Diary 30th September 2013

Well I was due to get my dole, however I decided against getting it today as I could get it on the way to the cinema. I haven't been down in Drumcondra for awhile now. So it'll give me an excuse alrite. hahaahha.

So with that, I headed on to sleep continuously. I had a wee bit of a dream. Nothing major to report. I had dreamt of a former friend of mine. I met him in Rosmini my former high school along with another mate of mine of whom I can't remember. We are at the cinema. heeheh. Sure where else would I be. hehehe



NEWS

Today ahead of tomorrow commencement, the new water charges were announced by the Commission for Energy Regulation. All water bills will be capped for 9 months, extended by 3months from 6months. This means that we will NOT be metered for the first nine months. It also means that it will NOT go over below charges

€176 per adult
€102 per additional adult
Children are free

2 Adults and 2 YOUNG children: €278
2 Adults and 2 OVER 18s: €483

Those with the boil water notices eg Roscommon etc., will be free. However the Waste water Service will be charged.

After the 9 months, the metering will take affect, with the following rates

Water Supply & Waste Water: €4.88 per 1,000 Ltrs
Water Supply & NO Waste Water ie You have your own Septic Tank:  €2.44 per 1,000 Ltrs

Day to Day Basis Rates ie Usage of water around the home

Flush of the toilet 0.04c(however with newer models it will be cheaper)
5 min Shower .17c, however with a  power shower it will be .60c for 5mins
Bath .39c
Washing Machine: .30c
Dish Washer: .10c

Households will be given a free allowance of 30,000 Ltrs per household. A child will be given up to 21,000 Ltr. 30,000 Ltrs equates to a shower.

If you own a second home, a Non-Primary charge will be charged at €125

Diary 29th September 2014

I had forgotten to mention that when I came home yesterday, I went to charge up my cell phone and suddenly I couldn't find my charger. As my phone came from the States as in the packaging at the very least, I couldn't find the two prongs. To date, I still can't.

So then I got up eventually. I got ready for the PDC Course. I then headed onto the Outhouse or the course. WE discussed two main topics Relationships and Boundaries.  When they were discussing the Relationships, all I could think of were the relatives who never accepted me. When I arrived, there were only 6 ppl including myself. I arrived late. Nothing knew. hahhaah


The topic was What makes a GOOD relationship

Friendships
Family
Understanding
Trust
Love
Loyalty
Boundary
Respect
Yourself
Aged Realistic
One of the class colleagues' point was of interest, we all listened with interest, in that his point was Age. That guys dress and act NOT their age. ie a 40 yr old guy acting and dressing like a 20 yr etc., He then mentioned that its actually a medical condition known as Biomorphism.

The definition of a Relationship is as follows: "Emotional connection or an involvement"

Then they drew a diagram.

Embryo/womb - Micro
Then you meet the family - Mezzo
Education/Community etc., - Exo
Bad World/Work/Internet/ etc., - Macro

Fear of a Relationship
Fear of begin hurt

WE all take advice etc., You are you. True to yourself. You're the only person who knows you.

If someone asks how are you or whatever, or how are you feeling. IT all depends on context etc., So if eg. if you mad busy, you would have to turn him down until your free, or if you know the person in question, you would have a more calmer attitude towards him.

Bottomline Everyone's different, acknowledge it. Unconditional love essential in conflict.

What are the good things in a relationship.

Mutual Respect
Good balance
Compromise
Love
Communication
Clear/Good Communication
Honest
 Confusing thoughts

Then it came to break time, on my way in I was very not as such suicidal but more so wanting to do a slice n dice on myself. Considering will be covering ourselves now for the Winter. hahaha. So wise words during the break was said to me. In the form of that I'm only punishing myself. Wise words was actually coming from Bernard himself. Here I was trottling along the street, crying me heart out, well not distressing, but any idiot on the street, would know what's up. So after such wise words, I headed in with a positive tude as in I saw Declan and David and the Brazilian guy, whom I was a bit surprised. He wasn't one bit shy but was very quick to say to us, that he doesn't introduce himself with his name. Ah well, to each is their own.

Then it was time for the Boundary part of the lesson. Which was short, considering we had less time after the break. heeeh.

So then shortly before the class finished, we were treated to Rau Puaul's(A US famous Drag Queen) track. His infamous quote being: "If you don't love yourself, how the hell can you expect to be loved". Twas most inspirational.

Diary 28th September 2014

PS Again this post contains NSFW content in the form of self harm.

Well unfortunately I regret to inform you all, that my self harm tendencies has continued today. Well after such a long hibernation, thinking sleeping would help to alleviate the urge, I got at half 6. I was due to travel along and pop along to World Vegetarian Day. I went to the event last year. It was quite impressive. This year it was in a different venue. As my depression came back like a camel on its back, I was unable to attend. So I just stayed on, however my urges got stronger and stronger.

So with the time, considering I was due to visit me sis, I got ready and showered. Its there I did my self harming. I don't do it in the traditional sense, whereby I cut veins or whatever. I literally just press down on the skin with the razor, when the pain comes, I relieve and continuing going down on it. And a little skin comes off, then I've done my deed.

So shortly before I finished up the shower, I heard Mom and sis at my door. I just ignored them. However, when I heard my Mom attempting to "breaking in" and entering(I say this LIGHTLY btw), I just had to use the towel around my little junior, and confront my Mom to prevent my door being broken into. My sis could see me getting agitated. So I told Mom to stop it. They both headed off. So as my Mom didn't help me at all, I continued my self harm before I finished completely.

So I then headed off to my sis. We discussed with my recent outbursts on Facebook and of course my Blog here. WE of course also looked at Two and A Half Men. heehheh. Truly most enjoyable, as always. ahahah


NEWS

Japans' 2nd tallest Volcano, has erupted SURPRISINGLY. At least 31 hikers are believed to have perished. Mount Entacké is the Volcano that erupted unsurprisingly. They least expected it. It erupted unexpectedly with an almighty force. It could even be seen from space.

Europe has defeated the USA for the 6th time in 7 Ryder Cups. They won by 5 points. Europe 111/2 and USA 61/2.

Diary 27th September 2014

Well today is my hibernation day. hahaha. Whoever I got up for a few hours to look at yesterday's news(Friday's) and today's news(Saturday).

I had a weird dream, more so a nonsensical one. Mom runs over a small lamppost on the road. Normally a Lamppost is several meters high, yet the one in my dream was a child like size etc., So Mom stops the car. A white coach bypasses us upon seeing us stopped in the middle of the road. Then another black car coming in the opposite direction, looks weirdly at the coach, as much to say, "aint you very impatient. Something to that affect. So Mom pulls aside and magically the car is off the road as in a few meters off the road literally, and the wheels spin round and round like as if I were on a high or something.

I did however here persistent banging and window banging. Then immediately thoughts came to mind, whit this I mean , that Frank my landlord could throw me out, and that the Folks could use this to get me out. What I'm trying to say, is that they could purposely be doing this, then Franky, gets a few calls in the form of complaints, then he comes to me, and says there have been complaints and then evicts me.

When that settled down, I continuously to this day even to repeat to myself, "I could have sworn that it'd never happen". What I'm referring to is, last Wednesday, when I went to see The Wizard of Oz(Review here), I was to meet my friend for the film at 6, however I was late in getting up. So I went ahead got my food. I said to myself, perhaps he won't be bothered in asking me for cash. Shortly after the film began, he asked if he could borrow. Says I to meself, I could have sworn, he wouldn't. And here's me thinking I got away with him asking by me being late. Not that I planned it this way. hahhaha. Well I've restricted in seeing him once a week. Thank god he paid for the iMAX itself, as its very horridly expensive even with the Unlimited Scheme. So I'm on the course of looking for NEW friends who don't tell lies to me,(The only people I tell lies to are my parents, I know that, My sister knows it, and possibly the parents themselves), But one person or groups of people i NEVER tell lies to are my FRIENDS and of course my sis. Like, why would I tell her lies. She has done so much for me, in the past. I am the most loyast person you can think of. Oh and also I will be making sure that I NEVER ask a person for money EVER. I just do with out food etc. Likewise I will be making sure that no friend ASKS me. Its no wonder I have thoughts of slicing n dicing(to the point that its invisible ONLY to my mental knowledge).

So eventually as I said above, I got up to look at yesterday's and today's news. I also checked to see if I have 7th Heaven's episodes recorded. So yanked up my lappy and checked to ensure they's in perfect quality. All's was well.

Diary 26th September 2014

Well as I had yet to sleep, I stayed up. I had gotten up at midnight. I was gonna go and see the new movie The Equalizer. Shortly thou head to the Outhouse. However I recently told a friend of mine, that I have possibly outstayed or over stayed my welcome. Ever since the Pride debacle, I have noticed an increasing amount of times the guys in the Outhouse mention it. Like get over it I say. So I just stayed in for the night. I have been watching TV.

I watched a few documentaries, current affairs programs. etc., One of them being Midday. The below are the topics that were of interest to me.

Would I micro chip myself as technology evolves. Personally I would. Would be great if I were to be in an accident or whatever, and even for security reasons, I would feel at peace. Like take for e.g, I'm at an airport, I would get scanned, then simply say go ahead, as the Security staff, would know very quickly. There are of course security concerns in terms, of you could be followed etc.,

Another topic of interest was members of the public were asked if anything has changed economy wise. Some have said that why we haven't learned anything from the collapse of the economy back in '08. Some say its as cycle. Like the Taoisieachs attitude towards women, then their is the hiring of a chronism(some are calling him this - McNulty I'm referring to) to the Seanad. etc., etc., One of the panelists made a very good point, in that whenever the govt, is fighting a legislation or whatever, they always bring up the point that the PREVIOUS administration/government brought upon us. She maintains that they will use that as an Election tactic come the next General Election. Ie they would say to the electorate or voters, that "oh we brought back the boom and the bust etc.,"

Photos of yourself and the Web. Personally I says, the minute your photo hits the phone's camera after the Shutter sound, its on the web. I've told umpteen people, if you've anything to hide then DON'T take a photo of yourself etc.,

Lending Money or Borrowing. Another worthy topic of discussion. It has been mentioned that Money does come between humans. I quite agree strongly. Its coming between my friends and myself. Thank god my sis and I are easily understandable. If she borrows anything I can ALWAYS trust her to return it to me someday EVERY cent. and hence it never gets in the way of the relationship. Whereas my friend, he borrows and borrows but NEVER has returned a single cent. This has been going on for a few years. Its no wonder I rarely accept money from people. Cause my folks in this case, use money as a guilt trip. My mother always told me to accept with gracious. How can I, if they keep stuffing the guilt trip down my throat or as my Dad would "Priories George, Priorities". I haven't spoken to either of em since last Tuesday, (now that was a different reason), but still.

NEWS

Jonathan who is adopted died with suicide and took the lives of twins Paddy and Thomas in Charleville, Cork. He struggled mentally, when he encountered red tape constantly. It has now been revealed that a letter of which Jonathan was looking for arrived two days late saying that they will open up the file and give him what he seeks. He was looking for his birth family ie his brothers and or sisters and his Mom n Dad etc.,

Michael Brown's family has received a personal apology in the form of video apology. It has sparked even more protests etc., Michael was shot dead by a white Officer in Ferguson