I got up pretty early for to get a few errands done. My first was a nice start to the day, by means of having a cuppa with my sis.
Then my next was to get to Social Welfare. Today was simply to collect my last payment via check. hahahaha. Then I told them that what was on my mind for several days to weeks, in that they were overpaying me. Now I was advised by my folks not to say a word. However, this would render me being broke in weeks to come when it comes the time to repay them. So I decided that I bring it up today so that they can start the repayments asap. So I'll get a letter n I'll pay them back over 400. It was on my mind for days to weeks
So then I went to Specsavers to fix glasses more so a replacement. However as it wasn't a manufacturing fault Il b charged €56 unless I get my lenses. However, that said, I did in the meantime find my older glasses. So I'll try my luck and see if anything can be salvaged.
I then went to An Post to get my rent allowance as per standard. You may recall guys, that the guy who served me a few months ago, and I had a huge smile on my face. Spitting image of Gerry's wife PAuline's Sister's son Aaron. But this guy is so cute. heehhe. He even dresses like as O' Farrell says: "He's one of us", ie I bet u a €1000 that he's gay. hehehehe.
So then I went onto AIB to lodge money from both the Cheque and the Rent Allowance. The AIB Lodge machine got my cheque stuck and got worried. I tried getting it out. heehehe. I got it out eventually.
So then I headed into Gerry to chat with Gerry. While chatting he had a TV with beautiful pictures on and the music. He told me its an app known as RTE Gold. hehehe.
I then headed onto Mom n dad's to return their lunch box and bag. I then wanted to check dads computer 💻 original installation dates being 2007. He wanted to check his UPC(now known as Virgin Media) however He or I didn't know the password.
So then afterwards, I headed on home for a sleepy bed, as I was to get up early for tomorrow's PHysciatric App.
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Wednesday, 13 January 2016
Wednesday, 6 January 2016
Diary 6th January 2016 - Feast of the Epiphany(Three Wise Men visited Jesus in the Manger); Women's Christmas
Little humour to start off the blog, hahaha, as I was writing the above Blog title, literally, I got a fit of the giggles. I recalled a quote from Mrs. Brown's Boys Christmas Special '14. Mrs. Brown herself says:
"Wise!!!They got fucken lost", what a class quote from her shows.
The Feast of the Epiphany aswell as being a religious aspect is actually also a day for the women, ie Women's Christmas or in Irish Nollaig na mBán. You may also hear down through your travels Nollaig Beag which means Little Christmas. Women's Christmas was actually started in Co. Cork and continens to be an Irish Tradition.
And now back onto me, hheheeheh,
I then woke up for a few hours to do the last two Home Alone films. heheehh
"Wise!!!They got fucken lost", what a class quote from her shows.
The Feast of the Epiphany aswell as being a religious aspect is actually also a day for the women, ie Women's Christmas or in Irish Nollaig na mBán. You may also hear down through your travels Nollaig Beag which means Little Christmas. Women's Christmas was actually started in Co. Cork and continens to be an Irish Tradition.
And now back onto me, hheheeheh,
I struggled along to get out of bed for Social welfare, sure who would. hahaha. But that said thou I was saying to meself, could I try tomorrow Thurs, but NO cause Dad wants my sis n I for the decorations to yank your chain down, hahha, Friday assuming he wants me at least back on Friday for the outside lights, ehhehehe so that would be a no no. I said I have to get up for the sake of the payments and more so my bank. Like at the time of writing I was €189 in DR aka DR. So I proceeded to go on in and then head to see Social Welfare. I'd prefer if I didn't but hey, nothing can be done. Besides my legs were killing me going in let alone going out. The guy then told me everything's in order. TO come back for the final time. He proceeded to give me an envelope and went to post it. I said that I wasn't ready for it. I've to get details as in Checklists ie I was to get my statements from the Bank and the Credit Union. So he told me come back with everything next week. I then asked, do I have to come in everyweek, like and he said it'll be put into the Post Office. So he told me come back with everything and that he'll post my DA for me. When he asked that I sign the checks ie the payments, he noted I was a leftie. heheheh. He also noted to me that If I had come back a day late that I would missed a payment. He was the exact same guy who clearly is gay who upset me the day I broke in front of the family. Hence why I have a +Furry Babys Stanescu called Kathleen as my mom cried into my arms comforting me.
I then proceeded to head to the bank AIB to lodge my checks in. Still worrying thou no cash will go in, but nothing can be done thou. However at the same time I went in to get my statements for the Disability Allowance. Apparently it'll cost me €3 per page for them to send it out to me. Which is quiet bizarre. So I went to the machine however I tried it but it just gave me ONE page, so I'll try with my NEW card and pin.
Then I went to the Credit Union for again to get Statements from the savings account I have. Only realised that the loan had been payed off in November a week before social welfare were going on about on my case. Hmmm.
So then I came back and decided to head back to sleep. Then while sleeping a memory came back of whereby I was l listing of all the home alone movies I have. Home alone 3 I was studying it r whatever I had watched it when I came back from a boat trip on the StenaHSS. We went over to Holyhead, Wales,UK. In a cold wet Nov. We looked around. I bought r whoever a PC Game on a Floppy disk 💾 god b the days. It was a Christmas 🎅 quiz game 🎮 there was a question about Wet wet wet a music band.
I then woke up for a few hours to do the last two Home Alone films. heheehh
Then just as I wake up I gave myself a horrible trigger point whereby when I recalled Social Welfare upsetting me on Wed 23rd and Mom comforting me. Then in the thought, I rush out wanting to cry further, however Dad being obsessed with his Christmas Lights Bulbs, warns me not to step on the ligts as at the time in reality my sis and my Dad were doing up the lights when Mom n I came back. I accidentally or whatever step on one of them. Then Dad gets angry and I squabble up or crumble to a pancake kinda shape ie embryo more so. I scream "get away from me". He then opens up and says come I want to hug you. So I in my infinite wisdom, actually go up and get hugged, however he continues to squeeze me rendering me breathless and then breaks my spinal chord in half. And then throws away my body like a rag doll down the bottom of the garden. My sis and Mom witness this and exclaim to the Emergency Services that "I have witnessed an actual murder". Remember "A life is NOT replaceable whereas , Christmas Light Bulb IS replaceable". So then I was putting on my Onesie, and I grabbed my sleeve and had at it and of course my arm while I was in teh toilet too. I was describing I use sleeves more so than arms. The arm is for private self harm or where no one is looking and the sleeve is ONLY for those who don't judge me ie my sis.
Wednesday, 16 December 2015
Diary 16th December 2015
PS This blog post contains GRAPHIC content by means of self harm. Well what a day today was.
It all started when I got up for to help Dad with the garden Christmas lights. That was no bother.
However thou I was also due to hand in documents that I had gathered over the past few days from my GP Doctor, my landlord etc., and of course bills etc., etc., and I handed them in. So Mom n I headed onto my Social Welfare. Well what happened, I never thought in my wildest dreams that this would ever happen to me as I'm about to explain. So I handed in my stuff. I was getting impatient waiting around due to the security's guy management of the ticketing system of the Supplemental Welfare Allowance. When I got their in the end, the guy asked what Payment am I awaiting for. I said that I'm on IB(Injury Benefit). He said that ain't permanent. I knew that. So he then suggested that I go onto Disability Allowance, HOWEVER He went to ask someone in the background of which I overheard. I got visibly very upset, and the guy relayed the message to me. He said I should go back onto JSA(Job Seeker's Allowance). So to get that, I go to Intreo which is NEXT door tot the main building. I went their. The woman their told me that to get that, I should get a FINAL Cert from my GP to get my JSA back. So then armed with this information, I went back tot eh guy, told him this and he told me, here's a check. Come back to him Wed 30th with a Letter from JSA stating that I have OPENED a claim, and that he'll pay me, while I await my claim for JSA.
So armed with this info, I told Mom. I told her "Brace yourself". So visibly I was getting further upset with water eyes. So with the check, I went to the bank in AIB. After that, I said to Mom in the car on the way home to Griffith Ave., "I'd do anything to have a sleeve". So I held one of my Scarfy. Mom said "don't you dare. He's too good". Something to that affect. So then jst about we were near home, I literally broke down crying, very upset, and of course my sleeve stuffed in my mouth. awwwwwww. It was all getting too much for me. So then when I came home, Mom got me a cuppa of coffee, and continued to break down. My sis n my Dad were outside doing the lights, they didn't know what to do. Mom comforted me, crying herself. She kept insisting, everything will be alrite. Like my issue is STABILITY. Dad gave me some more money, to tide me over for the next few weeks. I was just so devastated. Continued to be hysterically crying. I continued expressing, "I was almost sure it was all over., I could have sworn it would be all over. "
So then I decided to get ready for to meet my mate Searson. However I had gotten a message Saigon that due to weather he won't be able to make it. So I went instead to plan on getting my sis' Floppy doggy n my new puppy called Kathleen. awwwwwww. However it is with great sadness that I regret to inform you, that due to my increase urges that I self harmed in the shower with a Swiss Army knife. I basically scratched until their was a bit of blood, then I continued at it, then after awhile I literally bit it. I basically went back to my habit in Romania, whereby I bit on my skin when I am stressed or whatever. In Romania, ie the orphanage, I used to bite on my skin, and then one the Matrons or whatever they call themselves, gave me a comfort rag. Hence the sleeve. eheheh.
So then I got dressed, went to get Floppy and Kathleen. Then I headed back to my sis to deliver her Floppy. Then I headed onto meet O' Farrell. Now I hadn't seen Brendan in ages. So was great to see him. However as he had brought up what's NOW a trigger, I self harmed again in the bathroom, by means of biting the injury, I had done previously in the shower, but the biting in question occurred in eh bathroom. So then afterwards, I headed back to my sis to collect my Kathleen and headed on back home. heehehe
It all started when I got up for to help Dad with the garden Christmas lights. That was no bother.
However thou I was also due to hand in documents that I had gathered over the past few days from my GP Doctor, my landlord etc., and of course bills etc., etc., and I handed them in. So Mom n I headed onto my Social Welfare. Well what happened, I never thought in my wildest dreams that this would ever happen to me as I'm about to explain. So I handed in my stuff. I was getting impatient waiting around due to the security's guy management of the ticketing system of the Supplemental Welfare Allowance. When I got their in the end, the guy asked what Payment am I awaiting for. I said that I'm on IB(Injury Benefit). He said that ain't permanent. I knew that. So he then suggested that I go onto Disability Allowance, HOWEVER He went to ask someone in the background of which I overheard. I got visibly very upset, and the guy relayed the message to me. He said I should go back onto JSA(Job Seeker's Allowance). So to get that, I go to Intreo which is NEXT door tot the main building. I went their. The woman their told me that to get that, I should get a FINAL Cert from my GP to get my JSA back. So then armed with this information, I went back tot eh guy, told him this and he told me, here's a check. Come back to him Wed 30th with a Letter from JSA stating that I have OPENED a claim, and that he'll pay me, while I await my claim for JSA.
So armed with this info, I told Mom. I told her "Brace yourself". So visibly I was getting further upset with water eyes. So with the check, I went to the bank in AIB. After that, I said to Mom in the car on the way home to Griffith Ave., "I'd do anything to have a sleeve". So I held one of my Scarfy. Mom said "don't you dare. He's too good". Something to that affect. So then jst about we were near home, I literally broke down crying, very upset, and of course my sleeve stuffed in my mouth. awwwwwww. It was all getting too much for me. So then when I came home, Mom got me a cuppa of coffee, and continued to break down. My sis n my Dad were outside doing the lights, they didn't know what to do. Mom comforted me, crying herself. She kept insisting, everything will be alrite. Like my issue is STABILITY. Dad gave me some more money, to tide me over for the next few weeks. I was just so devastated. Continued to be hysterically crying. I continued expressing, "I was almost sure it was all over., I could have sworn it would be all over. "
So then I decided to get ready for to meet my mate Searson. However I had gotten a message Saigon that due to weather he won't be able to make it. So I went instead to plan on getting my sis' Floppy doggy n my new puppy called Kathleen. awwwwwww. However it is with great sadness that I regret to inform you, that due to my increase urges that I self harmed in the shower with a Swiss Army knife. I basically scratched until their was a bit of blood, then I continued at it, then after awhile I literally bit it. I basically went back to my habit in Romania, whereby I bit on my skin when I am stressed or whatever. In Romania, ie the orphanage, I used to bite on my skin, and then one the Matrons or whatever they call themselves, gave me a comfort rag. Hence the sleeve. eheheh.
So then I got dressed, went to get Floppy and Kathleen. Then I headed back to my sis to deliver her Floppy. Then I headed onto meet O' Farrell. Now I hadn't seen Brendan in ages. So was great to see him. However as he had brought up what's NOW a trigger, I self harmed again in the bathroom, by means of biting the injury, I had done previously in the shower, but the biting in question occurred in eh bathroom. So then afterwards, I headed back to my sis to collect my Kathleen and headed on back home. heehehe
Tuesday, 15 December 2015
Diary 15th December 2015
Today was not bad a day. Nothing outta the blue occurred. hahahaah.
It all started when Maudy rang my doorbell heavily. So I went back to bed. Then I got up eventually. I had a doctor's appointment for the doctor to fill out a form that is one of the requirements of the Supplemental Welfare Allowance.
So then onwards and upwards to collect my rent allowance of which was Double Pay and then I headed onto to the bank to lodge money for the bills. I then continued onwards to hand in my Certificate to Store St., I then headed onto home to get ready for my sis tonight.
I was looking for various items. heeheh. Then on the way to my sis, I went to get pressies for Colette, and my Dad for his birthday AND for Christmas too. Then I headed onto her place to wrap up the pressies AND at the time had hoped to Address the envelopes. However it wasn't too be as last night, I had created a Report in my Access contacts database and exported that into a PDF and saved it on OneDrive. However even that didn't work, as it would not show up on my phone. So that was a bummer.
I was watching IrelandAM on my TV. They are currently have a competition of whereby the viewers have to guess "What's In The Box", in the lead up to Christmas. The presenters give out clues on the hour of the show. Today's clue's so far is as follows: Sir Walter Ralaeigh introduced this, into Ireland. The second clue was that They are categorised as Queens, Records and the Rooster are all varieties of what Vegetables. and the final clue of the competition: This veg is more fondly known as The "Spud" in Ireland. Now I thought Sir Walter Raleigh introduced the Tobacco in Cigarettes. Well who knew about the spud, hahaahha. of course the answer is Potato.
While going through my blogs I subscribe to, one Blog post was of interest that brought great memories of my Cell Phones usage. heehhe. It was based on what PRE-Android phones ie NON-smartphones. My very first phone was a Panasonic GD35. I remember I didn't want a mobile phone at all. heheeheh. However Mom n Dad insisted if they wanted me for anything. I got it for my State Examinations aka Leaving Cert year. I remember that I was actually wanting the phone so that I could text. I would only get the numbers of guys I found cute. ehehhe. Now obviously I wasn't out or anything. But hey. I even went as far if they know how to text instead of calling. Then I also remember that I had only gotten Nokia 3510i, which was a color screen. I remember walking home from some place late at night, I had the phone on display. I held it so tight. I had only finished a class of the ECDL. I really adored this one very much, til it got stolen. So I bought another one. Even that went down a manhole. I was working for a company Noel Hughe's company - my relative I see on a monthly basis. heheeh. , ahahah. Another one got stolen. I then got myself a Nokia 7310, something like that. This one was not bad. It was a very highend one. My former friend Noel Kenny, recommended it. I remember that when I was looking up specs, that a USB is was a vital thing where I wanted to connect to the computer.
It all started when Maudy rang my doorbell heavily. So I went back to bed. Then I got up eventually. I had a doctor's appointment for the doctor to fill out a form that is one of the requirements of the Supplemental Welfare Allowance.
So then onwards and upwards to collect my rent allowance of which was Double Pay and then I headed onto to the bank to lodge money for the bills. I then continued onwards to hand in my Certificate to Store St., I then headed onto home to get ready for my sis tonight.
I was looking for various items. heeheh. Then on the way to my sis, I went to get pressies for Colette, and my Dad for his birthday AND for Christmas too. Then I headed onto her place to wrap up the pressies AND at the time had hoped to Address the envelopes. However it wasn't too be as last night, I had created a Report in my Access contacts database and exported that into a PDF and saved it on OneDrive. However even that didn't work, as it would not show up on my phone. So that was a bummer.
I was watching IrelandAM on my TV. They are currently have a competition of whereby the viewers have to guess "What's In The Box", in the lead up to Christmas. The presenters give out clues on the hour of the show. Today's clue's so far is as follows: Sir Walter Ralaeigh introduced this, into Ireland. The second clue was that They are categorised as Queens, Records and the Rooster are all varieties of what Vegetables. and the final clue of the competition: This veg is more fondly known as The "Spud" in Ireland. Now I thought Sir Walter Raleigh introduced the Tobacco in Cigarettes. Well who knew about the spud, hahaahha. of course the answer is Potato.
While going through my blogs I subscribe to, one Blog post was of interest that brought great memories of my Cell Phones usage. heehhe. It was based on what PRE-Android phones ie NON-smartphones. My very first phone was a Panasonic GD35. I remember I didn't want a mobile phone at all. heheeheh. However Mom n Dad insisted if they wanted me for anything. I got it for my State Examinations aka Leaving Cert year. I remember that I was actually wanting the phone so that I could text. I would only get the numbers of guys I found cute. ehehhe. Now obviously I wasn't out or anything. But hey. I even went as far if they know how to text instead of calling. Then I also remember that I had only gotten Nokia 3510i, which was a color screen. I remember walking home from some place late at night, I had the phone on display. I held it so tight. I had only finished a class of the ECDL. I really adored this one very much, til it got stolen. So I bought another one. Even that went down a manhole. I was working for a company Noel Hughe's company - my relative I see on a monthly basis. heheeh. , ahahah. Another one got stolen. I then got myself a Nokia 7310, something like that. This one was not bad. It was a very highend one. My former friend Noel Kenny, recommended it. I remember that when I was looking up specs, that a USB is was a vital thing where I wanted to connect to the computer.
Monday, 14 December 2015
Diary 14th December 2015
Well so far not bad a day, heheheeh. As per my weekly schedule, I didn't go to bed. heheh. But as well as that, I was doing my catchup on TV shows. So I did my recordings. I was to go to the bike shop to go and have it repaired specifically the brakes.
So Mom collected me at the bike shop and brought me up to there place to get documents printed off and finished off the documentation for the Supplemental Welfare Allowance form. SO that said, on the way up to Mom n Dad's, Mom wanted a few of HER errands done. One of the errands was to post letters that Dad had written to his relatives and friends for Christmas. Well one I was most NOT prepared for. I was sifting through the cards and all had stamps on the envelope. Now what I find most surpirsing is that he was POSTING to a neighbor of his ie Ailish n Noel. Now he's wasting money of .70c on a stamp when they live next door. So my point being is that he is harping on about me wasting money on Westwood, yet he's doing the EXACT same thing. Kinda ironic if u ask me.
So moving on, then I started the printing on at home in their place. I in the meantime rang Sky to move over to Sky Broadband. However as I had forgotten the number one possibility of the cause of delay: aka Christmas. So what I mean thou is that when I was signing up, They would have to come out to install Fibre. If I were to go Standard, there would be no Engineer required, However as I wanted the Fibre, I was required an Engineer. And even with that, I would have to wait few more days to gain access to the Internet with Sky Broadband. So then afterwards, I headed back to the kitchen table to get soup etc., I then rang Franky, again, and he this time answered the phone, yippppppeeeeeeeeeeee as Zelda Spellman from Sabrina says it - hahahaa. So before I headed on off home, Dad asked if I had cash for the bike repair. And I said I unfortunately didn't. so what a lecture that came outta of him. He said that me buying presents is silly or something to that affect. I was looking at Mom getting a bit anxious and I told Dad, look just quit it, for Mom's sake. I told him, I would NOT have gone near him had Social Welfare not gone near me. Even if it were during the year, I still would not have gone near him cash wise I mean. So I then headed on back home to be in time for Frnaky. Then when he came, he brought teh form back home. I had hoped that he fill the, form out there and then, however it wasn't to be as it was to do with the Accountant.
So Mom collected me at the bike shop and brought me up to there place to get documents printed off and finished off the documentation for the Supplemental Welfare Allowance form. SO that said, on the way up to Mom n Dad's, Mom wanted a few of HER errands done. One of the errands was to post letters that Dad had written to his relatives and friends for Christmas. Well one I was most NOT prepared for. I was sifting through the cards and all had stamps on the envelope. Now what I find most surpirsing is that he was POSTING to a neighbor of his ie Ailish n Noel. Now he's wasting money of .70c on a stamp when they live next door. So my point being is that he is harping on about me wasting money on Westwood, yet he's doing the EXACT same thing. Kinda ironic if u ask me.
So moving on, then I started the printing on at home in their place. I in the meantime rang Sky to move over to Sky Broadband. However as I had forgotten the number one possibility of the cause of delay: aka Christmas. So what I mean thou is that when I was signing up, They would have to come out to install Fibre. If I were to go Standard, there would be no Engineer required, However as I wanted the Fibre, I was required an Engineer. And even with that, I would have to wait few more days to gain access to the Internet with Sky Broadband. So then afterwards, I headed back to the kitchen table to get soup etc., I then rang Franky, again, and he this time answered the phone, yippppppeeeeeeeeeeee as Zelda Spellman from Sabrina says it - hahahaa. So before I headed on off home, Dad asked if I had cash for the bike repair. And I said I unfortunately didn't. so what a lecture that came outta of him. He said that me buying presents is silly or something to that affect. I was looking at Mom getting a bit anxious and I told Dad, look just quit it, for Mom's sake. I told him, I would NOT have gone near him had Social Welfare not gone near me. Even if it were during the year, I still would not have gone near him cash wise I mean. So I then headed on back home to be in time for Frnaky. Then when he came, he brought teh form back home. I had hoped that he fill the, form out there and then, however it wasn't to be as it was to do with the Accountant.
Thursday, 10 December 2015
Diary 10th December 2015
Today not bad a day, by means of being business. hahaha.
I went into Social Welfare(my new home - hahahah) to get them to write me a letter as part of a requirement for Application of Supplemental Welfare. While waiting around, My number was 144. I noted Desk 29(Information Desk) was at 128 and says I to meself, on my ticket it said that I was Number 9 in the queue. And says I to mself hmmm, 9 + 128 does NOT equal 144. More so about 14 or whatever. Then I looked the other side of the pillar and noted 135 was the ticket number, I then said ahh yeah that's more like it. hahaah. I then continued to wait around. Not a budge out of the two of Desks. So eventually Desk 28(the one with 135), got moving on up with numbers. Then when 128 was finished, they closed up completely. There was a guy at 135 and he finished his business there, but when the next number was about to be called he went up instead. He was required to fill out a form or whatever. Afterwards, I saw the guy leaving in a huff saying: "fill out another form; me bollicks". So then eventually it was my turn, by golly was he so cute. Like wow. He wore a pollar tshirt and whatever trousers of which I wasn't able to see. I was jstu drawn to his eyes(awwwwww). Then we got down to business(now, now, hahaha). I asked for teh said letter, and he asked why I took a while looking for a job, and still am. I told him that I have Mental Health difficultys. So we left it at that.
I came back home, and looked at TV, while doing so I was cleaning up rubbish, and then I started the decorations.
So then I set off again on my merry way. This time to meet Andrea for to see Victor Frankenstein(Review here). Beforehand thou, I paid a visit to Lidl, Tescos, all to see if there's anything I can find for to go to have for Christmas Dinner. and MORE so DESSERT. mmmm like Mince Pies, Cake etc., etc.,Then onto Pennys to get a Christmas Jumper and Undies. mmmm. and of course some Star Wars merchandise.
I went into Social Welfare(my new home - hahahah) to get them to write me a letter as part of a requirement for Application of Supplemental Welfare. While waiting around, My number was 144. I noted Desk 29(Information Desk) was at 128 and says I to meself, on my ticket it said that I was Number 9 in the queue. And says I to mself hmmm, 9 + 128 does NOT equal 144. More so about 14 or whatever. Then I looked the other side of the pillar and noted 135 was the ticket number, I then said ahh yeah that's more like it. hahaah. I then continued to wait around. Not a budge out of the two of Desks. So eventually Desk 28(the one with 135), got moving on up with numbers. Then when 128 was finished, they closed up completely. There was a guy at 135 and he finished his business there, but when the next number was about to be called he went up instead. He was required to fill out a form or whatever. Afterwards, I saw the guy leaving in a huff saying: "fill out another form; me bollicks". So then eventually it was my turn, by golly was he so cute. Like wow. He wore a pollar tshirt and whatever trousers of which I wasn't able to see. I was jstu drawn to his eyes(awwwwww). Then we got down to business(now, now, hahaha). I asked for teh said letter, and he asked why I took a while looking for a job, and still am. I told him that I have Mental Health difficultys. So we left it at that.
I came back home, and looked at TV, while doing so I was cleaning up rubbish, and then I started the decorations.
So then I set off again on my merry way. This time to meet Andrea for to see Victor Frankenstein(Review here). Beforehand thou, I paid a visit to Lidl, Tescos, all to see if there's anything I can find for to go to have for Christmas Dinner. and MORE so DESSERT. mmmm like Mince Pies, Cake etc., etc.,Then onto Pennys to get a Christmas Jumper and Undies. mmmm. and of course some Star Wars merchandise.
Wednesday, 9 December 2015
Diary 9th December 2015
Well it was a nice and positive day, for once in me miserable life. hahaha. It all started when I got up for Social Welfare. Of course it started off with my Mom ringing my bell, to get me up outta bed. hahah. That said, I continued onto Social Welfare to go to Supplemental Welfare Office to hand in my form.
So I waited around as needed. Then my number was called. I then handed in my form. The Officer then proceeded to tell me that as I was NOT in a job, that I wouldn't not be entitled to it. However he quickly changed his tune when he inputted my PPS number into the Pulse system. He told me that I required specific documentation. He said that my Landlord has to fill out a form AND the Doctor aswell. So I rang the relevant parties ie Doctor Kelly for an appointment AND my landlord. My landlord said he'll ring me before the Weekend to come out to fill out the form.
I then headed onto first pay Franky for BOTH rents, weeks ie €260. So I did my business. Then as htere was too long a line, well more so there was a couple, who had little to know English, AND there was an elderly man at both machines. There was one staff member helping both of them. So I jstu stayed until my cell allowed me to transfer funds. As it did, I didn't bother waiting around. So when I went to transfer, the AIB site asked me to input a message to the Recipient of the Funds aka my Landlord, I simply put "Apolgiesi for the delay, blame the social welfare".
I then headed onto collecting my glasses. I was delighted with em. However the minute I put em on, I immediately got ditzy ie dizzy. heheheh. Even as I write this I get oncurring headaches.
I then headed with delight but still being cautious. I then headed on off to my next test. As I said to my sis, I'll go to Drumcondra An Post just to piss them off. Seeing as they's piss me off. Why not. Well as it happens, there was a different guy altogether albeit, I know him, alrite, but still. So I just went about my business. Well LOW and behold my cash was there, the €155 that am owed for TWO weeks. I was so happy. So I got stamps, cards AND my most important TV License stamps.
So then I headed to my sis, as she wanted me to collect a package for her. I then headed off to her place collected a slip of paper, I had parked my bike at Charlemont Rd., so that I could just simply head off quickly instead of the usual place of whereby I park it at the gate. However when I came out I got the land of my life when I thoguht my bike was stolen. Well the laugh I got outta of it. hahaha.
So then off to Lomond Office to the sorting office. The guy was most rude. He went as far as to say is she my shagging friend. Something like that. I told him its none of his business. I told him, she's my sister. But he didn't believe it, so I just headed on off.
I then headed on up to my folks. To mainly to hand the bag back to em AND to see my new glasses. I had a nice meal. When I arrived, Dad was in Pauline's doing business. So we looked at the news then of which both were sleeping or dozing. It was a bit abnormal that Dad closed his eyes. heheeh.
Then I headed on home in torrential downpour of wind & rain. I was soaked to the skin. So I showered to avoid getting a cold.
So I waited around as needed. Then my number was called. I then handed in my form. The Officer then proceeded to tell me that as I was NOT in a job, that I wouldn't not be entitled to it. However he quickly changed his tune when he inputted my PPS number into the Pulse system. He told me that I required specific documentation. He said that my Landlord has to fill out a form AND the Doctor aswell. So I rang the relevant parties ie Doctor Kelly for an appointment AND my landlord. My landlord said he'll ring me before the Weekend to come out to fill out the form.
I then headed onto first pay Franky for BOTH rents, weeks ie €260. So I did my business. Then as htere was too long a line, well more so there was a couple, who had little to know English, AND there was an elderly man at both machines. There was one staff member helping both of them. So I jstu stayed until my cell allowed me to transfer funds. As it did, I didn't bother waiting around. So when I went to transfer, the AIB site asked me to input a message to the Recipient of the Funds aka my Landlord, I simply put "Apolgiesi for the delay, blame the social welfare".
I then headed onto collecting my glasses. I was delighted with em. However the minute I put em on, I immediately got ditzy ie dizzy. heheheh. Even as I write this I get oncurring headaches.
I then headed with delight but still being cautious. I then headed on off to my next test. As I said to my sis, I'll go to Drumcondra An Post just to piss them off. Seeing as they's piss me off. Why not. Well as it happens, there was a different guy altogether albeit, I know him, alrite, but still. So I just went about my business. Well LOW and behold my cash was there, the €155 that am owed for TWO weeks. I was so happy. So I got stamps, cards AND my most important TV License stamps.
So then I headed to my sis, as she wanted me to collect a package for her. I then headed off to her place collected a slip of paper, I had parked my bike at Charlemont Rd., so that I could just simply head off quickly instead of the usual place of whereby I park it at the gate. However when I came out I got the land of my life when I thoguht my bike was stolen. Well the laugh I got outta of it. hahaha.
So then off to Lomond Office to the sorting office. The guy was most rude. He went as far as to say is she my shagging friend. Something like that. I told him its none of his business. I told him, she's my sister. But he didn't believe it, so I just headed on off.
I then headed on up to my folks. To mainly to hand the bag back to em AND to see my new glasses. I had a nice meal. When I arrived, Dad was in Pauline's doing business. So we looked at the news then of which both were sleeping or dozing. It was a bit abnormal that Dad closed his eyes. heheeh.
Then I headed on home in torrential downpour of wind & rain. I was soaked to the skin. So I showered to avoid getting a cold.
Tuesday, 8 December 2015
Diary 8th December 2015
I awake from a weird but frightening dream. I had two other frightening dreams, but I just don't recall em. The one I do recall is as follows. I'm in a room with a female friend of mine. A knock or a doorbell is heard. I go to answer. He holds me hostage. My friend comes to my aid when she threatens to shoot the guy.
So I awaken, supposedly to have done a few jobs from yesterday. So my first job was to go to Social Welfare to go and hand in my Supplemental Welfare Allowance form. So I went to Desk 29 as per my usual routine for Questions or as I call em "Information Desk". He told me to go to Desk 31, for the Community Welfare Officer. So I went over there and queued up. The security man gave me a ticket. So I waited. While waiting thou, I noted thou that time was not on my side, when I went to check the time. It was 14.52. Now I had a Dr.'s appointment made for to get back into the Psychiatric services due to my ongoing anxiety issues goings on and my return to sleeves as well.
So then afterwards, I left the social welfare, as like I said, time was not on my side, So I raced towards the doctors to get to the appointments. I first got my Inter Cert then went to the Doctor, Doctor Kelly. So he asked what can he do for me. I basically wound it down to go to back to Dr. Kilduff. So he asked that I elaborate. I told him that my income has been disrupted, etc., etc., and that I just can't deal with it well as others would. I told him of my sleeve comfort AND my banging of my head to get solace and comfort. So he suggested that I perhaps have Anxiety and OR Personality Disorder. He explained that it would be very difficult to diagnose as "I fall within the cracks".
So afterwards, I headed onwards to head towards to go to Social Welfare IN Store St., I went in and the security guy told me to go and put it in the letter box. Now last week, I did the exact same thing well more or less handed it into a guy.
Then I headed onto An Post in Drumcondra to see if my €155 was there for me to collect which is my two weeks worth of Rent Allowance. However it wasn't to be, added as well saying "You don't get money everyday".
So then I headed to my gaf to get my sleeves AND my sis' food and then headed to her place. We watched plenny of comedy of means of Mike and MOlly and King of QUeens.
So I awaken, supposedly to have done a few jobs from yesterday. So my first job was to go to Social Welfare to go and hand in my Supplemental Welfare Allowance form. So I went to Desk 29 as per my usual routine for Questions or as I call em "Information Desk". He told me to go to Desk 31, for the Community Welfare Officer. So I went over there and queued up. The security man gave me a ticket. So I waited. While waiting thou, I noted thou that time was not on my side, when I went to check the time. It was 14.52. Now I had a Dr.'s appointment made for to get back into the Psychiatric services due to my ongoing anxiety issues goings on and my return to sleeves as well.
So then afterwards, I left the social welfare, as like I said, time was not on my side, So I raced towards the doctors to get to the appointments. I first got my Inter Cert then went to the Doctor, Doctor Kelly. So he asked what can he do for me. I basically wound it down to go to back to Dr. Kilduff. So he asked that I elaborate. I told him that my income has been disrupted, etc., etc., and that I just can't deal with it well as others would. I told him of my sleeve comfort AND my banging of my head to get solace and comfort. So he suggested that I perhaps have Anxiety and OR Personality Disorder. He explained that it would be very difficult to diagnose as "I fall within the cracks".
So afterwards, I headed onwards to head towards to go to Social Welfare IN Store St., I went in and the security guy told me to go and put it in the letter box. Now last week, I did the exact same thing well more or less handed it into a guy.
Then I headed onto An Post in Drumcondra to see if my €155 was there for me to collect which is my two weeks worth of Rent Allowance. However it wasn't to be, added as well saying "You don't get money everyday".
So then I headed to my gaf to get my sleeves AND my sis' food and then headed to her place. We watched plenny of comedy of means of Mike and MOlly and King of QUeens.
Monday, 7 December 2015
Diary 7th December 2015
While looking at Sunday AM, they did a peace on ChristmasFM. The Christmas Radio whereby they only play Christmas tunes. I remember there was one Christmas, whereby I was playing the Christmas tunes, WHILE putting up my decorations in my old bedroom at home, at the same time from Christmas FM, possibly also the song Winter's Tale as well while I went down to dinner or something.
Well what a wholeheartedly emotional today turned out to be.
First off was a user on my Facebook account, got me blocked for so called profanity. ie,, So my sis or my self posted a pic of an puppy or something like that. This user posted in HER native tongue, which is a pet peave of mine, that I HATE. So after awhile, I replied to her, firstly DEFENDING my sis' honour and secondly that I hate when someone speak THEIR native tongue, expecting us to Google Translate. The fact thou she has PLENNY of English, yet she had the gaulls to speak in her tongue"!!!!, So when I confronted her, I logged back onto Facebook and I was told that my comment had been reported for Profanity or whatever and that I would be blocked for 3 Days from posting. THEN I tried Poking. Same to no avail. !!!!!.
Then it was time to start my day, just before I headed to my appointment of Employment's Support Officer Christine, I received a letter from Social Welfare stating that my rate for Illness Benefit is €84.50. Now thats a hella lot lower than my original rate. So then I continued onto the appointment. Christine asked me how's tricks. So I just had to let rip what was going on. She just didn't know what to say. She recommended that I go to Citizenship Information Center in O' Connell St., for advice etc., and to investigate about the Supplement Welfare Allowance.
So armed with this information, I then rang my sis and my Mom. Mom invited me up to there place for to settle this once and for all. Its been going on far too long. So then I got started by heading up to Mom and Dads BUT with doing my errands first.
Firstly was to go to An Post to check if their was any cash AND to get stamps. No surprise there was NO cash. So I got my stamps. Then I rushed back home, and then got and posted my cards. Then afterwards, I headed up to Mom n Dad's. Mom was going to collect my sis when I had arrived. I had told Dad, that the sleeves were getting the worse of the treatment and the towellys. To the point they ain't being worn anymore in public let alone his house. The whole time I was up there, I was being treated as if I returned back tot eh family tree. ie when I had blocked Mom n Dad previously and I'd come back, that I would be welcomed back and treated as such. So the whole day we were balancing between Decorations AND sorting my issue out as well. So Mom drove my sis and I to Social Welfare in Kings Inn St., My sis and I were for once treated to a lovely guy. He explained everything. Few questions still hanging. But still its something. So we headed back. Filled out the Supplemental Welfare Allowance form. So hopefully that'll come through. Now my sis and I calculated a few things. It was confirmed that yes indeed I will be getting €84.50 + my Rent Allowance has now been added back. I collect him at the post office and the €84 will be sent to the bank automatic. So adding €84 + €77 will get my €161. Still missing out on €101. So hopefully I'll be able to get it. So the Supplemental Welfare Allowance will balance it for me. Then afterwards, Dad and I got MY decorations down. hhaahaha. So Mom left them down to myselace. heheeheh.
Well what a wholeheartedly emotional today turned out to be.
First off was a user on my Facebook account, got me blocked for so called profanity. ie,, So my sis or my self posted a pic of an puppy or something like that. This user posted in HER native tongue, which is a pet peave of mine, that I HATE. So after awhile, I replied to her, firstly DEFENDING my sis' honour and secondly that I hate when someone speak THEIR native tongue, expecting us to Google Translate. The fact thou she has PLENNY of English, yet she had the gaulls to speak in her tongue"!!!!, So when I confronted her, I logged back onto Facebook and I was told that my comment had been reported for Profanity or whatever and that I would be blocked for 3 Days from posting. THEN I tried Poking. Same to no avail. !!!!!.
Then it was time to start my day, just before I headed to my appointment of Employment's Support Officer Christine, I received a letter from Social Welfare stating that my rate for Illness Benefit is €84.50. Now thats a hella lot lower than my original rate. So then I continued onto the appointment. Christine asked me how's tricks. So I just had to let rip what was going on. She just didn't know what to say. She recommended that I go to Citizenship Information Center in O' Connell St., for advice etc., and to investigate about the Supplement Welfare Allowance.
So armed with this information, I then rang my sis and my Mom. Mom invited me up to there place for to settle this once and for all. Its been going on far too long. So then I got started by heading up to Mom and Dads BUT with doing my errands first.
Firstly was to go to An Post to check if their was any cash AND to get stamps. No surprise there was NO cash. So I got my stamps. Then I rushed back home, and then got and posted my cards. Then afterwards, I headed up to Mom n Dad's. Mom was going to collect my sis when I had arrived. I had told Dad, that the sleeves were getting the worse of the treatment and the towellys. To the point they ain't being worn anymore in public let alone his house. The whole time I was up there, I was being treated as if I returned back tot eh family tree. ie when I had blocked Mom n Dad previously and I'd come back, that I would be welcomed back and treated as such. So the whole day we were balancing between Decorations AND sorting my issue out as well. So Mom drove my sis and I to Social Welfare in Kings Inn St., My sis and I were for once treated to a lovely guy. He explained everything. Few questions still hanging. But still its something. So we headed back. Filled out the Supplemental Welfare Allowance form. So hopefully that'll come through. Now my sis and I calculated a few things. It was confirmed that yes indeed I will be getting €84.50 + my Rent Allowance has now been added back. I collect him at the post office and the €84 will be sent to the bank automatic. So adding €84 + €77 will get my €161. Still missing out on €101. So hopefully I'll be able to get it. So the Supplemental Welfare Allowance will balance it for me. Then afterwards, Dad and I got MY decorations down. hhaahaha. So Mom left them down to myselace. heheeheh.
Tuesday, 1 December 2015
Diary 1st December 2015
Well what a day today turned out to be. hahahaah.
It all started off with when Mom banged and rang the doorbell around 10ish to ensure I get up. I ignored of course. I wasn't gonna be bothered with Social Welfare. I had enough of a headache with em. Then I got up around eventually at 1ish instead of 12ish due to leg trouble. So while showering and getting rid of the beard, My doorbell rang yet again. Again it was Mom. I told her not to be bothered with it. I'll go in MY time, and get in touch with her.
I then got ready, headed to An Post, I was distraught to learn that there were no funds for me. I got so teary, that I didn't know what to do. So I rang Mom, let her know of the update, then afterwards,
I headed to Dr., to get my certificate. While there, I peeved off with the ticketing system. The ticket machine was at 36 when I got in, and the Gadget where you collect the ticket was at 34. So it didn't make it sense when my number was NOT called. So I went up and a woman and here kid came in from the cold outside, yet HER number was called, like what gives!!!!!. So I jst queued up behjind her, to ensure I GET called. So I asked for my certificate.
I then headed onto Social Welfare in Kings Inn St., I went to Desk 29 and ask for Member of A Team. I waited for a few minutes. I submitted my certificate and he looked at it. He asked if I had sent in my Bank Details. I had hoped to continue collecting the payments in the Post Office. However it wasn't to be. He mentioned this delayed the payment in question. So he then asked that I send my certificate from now on to Social Welfare in Store St., A member of staff asked how my back was considering the complaint, I kinda know him alrite. I told him he hasn't been the best lately. We then joked about him making out that he's 25. hahaah. Whether the was taking the mikky I ain't sure. When I went to sign the signature, firstly it brought up my NAME issue YET again!!! hence why I went back to my Romanian name ie Georgian Stanescu and secondly the guy commented how fancy the pen is. I told him its Nico's 60th Anniversary Takeaway in Ireland or whatever in Irl. He told me he knew Nico Boroso or whatever. hahaah. What a small world. So he reassured me that all should be well now. I asked if I were to get my Rent Allowance. He explained when you change over to a new Benefit, that ALL payments are stopped and suspended. Then you will be reinstated, something like that.
I then headed onto Store St., Social Welfare. While I was not impressed with the people that were there, I handed my envelope to a guy, I ensured that he put it somewhere.
So I then headed up to my folks. ehehheh mainly to go and see how Dad is after his flu/cold. Had a nice meal with em,
I then headed back to my sis in my place. Where we had a meal etc., well my sis' takeaway at least, We had many a laughs. ahahaha. Here's one for ya. hahahah. Her face expression was priceless. hahaha. She was atop a table, I asked her to hold Champy +Inflatables Stanescu and she replys "Ok", as much to say she' wasn't unsure. I then pulled it with her falling in tow. It was priceless. hahaha. The laugh I got. ahahah. Her expression was that she thought she was falling on concrete or carpet in my case which could be dangerous. However she was falling on inflatables, cause that's who takes up my floor space. Awwwwwwww. Then we headed to her place stopping by Tescos to get Butter. Then moving onto hers. Again we had many a laugh there too. hahaaha. Now it was with great regret to inform yee all thou, that there was a scene at the begging of a movie K9-11 whereby a character reminded me of a vicious dream i had relating to ISIS in recently, that shook me completely. It was completely unexpected. So it was a good thing I had my Sleeves and rags etc.,with me. heehhe. So I had a good meal at em. Or as the saying "let em rip", or "let em at it". So then it was also with great sadness that my sis had a hip displacement, something like that. She's getting there. God speed, sis, God Speed sis. You're a fighter. I stayed with her longer to ensure her safety and taht she was able to get around. I told my sis during the night, that I'm PURPOSELY gonna get "fat", not obese or anything but to go in January when I go after Christmas to work my calories off etc., in Westwood. aahah.
REmembering a night my sis and I and also my Aunt(MAudy) who was llookign after us while our folks were out. I remember that we were both looking at Causlty or as used to say "Casuty". We were looking at a partiducalr episode. Where a character died or something. I inisntalnyl fell in love with him, ie GAY. hehehehe. Then also playoing a game called Duke Nukem BUT more so DOOM, and then ALSO playing a CD Music disc called Robson & JErome's Unchained Melody etc., etc.,.
Trhought out the night, as I said abotuve when I saw a particualr scene I reacted qutie badly, I told her of my quitting COffee cold turkey FORCEFULLY(As I had none left), she put it down to withdrawels and teh ISIS in the dream, being playng negativilty.
It all started off with when Mom banged and rang the doorbell around 10ish to ensure I get up. I ignored of course. I wasn't gonna be bothered with Social Welfare. I had enough of a headache with em. Then I got up around eventually at 1ish instead of 12ish due to leg trouble. So while showering and getting rid of the beard, My doorbell rang yet again. Again it was Mom. I told her not to be bothered with it. I'll go in MY time, and get in touch with her.
I then got ready, headed to An Post, I was distraught to learn that there were no funds for me. I got so teary, that I didn't know what to do. So I rang Mom, let her know of the update, then afterwards,
I headed to Dr., to get my certificate. While there, I peeved off with the ticketing system. The ticket machine was at 36 when I got in, and the Gadget where you collect the ticket was at 34. So it didn't make it sense when my number was NOT called. So I went up and a woman and here kid came in from the cold outside, yet HER number was called, like what gives!!!!!. So I jst queued up behjind her, to ensure I GET called. So I asked for my certificate.
I then headed onto Social Welfare in Kings Inn St., I went to Desk 29 and ask for Member of A Team. I waited for a few minutes. I submitted my certificate and he looked at it. He asked if I had sent in my Bank Details. I had hoped to continue collecting the payments in the Post Office. However it wasn't to be. He mentioned this delayed the payment in question. So he then asked that I send my certificate from now on to Social Welfare in Store St., A member of staff asked how my back was considering the complaint, I kinda know him alrite. I told him he hasn't been the best lately. We then joked about him making out that he's 25. hahaah. Whether the was taking the mikky I ain't sure. When I went to sign the signature, firstly it brought up my NAME issue YET again!!! hence why I went back to my Romanian name ie Georgian Stanescu and secondly the guy commented how fancy the pen is. I told him its Nico's 60th Anniversary Takeaway in Ireland or whatever in Irl. He told me he knew Nico Boroso or whatever. hahaah. What a small world. So he reassured me that all should be well now. I asked if I were to get my Rent Allowance. He explained when you change over to a new Benefit, that ALL payments are stopped and suspended. Then you will be reinstated, something like that.
I then headed onto Store St., Social Welfare. While I was not impressed with the people that were there, I handed my envelope to a guy, I ensured that he put it somewhere.
So I then headed up to my folks. ehehheh mainly to go and see how Dad is after his flu/cold. Had a nice meal with em,
I then headed back to my sis in my place. Where we had a meal etc., well my sis' takeaway at least, We had many a laughs. ahahaha. Here's one for ya. hahahah. Her face expression was priceless. hahaha. She was atop a table, I asked her to hold Champy +Inflatables Stanescu and she replys "Ok", as much to say she' wasn't unsure. I then pulled it with her falling in tow. It was priceless. hahaha. The laugh I got. ahahah. Her expression was that she thought she was falling on concrete or carpet in my case which could be dangerous. However she was falling on inflatables, cause that's who takes up my floor space. Awwwwwwww. Then we headed to her place stopping by Tescos to get Butter. Then moving onto hers. Again we had many a laugh there too. hahaaha. Now it was with great regret to inform yee all thou, that there was a scene at the begging of a movie K9-11 whereby a character reminded me of a vicious dream i had relating to ISIS in recently, that shook me completely. It was completely unexpected. So it was a good thing I had my Sleeves and rags etc.,with me. heehhe. So I had a good meal at em. Or as the saying "let em rip", or "let em at it". So then it was also with great sadness that my sis had a hip displacement, something like that. She's getting there. God speed, sis, God Speed sis. You're a fighter. I stayed with her longer to ensure her safety and taht she was able to get around. I told my sis during the night, that I'm PURPOSELY gonna get "fat", not obese or anything but to go in January when I go after Christmas to work my calories off etc., in Westwood. aahah.
REmembering a night my sis and I and also my Aunt(MAudy) who was llookign after us while our folks were out. I remember that we were both looking at Causlty or as used to say "Casuty". We were looking at a partiducalr episode. Where a character died or something. I inisntalnyl fell in love with him, ie GAY. hehehehe. Then also playoing a game called Duke Nukem BUT more so DOOM, and then ALSO playing a CD Music disc called Robson & JErome's Unchained Melody etc., etc.,.
Trhought out the night, as I said abotuve when I saw a particualr scene I reacted qutie badly, I told her of my quitting COffee cold turkey FORCEFULLY(As I had none left), she put it down to withdrawels and teh ISIS in the dream, being playng negativilty.
Saturday, 28 November 2015
Diary 28th November 2015
Today was a quiet day. I was due to go and see Good Dinosaur. HOwever it wasn't to be as I had gone to bed late. heheeh I had every intention thou to get up for 10ish or the wee hours of the morning. HOwever as I was charging my sex phone, it had been turned off, so I was charging Paddy(iPad), Lumy, Sammy 2. So as such I woke up at 6am the next day. hahaah. So I took a leak, and then I went to clear up a bit of space on my box. ehehehe. Then I headed back to bed. awwww. I had my sleeves, and my blankies to keep me company. Then I reaslied thou now, that if my folks are helping me or lending a hand on my finance, that I'll actually be a looser financially I mean. By that as reported in the Budget 2016, those on Social Welfare will be getting 75% of the Christmas Bonus ATOP their Social Welfare benefit. So what this means is that those on the basic rate like Disability, Job Seekers etc., will get 141 atop their payment. But with me, I won't. I'm storming heaven with tears that I will be able to get the Christmas Bonus. Like PRessies, Cards, Stamps have to be bought you know, and not only that my OWN pocket Money. While obviously Bills are highly important, so is the life etc., just as important. Like my Food intake is also affected too.
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