a busy day. I got up for 2pm. Our next job is to get a solicitor to Witness my signature in front of a Solicitor. So both Mom and I headed their to witness the signature of me signing it in front of the solicitor. So after much too frowing etc., We got out business dealt with the solicitor. So our next job was to Certify the Birth Certificate, however even with this he needs the Birth Cert translated Officially. So we'll be heading in tomorrow to do so or at least start it. heeh

Afterwards, Mom treated me to a beautiful Choppy(Review here). Then afterwards, I left my bike to be repaired, as it ain't well. hahahah

So then afterwards, I headed to pop my head into Outhouse . Great buz around. hahaah. I then onto cineworld to see Ted 2(Review here)

NEWS

Its a possibility that a debris pieces of the missing Flight MH370, has washed ashore on Reunion Island, South Africa. Flight MH370 went missing in MArch '14. Bound for Beijing travelling from Kaula Lampur.

Diary 29th July 2015

Well what a day it was. Oh my. Like just wow. I perhaps maybe coy or blowing my own trumpet, but my aim is to get Irish Citizenship so that I can have a "voice" in the next General Election, due 2016 to be precise February.

So with this in mind, I headed to my folks to start the administration process of gathering documentation, On the way, I was taking pics of my babes - hahah hardly the +Inflatables Stanescu or +Puppys Stanescu Awww but the trees and flowers.

Following is requirements to apply for the Citizenship of the Republic of Ireland:

• 3 Proof of Residency for 5 Years in the State
• 3 Months Bank Statements of the last 6 months
• Copys of Birth Cert(and if in OTHER language, translate and COPY that too)
• Copies of Passport pages(The main page in color)

Now I spent about 2hrs or so on printing etc., I was getting extremely nerving when I couldn't find any proof of residency in 2011. You see as one of a classic quote from a film says "let me tell you a story", When I moved out of the family home, I was going through homophobia, and hence didn't want any part of the family tree. So I decided to go back to my birth name Georgian Stanescu. I had been using George Coffey, which is the Irish name or as me Pops would say: "Foster name". So the reason I bring this up, is that some of my bills surmise this. In that they's on my bill heads etc which is a big no no for the application. So Dad suggested I get the Solicitor to help me out of this mess, until Mom suggested use the college as in NCI, when I was there from 2004-2009 and 2010 for the HDip. 

So while I was doing all the printing, I was also trying to figure out with my pops, sort out the bike,, as in the "puncture". So Dad came to the conclusion that it was the valve causing the puncture or the air letting out. So I've to go to the bike shop tomorrow, to try and get it sorted. All that was going through my mind, costs are mounting etc., 

So that said, I set on my merry way. I headed home first to get ready for the cinema. It was my intention to see +Terminator Genisys (Review here). I first popped me head into Outhouse to have a looksie. Lar had mentioned that my accent has been getting "sharper" and hence we both "got lost in translation". So then I headed to the film. hahaah

NEWS

Cecil has been shot dead. Cecil the lion, who is most famous in Zimbabwe, was hunted down cruelly. It is understood that he was shot with an arrow, but failed, so a shot gun was used to gun down so cruelly that it can't be put in my diary entry. 

Diary 26th July 2015

Again I wasn't able to get a good quality of sleep. So I got up slightly earlier than scheduled. Was recording King of Queens. When I realised after this that the recordings were NOT as expected, I was mad. So I said I'D drop everything and got up and set off to PC World to get my new USB Drive and the USA Clothing from Penney's. I had planned on getting em at 5pm ie leaving at 5pm, hwoever it wasn't to be. So I set off at 3ish.

Next as I hopped on my bike, I realsied there was a puncture. I was so sure and still could be that somebody punctured, I ain't sure. I will have to ask em Pops.

So I set off walking instead. I was gonna cycle on a puncture, however I then remembered that the last time I did so, I would have to get a NEW Wheel altogether costing me over €20. So I said I'd just walk.

So I brought my Rainbow Umbi ie Umbrella, hahaah. Just as I was nearing PC World, Umbi, wouldn't stay up, I was quite baffled and still am. I then wanted a pic of a display in Arnotts of a large Magnum. Sammy 2(phone) wouldn't work. I restarted, didn't restated. I was surprised. the battery couldn't have gone. It was at 39%. So was baffled. IT eventually worked and got to get a pic of the Silver Magnum ice cream display. awwww.

So then onwards to PC World, got the USB Stick. Then onto Penneys' in O' Connell St. More than delighted with it. Was looking for USA clothing, not one was to be seen. heheheh. So I got other stuff.

So I came back and recorded two episodes of Knots Landing. And lo and behold it WORKED. I was so overwhelmed and delighted. The USB stick was the MAIN reason, for not getting any news since last Wed. Now anyone who knows me, should know I easily  get ticked off or pissed off if I don't get my daily dose of News - hahahaha.

NEWS

The Special Olympics of 2015 has been officially been launched. It is in Las Vegas. Over 100 delegates are representing Ireland. 165 Countries are partaking in the Games. Over 25 sports will be played over 9 days

Diary 14th May 2015

Met Ronan for to see Avengers: Age of Ultron(Review here). Firstly in the Outhouse. Lovely rainbow cake. mmmm Then onto film. he was a  bit anxious for my bike being stolen. He never brings his bike into the city.

Diary 13th March 2014

Well today it was my plan to go to Lidls for my bike stuff and then ALdis for the T-shirts. However I got a call from me Pops to help him initially with the Electrical Goods he wanted to get rid of. I pointed out that 1stly that I was wanting to go to Lidls and Aldis to get bike stuff. and 2dnly as I didn't have anything to get rid of that I wouldn't be of any use. However really he wanted help to get rid of his stuff. So I was cool with that. We organised to get to Lidls for 9sih. I decided that from now on isntead of being late and getting items that I want from both Aldis and Lidls that I stay up for them, and then head to bed.

So Dad collected me at my gate 9 and we both headed to Lilds. I went around with him, getting bits and pieces. Getting my fav. Bread. Then to the bike accessories.

Then on the way out, he suggested that we pop into Tescos to have a looksie. We got a few items. I asked him about Maureen getting a new phone. And boy was I not prepared for what was to happen next. As I understand it, she got a Samsung Galaxy Trend Plus(I looked up the O2 site based on "Samsung Galaxy" + €150). He suggested to Maureen that she don't get a sophisticated phone, considering her age and the fact that she don't need half those items. Of which I totally agreed. As my sis said previously, if she were to get a phone that sophisticated, it would to ensure both Crina n I are doing something worthwhile with our day. Which she speaks the truth too. Total bull if you ask me. But the truth.

So onwards we went onto Aldis. Dad stayed in the car, while I got my t-shirts. Of which I returned more than a few t-shirts. I actually got the sweat pants I was actually looking for. Was overda da moon to learn of this.

So we then headed back home, to his place. As he wanted to empty the car with all the shopping of ours and so to make room for the electrical to get rid of. WE headed to the recycling bank. We were surprised to see the Banks closed, no staff visible yet there was a tour of some form going on with school kids.

SO we headed back home. Dad had to be home for a plumber. Mom had come home from the hosp visiting her sister who's getting some nose jobs(lumps removal). So  we all sat down for a bit to eat. Dad got a phonecall from his Niece. They chatted for a bit. Mom thou wants me DESPERATELY outta my place. Unless my landlord has the balls to say Georgian, go elsewhere while we refurbish your place. Honestly not that hard. Mom also wants me to "sample" New York. I don't wanna. I wanna live there. She also wants me to go back to Technical Support either my means of a job or training or course or whatever. But I've grown outta of it. She asked me my plans for my 30th. I told her some of it, I didn't wanna tell her i Have plans of going to a Bathhouse(Boilerhouse). SO after a long comprehend and battle for freedom, I wanna headed home but first collect my duvet.

They gave me a surprise of which was by no means of a no battle zone, they both surprised me to get a bike for me. I told em I wanna waited for Crina's bday. which is in a few weeks. There's no saying NO to these two. hahah.

SO first we set about getting my duvet, of which was no surprise to learn that it ain't ready(what's new). Latest excuse is now that it won't be ready for another hour. Like I was gonna wait another hr let alone Mom n Dad who were dropping me down to the laundry.

So onwards we went to the bike. Dad bought me the bike. Funnily speaking, the bike I saw a few weeks ago was still there. hahaha. SO I met both Mom, Dad at my gaf.

So when I arrived home, I put stuff away. So now ama going into hibernation til tomoz. So ill speak to you all later after a long tiresome day.

Diary 4th March 2014

 Dream

I'm in my apt then da cops n emergency services r outside. They ring my doorbell to see if everything's alrite. Of course everything's cool. My ma assumed otherwise. Then in a twist of faith the beach boys, yeah u's heard me, the beach boys are going to an event next door and one of dem asks me if I'm alrite. Den he sees a hot guy pic on my computer and says and I quote "We have something in common".

another dream:

Michael, Kathleen all chatting with me like da good old times. Ahhh memories.

Then I woke up with banging at my door, no surprise this time it was my sister Crina, who desperately wanted my help. I gave cups of tea, So when she left she was cool.

So onto my busy day(As per Tuesday), however with 2 extra ingredients which I will outline in due course.

So my first port of call was An Post, where I collect my weekly dosh.

It was then onto my Dry Cleaners to collect my duvet cover. I was shocked to hear that the duvet is not ready. Even after a week. I explained that last year, I had the exact same duvet back within a few days. He explained it could be to do with the weather or something. So I said ill try again on Saturday.

So with that in mind, I decided to head onto the Jewellers of which I discovered was right beside the Outhouse. So that's cool. I got my watch battery replaced. Twas quite expensive. So nothing could be done.

So then back to the Outhouse to initially to see the CCTV Footage from the night the bike was stolen. I bumped into a good old friend of mine. Dayne. Twas wonderful to see him, after such a long time. Oh and not forgetting to see my pal Brendan S. Twas wonderful to see him too. We joked, laughed to our hearts content. Then Declan K joined us. Twas a vibrant and wonderful outing alrite. A Tech person from the Office of the Outhouse was called by the cafe worker(of which I requested) to see if I could see the CCTV. I was explained that if I wanna see the actual footage, the Manager of the building(Tiffany) would need to be there in the building. But as she was off, I wasn't able to. However the tech person did tell me and noted that, the bike was a great struggle in being stolen. Then he headed down towards the city. So which proves that I actually had locked it. Which I was delighted. But still was baffled, how did he actually get away. Considering it was raining and wet and it was dark, the thief also had a hoodie, so he couldn't see the face. So with this information armed, I decided before I headed home, that I actually call into the cops and see what could be done with this information.

I den headed onto the Bridewell Garda Station. Eventually when I was seen to, the Garda on duty took down the extra information I was armed with in the Outhouse by the Tech person. The Garda told me that the Investigating Garda would get back to me.

So then I made a long trail of a walk to my home, but decided to head to the pharmacy to find out what's going on with the growth that's at the side of me. Starting to bugger me. I was startled to find out that its a possibility that its the due tot he lack of Vitamin B12. As a result of vegetarianism and possibly now Veganism. As I was heading home, I was pondering what could it be that I was lacking in. It couldn't have been strictly Vegetarianism as I have been one for just over a year now. So I den went onto figure out what could it be? I then realised that I had left out Yoghurt. Haven't taken it for a very long time. The pharmacist suggested an item, for 10 bucks. For 60 capusles, I find that a tad bit expensive alrite.

When I got home, I got myself brekkie, then I was chatting to a very good mate of mine, Brandon whom I asked does he know any food that would have B12. And to my surprise, he actually mentioned the Yogurt. Which I was surprised. So am chatting wit me Sis about this, so to this. Am baffled as to what to do.
On a different topic, in my latest attempt to troubleshoot why I can't download apps, I decided to just revert back to factory settings. So to backup my stuff, I transferred items and files using File Manager to SD Card. There use to be a way I could transferred items via Wireless. I'm baffled with this too as to what to do.

Diary 2nd March 2014

TOday I got up quiet and serene. I headed down to see Crina as my weekly visit. When I arrived, Mom was there. WE chatted for a bit. Mom specified two items. She is under the illusion that I wanna move out. SHe has been asking my sis to look up daft.ie(Ireland's Property website). She hates where I'm livin, however she ain't the one living. I am. She is due to go to a viewing tomorrow(Monday). I say let her make an idot of herself. She hasn't listened. Well now she can go to all the viewings. THe only time I will ever move out is to New York. Not any other apt. Before she headed off, she told me that after my psychotherapy, that me Pa will be collecting me to get a new bike. However as pointed out in the following blog entry I can't allow my Paps to purchase a new bike for me. Not within my conscious. So as I said to her that I wanna be able to purchase it myself. In reply she said that I wouldn't want to fool Dad. I said back to her, that its up to her to fool him or not. I asked that she pass on the message.
Twas a nice visit and pleasant. However when I was browsing my Facebook on my Mobile device, I saw a quite interesting post that a friend of mine, had posted. It was in relation to Tim Cook, Apple's current Chief Executive(CEO). One thing that blew my mind was that he's actually gay. I wanted to double check this just to ensure that the post was actually true. To my surprise and happiness he is. Crina was wondering what was going on, like why was I so happy. Like think about it, the world's most powerful guy on earth: the Chief Executive of a very successful company is actually gay. Oh my god. Ama so happy to hear of this and still am.

When I got home, I continued to find out why I can't update or download my Android apps or install new ones. Or why it is so slow. My next troubleshooting method was to move the apps to the SD card and see would that do anything. I did Number to A(Apps names beginning with a number and letter "A"). I deleted cache, and data. Still to no avail. Im gonna do the next method. Which I am dreading, but something has to be done. I removed my PRIMARY Google account. It worked for awhile until I re added it back, back to square one.

Diary 21st February 2014

Today was of somewhat interesting day. I showered and headed off to Cineworld to see Mr. Peabody & Sherman. Review here. I had previously booked it online. However when I arrived at the ATM machine in the cinema, it didn't recognise it. So I had to queue up for the ticket. I asked the staff(which happened to be the staff member who wished me a Happy New Year earlier this year) and he said that the booking was "Auto-Cancelled", which I never heard of. He went onto to explain that as I wasn't on time, the booking was automatically cancelled. Not that it didn't bother me. So anyways, I went ahead got my ticket, then headed to the screen to see the film.

After the film, I went to the Outhouse to relax while I was waiting for B. O' F. I got myself a cuppa tea. DK, came down to me to say that BS, wanted to see me ie chat. Men's night has been moved to the LIbrary. I was in the cafe. So I went up to the library. In a joking format(me being an Irish lad, getting my humour from me Da, ) I said that am holding you all to hostage. Patrick wanted to know what was going on, hahha. So BS, came out to me and chatted. He apologised profusely for what had happened. He went onto to explain his reasons. Which was fair, and accepted his explanation. He explained that due to his CP, that he tends to say things without thinking. I replied, while that is acceptable, at the same time, you have to take in the feelings for the other person. So then he went on to say that he needs time apart(you'd swear we were a couple or something). We ain't. I just don't get it. We are friends. I had hoped BESTIES. He went onto say that for him to get time apart, that he may remove as a friend(Facebook, i take it). I was secretly crushed when I heard this. He also went on to say if not removed on FB then to cut down on the contact ie texting or calls etc., He did say one valuable thing alrite. Which was that with the names on this blog, that could harm is reputation or ppl in the OUthouse might know who Brendan S, that sorta thing. So from now on, I'll only use Initials. E.g Georgian S will now become G.S. etc, etc.,

I then headed to the cinema again, this time for A New York's Winter's Tale. REview here. But before I headed off, I asked about the CCTV aspects. The receptionist told me, to just simply call during the week and ask to see the CCTV footage from the 7th. I met B. OF, in the cafe bar. I asked B. OF advice on the above matter, and simply put he said that BS was going a bit too far in terms of removing me as a friend or whatever. I explained to B. O'F, that B.S. wanted a bit of space from me, he said more or less, still its a bit too much or "silly". We then went up to see the film.

I then headed to Crina's to drop up my dinner that Mom had given me, last week, Tues I think. So I got to do the route, I wanted to do the last time. But was delighted that I actually got to do the route. I went up with BOF as far as O'Connell St. He had to get the bus there. So we departed there, I continued onto Talbot St., AMiens St., North Strand Rd., Fairview, Howth Rd., We chatted for a bit.

Diary 13th February 2014

WEll today was to be a very busy day for me. The following is what was in store for me.

Haircut
Aldis or LIdls
Outhouse
BRidewell Garda Station
Jewellers
Corrigan's PHarmacy
Crina

Now tell me I ain't sitting on my ass all day let alone sleeping my life away. hahaha. So before I headed on my long awaiting day, I had brekkie first while waiting for Rory O' Neill(aka my true inspiration Miss Panti, PanitBLiss) on Ireland AM(Ireland's version of Good Morning AMerica). However due to the ongoing controversy of the GSOC(Garda Siochana Ombudsman Commission) and the ongoing Weather problems, the program had to concentrate on those issues instead of Rory. So with that in mind, I headed off on my errands as I put it.

So off to Drumcondra to get my haircut, however when I got their there was no one, which I found strange. Maybe the weather is playing havoc with them getting to work or something.

So onto my next assignment(hahha). I decided to go Domonic Street, as I wasn't sure which Aldis or Lidl would appear, I just went with the flow. As it happens it was my fav Aldis was on my path. So I got sugar for my sis.

THen onto BrideWEll Garda Station to report my bike being stolen as advised by Clontarf Garda Station last . THe Garda on duty was most helpful. I gave a brief description. I was slightly nervous. But who isn't.

So then onto the OUthouse, for a cuppa tea before my long journey home well Crina's. Afterall I had walked an hour so far, which was so tiring. When I arrived at the OUthouse, no one was around to serve tea, I was advised that there is training for staff going on atm, so then I decided to head off, but just as I was getting ready, a staff member came round. However as I was gonna be late for Crina, i decided to just to head off to her place.


As I was on my way to Corrigan's Pharmacy to get stuff for myself, I only realised that I was suppose to go to the Jewellers. Never fear, Ill attempt to on Sat. So I made my way very tiring way up Drumcondra, Griffith Ave., then Malahide. I was exhausted after walking another hour. Thats a total of 2 hrs, and thats not even near my place. Aww well as my site(DailyMile.com) asks me how am I enjoying the exercise an d to quote myself "Loving every moment of it". So I arrived of course safe and sound, but still physically exhausted. So as I was getting my stuff, I asked the pharmacist, would I be ale to use Soya milk INSTEAD of cow's milk in Complan. I loved Complan until it started playing up my lactose intolerance. She said yes of course. So with a happy smile, I bought one and said thats gonna be my dinner from now on. Can't wait to start on the stuff.

I arrived at Crina's with a very nearly collapsing legs. I was that exhausted. Like I wasn't even in the Outhouse for 5mins, when I was told it may be nearly a half hour to wait for a cuppa tea. Obviously nothing can be done. We had a great laugh. Overall it was a very mixed visit. For this segment, for the protection of my sis, I will just give a synopsis. I was taking pics of myself using the front camera of my Sammy. She thought I was taking a pic of herself, which I'd never do without permission. This goes to everyone. So make a laugh, she asked that I show the pic of "herself". I made it out to be so serious - hahaha. Really it was a pic of myself facepic. But I made it so serious that she was serious. So when I showed her, we cursed like hell at me, it was unreal. We had a great laugh. But however the night turned sower to a certain degree, again stressing protection. SHe told me that she  had told the two culprits(Mom n Dad) about my bike being stolen. I was shocked and appalled, to hear of such. I thought she was joking or pising with me. Somehow I kinda knew she would tell them. But whats even worse, is not her, its him. He actually knew that I was lying,so why the hell can he not be man enough and say to my face and say, I know you're telling a lie(which he hates - who does), Aww well Im just gonna have to go ahead with the lie. And just pretend Im still the hero in all of this. However nothing was prepared for what was about to happen. My sister in the past has explained that in the past, when she's withdrawing(of which for protection I will not go into), she comes out with all sorts of abuse - of which int he past I have accepted and I was grand. I'd just ignore it. That said, this time round was totally different, which was this time, my inflatable snowman and snowy(pics of which are on my Facebook acc) that took her electricity by storm. We had discussed this in the past, of which I acknowledged and compensated her via a gift of some form. Just can't recall it exactly. Again I don't condone what she exactly she said. Again my POPs is who I condone. I was made out to be the selfish one in this instance. I was deeply hurt, and very teary on the way home. WE are all in hard times, yet my dad had the cheek to say to her that I should have paid her back every cent(well at the very least half of it). Again WHY THE HELL DOESN'T HE HAVE DA BALLS TO COME TO MY FACE AND SAY IT. WAit I forgot, I'm the SENSITIVE TYPE. Im sure my sis told him that he did by getting me a gift, but he said STILL I DON'T CARE. So he paid her.
When I got home, I was shaking violently(not seizure type - the general). It took me several minutes that a wonderful visit was met by a hurtful ending. Now she obviously didn't mean any of it, however as I have said in my previous posts, confrontations etc., WORDS DO HURT and ARE POISONOUS.

Diary 12th February 2014

Today was to be a busy day to day, as in, I was suppose to go and get my haircut and to report my Bike being stolen to Bridewell Garda Station. However, I just didn't have the energy to get up for 3pm. :(.
As the weather was outrageous,  my alarm kept going off waking me up hence my energy levels were very low. Then someone rang my doorbell once then went. Then I kept hearing a bang bang constantly, couldn't figure it out. So I just tried blanking it outta me mind. So while this was going on outside, I was thinking about me ex, which I have been of recent times. Don't know why. I then wanted to proclaim my love to him, but instead of saying I Love You Keith, I actually said Sean a guy I have been chatting to for a while now. I was thinking like this as I have been feeling unloved and very lonely of late. While I welcome my sister's new found friendship very much, and her depression hasnt been of da best, I have been feeling unloved with my folks lies don't help. As explained yesterday, I didn't ask them, why do they want me in their lives, if they can't accept their son etc.,

Usually if i'm going to the cinema with my mate Brendan O' F, we would arrange the night before or at least I'd get a missed call when I wake up and then we arrange. However when I didn't see anything, I was thinking sure I'll leave Dallas and Knots Landing(let the Box fill up - hence they don't get recorded) and just sleep it out, as I don't want to go to the cinema on me own AGAIN. As I said to Brendan S in the Outhouse last week, its grand if you want to be on your own, or with someone, depends on your mood etc., But low and behold I was delighted when Brendan O' F rang me, to see if I was up to see the film. Iniitally we were gonna see Dallas Buyer's Club, but becuase he's a homophobic ass(based on a true story), I wasn't in the mood for more crap coming out of a non education ass, so we diecided to head to see RoboCop. Review here.So I proceeded to head to the cinema (by walk hahaha). He rang me to remind me that the film begins at half 8, of which was no probs, as I'd be there by quarter past, at the very least.  So when I arrived, who should be there but my other bestie Brendan S. So as the half 8 showing was an iMax showing, I didn't have enough cash for iMax, and besides I told em, the fact that the RoboCop iMax was not the best I've encountered in therms of iMax, and not only that we weren't given glasses the last time I was there last Friday night. I then learned from Brendan O' F, that it was actually iMax 2D, which I never heard of. But anyways I'm getting sidetracked, bottomline is, that we all decided to go to the 2D version which was jsut as good. This was at 9.15. So we all headed to the Cafe Bar where there's alcohol. So we just chatted quietly like tree bachelors etc., Brendan S, brought up a very intriguing topic, in that whenever he sees an attractive guy or seeing a guy he likes or whatever, he gets a hornball(hardon). I found it quite interesting, as I explained to em, that whenever I was with my ex, I never got a hardon, only if he were in his undies or whatever. But out and about nope never. So then Brendan S, asked a question which I made it into a joke. He said its a personal question and can he ask us both(Both Brendan O' F, and myself). So as a joke, I said to Brendan S, you want to know how big our dong is. We all had a great hearty laugh. Even as I right this, I am breaking my shite laughing. hahaha. I understood Brendan O' F knew my joke, but I told him anyways. So when we all settled down, we got serious and the question that Brendan S wanted to ask us, was actually interesting "When you look for a guy, what do you look for. Personality or Looks?". Brendan O' F replied with something simple but elegant. He would go with  personality as natural. So then Brendan S asked me, what about you George, which would you prefer, I began by replying with a question which was "Must you have a sexual attraction to a guy that you find attractive emotionally or at the very least is it normal to have emotional attraction to a guy, than to have a sexual attraction". I then told the lads that with ex and I, there was no sexual intimacy.  Although me ex would hint towards me several times. Brendan O' F asked me was it that the lack of knowledge or that you weren't attracted to him. I immediately said to him automatically lack of knowledge.While we were chatting, Brendan S, what does it mean when someone has the butterflys, which I've had several times. Brendan O' F replied "if your nervous about something". For me if i'm nervous I say wrong things, garbled, me heart pumping etc., We all left with the thought of the question I had asked em to the actual screen. Brendan O' F on the way told me that it yeah that it is normal. I asked Brendan O' F before the film, began the exact same thing we were discussing before we headed up, and his reply was, well if there's no sexual attraction but just emotional attraction, he proceeded to say, that its probably just a friendship that it will end up. Which took me a while to get use to the idea, in the end actually agreeing with him. As  I have heard that it when you're with someone, that you need emotional, INTIMACY amongst other items.

Overall twas a wonderful evening full of advice, laughs,(where I get da laughs from me Da's jokes). Great night out was had by all.

Diary 11th February 2014

I had very interested dreams. One of which I was expecting a drag queen r cross dresser for a visit.  However it wasn't meant to be. Maureen had barged her way in. BUT it wasn't Maureen it was her sister Colette.  So I said excuse me but I'm expecting someone.  She was leaving stuff for me.  Then afterwards I'm a separate dream apparently I was living at home.  Me paps had a wok system installed.  Crina had only come home from hospital.  She sat on the steps waiting for me.  She had welcomed me home. Before the dream ended I remember asking dad "so u got it installed then", he replied very hesitantly. You see when we ever we would get something installed or buy a new appliances or even get extensions building to da house I would get very excited.
Another dream occurred at Maureens.  Where by I was collecting OJ bottles of cartons.  I had to move them, so dat the bottles of cartons wudnt block da door I had to double em up.
My last dream which was kinda scary involved me in cloudy scenery. Everytime I dropped down i had too see if I cud stay with a particular monster.  Which funnily enough were the same monsters as those in some movie I've seen.

So there was this question, I wanna asked my folks that my THerapist, began to think me on. And that was if you accept a person as a gay person etc., thats grand, BUT if you don't accept a person for their sexuality why keep contact with them so to speak. My therapist in replied to me: "Every person has a story": This began playing with my mind in the most severest of forms. So I decided to actually ask them this particular question. So while I was showering, All these racy thoughts were racing through my mind etc., such as if they don't accept me the PROPER way, that i'd attempt suicide. I then recall in me mind that if Crina were looking for me, I had sent the text notifying "if you can't get through to me, you'll know where I am". And then it went on to tell my sis, to please tell the 2 BRendans(they's me besties.) and that I'd see em.

So afterwards, I got myself a brekkie, and looked at MOnday's news. Then as I was about to head out to collect my state benefits, I had lost my card(AGAIN!!!!!) which is required for the collection of the state benefits. I was a bit anxious in getting to the bank before 4pm incase it didn't work in the post office. However with me looking for the card, I was too late. So it just had to be pure luck for it to work int eh Post Office.

As I had to get my laundry to be done, I had to trek it all the way to the laundry in Drumcondra, then to the post office. But as luck would have it, the card(bank) worked like a dream.

So then onwards to Ryans HArdware to get a new battery for the watch. However with a surprise turn, he didn't have it. I couldn't open the battery compartment. There was a customer there, and he had said something in the line of, "yeah didn't you just have something in" something like that he said. I was a bit disappointed actually to the point a teary came out. So I just assumed it was becasue of being gay or something(Pink watch).

So then in the cold, snowy wintery weather in February!!!!! I strayed up to Mom n Dad's. Twas lovely to see em. I felt like home once more. They asked me how my weekly apts, are going etc., I said everything's alrite EXCEPT I had told them, that there was a statement that the therapist had been troubling me, more tot he question I had asked him. I asked them, "Why do you want me in your lives, if you don't accept me being gay". Mom, then replied "but of course we do". I proceeded "no you don't". She asked "why?" I said, that "the fact you think I'm gonna find a lassie". I told her, "thats not accepting me, there's no question of it. " and Dad smiling away there. I said to myself, just gonna leave it. So then they told me they were over at my Aunty, as she has a cold. They told me that she wants her laptop fixed, and I had told em yeah I know about it, but nothing was prepared for what was to happen next. I asked them, how much will it be to get it fixed. It was my understanding that Maureen had to get it sent away to be fixed. HOWEVER, actually they wanted me to do it. HOW very cute and sly. As I had told her, that I didn't want to fix, let her Sister's get it fixed or fix it. When Dad told me that "She is paying in advance" something like that. I still didn't get it was me. It was one hella of laugh arlite.
So I proceeded to get it fixed, Updating Windows, Resetting her Email password, Disk CLeanup, Internet Browser Cleanup.
So as the hardware guy didn't help me with the watch, I had to ask my Dad, to have a look at even just to open the back. He successfully opened(of which I don't know how), but he did. As I thought Mom would have seen that I don't have my bike, when she was dropping the newspaper to her next door neighbors, but anyways, when they said something about having a light, I had to tell em, that my bike is in for "repair" more like STOLEN, hahahaah. So as I didn't have it, I was gonna walk home, but they insisted that I take ride home. So me Da left me home. With the window being frozen, he had to get warm water to get rid of it. While he was doing so, I posted my Exercise(walking) apps to my profiles. RunKeeper, MapMyWalk, and MyTracks.

Diary 10th February 2014

Today was my weekly Therapy session. Twas quite interesting. As I was walking home, my therapist put through me mind, "Every person has a story to tell in their environment. "I then began to think all the way home, whether I shud just leave my folks out of my lifestyle. I told my Dr., that Other gay ppl who experience homophobia literally get rid of em, by mutual consent or just simply one dumping the other. However with Mom, thou, she still wants contact with me. If I were to have the attitude of just not saying anything gay related(which would be ideal and ease tensions), I'd have to go back in the closet. So am at a loss. I spoke highly of Ailish my next door neighbors(well technically my folks), afterall she brought me in my hour of need. I put it to the therapist, Does she feel anything knowing I'm talking about her in the derogatory sense. Like she has to. Otherwise I just don't know.

AFter my appointment, I headed to Clontarf Garda Station to report my bike being stolen last Friday. I was advised to report to the local Garda Station of where the bike was stolen(on Capel St), which the nearest one is BrideWEll Garda Station.