Sunday, 3 January 2016
Saturday, 2 January 2016
Diary 2nd January 2016
Well after a nightmare of 24 hrs give or take of thoughts, or dreams, was always something, I awoken to my next door neighbour, cleaning up. Says I to meself, is he just cleaning up to PREVENT floods or actually has a flood occurred. So I got out of my comfort naked self to "feel" or touch the carpet to ensure NO water was there. heehhe. Thankfully it wasn't.
I was due to getup around midnight to do some recordings, then failing that was to get up for 1ish, however that didn't materialise. I then was to get up for around 5ish to hand in my Medical Certificate for payment on Monday(NOT that'll happen now) hahahah. But just try it. However that didn't work out eitherway. So I met up with Barry for to see Star Wars. While waiting for Barry, I got my sis TWO new Polos as she calls him, replacing the hole that I got for her Christmas pressie. hehehe. Then we met up afterwards again for a drinkie. heheheh. I then told him of the recent goings on. He suggested that the back of the brain theirs a part of the brain called Immediol, something like that whereby if that part is missing, that the person would have NO fear hence the recent outbursts. Even to this day, Martin Mulligan who was beside Dad and myself n sis, can't for the life think why would he says such. Like just cause a person likes slasher films, don't mean she should join ISIS. I saw a face that I would never wanna see again. I'm referring to Martin btw. So after all that UNPLEASANTNESS, Barry then asks how are all the "Furry Babys", well the bubbliness that I got out of that. Considering, Ducky and Baby AIN'T puppys whatsoever, so I'm gonna start renaming my accounts to Furry Babys Stanescu. Awww the thought of it. heeheh, so adorable. So while Barry and I were drinking, Eoin came round to us. At first I didn't even recogniser him, perhaps without his shorts, heheeh then again there was another guy wearing shorts too. So I don't know. heheheeh.
I was due to getup around midnight to do some recordings, then failing that was to get up for 1ish, however that didn't materialise. I then was to get up for around 5ish to hand in my Medical Certificate for payment on Monday(NOT that'll happen now) hahahah. But just try it. However that didn't work out eitherway. So I met up with Barry for to see Star Wars. While waiting for Barry, I got my sis TWO new Polos as she calls him, replacing the hole that I got for her Christmas pressie. hehehe. Then we met up afterwards again for a drinkie. heheheh. I then told him of the recent goings on. He suggested that the back of the brain theirs a part of the brain called Immediol, something like that whereby if that part is missing, that the person would have NO fear hence the recent outbursts. Even to this day, Martin Mulligan who was beside Dad and myself n sis, can't for the life think why would he says such. Like just cause a person likes slasher films, don't mean she should join ISIS. I saw a face that I would never wanna see again. I'm referring to Martin btw. So after all that UNPLEASANTNESS, Barry then asks how are all the "Furry Babys", well the bubbliness that I got out of that. Considering, Ducky and Baby AIN'T puppys whatsoever, so I'm gonna start renaming my accounts to Furry Babys Stanescu. Awww the thought of it. heeheh, so adorable. So while Barry and I were drinking, Eoin came round to us. At first I didn't even recogniser him, perhaps without his shorts, heheeh then again there was another guy wearing shorts too. So I don't know. heheheeh.
Friday, 1 January 2016
Diary 1st January 2016 - New Years Day
PS THIS POST CONTAINS GRAPHIC CONTENT
Well today was not bad a day. After last night's celebrations, of which my main aim was to try and forget what my pops said to my sis n I back on Stephen's Day. So afterwards, I got up after MORE lack of sleep for a dinner with Mom, Dad, Maureen and my sis. The Mulligans were up their when we arrived. heheeh. They were heading on up to Eileens for a meal or something. hehehhe.
So then after the meal, we all dispersed. I headed for my 24hr sleep. Which is quite true when you think about it. hahaha.
One of the dreams that I had was that I'm with a friend in a classroom or some building. The friend is shot several times in front of my eyes. I then am questioned by the cops as to what exactly happened. One of the questionings, I'm at a tourism item my Mom on some boat or about to hope on one that shows us Flowers on the tour. While writing one of the explanations on paper, for the cops, I break down, with my paper in front of my face hiding my emotions. So it is with great regret that Mom n I have to let the tourism boat to someone else.
Then thoughts arrived of which one was to go and ask my sis for advise on Sleepers as she calls em, then another horrific one is as follows:
Well today was not bad a day. After last night's celebrations, of which my main aim was to try and forget what my pops said to my sis n I back on Stephen's Day. So afterwards, I got up after MORE lack of sleep for a dinner with Mom, Dad, Maureen and my sis. The Mulligans were up their when we arrived. heheeh. They were heading on up to Eileens for a meal or something. hehehhe.
So then after the meal, we all dispersed. I headed for my 24hr sleep. Which is quite true when you think about it. hahaha.
One of the dreams that I had was that I'm with a friend in a classroom or some building. The friend is shot several times in front of my eyes. I then am questioned by the cops as to what exactly happened. One of the questionings, I'm at a tourism item my Mom on some boat or about to hope on one that shows us Flowers on the tour. While writing one of the explanations on paper, for the cops, I break down, with my paper in front of my face hiding my emotions. So it is with great regret that Mom n I have to let the tourism boat to someone else.
Then thoughts arrived of which one was to go and ask my sis for advise on Sleepers as she calls em, then another horrific one is as follows:
A severe thought enters my
brain when I recall my drink being spiked or at least being worried about it.
Then afterwards I then wakeup with a gun
to my head when I wanna escape. 2 girls r raping me. One sticks a thread down
the slit of my penis while the other is sucking it. Then I attempt to escape but the gun is
still on my forehead. So somehow I escape naked. Wanting someone to run me over
doesn't work so I attempt to jump off Luke Kelly bridge. However realising no
ones around I walk into the Mater naked and scream that I was raped by two lesbians. So in the meantime I puncture
something in my arm and have at it by means of scissoring the skin.
I have noticed thou that I have been failing to sleep immediately the way I used to. I had buckets of blankeies on me, not even that did the job. So I put Kathleen and my Sammy atop me. OH it made me feel loved again. heheeheh
Another thought that I had is that for 2016, I just need to know truthfully why I was given up. SO for the "truthful" as much as possible. The minute Maureen gives me the number. I will ring the person who was in charge of the foster process. I understood she was in contact with Marina. heehhe. So my next Puppys or whatever I'll be getting will be called Marina. ie my Birth Mom's name.
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